#A Raw Heart *fic*

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

• your kiss it could put creases in the rain •

#listen #i don’t even know how to explain the hold that sias era alex has on my heart #he’s so indescribably pretty #and there’s still a little bit of that moodiness left over from humbug #but also this undertone of rawness and vulnerability?? #it’s just such a captivating and heart wrenching mix 🥺 #(also for any four walls readers - this is exactly how i picture alex in that fic 💗) #alex turner #alex gifs #sias era #four walls #lulu posts #my gifs

[h-doodles]

Connection // Consumption // Possession is my way of Love & you are mine as i am yours, various - a web weave for it's quicker & easier (to eat your young) by @pinkcannibal 💖

#IM SO INSANE ABT THIS FIC IM SCREAMING I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU #anyways hehe #web weaving #marilyn thornhill #marilyn thornhill x reader #christina ricci #lee makes stuff #simp.txt #clown.txt #to me i am hers the same way she is mine and we are two halves ripped apart and 2 puzzle pieces who's been lost in the dark #and we are connected in the same way the greek gods have created soul mates and connected in the same way the fates have woven their thread #and we are one in the same one in the same one in the SAME!!!!!!!! #bound by blood and by love and by our sheer force will and i want nothing more but to sink my teeth in to her neck just as she does mine #and claw my way into her chest and fall asleep next to her heart raw and bruised and bloodied #i am. being SO normal abt it. #eat your young

[puppypeter]

just watched a bunch of Cut's Truth or Drink videos and it's making me want to read a ted lasso fic where they do it as a team building exercise (being open and honest and vulnerable all that)

#like a very heart-achey fic though #like in the videos questions can range from sex to very deep shit like have you thought about death etc #i want questions that make them have to be raw #like someone asking Jamie why he reconnected with his dad and went to visit him if he's a piece of shit #or asking Nate why he did what he did or what he experienced at WH with Rupert as a boss #why is Roy just always so fucking angry and why is Ted always acting so fucking positive #(same for Dani tbh) #ted lasso #ted lasso prompt #ted lasso fic #ted lasso ao3 #roy kent #jamie tartt #colin hughes #nathan shelley #dani rojas

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

sorry if this is out of the blue but i just wanna say pez dispenser debris has izuku down to a T. not even joking when i say its literally one of, if not the, best fanfic i'veread hands down and the characterization is so so so spot on. it needs to be studied in english classes or something.

(same goes for ur other fics tbh. How Do You Do That)

im mentally ill is how

ahhhhhh pez dispenser debris my beloved. Thank you sooo much for your kind words. I currently have a terrible case of writers block with all my fics, and it can be kinda demoralizing. These messages are really nice to get when the words just won’t. Work. You really made my day! Thank you!

#pez dispenser debris #this fic is so near and dear to my heart #it’s lived in my head for so long and it’s just so fun and zany #and the emotions in it just feel so raw and vulnerable to me #the izukus in it are hurting so bad and don’t know how to even ask for help let alone get it #beating my head against terrible writing block #hoping I’ll have something to post soon but who knows

[kocch]

me whenever I put all my effort into that One fic and leave That comment and the author responds selectively to that one comment: omg I've been noticed by senpai - am I, am I better than everyone??

#is it because ive written fics since the late 2007 and i know what an author likes? maybe. but it feels especially good to leave a good #comment to a great fic hoping that the author will get how much you liked it and how much it made you feel things and sometimes the author #replies and its absolutely the best feeling. but even if they dont reply they still read all of thos comments and one should try to at leas #leave some message there.. sure not every fic will make me wax poetry about it but even just a short comment can be a nice sign #this me rambling about olliecoddle my recent fave byler author btw they write things that make me Feel i really enjoy their fics!!!! #ahhh #personal #one day -soon- im gonna reread in undertow by olliecoddle and draw some fanart for it bc it made me Feel. my heart was raw. #yes this is a crazy rambling kfkrkdj

[chai-and-cherries]

hey to all my poor souls who still care about death note (don’t at me) specifically a canon-centric telling of matt and mello’s involvement, fucking SPRINT not walk to etorphine’s Crush on ao3. been sobbing like a baby for the past hour. literally one of the most well written fics, utter perfection of characterization, emotions springing up that i don’t want to feel. so like. crushed!!

