#'Am I trans? Test'

[thearoaceshark]

Donnie: Whoever took my laptop forgot to delete the history.

Leo: *cold sweat*

#'I'm a boy but I think I want to be a girl?' #'What is trans?' #'Am I trans? Test' #'How to be sure I'm trans?' #'How do I tell my family that I am trans?' #'How do I know if my family and friends are transphobic?' #Mentally she is already packing her things and saying goodbye to the lair #2012 leo #2012 donnie #transfem leo #transgender #incorrect quotes

[popcornkwantum]

:D I love Nicky so much

I'll be making these into (handmade) stickers and will be giving them out for FREE at both the upcoming Elfia event and at Heroes Dutch Comic Con (summer edition)

I actually don't think anyone from the Netherlands follows me on here but uuuhh if you do plan on going to one/both events, keep an eye out for someone in a badly made Taylor cosplay and you will be granted with one of these bad bois >:)

#the last (and first time) I did this it took me like 3 HOURS to make only 30 ish stickers lol #and it was at like 1 am at the night before the event #but this time I'm more prepared #and I just tested out a new way to make them which is SO MUCH MORE EFFICIENT #and IT. WORKS. TOO. #I'll also be remaking a few from last year #also; yes I did look into just ordering them online but I'm not going to spend 100+ euros on stickers that I'm going to give away for free #and investing into a printer and sticker paper and laminate stuff is a bit too expensive right now as well #so I'd rather make these by hand with all my blood sweat and tears and spend that money on the artist alley instead :D #dndads #here we go with all versions of spelling Nicky's name again #dndads nicky #nicky close #nicky foster #nicholas close #nicholas foster #nicky close foster #nick #trans nicky #trans #my favorite trans guy #dungeons and daddies #my art #elfia #HDCC #teen nicky #demon nicky #so mannyy tagss

[gay-thoughts-all-day]

my partner says hi in a slightly excited tone and all of a sudden my brain goes into dog mode or something and i get all excited and wiggle around

#i would benefit from a tail #/hj #for a cat coded person i am surprisingly dog coded when it comes to them sometimes #mlm #nblm #mlnb #trans mlm #achillean #gay #mlm yearning #mlm thoughts #t4t mlm #gay pride #mlnb thoughts #queue-test guy

[nerime]

my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! 😡😭😡😭

#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh #they keep coming back to the topic #and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept #in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well #and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else #my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip #and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said #sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys) #and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative #while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else #and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something' #wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore #and she went like hm 🤔 #also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly #in a nasty way #all of them do #im so tired #she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people #and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up #and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me #sorry i am on a work trip and suffering #transphobia tw #neri stfu

[puppygirlgirldick]

for the purposes of reading porn, i am now considering myself a trans girl who somehow has a cervix and a womb. if people can't be arsed to write smut without referencing wombs and cervixes and making specific note of somebody having both a vagina and an asshole or write shit like "all three holes" then i am just gonna get high enough to forget that i ain't got that kinda equipment.

#this is a complaint but it is a complaint that will also lead to me feeding my breeding kink #so it's a win win situation really #but no for real it's twenty fuckin 24. write inclusive porn. it's not that fucking hard. or just #be up front. and say your shit isn't for transfems (or for pre/non-op ones). that's fine. sometimes shit isn't for you (me) and that's fine #i might think your kinda jerk. but in the same way that i think someone getting pizza delivered to their house is a jerk cuz i don't get an #not the end of the world. #just kinda sucks to get halfway through something relatable and then whoops here's a reminder y'all weren't thinking about trans women agai #maybe that's a me thing not being able to imagine having that equipment and more weed will fix it. i'll be testing that theory #the tags are longer than the post at this point because i am unhinged and i cannot be stopped. sorry.

