#*leaves stage left*

[rainedroptalks]

What is it with fantasy high and girls dying before their lives ever began. How we can never really know who they are, or who they could’ve been. Brennan Lee Mulligan I will find you

#ramblings #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #lucy frostblade #yea yea this is obviously about Lucy. but also.. #um #penelope everpetal #(collective booing from the crowd) #(I am dragged off the stage) #jokes aside tho #they both have that quality of haunting a narrative (Penelope specifically in the seven and Lucy in fhjy) #they’re gone. their stories are over. and yet #they have a hold over the ones they left behind #we will never truly know Lucy past anecdotes and old stories #penelope was an array of false faces and honestly? we’ll never know her either. all we’ve got is that old picture of her and Sam #and obviously Lucy was kinder. she definitely didn’t deserve what happened to her #while you could argue Penelope got what was coming for her #but the fact remains #Lucy Frostblade and Penelope Everpetal we’re both teenage girls who we can only catch glimpses of. forever #in some ways #they’re the same. dead girls who never fully leave. their ghosts still visible in the corner of your eyes #anyway rant over I’m just obsessed with d20 girls and I can draw parallels from anywhere #I might make a more… comprehensive post about this one day who knows

[vitrificvitriol]

You can't just leave food lying around, Dead End. Someone else is gonna come in and eat it when you're away

#im gonna kms i posted to the wrong blog DOSFUFGFDHG my b ogs #based off of a discord convo that ill just leave here #[wakes up in a cold sweat] I need to put Percy in a “snap my choker” shirt now [goes back to sleep] #He’s blind and cannot see the text on the shirt the choker is like. Idk presented as just something DE made for him and he’s like #why not. thank you for the gift #>enter Astrotrain stage left #and then dead end comes back and is like That was MY job. I was supposed to come back and do that. What the fuck dude #valveplug #transformers #tf astrotrain #tf dead end #tf perceptor #astrodeadceptor #MIDDAY POST GO

[todayimfour]

*taps microphone*

Does anyone want to read that start to a found-family fic staring The Daycare Attendant that I wrote two years ago before we gained Sun and Moon fictives?

It's a halfway decent first chunk and I have permission from them to continue writing it if I wanna

#*leaves stage left* #fnaf daycare attendant #daycare attendent #fnaf sun and moon #fnaf sundrop #sundrop fnaf #fnaf moondrop #moondrop fnaf #sundrop security breach #moondrop security breach #fnaf fanfic #daycare attendant #fnaf dca

[pixlokita]

Foxys active on night one?????

YES THE FUCKER IS ACTIVE I THOUGHT HE WASNT BUT HERE WE ARE

#fnaf #pix answers #him and golden Freddy kept ganging up on me 😭 before 4 am !!!!!! #and then BONNIE left his stage too. #they suck #I love them but they SUCK #and that’s why I watch let’s plays #you think I’d stay in that office if I was working there 😭 #nahhhhhh I get up and leave and go to Dennis #fuck that #sorry for the swearing I am traumatized

[valeffelees]

only bad thing about being in a fandom where one of the characters canonically has wings is the painful lack of classic wingfic. where is my everything's the same but people have bird wings watford au where one day baz notices simon hasn't been grooming his wings bc of an injury to his ribs so he sits on his bed and makes a whole fuss about how "i'm not doing this to be nice, snow, your wings are just a travesty to look at" and then proceeds to carefully and lovingly tidy his feathers in drawn out silence while they both pretend grooming someone else's wings isn't one of the most intimate things you can do for another person. will this heartbreak never end

#i have an old wingfic that never left the zero draft stage and it was suuuper fucking plotty #simon was still the chosen one in it but not in a weird sex magic kinda way like he was just home grown like that so no humdrum #so lucy is alive and he grew up with her and the mage (and they have a dog!) (simon named her ''little simon'' lmfao) #meanwhile baz isn't a vampire but natasha still died when he was five bc ok i don't know how to explain the lore behind this #bc it has to do with a skeevy blackmarket trade involving human wings like it was kinda dark ngl #but the long and short of it is that baz and tasha are kidnapped and tasha is killed keeping baz safe but baz's wings are damaged #pretty severely and so one of them never grows to full size and it leaves him flightless #n e way simon and baz don't get on bc the mage is still the mage and the old families are still the old families #but they are roommates as usual #and half-term their eighth year pitch manor is raided by blackmarket poachers and mordelia is kidnapped and the whole grimm family is #in shambles so baz goes right to simon about it and there's this reverse of the simon-showing-up-at-baz's-door scene #where baz shows up at simon's door a complete WRECK to ask for help getting his sister back #and simon is like. why are you asking ME for help? #and baz is like. bc you're the only one i know who can #and then they fucking steal one of the mage's cars and hit the road [so good right now by fall out boy starts playing] #and then it's just kind of a normal mission fic about them finding mordelia and saving her life and baz falls out a very high window #and simon catches him etc. #i love wingfics so much #sighs wistfully #i think i need to be alone w my gdocu for while #valen and the void