#heed content warning on drugs and relapsing and very graig uc depictions of violence #so you know #just like the show #lmao #crush etorphine #post not sponsored my heart just is fucking ripped raw #matt/mello #death note #death note fic #mello death note #matt death note

[aphel1on]

there has got to be a limit to how many times i can cry over one character

#finished the interlude quest ;v; #he has a straight line to a raw corner of my heart like no other #genshin impact #scaramouche #aphelion.txt #i have many many thoughts on the quest but they are mostly swirling around my mind in an incomprehensible cloud rn #i named him 'zushi' btw #its a nickname for kunikuzushi lol #i was never super attached to 'kuni' as a name #mainly cuz ive been studying japanese for years and all i can hear is its literal meaning ('Country') lol #anw zushi is cute to me and can be an actual name in japanese as well #tho its usually a surname #plus im already writing a fic where he is called that nickname by several people so i got used to it lol... #seeing all the effort some ppl put into giving him a completely original name makes me feel kinda bad but #i dont think i could ever get fully used to it personally #ANYWAYYYY #genshin impact spoilers

[lu-sn]

6 and 26 💖

6. Favorite title you used?

noooo don't make me CHOOSE

ok mvp is a close second because ofc pete is the realest mvp but also it SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TAG NAME FOR VEGASPETEMACAU GUYS!!! IT WAS PERFECT!!!!! HOW DID WE LEAVE THAT ON THE TABLE. we always have time to change our ways just saying

but first place goes to prickly hearts, my baby, because vegas has the prickliest heart of all and pete loves him just as well for it ❤️ but also hedgehogs. hedgehogs! may i be blessed with the ability to think of a title as good and fitting and cute as this ever again, lmfao

26. What’s your most common category?

i tricked myself for a hot second into thinking that maybe it could have been gen, because a lot of my fic ends up having gen vibes (i just love sibling feels and friend feels okay!!!! sue me!), and then i went and checked and of course it is M/M 😂 to nobody's surprise vegaspete has consumed me

#i was telling a friend this but i pull most of my titles out of thin air ten seconds before i post #and so they're just words with vague vibes #respect for people who handpick the most raw lines from lyrics and prose however i am out here being a clown #but when a good title hits me while writing i do keep it! it just doesn't happen that often #i think the ones i actually had beforehand were #prickly hearts #to sleep to dream #and baby got bounce #anyways if you struggle with titling your fics it's ok i am starting to get the feeling that it does not matter too much #thank you milktea for the ask ❤️ #mine: asks #ao3 wrapped

[inked-out-trees]

69, 44, and 25 for the writers ask

I need to get back to writing too, but in good news I'm getting a feel of character for one of them. Now if I only had a plot

we're doing it! getting back into writing together! thank you for the reverse directional asks i will do them exactly how you have asked

69. how do you write emotional scenes? do you ever feel what the characters feel?

if i'm coming into it Knowing that i want to write an emotional scene, usually there's music involved! i have a collection of sad and otherwise melancholy playlists (plus one that's just songs i think would fit well in those angsty last 3 minutes of a tv show episode before the cliffhanger) and they tend to serve me well; if all else fails i'll find the most recent mood-fitting song i've been repeating lately and loop it forever. (most recently has been doctor eleven by dan romer. was the only thing i listened to for my crw class submission and personally i think it turned out swell.)

as for feeling the characters, i don't think so? a lot of the time what i feel when i'm writing is just joy from writing, vague evil sentiment, or if it's Really A Lot To Handle, there'll be like, an ache. occasionally i do make myself cry but that's mostly for personal or original things, and less for fanfic. unless it's the annie chapter of bean's beans. but typically i am somewhat detached, which is actually kind of impressive considering my propensity for imprinting on literally everything. huh! i learn something new about myself every day.

44. any writing advice you want to share?

man i never know if there's any sort of sagely things i do that could be passed off as wisdom but. the best piece of advice i've read (on tumblr too i think) was that if you're stuck, it's possible that the problem is actually a couple lines back. usually i look between three paragraphs and half a page up to see what different choices i could make, and that tends to solve my problem more often than not. kind of magic, that.

in other sort of throwaway bits, i always start a fic creation process by opening a doc and just rambling onto it. no proper prose, just as though i'm having a conversation with the empty page. it's helpful both to get my ideas in order and to have a place to come back to if need be - it's easier to toss the ball around if the net's already there, yknow? also, if for some reason microsoft word isn't doing it for me, i find fighter's block to be good for dumping out words, and zenpen has carried me through several terms of creative writing assignments and also poetry so take that as you will.

