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kitkatwinchester · 11 months

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THIS PACK I SWEAR! XD <3

There were so many hilarious and adorable and wonderful small little moments in there, and because I'm me, I'm gonna overanalyze every single one. You're welcome. XD

Okay we're gonna do this in groupings instead of in order of events, and we're gonna break them up with gifs, because this is what happens when I let it play for too long without stopping (maybe I should still be watching this show on Hulu--the ad breaks ensure I do my reactions in a timely manner XD), but it was just SO GOOD, OKAY?!

Lydia and Malia:

Okay for starters, why does Malia have chemistry with LITERALLY EVERYONE?! Like...what? Is that the work of the actress? The director?? The whole cast and crew??? I don't even know, but bruh, I ship her with EVERYONE. Stiles, Kira, and now Lydia (Scalia will come I'm sure--we just haven't gotten a lot of moments with just the two of them yet lol)--I mean, DUDE. Literally when she was leaning over Lydia's shoulder, even though she was hovering, I was watching and I was like "can they kiss?" XD XD

I swear, Malia is secretly in love with everyone in the pack, and I seriously get the feeling that everyone in the pack is just a LITTLE bit in love with her.

Sorry not sorry, but I do not make the rules.

ANYWAYS.

I loved those little moments between her and Lydia. The care and affection, but also the clear sass between the two of them was so great, but I also feel so bad for Lydia. Like, I appreciate that, as pushy as Malia is being, she's still trying to be helpful and supportive as much as she can, and the way her face changes when Lydia gets upset about how hard it is for her to control her powers and turn it on and off...it was just really sweet and also kind of heartbreaking and I just appreciate that, given how busy everyone else is, Malia wasn't letting Lydia go through it alone, and was trying her best to be supportive and helpful even with her lack of social skills.

So yeah anyways I also ship Malydia now. XD <3

(I MEAN LOOK AT THEM! <3 <3 <3)

Scott and Derek and Liam:

OMG stop. All things considered, this scene was literally so sweet and wholesome.

Like, obviously the whole Derek making Liam mad thing was an oof, but it was planned, and everything that came out of it was so sweet.

The way that Scott literally so softly said "Liam" and Liam just, like, immediately calmed down, but never stopped glaring at Derek. And it's so funny, because his glare is so intense, but he's so smol, so it's literally like an angry puppy I can't. XD <3

The way that he said "Get to class, Liam" and Liam just shot that last little glare at Derek and then at Scott (because moody teen), but obliged. Scott is seriously such a parent/big brother to this kid in their Alpha-Beta relationship and I love it so much. <3

The way that Derek just smiled at Scott after Liam walked away with the "You're gonna be good at this" and Scott just looked at him flabbergasted, but couldn't help smiling.

The way that everything about Derek and Scott's interactions in this scene was just so soft, with Scott doubting himself and worrying about all of the problems they have to deal with while he's still trying to be a student, but Derek remaining supportive and helpful and loyal as ever I just...

Ahhhh that scene was so wholesome and adorable in so many ways. I loved it. <3 <3

Sciles and Everyone Else:

Oh come on now. You HAD to know that most of the post was gonna be dedicated to Sciles. When is it not? XD <3

Okay, just Sciles first, when Stiles figures out that the assassin is a lacrosse player.

First of all, we freaking love Stiles, and we love his relationship with Coach. "Stilinski, if I could grade you on how profoundly you disturb me, you'd be an A+ student." "...thanks Coach." XD XD

Second of all, the fact that my boy FIGURED IT OUT! Let's go!! I love you, bud! (Also the way he was just holding the stick and would not let go no matter how many times Coach tugged because he was putting the pieces together we love this man.)

Third of all, and here's the crux of the matter, the way that Scott is watching the whole interaction and IMMEDIATELY turns to Stiles expectantly, because he knows his best friend, and he knows that he's onto something, and they just immediately lock eyes as they process the gravity of what Stiles has discovered like...I just love them and their bond.

And then we move into the scene with Kira (also really random quick aside, the way it transitioned into the scene with Garrett and Violet after this with the "who knows what else they have" and then "wolfsbane" was just freaking awesome anyways).

I just love everything about the banter in this scene, with Scott's insistence that the game should go on so they can catch him in the act (bonus points for Scira with the "I'm not afraid." "Neither am I." and the little smiles they give each other <3) and Stiles's insistence that they should cancel the game and be f*cking terrified, because (I love my boy XD <3), "these are professional killers, it's their profession". XD XD

I just love the back and forth between the two of them, because even when they're disagreeing about the best way to approach something, they're still thinking together and planning together and having each other's backs and acknowledging each other's concerns, and it's what makes them such a good team.

And SPEAKING OF BEING SUCH A GOOD TEAM!

EVERYTHING WITH LIAM I CANNOT I LOVE THESE TWO AND THEIR CHILD! XD <3

The way that Scott is watching Liam so closely as he storms over to Brett.

The way that Scott whispers what, according to the subtitles, is an "oh shit" and then just grabs for Stiles and they both book it.

The way they go with their classic brains and brawn team-up with Scott pulling Liam away and Stiles being the distraction as the charismatic and hilarious little charmer that he is.

The way that Scott and Stiles just drag Liam to the locker room (Stiles's little "go" after they turn away from Brett and crew XD) and shove him against the shower together repeatedly until he finally calms down.

The way that Scott is the softer, chiller, concerned, supportive "you're not in trouble, just tell us what happened" parent while Stiles is the harder, harsher, annoyed, disciplining "I will ground you regardless" parent during this whole conversation, and their facial expressions match that perfectly.

The way that Stiles is still bantering with Scott and is unafraid to express his exasperation with this “I cannot believe what you got us into" at this whole situation while Scott is just metaphorically rolling his eyes with this "I'm working on it and you're not helping".

The way that Stiles backs off to let Scott make the final judgement call, but also nods his approval at said judgement call.

The way that Scott softens up even more at the "especially if you're there" and Stiles runs a hand down his face because he knows that means they're probably gonna let him play.

The way that Liam is already willing to out his friend, no preamble required, because he already trusts Sciles's judgement and analyses, and if his friend's a threat, he wants them to know.

The way that these three just have the best bonding and best dynamic I just...

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!

SO EXCITED THAT I GET SO MUCH OF THIS!!!

SCILES AND LIAM FOR THE WIN!!!

SCILES AS PARENTS IS LITERALLY THE BEST!!!

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

(This was the only gif I could find, but it works. XD <3 <3)

Anyways…

That post took forever. I really need to get better at that. XD

BUT I LOVE SCILES AND I ESPECIALLY LOVE THEM WITH LIAM AND I JUST LOVE ALL OF THE RELATIONSHIPS IN THIS SHOW AHHHHH!!!

ANYWAYS.

Shall we continue? XD <3

(I don't think I've used this gif yet and it's my little trio so...using it! XD <3)

Update: Okay so I officially love Mason. XD <3 "I think you can take him. And then give him to me." XD <3 Also not enough of a reaction to do a whole separate post but DEREK IS LOSING HIS POWER?! F*CK that. Someone go get Kate NOW please and thank you.

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toxickehlani · 2 years

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𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗔𝗻𝗻𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗮𝗿𝘆

║ ꜰᴏʀᴍᴀᴛ･* – 𝖲𝖾𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌

║ ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ･* – 𝖪𝖺𝗂 𝗀𝗈𝖾𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝗎𝗒𝗌 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗋𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝖼𝖺𝗅𝗆 𝖽𝗈𝗐𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽.

║ ᴡᴏʀᴅ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ･* – 3,618

║ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ･* – 𝖺𝖽𝗎𝗅𝗍 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗎𝖺𝗀𝖾, 𝖺𝖼𝖼𝗎𝗌𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀.

║ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ/ᴘᴀʀᴛ･* – 𝖢𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖨𝖷💔: 𝖳𝗋𝗈𝗎𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝖨𝗇 𝖯𝖺𝗋𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗌𝖾?

ᴘʀᴇᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ .༺ ♥︎ ༻ ࣭ ɴᴇxᴛ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ

ꜱᴇʀɪᴇꜱ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ

Kai's POV

"BAE, COME ON, stop doing that shit!" I groaned as Za'Niyah threw my Air Jordan 1s at me.

"Give me your phone then. Let me see who's got your attention that has you smiling hard as fuck!" She yelled, standing in front of the closet with my other shoe in her hands.

"It was only a text from Leo sayin' he wants to get away from Erika," I said, dodging the shoes she's throwing at me.

"Okay, then let me see the messages." She said, sticking her hand out.