[skypiea]

sometimes I really do feel like I’m getting too old for tumblr. Which is strange bc I’m only almost 24. And most of the kinds of posts that make me feel like that are made by people my age or older

#kite.txt #I think maturing past the discourse-brained stage of ur life immediately makes u feel alienated on tumblr #bc 80% of tumblr users just want to get in pointless fights abt what other ppl do in their own spaces #this isn’t me saying I’m gonna leave LOL. I’m just gonna keep making controversial posts until I’ve driven away ppl who would be mad at me #and I’m just left with a little circle of weirdos (affectionate)

[steviescrystals]

i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn) #so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

[a-hearts-a-heavy-burden]

#ghost band #tired of the dr∆m∆ #the ghouls aren't real #its called acting #there are real people behind the mask #but when on stage they are in character #let them live #give them privacy #they deserve to be left alone #rituals are a privilege #not a right #you do not know them personally #they are not your friends #stop behaving like children #the band ghost #the only tea here #is truth #choke on me #i do not care #leave your madeup schoolyard gossip in your head #stop harassing the band #grow up

[zannolin]

you ever get an idea that is sooooo. arghhhhh bites into a roof tile and cries.

#zanna talks #i cant like word it good yet #but i think if mia ever got to talk to ethan after he died like either bc he came back or a SOR situation or whatever #that she should be allowed to be a little angry at him for just giving up. not facing the aftermath. #like you went somewhere you knew i couldnt follow. you left because you knew i was still here to take care of rose. #but you left us alone. you left ME alone. #YOU KNOW like not bc he's a terrible horrible person for doing that but bc shes human and it hurt. what he did hurt. #and anger is a stage of grief for a reason you know #i am 110% convinced he was only able to do that because she wasn't there for him to look her full in the face and say i'm leaving #you cannot change my mind on this #not bc hes scared of her or whatever the fuck ppl seem to think. but bc he loves her. and how can you do that to someone when you can see #the hurt and the realization and the grief dawn in their eyes you know #anyway. sorry ive been thinking about this so hard i had to stop reading rwrb #putting this all in the tags btw bc iiiii am scared of mia winters antis here on tumblr okay dont come for me ppl let me chill #let me have my little ideas. let me be. #like mia would understand in a way why he did it bc she did the same thing except it was different then #they could have saved him. or at least they could have tried. and he just gave up #meanwhile mias been living with the consequences and the guilt of what she did every day for years now #YKNOW.

[v-arbellanaris]

so fuckin late i just found out abt the matt healy nonsense and im fuckin disassociating bro x

#decades of work by grassroots organisers just to get the extremists to look away and pay no mind to queer people #so they can just fucking live. when public canings and beatings and jail time STILL HAPPENS for being queer bc it's listed as a crime #imagine doing that shit in a country where the rec 'treatment' for being gay is conversion therapy #imagine doing that. putting that spotlight on the thousands of people who are just barely surviving by relying on living in the shadows #while they chip away at the social constraints impeding progress bit by bit. imagine doing that. saying that. and then fucking off home #and ignoring all the homophobia and transphobia in YOUR country because it doesn't matter presumably bc its Worse when its nasty brown ppl #going BACK to your own homophobic transphobic country. leaving the thousands of people left exposed by that limelight. #im not even going to touch on ''im taking your money'' and the inherently disgusting colonialist bullshit in that #expecting him to donate to local queer charities is too much when he's a piece of shit #but jfc. and all his fucking insane fans going queer malaysians who have to live w the consequences of matt's actions who complain abt that #are suffering from internalised homophobia & i have no sympathy for you #firstly. queer malaysians saying 'stop - this is not advocacy it's actively threatening us' is not internalised homophobia #secondly. explain why you have no sympathy for queer people with internalised homophobia. #like. explain. as if we weren't all questioning and struggling. as if we come out of the womb just lucky enough to Know without a doubt. #as if we dont exist in societies and families that shape us into something we're not until we can't recognise ourselves #like explain why you have no sympathy for your fellow queers and act like they're the enemy. explain why you're siding with some cishet #trash white man actively endangering brown qpoc in the THOUSANDS in a drunken fit on stage. over the qpoc actually affected by this. #explain it. go on. #fucking sickeningggg it's SICKENING #tbd