25. what's your revision or rewriting process like?

would you laugh at me if i said i don't edit my fics. this is not necessarily true in that i don't consider what i post to be rough in any way, but when it comes to fic especially i'm a big first-one-done kind of guy. that being said: i reread my work a lot. a lot a lot. and often times i will pick up little things that need fixing, line edits or weird repetitive things, so i do find it helpful. also the read-aloud function on word has been great to me. and i make frequent use of the comment function in word, which has been exceedingly useful when it comes to the fact that i haven't yet figured out the whole timeline of fixed point so some of the dates are just "FIGURE THIS OUT LATER" and "IS THIS TRUE?".

and of course sharing with other people :) coming from creative writing seminars i've realised (? finally understood? i don't actually know how much of an enlightenment it was but it was something) how useful it is to get someone and just say, hey, tell me how you interpret this, are there any questions you still have, god forbid did i leave any gaping plot holes. this comes in especially handy because in MY brain i know all the answers, and sometimes they forget to worm out onto the page. this again has just happened in my current seminar, so rest in peace to the quest plot i tentatively thought i could maybe go without describing (for wordcount's sake) but apparently not. it is cool and fine.

anyway happy tuesday and also thank you!

#as of the moment of posting it is still monday but it's tuesday in my heart #fic ask game #love ya! thanks for being a cool writing buddy #i wrote one of my favourite emotional scenes for the ttau a while ago #and i'm finally getting close to the part where it's actually meant to slot in #obsessed with grief tinged violence. raw edges and hope. #belooooved

[hua-fei-hua]

i love you tragedies, i love you horrible things happening to good people, i love you character flaws, i love you unreliable narrators, i love you terrible consequences, i love you guilty consciousnesses, i love you catharsis, i love you inevitability

#i don't usually have the heart to put characters through tragic consequences of their own actions when writing fic #bc at the end of the day i'm more driven by hope and the belief of a better future/'it gets better' #and i suppose fic--both the stuff i read and write--can be a bit saccharine in that way #but there is a very obvious part of me that's obsessed w/mistakes and uncertainty and guilt and consequences #Bb-- for all of its half-written glory-- is my best and perhaps only example of me doing that in my own writing #and i think if i don't let myself indulge in those sorts of things my writing will end up neutered for it #i've started consciously telling myself to not cut the balls off my own writing just bc it scares me; let my art be authentic #and the snippets i've left raw bc of that (for as unpublished as they are yet) are still my favorite; for they feed this primal thing in me #i feel it in my gut my heart my throat when i reread in the way a 2d square might feel themselves becoming a cube #'upwards but not northwards' as it was put in flatland. #花話

[theghostofashton]

it’s just me and the fics i read to kick my inspiration back into gear against the world huh

#there's this one faberry fic. #and i love it w all my heart but mostly i love how it makes me Feel #and it's one of those situations where i don't necessarily want to write something exactly like it premise wise #i just want to make people feel like this #it's so gritty and raw and god the way it incorporates music. just. yeah #there's a vibe it encapsulates perfectly that i aspire to capture in my own writing and rereading it always makes that so clear #neha rambles

[ofallthingsnasty]

My heart is full with fluff and accidental courting and misunderstandings and slow burns and longing and yearning and a/b/o and more misunderstandings and subtle claims and not so subtle claims and-

#nasty.talks #i just- #my heart it's so raw rn #read a god tier fic just now #i need a moment my god

[sunshowerr]

oh nooooo which fic did it?