"Why?" I questioned, shaking my head.

"If you don't give me your phone right now, Kai, I'm ruining all of your Jordans!" Za'Niyah yelled at me. She did not have to go there.

If there's one thing, Za'Niyah knows I love more than her in the world are my shoes, especially my Jordan's. I stood staring at her as she cocked her hip out with my black Jubilee Air Jordan 11s in her hands. I just got those a couple of days ago and haven't even worn them yet.

"Fine! Here." I said, handing her my phone after unlocking it.

Za'Niyah snatches it from me and goes through my phone. She stood there for a few minutes, then hands it back to me, giving me a stank look.

"You're fucking lucky." She said, tossing my shoes on the bed.

Sighing, I shook my head and grabbed all the shoes Za'Niyah threw around the room and put them all back in their boxes. After putting all my shoes away, I left the room and found Za'Niyah sitting on the couch watching The Bad Girls Club on Hulu.

"I love you," I said, poking her cheek to annoy her.

"Leave me alone, Kai," Niyah said, jerking her face away from me.

"You know I love you and wouldn't think about cheatin' on yo beautiful ass," I said, sitting next to her and trying to kiss her, but she moved her head away from me. Oh, she is big mad.

"Goodbye, Kai." My girlfriend taunted, still not looking at me.

As I sat there staring directly at Za'Niyah's face, she still didn't look up at me. Oh, now she's acting petty as hell. I had enough of her ignoring me, so I grabbed Za'Niyah by her throat and made her kiss me when I smashed my lips against hers. She moans, holding onto my arm, allowing me to slip my tongue in her mouth, and I knew I had her. Finally, when I pulled away, I left Za'Niyah heaving in her seat.

As Za'Niyah looks at me, I can see the lust and fire in her eyes. Smirking at the way she looks at me, I stood up. "I love you," I said to her again.

"Love you too." I hear her mumble.

"Can't hear you," I said, giving her that look.

"I love you too." She said louder for me to hear.

Laughing to myself, I grabbed my keys and headed down the elevator to the parking garage, then got in my car. I pulled up to Billiard Shot and got out once I parked the car. As I walked inside, I looked around first, to see if I saw Leo and Marcos. Finally, I spotted them at table eight and walked over to them.

"What's up, Kai." Marcos greeted me, shaking my hand.

"Good to finally see you, man." I smiled, shaking hands with Leo.

"What took you so long?" Leo asked, striking the red stripe ball into the hole.

"Za'Niyah." I sighed. "All thanks to you sending that stupid ass text message; she thought I was texting some other bitch and started throwing all my shoes out the closet," I explained, shaking my head.

"Now, why would you do some shit like that?" Marcos asked Leo, who laughed.

"I thought it would be funny." He shrugged, laughing again.

"Thanks to you, all my new Jordan's are probably scuffed up," I said, shaking my head.

"You know Za'Niyah is batshit crazy." Marcos laughs.

"That part." I nodded, agreeing with him.

"I'll apologize to her," Leo said, hitting the yellow stripe ball into the right middle pocket.

"We know who the boss is in the relationship." Marcos teased, hitting the green stripe ball in the top left pocket.

"Man fuck you; I wear the pants. She knows that shit." I laughed, shaking my head.

"Right." Leo nods in agreement.

"So, if Erika tells you she's cutting you off, you'll let her?" Marcos questions waiting his turn.

"Hell no, she knows even if she did, I wouldn't care. I'm taking what I want whether she likes it or not." Leo smirks, shrugging.

"I rest my case." Marcos laughs.

"How are you and Nazanin doing?" I asked Marcos curiously.

"We're good. Naz finally got to meet Alayah yesterday." Marcos replies, hitting his final ball in the left bottom pocket.

"How'd that go?" I asked him, watching Leo hit the black eight ball into the top right corner pocket, winning the game.

"It went well. I think Alayah likes her." Marcos shrugs.

"Se acabó el juego, se pierde a Marcos," Leo smirks as Marcos stood there, shocked. ( "Game over, you lose Marcos." )

"How the fuck?" Marcos questions staring at Leo.

"The hand is always quicker than the eye." He replied, shrugging.

"Whatever, you probably cheated." Marcos shakes his head, handing me a pool stick.

"Man, it's cool. I'll get you back." Marcos says, sitting down where I was.

"Whatever you say." Leo shrugs.

I laughed at the two clowns I call friends, Leo and I started a new game with a twist. Whoever loses buys the group drinks at the bar after. Leo is so confident that he will win because he beat Marcos, but little did he know, I had this game in the bag. Leo and I went back and forth in an intense match until we both had one ball on the table with the eight balls.

"Your turn Leo. Let's see if you can win." I said to Leo, grinning.

"You mean when I win," Leo said, holding his head high in confidence.

He hit the black eight ball and slammed his stripe ball, but it didn't go into the pocket, making him suck his teeth.

"Haha, you're too cocky." I laughed, shaking my head.

It was now my turn to shut his cocky ass up.

I hit the white ball into my solid blue one and smashed it into the left middle pocket. As I got in position to hit the eight ball, I can hear Leo saying I cheated. Blocking his nonsense out, I hit the white into the eight balls and made it into the right top pocket, winning the game.

"That is complete bullshit, man!" Leo cursed, shaking his head.

"See what happens when you're too cocky." I laughed at my friend.

"Whatever," Leo said, rolling his eyes, annoyed.

"Drinks on you, my friend." I laughed, slapping Leo on the shoulder.

Walking over to the bar, I got the bartender's attention, and he comes up to us.

"What can I get you three?" The man asked us.

"I'll have a Crown Royal on the rocks," I ordered.

"Give me a cup of D'Usse," Marcos told the guy.

"I'll take a cup of Hennessy," Leo said to the man in which he nods and starts making our drinks.

When the bartender finishes that, Leo pays for our drinks then we walked back to our pool table.

Marcos's POV

Leo, Kai, and I sipped on our cognacs as we played another round of pool. As I watched Kai and Leo play back and forth, I feel my phone buzz in my back pocket. I pull it out and see a message from Nazanin. So, I respond.

Naz😌💖🎈- Where did you go?

To play some pool with the guys.

Naz😌💖🎈- Why didn't you ask me if I wanted to go?

It's nothing but guys.

Naz😌💖🎈- Still, you could've asked me.

I'm sorry.

Naz😌💖🎈- Are you sure it's only your guy friends?

Yes, why?

Naz😌💖🎈- I'm only asking. Idk maybe your ex-girlfriend is with you since all of you are friends.

Yes, Naz, I'm sure it's only my guy friends.

Naz😌💖🎈- Okay, I'll see you later.

Stuffing my phone back in my pocket, I continued to watch Kai and Leo play round one.

"Alright, I have a question to ask you, Marcos." I hear Leo say, making me look at him.

"What's up?" I asked curiously.

"If you and Nazanin don't work out and Destini ends up single, do you see yourself being in a relationship with her again?" Leo asked me, and I thought about it.

Would Destini take me back after what I did two years ago? She might take me back.

"Honestly, I don't know. I want to be with Des." I reply, in all honesty. "Hell, we've known each other for years. We have more history than World War II."

"That's true, but all together, we have more history than World War II, in my opinion," Kai says, shrugging her shoulders.

"True, but with Destini, it's more like the chemistry. The love we have for each other." I explained, nodding my head. "She knows me more than I know myself."

"You still love her?" Leo asked me, and I nodded.

"Hell, yeah, I do, and I still have feelings for her," I answered him truthfully. "Destini's the only person who believed in me and took me in when I had literally nowhere to go."

"I feel you." Kai nods, hitting the ball.

"I can see why you would want to get back with Destini. You want to give your daughter what you never had." Leo says, looking at me.

"Yea, but us being together is never gon' happen," I say, shaking my head.

"Well, at least she allows you to see Alayah," Kai said, looking at me.

"Yea, I guess," I said, shrugging.

"How did you meet Nazanin, if you don't mind me asking?" Kai says, turning towards me.

"She's the cousin of the dude that was in the cell next to me," I answered her, shrugging. "I was feeling lonely, so I asked him if she was single, he said yes and gave me her info, and we started writing to each other."

"Talk about some Love After Lock Up." Kai laughs.

"Oh well." I shrugged.

"When did you ask her to move in?" Leo asked, hitting the ball.

"The day I got out," I replied to him.

"Damn, you were lonely." Leo joked, laughing at me.

"Shut the fuck up." I laughed.

