#(and so much SUFFERING being apart)

[literallyjusttoa]

Left this abandoned in the drafts (which is a bit ironic) but it's a spin on this post, where instead of Apollo just being locked in some room on Olympus somewhere, he's bound to the ruins of an abandoned Ancient Greek city. Maybe somewhere near Delphi, maybe Troy, idk.

#trials of apollo #toa apollo #lester papadopoulos #sunny speaks #would this count as another au? idk #apollart #I got this Idea after learning about ancient Thera (which I can't believe I didn't know about before) #It was kind of the Ancient Greek equivalent to Pompeii? Except the volcanic eruption was MUCH more catastrophic #but because the eruption was so big the people on the island had warning signs for like a decade before it happened #So we have ruins that have been perfectly preserved but there are no bodies #Bc all the people were able to evacuate before the disaster #I mean there aren't even animal corpses at these sites they got everyone out #Fun fact this is also considered to be a large reason why Minoan civilization ended up falling apart #ANYWAYS all that aside I heard “abandoned ruins that have been perfectly preserved in ash” and immediately thought “Hmmmm yes ... suffering #Though to be clear I would not put Apollo in the ruins of ancient Thera (Tho the thought of him being the local cryptid of Santorini is fun #But you know what other city was burned to the ground? Heeheehee

[harmonysanreads]

Aventurine? More like ANGSTTURINE.

#thy brain is mush #on the verge of a breakdown #wtf was that ending #what on earth is even going on here????????? #i knew it was going to happen to aventurine but 😭😭😭 #was i prepared? kind of #did i still feel like my heart was being torn apart? yes #did i hated it so much but couldn't complain because this is written so well?? of course #does it still hurt? hahahahahahaha #seriously... i'm going to make sunday suffer don't ask #shaoji cooked so hard he cooked us all in the process #how do i even recover from this #if any of y'all want to cry with me plz #harmony suffers #hsr spoilers #hsr #harmonysan.txt

[aroaceleovaldez]

Every description about Nico (especially the canon ones) describing him as “cold” can personally fight me. Nico is jaded, yes, and often closed-off and sometimes stand-offish and defensive but he is not "cold”. He cares SO SO SO MUCH about EVERYONE. He loves and cares with his entire heart constantly and that is a core part of his character. He doesn’t often make public shows of his affection but he takes care to be kind when it matters and doesn’t hide that he does care (usually, the only exception really being him being in the closet, but even then he only hid his crush specifically and not the fact that Percy is important to him). He fine with hugging his friends in front of a crowd and will sit with strangers at a campfire just so they’re not alone. I mean, heck, he’s an extrovert! We know this! He actively seeks out people and gets lonely very quickly and easily! If he can’t talk to living people he will chat with the dead! That’s how much he thrives on being social!

The only time Nico has ever been actively “cold” was the couple of months between TTC and BoTL when he was actively mourning Bianca. Nico is not “cold.” He loves so much and he does show it, just in his own way.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #analysis #brought to you by: I saw a blurb for TSATS that said something like ''Will melted through Nico's icy heart/cold exterior'' #and it made me want to tear something apart with my teeth because of how Blatantly Incorrect that is #like that is a disservice to both their characters. #a.) Will did not ''fix'' Nico or ''change'' him or anything. He is just a source of joy in Nico's life #TOA even explicitly acknowledges that them dating did not ''fix'' Nico and that Nico is actively getting outside help for his trauma/etc #and b.) Nico is not cold!!! He has never been a cold person!!! there's a reason ''emo'' is short for ''emotional!'' #Nico's character is ENTIRELY DRIVEN BY LOVE AND CARE FOR OTHER PEOPLE #yes he's jaded but he's only jaded in a way of being afraid of letting people into his life because he's afraid to lose them #not that it stops him because it sure does keep happening anyways because SURPRISE. HE LOVES TOO MUCH. #HE LITERALLY CANNOT HELP HIMSELF HE LOVES PEOPLE SO STRONGLY AND SO DEEPLY HE CANNOT STAY JADED ABOUT IT #he just keeps going ''Okay *THIS* time I won't let this person into my life to risk heartbreak- AW FUCK I'VE DONE IT AGAIN'' #SO MUCH of his character is entirely driven by ''I care about people. I dont want them to suffer what i have suffered or suffer at all'' #like really the only times we ever see Nico being actively angry/snappy at people #is like a.) He is either actively being majorly hurt or has just recently been majorly hurt (Bianca's death. Being outed. etc) #b.) Someone is hurting others is going to bring harm to others (Calling out his dad in TLO. Killing Bryce) #or c.) Someone is doubting or calling into question his lived experiences (Basically any scene where people say he's pushing people away) #other than that Nico actually tends to give people way more lenience than necessary. he will put up with a LOT #and he won't even call people out on it or hold a grudge about it (i see you alleged Nico's fatal flaw. you're wrong) #unless it's like. something A Lot Of People Do Often (ex: push him away/exclude him/etc) #at which point he might be like. mildly upset about it but not much more then that. which is just a normal measured response. #anyways Nico's not cold he's just autistic