[semiotomatics]

slept like 15 hours, which is great, but also (seemingly) spent that entire time having one long, incredibly vivid nightmare, which is. not so great

#and the thing abt nightmares is that they stick around #even tho im awake now. i know im awake now. i still feel like im there #or i guess more specifically i still feel like the things that were true in the nightmare are still true here #namely: that i had a stage 4 brain tumour and had been given weeks to live #which. i get _why_ thats what i dreamed abt #id been looking up my recent symptoms and a brain tumour was mentioned as a potential cause uhhh multiple times #not that i actually think i have a brain tumour #i dont #but still #i guess my brain held onto it #its dumb cause most of my nightmares are simple straightforward shit like someone's chasing me n trying to kill me or w/e #or theres some apocalyptic disaster #things that suck in the dream but that are usually p easy to “leave behind” once i wake up #like i know no one's chasing me anymore bc im lying in bed not running around or hiding or w/e i was doing in the dream #but this one was so. normal #i was on _discord_ #i had to tell my _friends_ #my brain keeps trying to file it away as a waking-world memory instead of a dream-world one #not to mention it clearly wants to pick up where it left off #like no. you dont have to tell me what wouldve happened next. you dont have to remind me of how i felt in the dream #_it didnt happen_ #anyway #glad i got so much sleep at least

[lucky-draws]

15.7.23

#journal #bastille #< might as well put it in the tag lol #i was going to print out some of the pics i took but i found that my printer has given up on life completely so.oh well #so i just drew a pic i took of the stage + buildings around it #there were planes going over head throughout and i was like...guys ..u have to play glory right nao #oh and i cut up the cd booklets from my copies of bad blood and all this bad blood jfjfj rip they're all destroyed now basically #i didnt print out a physical ticket for the gig i just had it on my phone but i did take home a map + visitor guide from a gallery lol so. #that will do as physical proof i was there .. #also my journal is so uhm full now as in like.it doesnt really close like the pages are too bulky with all the layers of paper and whatnot #there's still half of it left to fill but i might just leave it and start a new one soon #since ill be moving soon it kind of makes sense to have this as a january-august Before I Moved journal ...and then start a fresh one in #september

[solanavakarian]

Ah, the Blodreina era.

#i do love octavia #in every stage of her arch #the overly active rebel #the in-love warrior who found her home in lincoln #the heartbroken woman who lost her home #tried to find her way back #ended up being forced into leading #and keeping her people alive #the result of needing to survive at any cost #thus giving us blodreina #good food #and not being afraid to make her the villain #clears my skin #meanwhile clarke is sacrificing ppl #left and right #including all of the innocents in mount weather #and the trikru village she allowed to get blown up #and dont forget that she was willing to leave nearly a thousand ppl #outside the bunker #in order to save only skaikru #dont mind me #im just pointing out the double standard here #rue watches t100 #rue.txt

[somecunttookmyurl]

Pls update on gaymish as u make them i wanna see how it goes

this is so exciting

i'm making this guy

who as you can see is supposed to be a doorstop but if you put toy stuffing in instead of weights and give it legs it's just a plushie

#undecided on giving him legs actually #might just leave him in Cow Orb stage #corb #depends how much yarn i have left and also how much i want to throw myself into the sea at the time

[soliusss]

Shoutout to anyone who remembers my alagadda ocs from 2020. Anyway this is wolfgang they are my silly little oc x canon, they're a dancer and they are atrociously horny for horrors and things that will kill them or give them fates worse than death. They fear nothing.

#i havent drawn them in sooo long #solius ocs #alagadda #scp 2264 #scp 701 #alagadda ocs #solius art #they were contrived from a dream i had in like june of 2020 #was watching the hanged kings tragedy in a theater in alagadda and they were the only design on stage i could remember #funny dream #all the nooses came down and my ass was like aight thats my cue to leave and just left without killing myself #ambassador probably fucking haaaates me

[meatsound]

coming back here means plantposting

#didnt post my fluffy ruffles fern bc its in a weirs stage of like alive - dead - alive fronds its very strange #i did kill the maidenhair by leaving it next to a vent intake 😬 but they grow back super fast shes doing so well #i also killed the wisteria but thats what i get for accidentally buying japanese wisteria instead of american #i cant remember if its kentucky or kansas one of those two. #the wiateria was baffling though because if i left it in full sun it was in perfect stasis. never growing never dying. #so i thought oh maybe it wants a trellis so i moved it to mine which in partial shade #immediately died. anyway. #i have 2 monstera thai but i need to replant one bc its roots are already growing out of drainage holes