"It's fine that you still have feelings for Dest since you two have that connection," Kai says, shrugging.

"Do you miss Destini?" Kai asked me after hitting the striped ball.

"Every day," I answered her truthfully.

"I say if you and Nazanin don't work out and Kareem and Destini don't work out, show her that you care," Kai explains, shrugging her shoulders.

"I hear you," I replied, nodding my head, taking in Kai's words of wisdom.

"If I didn't know any better, I'd say you can be the new Dr. Phil," Leo teased as he looks at Kai.

"Man shut the fuck up. Words of wisdom from my momma." Kai laughs, shaking her head.

"I'm just sayin'," Leo said, raising his hands in surrender. "You can get paid for it."

"You a clown man," Kai replies, shaking her head.

"I say we should go eat after this," I suggested.

"That's cool. Where to?" Kai asked, handing me the pool stick since it is my turn.

"Holy Grill Steakhouse," I said, searching on my phone.

"Yea, I can use a juicy steak." Leo shrugs, nodding, as he collected all the balls from each pocket.

"Same man." Kai nods.

Leo racked up the balls in the triangle, and since he won the last game, it was his turn to go first for this game.

• 4:30 PM •

Closing the door to my car, I started it up, fastened my seatbelt, and drove out of the parking lot to the restaurant. After parking my car, I got out and followed Leo and Kai inside. The smell of grilled steak hits my nose, making my stomach growl. A female hostess eyeing Leo as if she wanted to fuck him on the counter greets us with a smile.

"Follow me, please." The hostess smiles, trying not to look obvious as she look Leo up and down but failed.

If Erika were with us, homegirl would've got a beat down by her and probably ended up in the back of a police car. We followed the young hostess over to a booth near the back of the restaurant and sat down.

She smiles at us before walking away, making sure to switch her ass left to right.

"So am I the only one that seen that?" I asked my friends with a smile on my face.

"Nah, I saw that too." Kai laughs, nodding her head.

"Saw what?" Leo asked, unaware.

"How that hostess was eyeing you like a full course meal," I said, looking over the menu.

"Nah, I didn't notice because I ignored her." Leo smiles.

"I guess." I laughed, rolling my eyes.

"Now you know if Erika was here and you said you ignored her, you and the hostess would've got beat the fuck up," Kai says, and I laughed, nodding my head.

"That's true. You know Erika don't play." I reminded him.

"For real." Kai nods. "I remember Za'Niyah was going to whoop this girl's ass inside of Walmart for looking me up and down."

"Fights always break out in Walmart," I said, shaking my head.

"That's because Walmart is ghetto as fuck." Leo shrugs.

"I remember Erika almost fought a customer at the shop," Leo announced, shaking his head.

"When?" I asked him, shocked.

"You were locked up. It was a few months ago." Leo said, nodding his head. I smacked my lips, not able to see Erika whoop someone's ass at Leo auto shop. "She felt like the girl was too thankful."

"How was the girl thanking you?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Typically flirtatious," Leo answers, shrugging. "Smilin' hard, twirling her hair and other shit."

"Of course, girls smile at you," Kai said as a waiter came over to the table.

The three of us ordered our drinks first then ordered our food. "I want the renegade sirloin steak & Redrock grilled shrimp with loaded Idaho baked potato, broccoli, and the seasoned rice." I read to the waiter. He nodded and wrote down my order.

"How do you guys want your steaks?" The waiter asked us.

"Well done." We said together.

"Okay." He nods.

"Can I get the grilled t-bone steak with mashed potatoes, grilled shrimp, and the seasoned rice?" Kai orders.

"I want the porterhouse, mac & cheese, and a baked potato." Leo finally orders. The waiter reads back our orders for confirmation, and we nodded.

He said he'd be back with our drinks, and the order would be out shortly before walking away.

"Back to the conversation. Fuck whoopin' the hostess's ass, Erika would probably shoot her." Kai laughs.

"Yea, she might." I agreed, nodding.

"I should've never bought her that gun," Leo admits shaking his head.

"Never make her mad," I said, shaking my head.

"She might bust a cap in yo ass," Kai said to Leo, grinning.

"Her ass is crazy as fuck." I joked, shaking my head.

"But that's my baby tho." Leo smiles.

"Psycho, baby." I laughed.

"I love it, though." Leo shrugs. The waiter returns to the table and lets us know that our food should be ready in about ten to twenty minutes.

"You're not gonna be satisfied until she's standing over you with a knife in her hand," Kai says, shaking her head.

"That shit is kind of sexy, though." Leo grins, sipping his drink.

"Now that I think about it, it's kind of is sexy." Kai shrugs.

"Not until she stabs your ass." I shook my head.

"That's the thing Erika won't do it. She'll do it to threaten me but won't for real stab me," Leo explains.

"I think women do that to get what they want," Kai comments, shrugging.

"With Erika, all she wants is Chanel and Gucci, and she'll give it up." Leo chuckled.

"Yea, because you spoil her," I said, nodding my head.

"It's a win-win situation." Leo shrugs. "Erika gets what she wants, and I get what I want."

As soon as our food arrived at the table, we started showing down. The three of us talked with each other, laughing at the times we had.

• 3:00 PM •

We walked out of the restaurant to our cars and waved at each other before getting inside. I fastened my seatbelt and drove home. As I walked into my apartment, I hear dishes clanking about from the kitchen. I walked further inside and saw Naz washing the dishes.

"Hey, babe." She greets me with a smile.

"Hey, what have you been up to?" I asked, kissing the side of her head.

"Nothing much. I've been doing some cleaning here and there." Nazanin shrugs, setting a plate in the dishwasher. As I sat on the couch and turned on the tv, it was silent between the two of us before Naz speaks again. "I'm sorry." She apologized.

"What for?" I asked her knowing why she was apologizing.

"For assuming that you were with your ex-girlfriend when you weren't." She says, walking over to me as she talked and sitting next to me.

"I accept your apology." I smiled at her. "I understand that you may have felt wary of me being around Destini since we're all friends."

"I hope you're not mad at me." My girlfriend sighs.

"Nah, I'm not mad," I respond, shaking my head.

"My parents want to meet you again, specifically my mother," Nazanin announced, and I sighed, annoyed. Don't get me wrong, Nazanin's parents are lovely, but I feel like this relationship is moving a little fast for me.

"When do they want to meet me?" I asked her, wishing they didn't want to meet me today because I was not in the mood.

"They're free today, but if you don't want to go, we can go next week," Nazanin said, and I let out a sigh of relief.

"I'm a little tired. We can go tomorrow." I said and smiled at her.

"Okay, I'll call my mom and let her know." She nods, gets off the couch, and grabs her phone.

I didn't want to meet her parents because if this relationship doesn't last, then it would've been for nothing.

• 6:00 PM •

Za'Niyah's POV

"Emani, go watch Baby Shark on the tablet," I said to the three-year-old little girl who tugged on my pant leg as I'm currently washing the dishes.

She walks away but comes back with her iPad in her hand and gives it to me. I dried my hands and went to YouTube Kids and put the Baby Shark song on for her. I told my cousin India I would watch her daughter while she goes to work, and she'll pick Emani up tonight when she gets off, so I accepted. From the kitchen, I hear her sing the song and see her dancing to it. A smile comes to my face imagining a child of mine running around.

It wouldn't hurt to have at least one baby. Kai walks in from our bedroom and starts dancing to the kid's song. She looked so cute, and I couldn't help but think she would make a great parent too.

"So, where's India?" Kai asked, walking into the kitchen.

"India's at work. She's going to pick up Emani when she gets off tonight." I answered, kissing her lips.

"What does she do again?" Kai asked, opening the refrigerator.

"She works at the Dollar Tree on Jackson Ave," I replied, wiping down the stove.

"Why? They only pay eleven dollars an hour." Kai questions shaking her head.

"I told her to go work at Destini's salon. At least she's paying more." I said and shrugged. "But she doesn't want to listen to me."

"That's true." Kai nods.

"Well, I guess she's doing what she has to do." I nodded, understanding that she was doing what she can to take care of her daughter. "Emani, you hungry?"

Emani comes running into the kitchen and reaches her arms up, wanting me to pick her up. Smiling, I picked her up and kissed her cheek.

"Eat friesh." She smiles.

"Okay, and what else?" I asked, laughing.

"Chicken." She nods.

"Okay, go play, and I'll cook your food." I sat her down to her feet, and she runs off to the living room.

I grabbed a skillet from the cabinet and started making Emani's dinner. Once I finished cooking, I made Emani's plate and waited for her to get done eating. Before putting her down to sleep, I made Emani a bath, put her light blue elephant pajamas on her, and sat on the tablet.

As I was sitting in the living room watching tv, I happen to look over and see Emani knocked out on the couch.

Well, that didn't take long. Grabbing Emani's blanket, I spread it over her before laying on the other couch and dosing off.

• 1:45 AM •

The sound of my phone ringing makes me wake up and grab it from the floor. I looked at it to see it is India calling me.

Hello?

India🌸🦋 - Hey, I'm in the parking garage.

Okay, I'm coming.

India🌸🦋 - Okay bye.

Grabbing the Minnie Mouse backpack off the floor, I picked up Emani, left the apartment, and down the elevator to the parking garage where I see India's car. She gets out and smiles at me, and puts her daughter in her seat.

"Thank you again, Zee." India praised hugging me.

"Anytime." I smiled before waving at her.

I got back on the elevator and rode back up to my apartment, where I locked the door behind me, went to my bedroom, and went to bed.

#my writings #Interracial #interracial relationship #interracial romance

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gabenvrhappened · 4 months

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MusicOr... I Believe (When I Fall in Love It Will Be Forever) by Da’Vine Joy Randolph

Favorite Lyrics: I believe when I fall in love with you it will be forever;

Read my post about High Fidelity

There I was, walking home after going to buy groceries when I asked Siri to play High Infidelity by Taylor Swift, but she mistakenly decided to play the soundtrack to the Hulu TV show High Fidelity instead. It was the best mistake she's ever made.

At first, I was mad, then I let myself fall into the vibe of the songs and loved the atmosphere it was giving me while walking fast at night, wanting to get home soon to fight the cold. It was pleasant; however, it was only when I Believe (When I Fall In Love It Will Be Forever) by Da’Vine Joy Randolph came on that I felt like that was the best discovery I could have ever made. I always wanted to watch the show, so I feel like I would cross paths with this song one day or another, but it feels like this was supposed to be the moment.

This haunting version of the famous Stevie Wonder cover song from the '70s elevated me to another dimension. If not for this fervent and powerful rendition, I would have never fallen in love with these strong lyrics that resonate with my heart so deeply. I say that because Steve's production is definitely something I don't like to listen to, but Da'Vine's take is just phenomenal. Now, I can't wait to watch the show in the hope there's a scene with this song in it — I tried searching for it, but luck wasn't on my side.

When all is said and done and I'm lying on the couch writing something to try to encapsulate what I feel with this song, the question is easy: "how come I could not relate to this"? The "you" is a faceless person, still hanging there on the corner of my eye, just waiting to stop being a blur to become a real figure. And, just like the lyrics, I'm a shell of dreams, most of them impossible ones just waiting to be shattered. Most of them were throughout these years that I know I shouldn't come back to but can't help but come back. It's the same old tale: life made me wrong, but can make it right when we meet to share and not be erased.

The path is hard to follow when you don't know where these streets of gold — now covered with nothing but thousands of years of desperation — are taking you. So, I fool myself into a hopelessly thought that life is actually taking me to the ultimate of the goals, and that's why I keep missing the post every single time I try to kick the ball. When all finally works out, then it will be forever. Then all the struggle will mean something. That's why I don't have anything. Yet.

I won't lie, though, I'm scared. What if I don't get there? Not everyone can have the treasure box at the end of the rainbow. Not everyone is cut for it. But every time I feel this, I remember that, for good or bad, I am a tryer and, if I'm not the chosen one, at least I'll die knowing I tried. I believe that when I fall in love, or when I realize my dream, or when I get where I'm supposed to get, it will be forever.

#MusicOrGabeNeverHappened

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watchmorecinema · 7 months

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On the subject of good movies being dumped to streaming, I'd also like it if good shows (especially serialized ones) stopped being cancelled arbitrarily. Yes I know I'm not the first to say this.

It's just such a weird thing to do though. Netflix needs a back catalog of good content for the leaner months, or just to drive up retention more. I feel like their current plan is basically just to keep the top 2-3 most popular shows and cancel anything that doesn't get in there, but that's just making it exhausting to try to watch anything. I devote 10 hours to a story and then it ends on a cliffhanger, forever. At this point I don't watch shows on Netflix unless the show is complete, and I'm sure that's not great for their metrics. One Piece Live Action is good? Great, I'll check it out when the last season airs in 5 years.

Netflix is new to the game so I think that's why they're the worst at it. Hulu is owned by Fox which is owned by Disney. They've got a literal century of media production experience under their belt. HBO has been around since the early 70's. NBC has been around since 1926, Paramount since 1912. They've had enough institutional knowledge to understand how to make tv in a way that you don't have to cancel hugely popular shows arbitrarily. Obviously they make other stupid mistakes (it's HBO Max forever to me, not Max), but I can't quite think of a hugely popular serialized show that ended on a cliffhanger with no followup planned whatsoever that wasn't a Netflix show.

Still real mad about The Midnight Club and Archive 81. I'm sure everyone has a different show in mind, which is absolutely terrible for Netflix. It should not be so exhausting to figure out what to watch.

#movie #cinema #film #tv series #netflix #paramount+#paramount #streaming services #disney+#hulu #nbc #peacock #hbo #hbo max #fox #disney #one piece live action #the midnight club #archive 81

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I'm very interested in watching the show you've been talking about; the one with the tags Tristamp and Trigun. But I'm having trouble finding where to watch it. It's not on any of the free sites I usually use to watch movies and shows. Could you recommend a good place?

OKAY, so. I do not know a truly "free" place to watch Trigun: Stampede as such places are not really in my wheelhouse. I can tell you that it's on Crunchyroll and Hulu in both sub and dub, so if you can password share either site, you're golden. Crunchyroll ALSO still does free trials, which rules, so you could do it that way. (It's only 12 episodes/roughly 6 hours so it's totally watchable in two weeks.) The '98 anime (AKA the other, first anime adaptation) is also on both platforms.

HOWEVER. Big caveat. While I do like TriStamp a whole awful lot, I don't want you to go into it blind. You should know that the anime does contain some content that might be upsetting. I can't go into super details without spoiling things (though you've definitely already seen a lot on my blog lmao), but in terms of broad sweeping content warnings, TriStamp does contain violence (including some body horror/gore) and harm to children, and heavily deals in themes of depression and trauma (including disordered eating), religious abuse/trauma, and abuse/violation of bodily autonomy/assault (with that last one being probably the most upsetting for obvious reasons). If you need specifics (spoilers obvi)...

Abuse: No nice way to say it: Knives is abusive and his relationship with Vash is beyond toxic. There's a lot of moments of psychological manipulation when they interact, and he's EXTREMELY controlling. And then there's the last detail which is probably where I have to put the biggest CW.

Violation of Bodily Autonomy/Assault: Bodily autonomy is one of the biggest through lines of the franchise. People are regularly stripped of it by the antagonists, and Vash in particular has a plot line in episodes 11 and 12 that is uh. A lot. I hesitate to call it rape only because that word brings to mind certain acts that AREN'T what's happening here...but what IS happening here is very reminiscent of one (I can provide more details if needed but it's a lot. Also his brother is doing it so there is that).

Violence: Most of the violence is gun violence, though there is also some limb removal (especially in episodes 3, 9, and 12). The worst of the gore/body horror is in episode 11 (but there is also some in 5 and 6) , and there is an onscreen gun suicide in episode 7.

Harm to Children: Kids are not safe from being hurt in this universe. Like, at all. Besides the day to day dangers of a Mad Max style dystopia, there's a recurring plot point that kids are being experimented on by a cult to create "the perfect organism" (just a sprinkling of eugenics to go along with the child abuse). Some of the experimentation is seen onscreen. There's some UNRELATED child experimentation that we see the aftermath of in episode 11...this kid is dismembered, there's no nice way to put it. There are detail shots of organs.

Depression & Trauma: Depression and trauma are the other main through line of this franchise. Vash has been through a lot. He deprives himself of food seemingly as a punishment. This happens twice explicitly (though he never visibly loses weight). Pretty much every character has either BEEN through a lot or GOES THROUGH a lot but USUALLY both. Family loss, friend loss, poverty, and abusive relationships all around.

Religious Abuse/Trauma: There's a very plot-important cult that uses Christian imagery (mostly crosses (including as weapons) and talk of angels). They're the ones doing the child experimentation...and the "conscripting kids into their murder squad" thing. They don't think very highly of humanity, either. While the angle of specific characters having what one might call religious trauma isn't explored super deeply, I can see how it'd be upsetting for anyone who does have that. (Also I swear I'm gonna write that essay about how the Eye of Michael is a really interesting in light of how actual Christianity works, I just need to re-watch some things and dig up my study Bible first)

Also just as one final thing: there is some brief "important bits shrouded in mist/fog/camera angles but the character is definitely nude" action involving a young-looking character (maybe 12?) and some "failed" baby/child human hybrids in episode 10. The context is that said characters are in test tubes, uh, marinating, I guess, so we've still got that to deal with even if it's not sexual.

I bring this all up first because I don't want you or anyone else to go into Stampede blind and accidentally experience something that will upset you. Cool as the show is, it's not worth your mental health. I also bring it up because Stampede often serves as an entry drug to the other parts of the franchise, and the manga is R O U G H. Everything I've talked about above on crack and THEN some. So like, if anything I've described seems like it's pushing your limits, DO NOT READ THE MANGA. There's a lot to like about Trigun: Maximum, but there's also a lot that can do permanent damage. I've got a pretty strong stomach and I still basically skipped a whole chapter (and almost cried at one point that was less from trauma and more because Nightow slapped me in the face with the inevitable narrative he'd been teasing for like, nine volumes, the bastard /pos).

(I should note, some more elements of TriMax might be making their way into Stampede, and those elements might involve sexual abuse (one character is a former trafficking victim). I don't now if they'll get as graphic as the manga did (again, the manga is R O U G H), but there's a high chance the subject will come up in some way. Also, I can't give content warnings for the '98 anime as the animation style means it slides right off my smooth-ass brain and I have a hard time quantifying its severity in relation to either Trigun or the manga. They did make Vash a sex pest for zero reason, that's annoying. I'll probably re-watch it later to experience the English dub and also to get CWs for anyone who needs them.)

...anyways hope this helps lol

#that is a long-ass answer but I feel like it's my civic duty to be thorough #asks

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I love it girl, definitely want to hear more. Is it season 1 episode 8 that you're writing about as a deleted scene?? Last time I popped by was to say I liked the finale and you were on the fence about coming back for season 4 but I am glad you chose to watch and yes we got some great Nick content. I just hope we get more. You know I looked at your fics list so you know I will be starting to read them slowly. I can't wait to start. I'll check back after reading. ~V

hi again! so ok, it’s not specifically 1x08 that i’m writing about, but it’s just sometime between the first time she comes to see him and that moment. actually, i’m writing it like it’s the first time she’s contemplating staying with him all night and not sneaking back into her room.

and yeah... season 3 really did all of us dirty. i was really upset after the finale, i remember as soon as it was over i immediately canceled my hulu subscription and didn’t pick it back up until i got the disney+ bundle. but even with how mad i was, i knew that with nick coming back, i would always end up coming back for season 4. so far, i’ve really enjoyed the episodes. i didn’t even mind episode 4 with no nick in it. in season 3, every episode without nick felt like torture, but this one didn’t. so i’m glad it’s improving AND we got nick back.

let me know what you think of the fics! i’ve actually started revising that one shot again now, so this is incredibly encouraging knowing that i still have an audience. :)

#anon v #asks #Anonymous

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thekingsfortress · 4 years

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AGERE JANUS JUST CUZ WE NEEDED MORE!! THANKS!!

Also this is my first Agere oop, please be nice ^^

Proof reading- who's she never heard of her-

It had been a long week for Janus, he had to calm down Patton from his little rampage, he had to try and convince Roman that he wasnt all that bad, which didn't work at all, and on top of it, he revealed his name.

At the moment he kinda regretted sharing his name, he wasn't ready to share it, not at all, however he felt it necessary to get thomas to just listen to him, and lo and behold, it worked! However, because he made himself so vulnerable, he left himself wide open to Romans laughter.

He knows he shouldn't have said what he had said to him, he knew how insecure the other got, but he couldn't help it, the other just mad him so angry!!! He felt like he needed to protect himself... but- but.. he ended up hurting the other.

He knew he should go and apologize... but he really didn't want to, the other started it so why should he Apologize first!

He shakes his head, holding it in his hands, he had to stop thinking like that... he knows that if he kept it up, he would end up regressing.. he can't afford to do that, it was too soon after the video, he had to make sure no one would come for him.. he also really didn't wanna.. he was always too lonely when he regressed, it's not like he could help it, he knows if he told the others.. they would just laugh.. just like how they laughed at his name.

Janus sighs, glancing around the room, trying to find something to focus on so that he wouldn't lose himself to his other half. He hears a knock on his door and gets up, going over and opening it.

Staring at him was the light blue side everyone knew as Patton, Janus hums, he can't say he didn't expect a visit from the light side, he knew sooner or later the other would come, he WAS basically accepted by Thomas now, so it was only time before the dad side decided to pay him a visit.

Janus tried to keep his composure and looks at the light side, clearing his throat, "good evening Patton, what do I owe the pleasure for such an intelligent, like minded individual such as yourself to come visit a dark, visious, evil, side like me?" He questions, plastering on a smirk.

"You aren't evil Janus" Patton says, using the sides real name, making said side flinch just a bit, he was definitely going to get used to that.

"Ahah, alright, whatever you say, however, you still haven't answered my question" Janus rolls his eyes a little, glancing at his gloves, his thumb picking at his fingers just a bit.

"Oh, well I was wonderingggg if you would like to uhhhh- join in on movie night with me and the others!" Patton grins happily.

Janus's eyes sparkle for a small second, movies!!! With the light sides! Did that mean candy and popcorn and- wait no! Stop!!! You clearly can't join if you are going to be like this!!!

Janus shakes his head for a bit, not noticing the concerned look on Pattons face, "kiddo?" The fatherly side questions.

Janus's head snaps up at the nickname, confusion on his face, Patton had never called him kiddo, not even once! He awhs a bit, he felt his chest swell up with joy at the nickname, but he pushed that aside, "what?" He questions.

"Is something wrong?" Patton asks, "you looked a bit dazed out when I asked you to join.. you seemed happy at first but then just stopped?"

Janus curses under his breath, "I-I'm fine, it's nothing, I just have a few things I need to get done with.."

Patton pouts a little, "awhhhh! You can't even spare one night?" He asks

"Nope! Too much work, I'm sorry Patton but this is a matter between life or death!" Janus nods to himself, forcing himself not to giggle at that little statement- damnit! That sounded too kiddish!!!!

It did make Patton giggle though, "okay kiddo, just know you're welcomed if you want to come okay?" He asks.

"Yeah, I know... now go watch your movies" Janus rolls his eyes, smirking a little.

Patton beams and nods, leaving the room and running back up the stairs to the light side.

Contrary to the light sides belief, Janus could hear all their voices, all their happiness, it made him feel every bit lonelier.

Janus bites his lip, maybe he can.. indulge his urges just for a tinyyyyy bit, but only a little!!!! And only cuz a side already talked to him! He doubts anyone else will come to see him again for the night.

Janus goes over to his nightstand and slides it a bit before pulling back a floorboard and pulling out a tiny box, he opens it and pulls out his plus snake and coloring books, he doesn't have anything else.. he can't summon much things like how the others can..

He does have a snake onesie though!!!! The thought of his snake onesie just makes him really really excited, he lets out little giggles and runs over to his closet and reaches to the far far back, he pulls it out and smiles.

The little one struggles to take off his clothes, whining a little, he does eventually get them off, however, trying to pull the onesie on was a totally different problem.

You see, Janus has been repressing his headspace for way too long, and when he finally decided to indulge in it this time, he slipped really fast, and not only that, but he slipped to a very young age, making him struggle immensely.

The bab sniffles, whining, he was really confused, which hole went where. He ended up guessing a few times and had ended up getting it on, although not zipped. It took him probably 10 tries just to get the onesie on. The zipper still remained down though, he tried zipping it but it got stuck! But.. it wasn't that bad, at least he got most of it on.

He goes over to his coloring books and grabs the strawberry shortcake one, he then grabs his 120 pack of crayons and his snakey and lays on the floor, he begins to color while listening to the others laugh from upstairs, from inside his room.

Janus slowly brings a thumb to his mouth, whimpering quietly, he sniffles a little, he wanted to be with the others, but he knew the others wouldn't accept him, they would just laugh at him..

The child tries to focus on his coloring book until he's finishing coloring his page, he smiles when he finishes and holds it up giggling, he gets up, ready to find someone to hang it up on a fridge.. before he realized, oh yeah.... he didn't have anyone...

He heard more laughter coming from upstairs and felt tears well in his eyes before he rubs them away, he gotta be a big kid, he couldn't bother the grown ups, they'd only get upset at him, he didn't wanna make them upset..

Janus gets up, thumb properly positioned in his mouth as he goes over to the tv, he turns it on like a big boy and ploped back on the floor, grabbing the controller, he looks at the pretty colors of Netflix and Hulu, he knew which colors associated with which and picked Hulu, it had Henry hugglemonster on it!!!

Janus giggles a little and plays the show, holding his stuffed snake in his arms and singing along or more like babbling along to the tune. After about 2 episodes of that he gets up, he was hungry... but he knew he couldn't go out... cuz if he went out, the others would know.. unless he bes sneaky! Maybe he can have icecream!!!!

Janus makes it his goal to be sneaky and get nummy icecream, he gets up and makes his way to the stairs, when he looks up however, he becomes a bit scared, it was so far up.. what if he trips and falls?

B-But.. But Icecream-

Janus bites his lip and takes in a deep breath, for the honor of icecream!!!!

He starts to climb the stairs, holding his stuffed snake tightly in his arms, trying to be as quiet as possible, occasionally putting a finger to his lips as if the snake could make any sound.

Once he makes it up the stairs he quietly opens the door, happy that it doesn't make a sound, also happy that the kitchen is just right there.. though.. that meant the living room was right there too..

Janus bites his lip, maybe he couldn't get icecream.. b-but maybe he could get oreos!!!! Oreos are the second best.

Keeping his giggles down, the boy moves fast to try and get oreos, the only problem was that he didn't know where they were and if the lights had them in the first place.

Janus starts with the bottom cubborts, being extra quiet, holding his snake tightly, crawling from cubbort to cubbort, but all that was in the bottom cubborts were pans and sink supplies an dumb stuff like that.

The mentally two year old pouts before looking up, giggling quietly before covering his mouth, he looks at the couch to see if anyone heard but no one turned their heads.

Alright!!! Time to continue with his plan! He climbs onto the counter shakily but also trying to be quiet, thankful that the movie the light sides were watching was really loud.. at least to him.. his ears were sensitive. So he thought that just because it was loud to him it was loud to the others to.

And yes- he did gotta climb on the counter, he was the shortest side an couldn reach, shuddup.

The boy pulls the cubbort open quietly, finding no oreos which made him pout quietly, he went to another cubbort and pulls it open, and no luck, he whines quietly, feeling his tummy rumbling, lip trembling, there was no oreos and there wasn't anything good to eat...

Janus pouts a little ready to give up till he sees one more cubborr he hasn't opened, he goes over to it, still standing on the counter and opens it quietly... wellll... theres no oreos button

There isssss Crofters!!!!

Janus gasps excitedly, maintaining quiet and grabbing the jar, he doesn't have difficulty opening it as it had been opened before it seems. It was definitely still a new jar, barely eaten out of, well until the mentality 2 year old sits on the counter, eating it with his bare hands.

The others didn't even notice that Janus was in their kitchen until Logan got up and was going to call it a night, when he seen dee eating HIS crofters, the others were quick to look where logan was looking.

Janus wasn't paying any attention to the others, he was just eating the yummy jam stuff, it was really really nummy.

Logan was furious, he makes his way over to the snake side, "hey!" He calls, scaring the life out of the bab who dropped the jar out of fear, making it shatter all over the ground.

Logan gasps as he sees the jar drop, he looks up even more angry, "what do you think you're doing!!! That was my crofters!!!" Logan exclaimed

"Logan be nice, you can share!"

"Not when he sticks his saliva filled hands into my crofters jar!!"

"Loga-" Patton starts, but stops when he hears crying, he turns to face the deceitful side, face full of shock, he did not expect this to happen.

Logan and Patton were now staring at a red faced crying Janus, it made both the sides super confused.

Virgil and Roman were also watching confused from the background, Roman a bit more frustrated that the side had came and ruined everything again!

Patton suddenly takes notice of the others attire and the plus he was holding close, listening as the boy sobs out i'm sorries.

Patton suddenly knows what's going on and so does Logan, suddenly feeling very very guilty.

Patton goes over to the child, and gently rubs a hand through his hair, "hey Jan?" He questions quietly

The sobbing child doesn't answer, trembling with the fear of getting caught and the fear of getting in trouble, he was still saying sorry over and over.

Patton quietly gets down to the others hight, even though he was sitting on the counter, patton may be the second shortest but he still was a few inches taller then jan.

"Sweetie, its okay, hey hey, in 4, hold 7, out 8, remember buddy?" Patton asks, also tapping out the pattern on the others back just in case.

Janus sobs still, but he can feet the pattern on his back and knows what to do, he inhails for 4, holds for 7 but it breaks off of 8, he was about to sob harder until patton gave him a quick assurance.

"You're doing good buddy, can we try that again hon?" He asks.

Janus nods quietly and tries again, and after a few minutes, he's doing alright, theres still tears falling down his face, but at least he wasn't panicking.

Patton smiles softly. "There we go buddy" he says gently, "do you wanna tell me what happened hon?" Patton asks in his best caretaker voice he can muster, usually Logan was the one to do this with him, but he feels like Logan wouldn't be the best at this at the moment.

"Got scawed" Janus slurs over his words sniffling, rubbing at his eyes.

"Why's that buddy?" He asks again.

"Got cawght and was bein bad" he sniffles.

"Aw kiddo, you weren't being bad" Patton says gently, running a hand through his hair.

"Uh-huh! I stow wogans cofters!" He exclaims, his little voice showing.

"Well that is a problem isn't it" Patton says making Janus nod through tears, "but I'm sure Logan can forgive you can't he?" Patton asks, looking at Logan who was watching the scene with guilt, not realizing he was being spoken too.

"Can't he" Patton nudges him, making his eyes widen, he nods, "O-Oh yes, Janus, I apologize for frightening you, it was not my intention, however, next time you want to steal my crofters, you could just asks" Logan says.

Janus looks up at him then at Patton, "M' Not in twouble?" He asks.

"Of course not! It was an accident kiddo" Patton says gently.

Virgil and Roman were watching the whole scene in confusion, why was Janus acting like a little kid? Why was Patton and Logan not questioning this? What was going on?

"Um.. Padre?" Roman calls after clearing his throat.

Patton looks over at him, "whats up kiddo?" Patton asks, tilting his head.

"What is going on? Why are you treating deceit like a kid?" Roman asks both his and Virgils questions.

Upon realizing that Patton did treat him like a kid, Janus awhs, did he know, was he gonna tell them.

"I'm afraid I can't answer that, Janus will tell you when he decides to, I'm sorry kiddos" Patton says, glancing at the boy behind him, looking at the older with awh.

Virgil looks at Logan who shakes his head, the two decide to drop it and face back to the tv.

"I think Logan and I are going to head to bed kiddos, you two don't stay up long now okay?" Patton asks

"Yes Pat" both Virgil and Roman answer.

Patton turns to Janus then to Logan, "Lo, can you clean up the glass while I go clean Jan up?" He asks

Logan nods, "sure Pat" he says, smiling softly.

"Hey Jan"

The boy looks at him, hugging his stuffy tight, getting jam all over it.

"Can I pick you up buddy"

He nods and even makes grabby hands to Patton.

Patton smiles and gently picks him up, he didn't know what he was expecting, but he was definitely NOT expecting Janus to be so light, was the boy eating right? It just added to the list of concernes he had for the other.

Patton brings the other upstairs and into the bathroom, "can you stay here for a bit kiddo?" Patton asks.

Janus looks up, he nods a little, Patton runs to his room and grabs an oversized tee and some shorts for the other, he then bites his lip, he didn't know if the other needed them, but he decided to bring them just in case.

Patton comes back to see the boy still sitting where he put him, Patton smiles, "look at you" Patton chuckles, making the younger giggle.

Patton then runs the bath and puts bubbles in for the younger, he knew that he himself liked bubbles so he assumed the other liked bubbles as well, and he was correct in his assumption, after asking the other for permission to give him a bath, the other had ended up having a giggle fit with the bubbles, he absolutely adored them, making himself a fake beard and other things, Patton even gave the baby a few toys to play with.

He was definitely overjoyed, he didn't even realize when Patton had cleaned him all up, except for his hair, when patton said to close his eyes.

Yes he was sad to get out, but he was also very tired.

"Hey Jan sweetie, I never asked before, because it was a bit chaotic, but how old are you hon?" Patton asked.

Janus held up 2 fingers but then looked at one, he held up 1, not quite sure, he was about 1 and a half now, and Patton smiles softly, he assumed the other might be on the younger spectrum, he smiles, "wow, such a big boy!" Patton smiles, makimg the little giggle happily, rubbing his eyes.

"Now Jan, I have another question for you buddy" Pat says

Janus whines quietly, he was getting tired, "I know, I know, but uh.. buddy, do you wet the bed at nights"

Janus flushes a little a whines, but he nods slightly.

Patton gently rubs his back, "its alright bud, its okay, you don't have to feel bad about it, its totally okay, I'm just going to need you to wear a diaper bud" Patton says gently, earning another whine of protest.

"I know, I know, but we don't wanna wet the bed do we?" He questions, with that thought in mind, the boy shakes his head no, making Patton smile in sympathy, "alright buddy, lets get you changed then" Pat says gently.

Pattom had to lay Janus's other pajamas to go to the washer, and thankfully Janus's snake was easy to clean without having to go into the wash, Patton would hate to hear the boy cry again, he's already been through so much In one day.

Patton changes the boy into the clothes and diaper he brought just in case and hands him his now clean snake and smiles, he picks up the boy, and holds him tight, but not too tight.

Logan was coming upstairs right as Patton came outta the bathroom with Jan in his clothing.

Logan smiles sympathetically and the child, noticing what he was wearing, though he pretended not too.

"How was bath time?" He asks both of them.

Janus snuggles against Patton titedly while Patton smiles softly, "he had quite a journey, although I think its time to put the little one to sleep" he says, smiling at the side.

Janus was already half asleep by the time Patton said those words.

Logan smiles softly, "seems so, we should go lay him down in his room" he suggests.

That seemed to wake the bab up just a little as he starts sniffling, "noooo!!" He whines quietly, hugging tightly to Patton.

Patton smirks, "you heard the boy, he said no so no's the answer" Patton chuckles.

Logan rolls his eyes and chuckles, "alright, your room then Pat?" Logan asks.

Patton nods, "my room" he says

They both walk to Pattons room, Patton lays Jaus in the middle while he gets on the right and Logan on the left, it was the first time Logan and Pat had company, but they found that they didn't mind one bit, especially when it was an adorable little snake just wanting some cuddles.

Janus obviously stayed more against Patton during the night, but during the days to follow, and the more he regressed, he found that he didn't mind Logan either, only time would tell when he would tell the other too, but for now, he only wanted his two caretakers, and one playmate.

The end

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God for real, I have no idea what to say to anything to anybody talking abt my mental health like honestly I do try to be the most honest with my therapist because I dont really talk to any1 else irl abt it but you think I know words for how I feel? no. I do feel like a goldfish. I forget everything I've ever felt when I walk into the building. Thanx 4 the good luck tho 😊❤ I also had a little moment rsd when I asked my dad something and he didn't take it seriously so I did cry, salads are really the worst thing to accidentally forget abt/ something bad happen to it😢 😐 😑 I dont even care if you talk abt hannibal, its fine! I understand! I feel like I complain abt bugs almost everytime, but 😑 I got paranoid because a flying big ass beetle was on the ceiling of my porch? And i was 👀 so I wasn't paying attention when another 1 got all up in my face. I stg it made me mad cuz wth why are bugs like that? I had some watermelon w/ brown sugar and white sugar 😌 also some taco bell 4 dinner. I did write inside of my little diary tho 😁 also im sure ur therapist didn't want to kill u 🤣 We are the same person 💗 I also therapize myself , but its just me being emotional/mentally ill and then me trying to talk myself into being logical abt it. Sometimes I feel like I dont be mentally ill and different and im normal, but once I'm around other ppl im like oh ! yea I got problems and everyone can clearly see that and 😬 I still gotta work on it. Not to say I look bad or anything, I just can't put on a normal ppl mask you know? OK good night this was also very long and rambly and all over but✌❤

UR THE BEST EVER. have i said that? its so true. the salad didnt even go bad!!!! i will eat the rest of it today hopefully! and dw i hate bugs like i totally get it😭😭 umm.. i dreamt abt captain america and the winter soldier HELP. we were like besties... idk the only thing i really remember is that they were both hilarious like the whole dream is just me laughing then stopping and then laughing again. there was other stuff but i forgot it obv. i watched a hannibal amv and the song was "take me to church" haha but it showed scenes from the last eps and i forgot i havent seen most of the last season.... like i dont think u mind but spoilers!!^__^ abigail dies and i stopped watching for like 6 months bc of that. i had to rewatch the ep too bc i didnt know exactly where i left off. which is good cuz i did miss a few important minutes at the end but i did break down and sob again. they took hannibal off netflix too so i had to watch it on effing HULU. i despise hulu. the ads are ridiculous im already paying y'all just give me the show! i brought that up bc umm... i cant believe i just QUIT season 3? its so good like i skipped around eps bc i rlly already know what happens but i will watch it all the ads r just impossible. anyway my friend just SCOLDED? ME? for eating a banana too slow????? my rsd barely like bothers me w her bc i just get pissed off like she does this stuff sometimes and it always is ridiculous. "we dont want to get gnats" by me taking a few minutes to eat a god damn banana?😐urgh. i had an awful panic attack bc my allergies are so bad i cant rlly breathe thru my nose right. n i was brushing my teeth and trying to breathe thru my mouth. n i couldn't. i have asthma btw so i was lile oh god this is some extreme asthma attack and im going to die. i did not die. i hate panic attacks like i nvr know its happening in the moment and it makes it worse. n normal ppl masks... SO RELATABLE! anyway um i dont feel like counting all whatever i said so i'll say one thing more. i brought up the hannibal here bc not bc of THAT amv but the one to hoodoo by muse😭 muse is.. big right? i really feel like i live under a rock and i've never been outside. i don't know how i'm supposed to know this stuff. anyway oh em gee. its soooo good. the video. i mean the song is too. i hate amvs where they're like good but the music sucks. even if its good music if it just doesn't vibe then it sucks. anyway idk it totally wrecked me after like seeing abigail die AGAIN and then will saying "i forgive you" and then hannibal walking away and then will n hannibal kill whatshisface together. i might just try to pirate hannibal only bc of hulu's 1-2 minute long adds every 10 minutes. i dont have that kind of patience. i'm always long and rambly do not worry❤️💗

#5 daily things #asks #like the dramatics of the song fit so well w the show. im obsessed.#pissed off at myself for stopping hannibal but literally like even watching it last night the abigail scene i was sooo upset #like they trick us into thinking she's ok🙁... not cool #ok ok im done

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I remember that night. We talked till the sun came up and you kissed me. Not like I was wanting or the kind you were hoping, but I think that's when we finally learned that there was something. I don't think I wanted to admit it, and neither did you, so we kind of just forgot about that night. I mean why would we? I was plain and you were Mr. Fourteen. I gave up on closing myself because you told me to open up. God, looking at it, we were so stupid. But I'm not saying that being angry. I'm saying that with a huge smile on my face." +

I don't remember when I fell asleep but I woke up around three. Tyler still wasn't there so it made me worried. Are you really that mad at me? I just wanted to sleep but my brain wouldn't shut off. +

I grabbed one of Tyler's hoodies and grabbed a blanket. I didn't have an exact place where I wanted to go, but I didn't want to be in the hotel right now. I know I could've just went to talk to Brooklynn, but she'd just tell me off. +

When I had gone outside, the crisp fall air hit my legs before anywhere else. I guess shorts were a mistake. +

While I was walking I was replaying everything that happened today. Why would Tyler be so mad just because he pushed me away? I mean I guess in hind sight what I said after didn't really help. +

"I promised I wouldn't hurt you and that wasn't enough!" +

"It was!" I yelled. +

"Are you sure? Because everyone thinks that I'm the one trying." +

"What am I supposed to do, I told you I didn't want to ruin our friendship! Here we are! And here you are getting ready to leave." I grab his coat and threw it at him. "Do it, like everyone else." +

"Kate, this is just you worrying." he said calmingly. +

"GO! I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!" +

"Is that what you really want?" +

"You're gonna do it anyways! Might as well let me do it on my terms." I cried. "Because that's what you want right? To leave? It's obvious, you've wanted that for a while." I looked away while he stepped closer. "Leave." +

He stood there for a moment. +

"I really did love you." +

I could feel everything crumble. After a while of not responding, he left. And everything I had to offer did too. +

I sat down at the park where Mrs. K and us talked. I just sat staring at the stars waiting for something to happen. +

"Kate, sweetie, it's time for school." I heard my mom sit on the opposite side of my bed. "You've been here all weekend." +

I didn't pull the covers from my head but I'd been awake the entire night. +

"Bumblebee." I whispered. +

"Are you sure?" She put her hand on my leg rubbing it. "It's the last one for the semester." +

"Yes please." +

"I'll call the school and tell them you've been sick all weekend. You have your concert tonight though." She kissed my head. "Don't let this bring you down." +

Brooklynn: You left me alone all weekend and now? +

Kate: We broke up. +

She didn't reply. And I stayed awake just watching my wall. That was enough. +

There was a shooting star and that's what pulled me from my thoughts. I laughed. +

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"You weren't even that special." I whispered. +

"There'll be a day you can say you're okay and mean it." I sang. Secret for the mad by Dodie was the one thing that helped me when I was down. +

"I promise you, it'll all make sense again." +

"That's the song you want to sing for Senior Night?" Mrs. K asked. +

"Why not?" I laughed. +

"It just doesn't seem like you, I mean it fits your vocal tone beautifully, and the vibrato in your voice is lovely with it." +

"But?" +

"Sweetie." She patted my arm, "We can talk if you want." +

"I know." I fake smiled. "I think when I'm fully ready, you'll be the first person I'll talk to you. I promise." +

"Alright then, I'll remember that." she smiled. "How's college searching?" +

"I found a great culinary arts school." +

"Culinary Arts? Like your father?" +

"Through everything he put me through, our best memories are cooking." I played with my ring finger. "It's all I know." +

"And music sweetie." +

"Yeah, but I'll never be good enough for that," +

"I thought the same thing once. And here I am" +

I smiled. That was the best memory between us. I mean there are a million great memories, but the one on one moments are the best. +

"Kate?" I heard Tyler say. +

I covered up in the blanket more as he sat by me. +

"What are you doing here?" +

"I couldn't sleep." I said looking up at the stars. "Never seems to shut off when I want it to." +

"Same." He whispered. +

"I think I owe you an apology." +

"For?" +

"I'm not sure." +

"Then don't" he said sweetly. "Don't do that to yourself. If you said sorry for every time I did something wrong, then you'll never trust me." +

"But what did you do?" +

"What did you do?" +

"I let you leave and didn't talk it out with you." +

He laughed. "I didn't want you to feel obligated to. If you need space that's what I'm more than happy to give you." +

"Wait." +

"Yes that's why I left." he wrapped his hands around his legs. "What were you thinking about that couldn't make you sleep." +

I laughed. "Seeing Mrs. K today and talking about my fidget just made some unhappy memories pop up." +

"Like Alec?" +

"Yeah." He didn't respond so I pushed myself. "Is there anything you really want to know about my past?" +

He looked up at me but I didn't turn towards him. +

"Uhm no not really." +

"Come on, I won't lie." +

"Okay. Why do you play with your ring finger?" +

"Ahh the basics." I laughed, "I caught it when I first met Alec. He used to comment on how I would be a "beautiful bride". It was basically his way of trying to have me open up. Our friends would call him future husband and after a while we'd laugh about it. The first time he'd ever held my hand, he grabbed my hand and played with my ring finger." I started to rub it. "For Christmas, he bought me a little ring to put on it so I had something to play with. It was the first time he'd shown that he liked me. I always thought it was a game with him." +

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"So you didn't trust him when you first met him?" +

"No," I looked at the stars, "I didn't really like trusting guys." +

"Why?" +

"My dad." I grinned, "How cliché? The one guy who should give me unconditional love and make me think I'm really beautiful, actually made me think the opposite." +

"Did he ever-" +

"No, all emotional trauma. If I wore something tight fitting, he'd call me too fat. If I wore makeup it was too much. If I was asked out, he'd ask who'd ask me out. After a while I started to wear long sleeved shirts and pants every day. Even in the summer. Then my sophomore year, I didn't eat, and he'd tell me off. Asking why am I taking the easy way out. How is starving yourself to a certain image the easy way out? I had started to get so bad, I fainted in certain times. Basically anything he saw wrong with me, I saw wrong with myself times ten." +

"Oh." Was his only response. +

"Next question?" +

"Uhm, do you ever think you could fall in love again?" +

My heart stopped. "Sometimes I wonder that myself. But then I ask am I really capable of it?" +

"What do you mean?" +

"Like, I love seeing people in love. It's beautiful. Not just the honeymoon stage, but when you see a couple and know, yeah they fight, but they choose to give each other space, to think about if the fight was important or not. Then they pretend it didn't happen or they move passed it. It makes them stronger. It's like the strongest friendship, but more. I see that and I think, am I capable of that?" +

"And?" +

"I mean that's what we did." I didn't look at him but I saw from the corner of my eye that his mouth slightly opened. "I'm not saying I'm in love with you, but I'm also not saying I wouldn't be able to." +

"With me?" +

"With anyone." His jaw clenched. "The idea of opening up to someone scares me." I continued. "Think of it, if the men who are supposed to love you, support you, treat you with respect and dignity, if they chose to do the opposite, could you learn to love or even fathom the idea of it?" +

"I have." It was his turn. "My mom, we have a strange relationship, it's nothing like you and your dad, but it's close. She blamed me for my sister getting sick, when we first found out, and when I wanted to come and listen to what the doctors had to say, she'd just tell me no. She'd blame me for it." +

"I'm so sorry.." +

"Well after awhile I gave up on our relationship, how can you blame someone who had no iea what was going on?" +

"You can't." +

"But she did." his voice broke. "I think that's why I have such a strange relationship with girls, "Jennifers and Carries" they make it easy. Because I can shut it down. I can just refuse to get close to them, and they'll take a hint. Other than my sister, I've never had a strong connection with woman." +

"So you're scared." I said silently. "Of being hurt again. Of trying to jump and not knowing if that person is going to catch you or just leave." +

We didn't say anything for a while. But I took his hand. It wasn't in the romantic sense. I wanted him to know I'm willing to catch him if he was willing to do the same. Neither of us knew how to connect with someone of the opposite sex, and just grabbing his hand, it was the first step. +

"Together," I started. "I want us to take baby steps together." +

"In a romantic way?" +

I laughed, "No bozo, in a platonic way. Neither you nor I have any real sense on trust. you preach to me about dating but you've yet to notice we're in the same boat." I nudged him. "So why not take the same ride and see where we go." +

"As friends?" +

"As friends." +

"And if one day, one of us decides we want something more?" he squeezed my hand but he couldn't tell he was squeezing my heart too. +

"Then the other one has to be just as ready." I looked at him. "Deal?" +

"Is this your idea of asking me out in the future?" +

"No." I smiled noticing he was leaning in closer. "Because neither of us know if this'll work." +

"I have a pretty good idea that it will." He said inches from my face. Just before I could pull away he kissed me on the forehead. "When you're ready." He whispered. +

We sat there for a moment looking at each other and for a moment I could feel every negative thought drift away. He smiled and it made me smile just as wide. +

"There you are!" I heard a female voice squeal and I jumped away from him. "Tyler you forgot your key in my car." +

"Oh uhm thanks Lacey." He coughed. +

"Who's this?" we asked in unison. +

"Oh Lacey this is Kate the friend I told you about, Kate this is Lacey, I met her in a bar on my walk." +

And all the bad thoughts were back but they weren't about me. No they were about Lacey and Tyler. He looked at me and under the blankets squeezed my hand. +

"Pleasure meeting you Lacey." I smile letting go of Tyler's hand and getting up, "I guess you two should continue getting to know each other." +

"Are you his girlfriend?" The young blonde asked. +

"No." Tyler said before I could, "We're just friends." +

"Then why is she wearing a hoodie with your last name?" She pointed her hand at me. +

"Believe it or not friends share clothes." I laugh taking it off and handing it to her. "Believe me when I say, if he remembered your name after a while, you've got no threat from me. I'm just a friend." I strained. "Anyways, I need to pack, I've gotta get back to Pueblo tomorrow." +

Tyler stood up and grabbed my hand, "But we weren't supposed to go back till Monday." +

"Silly me, I forgot I put in a three day weekend." I smiled. "Again it was nice meeting you Lacey, you're in great hands with him." +

And I walked back to the hotel without my blanket, his hoodie, or a clear mind. +

"Stupid." I whispered to myself

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