[trans-axolotl]

it's getting cold + snowing in my city and I am so fucking angry because this year cops have evicted more encampments then we can ever remember them doing in like the past five years. it keeps happening when we're going to do outreach + mobile syringe exchange and we'll drive past the spots we always go to and our neighbors are just gone, because in the middle of the night without announcing it cops evicted everyone. and like they've been doing this shit for years but it is so much worse this year. they've put in so much more new anti homeless and anti sex work architecture this year and even though there's some rad ppl fucking it up, there's still so much. and i'm just fucking livid every time we go out there for overnight outreach and all my sex worker friends tell me how much more cops are harassing them this year like. fuck this shit so much. stop criminalizing survival. we keep losing track of so many ppl because of this and we keep having to wonder who's alive and who died bc the cops trashed their tent and it's fucking below freezing outside. we lost four people in october and november who were murdered for being trans sex workers and it's just. there is so much grief and there is so much anger and i want to tear it all down

#personal #fuck you. fuck you for hurting my friends. #i am still so fucked up about the people we've lost like. they were my comrades and they were SO loved and they did so fuckign much #and now we all have to live in a world without them #i feel like that's one of the shittiest things about being a sex worker is the amount of people all of us have lost. all of us #harm reduction #vent #also fuck all the nonprofits and grant people or whatever. for fuckign hoarding resources and spending money on 'development directors' #we need more handwarmers. we need more funds for stems + syringes + condoms. we need trans specific services back again #stop hoarding the shit you have. stop saying you're doing “harm reduction” when you pay your executives 95k a year and REQUIRE YOUR EMPLOYE #TO SUBMIT TO DRUG TESTING. there is no world in which that is harm reduction there is no world where that is liberatory

[somekindafairy]

a guy

#now with his coochie censored for tumblr (i tested and i lost) #hey y'all i did a digital art 🫣 #i had a desire and decided to not think too hard and just do it quick and dirty so uh...don't judge my anatomy too harshly plz #it's been a while #trans artist #trans art #my art #he was supposed to have a cow's head but i got kinda carried away so he's a whole chimera now #am i working through some things with my body? maybe so #transgender #transmasc #queer art

[horizoncollective]

Many new followers so please leave if you're someone who is weird about how adults play pretend when they're alone or with other consenting adults

You won't enjoy this blog if you're someone who gets judgmental about the porn people read or the tags they like on ao3 or booru sites like e621.

#blog housekeeping #I am NB and have a lot of trans followers and I owe it to us all to keep purity testing losers away from us #this blog does not allow calvinism & puritanism except for jokes

[vshouse]

[Minors and ageless blogs will be blocked]

Stupid fucking mutt. You can't just breed any fucking animal you see! I'm not even a dog, I'm a fox. Like yeah we're both canines but you can't breed me!

Well No I've never tried but that's ridiculous! You're a dog and I'm a Fox! I wouldn't think about those things with a dog involved. You have much bigger teeth than me. And you're so much larger. Your barks are too loud and you're always with people. Or maybe not a mutt like you...

That still doesn't mean I want you to touch me though. You still are probably too big to fit in me anyway. Even if I let you lap it me with that big wet tongue first.

Hey what are you- Stop it! Don't put your nose there. You're not going to smell anything for you. That wetness is from something else! It's from... um- another fox saw passing earlier- no wait that sounds like-

Okay fine maybe all this talking about it did make me curious... But that's stil not a reason fo us to-

Oh fuck.

Your tongue is so big. Even just one lick and I can feel your nasty mutt slobber all between my legs.

Hmm. Well maybe we can try breeding me once you stupid mutt... just to show you you're wrong. But only once! Once you're wrong I'll never need your knot again so don't bother asking.

#and then im the one who ask to test it again #i need avferal dog to mount me #pet pl4y #pet pl@y #bd/sm pet #bd/sm mutt #dumb mutt #foxplay #bd/sm fox #but i am once again being weird about it #nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #poly nsft #bi nsft #vschat #🦊

[exausta-verytired]

the claim that those weird "what organs do you have?" could benefit infertile women is very weird for me BEING one and also chronically ill from the age of 12. every health questionnaire I've ever had to fill includes the questions: do you have any health conditions? what surgeries have you gone through? there's where I can tell them I have lost both my tramps but only one of my ovaries and 5cm of my intestine to endometriosis specifically. it's better for questions like that to be dissertative otherwise the checklists would be endless. there are no pregnancy tests being wasted on me anymore.