Get your tissues out we crying tonight 😭😭

#Ask #catradora #Fic recommendations #I'm still sobbing as we speak #I just love the portrayal of Catra here although it's less focused on catradora's relationship their raw dynamic is done perfectly #It warms your heart

[drunkwalkhme]

had a very stressful couple of days so not only did i write a 9k word fanfic but i spent every spare minute i had reading tlt fanfic

#reading CORONABETH fanfic of course its always her for me #although my own fic was about harrowhark learning how to play cards for and beating god in her first attempt #but i never post my stuff so it will just be held in my heart and mind forever i guess #and now i can rest until wednesday irrevocably comes to eat my liver raw #tlt

[taexoxosgf]

LEE MARK FIC REC LIST

s, smut | f, fluff | a, angst | suggestive is noted

give all these authors so much love please!!!! i had to include as much as possible!! supa long fic rec list ;) recommendation masterlist here

this is (not) easy *personal fav [ friends with benefits!mark x fem! reader ] s,f,a

sweet cream, cold brew [ nerd barista!mark x fem!reader ] s,f

raw. [ established relationship ] s

delphinium , part two [ virgin religious!mark x pagan reader ] s,f

the marriage and baby project [ fake dating au, roommate au ] s,f,a

sunday kind of love [ frat!mark x inexperienced/soft fem!reader ] s,f

flipside [ street racing au, strangers to lovers au ]

cherry flavored thoughts [ perv nerd!mark x popular fem!reader ] s

gorgeous [ college/football au ] s,f

follow through. [ bestfriends to lovers ft. haechan ] s

eyes on you. [ roommate's brother!mark x fem!reader ] s

watch me [ barista!mark x fem!reader, voyeurism ] s

pretty boy [ shy!mark x openminded/playful fem!reader ] s

surviving no nut november [ mark x fem! reader ft. haechan ] s

safety zone [ university au, best friends to lovers, roommates au ] f,a, suggestive

spider boy; 이민형 [ spiderman!mark x fem!reader, established relationship ] f, suggestive

closed doors. [brother's friend!mark x fem!reader, roommate au ] s

jealousy [ almost step-siblings au ] s,a

deal with it [ established relationship, argument au ] s

real talk [ line chef!mark x fuckgirl!reader ] s,f

on edge [ boyfriend's brother!mark x fem!reader, infedelity au ] s

play with me [ bestfriend!mark x fem! reader, car sex ] s,f

give me the greenlight [ street racing au, childhood friends to lovers ] s,f,a

nervously in love [ established relationship ] s,f

across the room *self promo hehe [ idol!mark x idol fem!reader ] s

roomie high [ stoner roommate!mark x fem!reader ] s

suck my kiss [mark x bandmate fem!reader ] s,f

may i be blunt? [stoner!mark x fem!reader ] s

the best man. [ stranger!mark x fem!reader, wedding au ] s

elevator pitch [ frat boy!mark x fem!reader ] f,a

craving you like the devil craves heaven [ priest!mark x succubus!reader ] s

kiss u right now [ best friend!mark x fem!reader ] s,f

this is new [ loss of virginity au ] s,f

rule breaker [ rockstar au, band au ] s

limit. [ gryffindor!mark x fem!reader ] s

mixtape moans. [ shy!mark x cheerleader!reader ] s

make me sin [ churchboy!mark x fem!reader, childhood friends au ] s,f,a

mark me in your heart [ drug dealer!mark x bartender!reader ] s,a

monetary value. [ rich kid!mark x rich kid!reader ] s,f,a

#nct 127 #nct u #nct dream #nct #nct smut #nct hard thoughts #nct x reader #nct x y/n #nct x you #lee mark #mark lee #nct mark #nct mark lee #mark lee smut #mark smut #mark lee x reader #mark lee x you #mark lee x y/n #mark lee fluff #mark lee fanfic #nct fluff #nct fanfic #nct ff #nct fic #nct fic recs #nct female oc #nct mark x reader #nct mark smut #nct mark fluff #lee minhyung

[peachesofteal]

Through Me (The Flood) - secret baby fic Simon Riley / female reader

You have no idea Simon’s rented a flat the next block over.

It’s the quickest walk, from your place to his, and he makes it frequently, especially at night.

You don’t know he stands in the shadow of a tree, waiting for your lights to flick on and off. On, and off, all night long.

Orion keeps you up, he knows without a doubt now. The tired eyes and tired smile you gave him the other day when he fixed the washer filled him with shame, miserable and scalding, a burn searing across his heart.

He gave you a baby, and then disappeared.

He estimates you get up every three hours. The dim, muted light from your bedroom window flickers alive, and then the living room follows shortly after.