[moreaugriffins]

You know, episodes-wise, Egon's Ghost and The Boogeyman is Back, aren't that far away from each other (Season 2, episode 60, and Season 3 episode 3. about 8 episodes apart)

Can you imagine almost/kinda dying and ending up in the Netherworld (not to be confused with the Netherlands), and then, like, a few months later, almost dying again?

No wonder Egon was so terrified it brought the Boogeyman back. Sure they risk their lives each day but those were two incidences where death was very real for him, and they weren't too far away from each other

#rambles #the real ghostbusters #ghostbusters #egon spengler #just watched Egon's Ghost so that's why this is on my mind #also they never specify how much time passes between episodes #but i doubt it's years apart #egon suffers from the curse of being the genius (the writers have to find ways to stop him from solving the problem and that often means #death - or kidnap - or being possessed - or not being able to function because of xyz) #he also bodyswapped with a demon 3 episodes after Egon's Ghost so... yknow #it's a fun cartoon from the 80s - the trauma never lasts longer than an episode at most - but my god is it interesting to think about

[itspileofgoodthings]

things I love about my apartment:

there is a tiny balcony

there is a railway track right next to the window so sometimes a train comes right by and it’s very exciting

the vibe is tasteful grandma chic

#credit to Nina’s decorating/thrifting skills #like it’s soooooo cute and feminine and there are pictures and china and patterned chairs and rugs everywhere #it’s great. I’m very lucky #also I have my own room which is insane to me #my life #I love to complain and suffer all the time but tbh so much of the pain comes from living in my head instead of in my apartment #because being in my head is a gross place to be a lot of the time

[lord-squiggletits]

I must admit I'm getting this horrible image in my head of Tarn as that type of creepy guy who donates way too much money to a streamer and then absolutely loses it when he hears they're not single.

That's probably accurate lol. Although unlike (seemingly) most people in this fandom, I blame Megatron more for turning Tarn into that kind of obsessed freak than I do Tarn for being a freak. I mean, my view is basically "you reap what you sow/the monster you created turned around and bit you" so I don't really have sympathy for Megatron with regards to Tarn showing up and ruining his life lol. I actually really like the DJD coming in MTMTE as basically the living embodiment of karma and Megatron's comeuppance about not being able to run away from/ignore his past.

Like blah blah "no matter how sad your backstory is you're still responsible for your own actions" but also Megatron is literally 100% the reason Tarn is Like That, and Megatron also used parasocial manipulation, propaganda, and his grandiose personality to manipulate the Decepticons into worshipping/following him without question. So like. It's fiction, I don't have to be all "well they're all problematic" I can just be like "lol, lmao even" and point and laugh as Megatron gets fucked up by Tarn and the DJD because he can't talk his way out of this problem.

#squiggle answers #i'm not mad at you or thinking you're saying anything #i'm just very fond of dying of the light and i enjoy megatron suffering #i love how dying of the light is like megatron's personal torment nexus of getting trapped by his bad decisions #but also getting other people dragged down with him by accident #and then he's so fucking pathetic that he can't even compromise his 'pacifism' to save those people he dragged down #and then he lashes out in anger and becomes violent and hateful again and slaughters the whole DJD #i love that shit. love when megatron is fucked up and dysfunctional #i'm not saying i wanted him to become WORSE and like die a horrible fate per se #i'm just saying that i disagree with most of the fandom when they're like aww let this old man rest and tarn should fuck off he's a loser #i'm like nah. put megatron in the blender. don't let him just suddenly decide to be a pacifist and then that's it. make him fuck up #ough sorry it's just. i like megatron getting better but i also like him staying bad lol #like i want him to get redeemed but i also still want him to be fucked up and full of anger and hatred. if that makes sense #but yeah. not to be a tarn defender or anything but like #sometimes the fandom seems like it listened too much to the part where megatron was like #'i was happy i was at peace and you ruined everything' #meanwhile i'm sitting there like: yeah they ruined it. and so what. it's your fault. you don't get to be peaceful and happy #when you still have mistakes that you need to address and do something about instead of running away #muah. muah. muah. love dying of the light #i wanted to rip megatron apart from being so pathetic but i was also like. awww sad old man #mostly i wanted to rip him apart tho lol

[bloomfish]

Be prepared for a fair amount of Buffy analysis since I'm rewatching (I'll tag this 'btvs thoughts' if anyone wants to blacklist) and it's simply that few other Medias have ever had such a grip on my brain and to me is Most Analysable Series of all time. I have so many thoughts about it, so many intense mixed feelings about it, and for all its flaws (which honestly make it MORE worth thinking about imo. It's like a toxic relationship lol the highs are so high and the lows are so low) I just think there's nothing else like it. Even other whedon shows, firefly is good and I love it but not nearly as much, which tbh just proves to me that Joss Demon wasn't really the sole driving force behind Buffy's unmatched brilliance although obviously he was a major factor. anyway. Truly the most intense love-hate relationship I will ever experience

#its so funny/tragic that he hated spike so much but everyone loved him anyway #he tried his best to make him hateable and everyone was like no i love that pathetic mamas boy #him literally physically assaulting james marsters bc he was mad about his character being popular.... #aka being more popular than his self insert xander #also im not going to preface everything w a disclaimer of how much i hate joss demon as a person that should go without saying #nor am i ignoring the Problematic Aspects trust me they have plagued me for over a decade. ive suffered #btvs thoughts #btvs #oh and apart from firefly and angel (which im just including) nothing he's done has been that good lol. #i enjoyed dollhouse but it def fell short of what it was trying to do #but either way I don't believe that being a shit person is a necessary reflection on the quality of someones work #i think that of itself is a lazy and irresponsible way to interact with media. bc it's a lie. so it inhibits objective criticism

[dix-rose]

It’s such a foreign concept to me that bad people get to be happy. I know we as people make our own happiness but I don’t understand how people who went out of their way to hurt people get to be happy while the people they hurt have to suffer with what they did to them.

#stupid shit #I lurked again #I want her to suffer so much which makes me a bad human being but it is truly not fair #it’s not fair that we live in this narrative that she’s the uwu soft I just love to spread kindness girl #even though we ALL KNOW she wasn’t #it was a stupid TikTok I watched of hers #she went through each month one by one and ranked them based on what happened and it was SO sugarcoated #‘my friend group started to fall apart (for the best)’ #yeah maybe it fell apart because you were lying to everyone about being sexually assaulted???? #and that your BEST FRIEND tried kissing you when everyone knew damn well that she would NEVER because she loves her boyfriend to death #or what about the time where you cheated on your then boyfriend with two #maybe three other guys??? #and what about you calling off work every other day claiming you were sick but you really just didn’t want to come in??? #then you have to take a leave of absence because you were too sick to stand up but I guess not too sick to go to Disney #weird huh #then she goes on how she ‘found happiness’ being closer with her family and old friends #yeah I guess you had to do that because everyone knew all of the shit that she’d do #I hope your boyfriend breaks up with you because you deserve nothing homegirl ❤️🥰🫶🫰

[ferdydurke]

God if i had an apartment i think i could complain about nothing in life.

#barking #i love my grandpa so much that being said hes been offered to move in with both his girlfriend and my father #and he doesnt want to and i get that. but i want his apartment so bad. id have so much gay sex and dnd sessions in there #bc its not like. unimaginably difficult to get to from the city like my house is. #but its ok sigh. suffering builds character im lucky i can even have a hope like that

[silenthillbunni]

Why would you wish your neighbors to fkn die just because they make noise?

gosh some ppl are way too sensitive and cant handle ppl saying anything at all huh

#bc im angry and they are RUINING MY DAY EVERY SINGLE DAY #bc they make noise that wouldnt be heard if they didnt live in next to empty apartments #bc im extremely nosie sensitive and get sensory overload very easily and noise makes me suicidal and homicidal #good for you that you dont care!!!! you are FORTUNATE for not being this heavily affected by noise. you're not better than me. ur lucky #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it makes me so annoyed that ppl like u just cant handle mentally ill ppl VENTING. #am i sending them death threats? no. am i beating them up? no. am i sending complaints to them? no. i am enduring my suffering #bc we live in a world where nobody cares abt ppl who arent normal. i am in genuine physical pain bc of this everyday #do u think this is fun for me???? do u think i want to be like this? no! i'd kille to be like u who can walk unaffected thru life!!!!!! #do u think i enjoy spending my days in agony just bc noise upsets me? i cant fkn focus on my school work!!!!!!! or anything else!!!!!!!!! #do u know that there is NOTHING i can do? i have to accept a life of daily torment bc im noise sensitive #if society allowed me i'd live in specific apartments designed for noise sensitive ppl. or in a cottage on the countryside #but society dont give a fuck abt ppl who diverge from being normal #also omfg just bc i vent and say i wish they died dont mean i actually genuinely want them to die #why are y'all so black and white?????? why is it so hard to understand that just bc u express smth in anger dont mean u ACTUALLY want it #tbh y'all are too much. and fkn unfair. ppl are actually allowed to vent in anger and let out steam and not suppress their emotions #i have never done anything to cause another person harm. i even have high blood pressure bc im so stressed out yet i never do anything #i have done NOTHING to harm my neighbors. the only thing i do is vent on my blog #do u really think theyre magically gonna die just bc i vent abt it??????? #bro fuck off you made me even angrier like if u cant handle ppl expressing ugly thoughts #u and i are not compatible bc *i* know that u need to express things u might not even mean #but u clearly dont and need everyone to be uwu peace and love and perfect so just leave me alone go awayyyyyyyyyyy

[spectrum-core]

every now and then ill think "yeah im probably exaggerating theres no way my stomach pains get that bad" just to be hit with the both metaphorical and literal punch in the gut of realizing that my stomach pains do in fact get that bad.

#personal #i cant move my fucking legs because it hurts that much #and this shit happens regularly too #its been worse this year pressumably because i changed my meds #and you can tell my studies have fucking suffered because of it #gotta love being unable to even touch my notebooks for a week straight because my entire body hurts so much i cant think #and nothing fixes it. the closest to fixes i can get will only make the pain somewhat more bearable #which isnt a particularly high standard when the usual threshold is 'cant fucking think much less move' #the few meds that actually do something usually knock me out almost instantly #and by the time i wake up everything hurts again #and i barely have enough time or money to do shit about it bc the cheap healthcare is far from my apartment #yes im having a tummyache again and im so so SO tired of having to be brave about this

[katzehunde]

is it just me or is the "aubrey is reduced to being omori's fangirl" take kinda,, wrong,,, there's only like 2-3 minor scenes where's she's shown to have a crush on omori and her main characteristic is that she's the strong one with the bat and a literal hard head. she's characterised as a normal child other than that. if the headspace characters seem simple then there are explanations for that that don't involve sunny being a jerk or whatever . sunny hasn't seen them in years, he presumably made them up when he was a child himself after mari's death so he made them the same way a child would, without accounting for complex personalities. hero is the caring older friend that cooks, aubrey's the strong one who looks up to mari and has a friendly rivalry with kel, kel's the hyperactive kid with a pet rock, basil's the shy friend who grows plants and takes pictures, and mari's the caring older sister that shows up with a picnic basket when needed, but is safe and unharmed otherwise. the headspace's a happy place where omori goes on adventures with his happy friends and comes back to his living, happy sister when he isn't punishing himself by staying in the white room and stabbing himself in the stomach. literal trauma response, he feels guilty over killing mari so he stays in the white room most days, all alone, rarely spending time with his headspace friends and when he does meet them they're happy to see him and there's nothing wrong and his friends include him in their group even when he stays silent most of the time. he doesn't get 100% closure or comfort from this but it's better than killing himself over and over again in his dreams. he's buried his memories so carefully and his headspace falls apart so quickly despite him trying to avoid everything, all his friends suddenly got jobs under a worker-exploiting shark to distract him from how ugly and wrong the real world was so that he'd bury himself deeper into the headspace and forget the real world exists, with him moving away from his hometown and friends and his house already sold to someone, mari dead, aubrey supposedly a bully and a thug with awful loser friends, and basil picked on and desperate to get his album back from aubrey, and it gets worse and falls apart more quickly as time goes on and the headspace turns into a terrible, unbearable nightmarish place until sunny finally comes to terms with his life.

#omori #omori game #omori sunny #omori aubrey #omori mari #omori kel #omori hero #also idk how to explain this but. the characters see their headspace selves and get mad about how theyre imagined au is so insidious....... #thats sunny's outlet for his grief Not some fantasies he makes in his mancave™ about the world revolving around him.. #if he isnt 'safe' from others in his own mind then whats the point of him being a hikikomori and having a headspace. #this game's really effective at making you feel what it wants you to #come to terms with maris death and get hope that all of you can live a happy life again and have it all fall apart at the seams #when you realise you accidentally killed mari and that basil helped to make it look like a suicide to protect you but that made it WORSE- #-for you. if the truth had been out to your friends from the beginning then you probably wouldnt have suffered as much mentally #its a great game if you understand that its about grief #point flying over audience's head png but the audience's view says 'wow fun headspace! you should invite the friends you cant face irl'

[pepprs]

not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol

#purrs #it is normal obviously. but it’s SO fucking frustrating like omfg the amount of time i lose every single month to being in pain like this #FOR NO REASON and like half the global population has to deal w that and it’s like it’s nothing. idk. despair and suffering and misery #delete later #menstruation tw #the thing that really gets me abt it is how my mom (ik i said i would stop complaining abt her on here but we have been fighting all month #LOL so im giving myself permission) gets so fucking pissed at me and my sister when we’re in too much pain to do chores bc she thinks we’re #being lazy / making excuses and then she compares us to o it brother like.. omg um YOU should know how painful this can be first of all and #second of all why would you even make that comparison when he doesn’t lose a third of his life to his body trying to tear itself apart! lol! #and yes i could work from home or calll out sick but consider: i am mentally illabout not being at work. which * is gonna be on my ass abt w #when they hear me say that bc i know im gonna make a whole awkward big deal abt my heating pad. UGHHHHH embarrassing lmaooooo #like why do people have REGULAR B*DILY F*NCTIONS!!!!! REGULAR!!!!!!! that REGULARLY put them in this amount of pain and we have to just deal #with that like it’s nothing and be discreet about and whatever. ew i sound like um… someone who cares too much abt stuff like this lol but I #im so mad abt it rn like oh my GOD can the pain just not be part of it can we just evolve to get rid of that or put structures in place in a #society for ppl to be more accepting / supporting / whatever of it. please please please please please #(also goes for more than just p*riods btw. like imagine if as a society we had things in place for ppl who are regularly in #chronic ​pain of any kind 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 what a world that would be 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 wow i sure hope it happens in my lifetime 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍)

[tvxcue]

society if sam had died in the panic room............................................

#not ideal ending bc the fun comes from the fallout of dean realizing he killed sam but i think that would have been so fucking good. #dean needs to kill sam and have to deal with the consequences of being his brother's killer he needs to become cain. #but not spn cain who ends up being justified bc of his suffering booooooo they didn't even cast abel #he should suffer tho. he should be torn apart by guilt but unable to truly comprehend it as guilt bc he so truly believes himself to be righ #in trying to 'save' sam and at least he died human but his brother is dead and it's dean's fault. i want to break his brain. #i just think dean threatened to kill sam wayyyyyy too much to never actually deliver on it and i think the fact that he never delivered #on it makes it so that dynamic continues bc sure he did literally try to kill sam but he DIDN'T so it's fine. he's fine. they're fine. #they don't need to talk abt it dean doesn't need to think abt it okay. he wasn't wrong. #speaking #also the thing abt sam dying in the panic room is that it's the most 'justified' he gets bc dean truly believed he was right. #like with the mark of cain he would have known he was wrong so feeling guilty abt that would be like. acceptable. #he can't feel guilty for the panic room bc he was right he made the right choice he needed to save sam he made the right choice it wasn't #his fault it wasn't and it was better than leaving sam as he was and and and

[xcziel]

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#this year is just the weirdest christmas vibe i've ever had goning on #i have all the stuff for a hallmark-y christmas: it's cold for once on christmas eve! i have a kitchen and a bare tree #but family is overworked and stressed and and i'm sick and worn out from retail so no visiting or sharing baking #so no reason to bake or decorate - even though i fully have the ability! the things are sitting out i am looking at them #but i just want to bury in the bed and read sad or schmoopy fanfic instead #i just can't get in the mood and it's so disappointing bc i remember loving having like #christmas music on and singing along and baking and i never could do much in my apartment bc of it being so small etc #and now i have a full big kitchen counter and could have the tree i always wanted and play christmas cartoons loudly #and it wouldn't bother anyone and there's lights up in the neighborhood i could go see but #i'm just so exhausted and generally discouraged and it's the MOST first world of situations but i may never get #another chance to have a christmas like this and who knows where/how i'll be next year ... #maybe it's really just the not being able to bake - like i don't even really feel like it but i still get sudden impulses #and it's like nope no family to cart tins of cookies to - can't take them or cake to work bc don't want to risk people getting sick #tempted to just force myself into christmas spirit but then the apathy just rolls back over me #i'm so worried about my bil and sister who are stressed bc if medication shortages #and all y'all who are suffering power outages and winter weather onslaught and stressful weekend plan changes #and seasonal overwork and all that entails i'm worried for you also and wishing for everything to be better and go well for you #it just feels like everyone's having an anxious exhsusting holiday season this year and i would like so much better for us #than just 'making it through' #ugh now i'm making myself sappy and teary again #whatever - anybody bothering to read this just know i wish you warmth happiness and joy however they may come to you #hug your loved ones if you can love on your pets eat something for a treat and look at some pretty lights this evening #i maybe am gonna light some candles and put on music and see if my sis wants to call or facetime later #but first my rx are finally filled so i have to go fetch them #happy holidays whoever reads this - mutuals i love you and wish you the best may your evening be merry and bright #or at least warm!

[longagoitwastuesday]

“Voyage dans la Lune”, Cyrano de Bergerac (Comédie-Française, Denis Podalydès)

#Cyrano #Christian #Roxane #De Guiche #Cyrano de Bergerac #Voyage dans la Lune #Edmond Rostand #I talk too much #About books #The best moment by far here are the few seconds before the actual scene I didn't cut off #When Christian remains fixed in his place looking at Cyrano until Roxane takes him away. That is A CHOICE #I could tear my face apart due to the possible implications and the angst on both sides! The love and understanding between both men? #Is Christian still doubtful as when he changed his mind about the kiss? And yet the deep grief and betrayal when he learns of the letters #The enormous reaction Christian has during that scene. Is he suffering not just for the betrayal of Cyrano but because #he feels he should have known and indeed suspected it so he also has to endure the weight and pain of being himself a betrayer? #Of playing blind because it was more convenient and Cyrano didn't say anything at all? #Or perhaps it's nothing like that but I feel this little moment adds a lot to the Christian/Cyrano dynamic and to that scene in particular #Other than that I find this staging of the scene too long boring and honestly uninspired #(I almost didn't upload this clip tbh I am doing so more for archivistic reasons than anything else) #Even more so considering the dreamy air some other scenes have in this production #I was so looking forwards to their take in this scene and it was such a let down #(perhaps Cyrano patting de Guiche isnt bad either. As if pitying him a bit maybe?finding him cute despite himself? or just to laugh at him?) #I wonder how the Teatro Eliseo approached this scene. It could be so beautiful #I've sent them a few messages using different means asking how to watch a video of their production. I hope someone will answer #Wait is that Christian or the Capuchin? Ugh why am I so bad at recognising people #(Edit: 04/06/2023)