I understand there has been neglect and discrimination cases against trans men in gynecological care. I don't understand why the concern wouldn't be making transphobia a just cause for firing and suing doctors who prioritize their own religion and politics over a person's health. as well as educational projects both for doctors with that population and aimed at the trans population itself emphasizing how they still have to see doctors regularly what their rights are and how to get heard. that's how we've always done things here and Brazil is a reference in LGBT activism especially in healthcare.

or is the problem admitting lesbians have faced similar problems with medical misogyny and discrimination? that heterosexual and gender confirming women have also died in neglect cases because the already less funded field of gynecology hates dealing with any patient who is not already pregnant or at least looking to get so because that is their priority?

#meh. just sounds so impractical both as health and activism #I haven't seen a single one who would have benefited me as I currently am since I'm still in line for a hysterectomy #but I'm not a healthy fertile women either am I? #like I don't deny the problems. we also had trans men dying from medical misogyny and conservative doctors in my country. it is engaging #but it's not that new which is GOOD it means we can LEARN from battles that have been won already like lesbians having to demand also being #tested in pap smears when they became the highest demographic of uterine cancer victims by percentage due to neglect #I'm not trying to be mean I'm trying to be practical. I have also always hated going to gynos as a woman who dates women and a rape victim #but wanting to dismiss the work of feminists in this is genuinely. stupid #it does make it seem like you don't care either and are just being opportunistic #*enraging #don't lie in medical forms. bring hell to doctors and companies who discriminate #have honest studies and discussions about the impact of hormones and surgeries as we have them today. that's it that's what this needs #normally I don't give a shit and don't intrude in gringo cultural wars but using me as a pawn is just. a terrible argument #dont even feel offended is like. thank you for signaling you don't know anything about the field you are intruding in #if I can tell just as a patient must be hell to be a health professional #can we have meaningful conversations like gynos do not ask the necessary scan images because they are 'expensive' and they get punished if #the patient turns out to be healthy. somehow orthopedics don't share that problem. give me a theory of why #my mother had a mastectomy. if she called her silicone a 'beeast' in a medical form that would be lying. healthy organs diseased ones and #plastic surgery are three very different things that demand different care

[lovebloods]

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#hiding this in the tags bc it’s kind of embarrassing and i need to get it off my chest #and i could journal about it but i just want someone to see me #sorry for being cringe <333 #but i don’t know what the hell i am like i don’t know if i’m even nonbinary anymore and that scares me like being nonbinary felt like coming #home after a long trip #and now i’m having all these thoughts about wanting to be a man? like near tears rn bc i want to be a guy but then when i think of actually #being a guy i freak out a bit #bc i like being seen as feminine too and i know that there are feminine men and they get treated so terribly #and i feel like all the men i see that i want to be like or look like are white! why don’t i see any black trans men like i feel so alone #and i’m scared to look/be openly trans bc there’s so much violence against people like us that it feels safer to just cosplay as a cis woman #even though i’m not #like i don’t want to be a boy but i want to be one and i absolutely don’t want to be a girl but i’d like to be seen as someone sometimes #it’s all very confusing #AND like i know i’m biromantic like im attracted to all genders and people #but im like? am i on the ace spectrum #bc i have a low sex drive am often sex repulsed and will sometimes ‘test’ #myself to see if im sexually attracted to people and most of the time it’s like #it’s like meh not really but sometimes im like sure but that’s rarer and rarer these days?? and like. tmi here but i jerk off and enjoy it #so i can’t be asexual right?? i tried looking it up but the articles just confused me #but then i also am like with the right person if i had a connection to them i wouldn’t mind having sex with them! but like. then i think #about actually having to be in a relationship and i’m like gross no but i think that’s just relationship trauma and fear of being #vulnerable #and like i know i don’t HAVE to have a label on my gender or sexuality but for me personally it helps to know What i am #and and i love butches so so so much and if i’m a man how can i love butches? like #it’s all so confusing #i feel like i’m 14 and going through puberty again

[moregraceful]

kinda eating drywall abt the karlsson trade but it is what it is

i consider it a win in that i didn't lose nick cicek in the trade honestly, which probably says intensely worrisome things about my priorities in the sharks org AND my perception of nick cicek's trade value but. yeah no we got fleeced not only by pittsburgh's most eligible president of hockey ops slash gm AND kent hughes, which is an ego blow on unforeseen and sloppy levels. like my mom could sell me to kyle dubas and i'd be like fine, whatever, but mike grier is a whole ass nhl gm. he should have protective charms in place against that man so i gotta ask. i gotta ask. mikey you good. you good babe??? you need some electrolytes???

congrats to sid crosby for adding another boytoy to his dman harem tho. personally cannot wait to see what happens when karly (mean cat), tanger (evil cat), and gravy (anxious greyhound) get in the same locker room. the sparks...they're flyin

#or gravy ends up in wilkes-barre. i'll kill you gmkd don't test me #back for a hot second to check one (1) thing for a challenge but i could not resist explaining my passions (gay defensemen) #maybe there's a god above...all i ever learned from love...was how to write ryan graves in various situations getting stressed out #have i ever written ryan graves smut? i can't remember. huge L if i haven't. someone inform me if i have. i don't remember at all #this tumblr break is going great. i started and finished a fic for time begins that needs psychological spiritual and emotional help #''you know what this baseball fic needs? a trans grandmother who is witch-coded'' boy no it doesn't!!!!! #if i were smart i'd lean into urban fantasy and just go nuts. blake sabol the magic is within YOU #alas the grandmother is simply from sonoma (at first she was from bolinas and then i was like i CANNOT validate those maniacs) #still packing but i'm so stressed bc i have one episode of tunnel talk left and i'm like what do i do if i run out of episodes untll sat #my sister told me to listen to the audiobook of gideon the ninth and i'm like dude i don't know if i'm smart enough for that #i bring a real ''checking books out on libby and not listening or reading to them'' that libraries paying for ebooks and eaudiobooks #per use on a proprietary license do not enjoy #so i'm holding off on gideon for now. i checked out the night tiger while i wait for time war to come round again we'll see if i listen #what am i talking about. i rediscovered spotify's tropical house playlist and that's all i fucken listen to now #on some secret level i am on a sunny beach far away from here getting [redacted] by [redacted] while [redacted] #it's so interesting how it took me a half hour to respond to this and yet i gave anon none of the commiseration they wanted or needed #cage replies #anon

[shrews-things]

Soooo tired so so so sooo miserably tired,,,, can I be a bug under a snug flat rock please

#dreaming about being a pincebogár today #the ones that roll up into a little gömböc not the other bug ppl apparently call pincebogár #I studied for exam all morning then had the exam and after lunch went home to study for another exam this is hell am I Sisyphus #the good news is that the exam I have on Thursday is the last one #bad news is that my people pleaser ass said yes to a huge translation project #on an unrelated note #if any of y'all know of trans friendly gynaecologists in Budapest please hit me up! #it's for hrt reasons #(decided not to go to kiskunhalas for the tests and all)

[star--anon]

trans!Teresa but transwoman Teresa.

you get me?

they send up a boy named Perci (Percivall Pott, a British scientist who discovered soot from chimney sweeping was causing cancer), and everyone's like "Alright, new Glader. Nothing out of the ordinary here, right?"

and Teresa's like "lmfao no. Call me Mother Teresa the way I'm adopting all of your dumbasses. Let's get outta here, the Maze is a code. I'm gonna betray you later."

#WCKD is in shambles. The Gladers are all like ''oh shit this has to be a test from the Creators'' #and WCKD's just like ''so nobody here knew Teresa was trans??? we literally raised her for 10 years how did we not know??'' #(realistically WCKD would be delighted for the extra Variable and brain patterns but. I choose to believe they're literally crying) #also like. Teresa waking up in the box not knowing what she looks like. so she's really confused when people are like ''hey bro'' #like ''??? I'm not a bro or a man??'' #I'm going a direction with this #idk what direction. but there is a direction. and I am going it #I don't take constructive criticism because I'm not wrong

[detectivekonan]

I do remember my first time learning what being gay was and that my reaction was that I wanted to be gay with women. from law and order episod when I was a wee kindergartener

#meanwhile trans i was 12 and took a am i transgender test and the results will blow your mind

[myhomeisthenight]

tfw you got kt tape(for binding)without getting caught but now you don’t know how to sneakily wear it

#transgender ftm #transgender #trans masc #i am a Bad liar #as in i’ll feel incredibly guilty and anxious when i do #so i feel like i’d crack if i tried #since i’ve been watching so many vids about it it does seem easy now #i did a test strip yesterday and i just suddenly remembered the safety tips #fun fact: it is paint tape blue #it was the only one i could find