If he was there, things would be different. He’d get up with Ry, get him tucked into bed beside you, snuggled up to your breast. He’d rub the apple of your cheek to gently wake you, just enough so you’d know what’s going on, but not enough to truly open your eyes. You would trust him, trust him to take care of you, and the baby, trust that he’s there. You’d be half asleep as he pulled your tank top down and helped Orion latch, half asleep when Simon turned you in the bed so the baby could switch, Simon’s chest warm at your back, his hand holding Orion steady. He’d stay awake and vigilant until he was done eating, burped, changed, and settled back into his crib. He’d kiss you afterwards, long and sweet, and then press his nose to your hair and breathe deeply, before waking up to do it all over again in three hours.

It’s all a fantasy, a secret dream he’s built and tucked away in his mind-

but it will all be real. Soon.

He starts with a dinner.

It’s around six when he strolls up to your front door. He’s got two orders of takeaway fish and chips, a favorite of yours (he remembers) and a strawberry mango smoothie (he’s not sure if you like these or not, if he’s being honest, but he knows nutrition is important right now. The internet says you’re burning a lot of calories, but you also need more sustenance and nutrient rich foods.)

You’re surprised to see him, when you open the door, too big sweatshirt rolled up at the sleeves, ratty shorts raw hemmed between your legs. He enjoys the way your thighs touch, how they press together, and remembers them as warm and soft. He’s (not so secretly, based on your first night together) pleased by your body. Soft and sweet and curved, but strong too, strong enough you made him a baby, to be a home to his son. And to him.

His favorite little kitten.

Your eyebrows crease together achingly slow as you take him in, and the spot the takeaway bag. You point to it, small smile twisting your lips. “You brought me food?”

“Need ta make sure you’re eatin’ enough.” He grunts, and then steps closer, crosses the threshold, herding you inside with a hand on your hip. He does a preliminary sweep of the flat, and then sets the bag and smoothie on your kitchen counter. “Baby asleep?”

“Just went down.” You sigh, leaning backward against the cool tile. “Was really fightin’ it today. I’m hoping he’ll sleep for more than the usual two, three hours he’s been getting.” Your head tips back into the cabinet, exposing the vulnerable marrow of your throat, and you roll, glancing at the plastic cup filled with cold pink slime. “And a smoothie?” He chuckles.

“Wasn’t sure ah, if you liked ‘em or not but… it looked good.” You glance at your feet, sweet smile shyly peeking at him.

“Thank you.” You whisper. Your voice is thick, trembling on the last vowel, and his stomach pitches. “It’s… really nice of you, Simon. To bring me food. I…” you glance up, eyes full of tears, and he’s drawn towards you like a magnet. “It was really hard today.” Your voice cracks.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay.” He tugs you into his chest, palm stroking slowly over the back of your head. “I know it is, mama. I know. It’s okay.”

“It’s not.” You sniffle against him. “It’s s-so hard, and I’m like… I’m not even a human- I’m j-just like a milk machine and I can’t sleep and can’t leave this flat. I feel like I’m failing, like I’m doing everything wrong and I’m leaking and I-“

“Okay, shhhh. It’s okay.” His arms tighten around you, nose skimming along the top of your head. “I’ve got you, c’mere.” He cradles your cheeks, tilting you upwards to look at him. “You’re not failing, you’re doing a great job. Orion is safe, and happy, and healthy. You’re healthy, and safe,” he wipes the tear rolling down your cheek. “and we’ll work on the happy part.” He takes a deep breath. “‘m gonna take some leave, be around for a bit. I’ll be here, to help.”

“You don’t have-“

“I want to be here sweetheart. I wish I had been here all along.” He’s earnest in his plea and hopes you can see, all the things he wants to give you, all the things he’ll do. The space in his heart he’s carved away for you, for Ry. The aching sore spot under his ribs that stings when he’s away from you. “Alright? I’ll be right here.” He pulls your hand into his, and then up to his face, dotting his lips across your palm, promise whispered away into your skin. “I’m right here, mama. I’m going to take care of you, of both of you, okay?” You close your eyes, take a deep breath.

“Okay.”

#through me (the flood) #peaches writes #simon riley #simon riley x reader #ghost x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader