#“i just cant imagine my life without you and i-”

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Agents 3,4,5, and 8 are now available for questions!

(Translation for Roxie in the tags 🥺❤️)

#splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #agent 3 #agent 8 #agent 24 #translations are as follows: #“fuck it” #“i really hope this doesn't ruin what we have” #“you are more precious to me than the air i breathe or the sun on my face” #“i just cant imagine my life without you and i-” #yeah so eden can change her ink color again they the power of gay #also ignore the inconsistencies in the art i was too tired to fix them lmfao

[lobotomizedlady]

people often assume when we all go out together that I'm my half brothers mom (I'm 20 years older than him) & that his parents are his grandparents & it's so funny bc I know it bothers them. old ass idiots

#my dad was 49 & his wife was 45 when they had him #the story behind his birth is actually extremely fucked up like everything else about their relationship #so my dad left her like a million times to try to go back to my mom (who kept telling him no unless he sorted out his issues) then he #would always run right back to her & she always took him back. anyways i guess he said smth along the lines of #''my wife (he was still married to my mom) will always be the love of my life bc shes the mother of my kids'' #and...she went off bc & on fertility treatments without telling him. then shes pregnant & he is still saying he wants to come back to us #so she said he will never see their kid & her son from a previous marraige THREATENED MY DAD AT GUNPOINT #and said if you ever leave my mom again ill fucking kill yoi #so then the divorce was finalized & they got married & my half brother was born. rest is history #for the record i dont feel sorry for my dad at all it was his fault too. the fucking hypocrite was having sex before marriage #and he knew she was nuts & far too attached to her #what a fucking idiot. all he had to do was get on meds & in therapy & admit he was wrong & he could have stayed with us #but he needed constant validation & to be in charge of everything & thats what his new wife gives him. she converted to his cult & now they #raise my brother in it. and she just does whatever my dad wants & lets him treat her like shit. i would actually feel sorry for her if sh #if she werent such a fucking awful person. and she tries to be all nicey nice w/us despite being a literal homewrecker. #and doing things like telling my dad he cant spend more than 50 dollars per year on each of us #while having him buy her a third car & a 1500 dollar fur coat. lol #theyre so much better off financially than us that its unreal. my mom doesnt get a penny despite how much we are struggling #but if i want a relationship with my half brother i just have to pretend none of this is weird or wrong. #anyways i just hope he never finds out the circumstances of his birth bc god can you fucking imagine

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

like im just saying they should invent a family that doesn't make you want to kill yourself

#and a school system while theyre at it #or just a me that wouldn't make me want to kill myself #just like. without all the problems that make it impossible to exist in normal society as myself #i know technically its possible for me to have a future but goddammit i dont see one okay #i havent made a single goddamn real life connection since middle school and now we're so distant i barely remember whos who on discord #thats not to mention how I've just been on the edge of every friendgroup anyway. including that one #im just some fucking loser. im not going to fucking graduate my only career aspiration is a goddamn pipe dream and if i dont fucking kill #myself by then im going to be stuck living with my family forever and we're not going to be seeing eye to eye. #all ive ever done is dig myself a deep grave and then tether other people to me to drag them down too #i love you all but i dont know how you see me as anything but gross and annoying and weirdly fucking clingy okay #i just #i dont know what im fucking doing #i wish i did. i wish i knew but i dont. and it feels like everyone else has figured out how things work and im just supposed to do that too #but i cant. i fucking cant and it keeps getting worse and i keep getting worse and i keep making it worse for my family while im at it #i miss being able to imagine doing stuff tomorrow. or in an hour #i miss being able to wash the dishes and not having to think about stabbing myself with fucking cutlery #i miss being able to show my mother my report card #but its my fucking fault im in this mess in the first place #and i just cant fucking try enough. or at all #aethers rants #cw vent #cw sui ideation #personal posts and stuff idk

[cestacruz]

Mmm Jeanne

#servants cant learn new stuff (i'll talk about jalter in a second) therefore #jeanne shouldnt know how to read or write #we actually Dont get a confirmation that she can do those things in summer 3. because the book that jalter thought jeanne wrote #was actually Her own book #jeanne works with marie. maybe she comes up with the ideas and does rough drawings that marie would be Delighted to bring to life #marie reads to jeanne is my image #jalter taught herself how to read and write and i think that was possible because of the unstability of her existence #if you try to teach jeanne how to read and write it will stick for a second but if like idk 15-20 min pass she would likely find herself #unable to read again and her writting to be suboptimal #she can sign her own name ofc thats historical #she can recite the bible from memory iirc #i love jalter's ability to be her own person even if it comes with the fact that she is very much. an ephemeral dream #like her FCKING SKILL IS CALLED. #WHY MUST YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS FGO #anyway. now jeanne again but physical #oughhh thank u for the support in the tags when i said jeanne should have self image issues because she looked different in life #i hadnt fully talked bout it i just went with hair but yeah. i need to check again because im pretty sure her body wasnt Suuuper different #but i just gotta confirm #but im just so i love the idea of her just not liking the way she manifested abd not knowing Why she manifested like that #when there are Countless depictions of her with her short brown hair #sieg looks to the side whistling (its not his fault but he knows the pseudo servant part #and its probably a mix of . fate apocrypha's manifestation and of how some people imagined jeanne looked like #but it still upsets her #not that she'd ever complain to people #you can probably get it out of her tho #unrelated and only to those who reached this far: im thinking of a singularity set in 15th century orleans in the Middle of the hundred year #war. but the difference aint “oh jeanne d'arc came back to life evil” rather than “there seems to be a battle here where it shouldnt and oh #my god is that jeanne- oh god jeanne d'arc fucking died-- #and chaldeas has to try and fix the war without living breathing jeanne d'arc #actually thats not the middle of the 100yearwar but yknow what i mean. also haha jk unless...

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!

"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)

Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.

Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives

There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).

The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)

#snap chats #theres a note here about aoki's self hatred and ergo his inability to believe people could love him without 'worth' #and some kind of. I Dont Know occurs that comes with aoki accepting that love and ergo At Least Tolerating himself #and again becoming better as a person as a result. not WHOLLY you cant undo Everything Wrong With Him with one therapy session #but itd at least be a start and thats far more than anything else rgg has given since like. ryuji in dead souls #but w/e i- as per usual- have the vocabulary of a walrus so we're just gonna have to imagine i said something profound #AND THE LACK OF HUGGING IN THIS FRANCHISE IM GOING TO STAB ALL OF YOU. IN MINECRAFT. #with the power of delusions and this like seven-year-old wacom tablet i can fix that...... #it'll never be enough it'll never fill the void in my soul but it'll be something i guess #BUT UGH NO SORRY IM JUST MAD NOW #nothing in my life has ever genuinely triggered anger in me than the y7 ending its just soooooooOOOOO #IT WAS SOOO CLOSE TO BEING PERFECT I CANT #im going to give myself a blood clot thinking about it anymore i feel my heart stopping Do Not Call An Ambulance I Cannot Afford It #so to stop myself from going in any more debt than i already am..... the possibility of any essays from me are very small #my ability to use words is near non existent. i feel like a right ninny sometimes #in any case im not sure what else i could expand on that isn't restating what you've said #cant ever be upset with bein on the same wavelength tho it gives my inarticulate ass a helluva easier time trying to explain LMAO #plus im petrified of trying to interpret anything from the english dub or english subs #and looking into language use is Very Much important when dissecting abusive relationships #i guess there's always just talking about general actions committed and not inspecting the exact words used #idk.. at the very least ill rotate the concept in my head and then fend off the urge to eat my teeth #i'm gonna throw up.... im still thinking of it........ gonna make an unrelated-but-arguably-related post in like three seconds #dont look at it its cringe

[orcelito]

Me with my arm wrapped in my hot pad like an arm cast just Grumpy Grumpy Grumpy bc it's so annoying but it's the only way to make it not hurt bc the ibuprofen did Nothing.

At least it's only one arm rn. That's nice.

#speculation nation #oftentimes both arms end up hit at once with a flare #and if theyre bad enough then i gotta do the wrap for BOTH of them #and see rn i am able to type still. just with the hot pad digging into the inside of my elbow. #when i get a double event tho i gotta just stick both arms in there and thats just. my evening. #cant do Shit with my hands bc they are both occupied. with being miserable. #anyways im gonna go to sleep soon. im tired and ive run out of dashboard. #it's another hot pad night bc the pain is persistent enough without it that sleep would be. difficult. #sigh. such is life i guess. #just imagine one of those grumpy little kittens with a cast on its leg and thats me right now #next you know im gonna be chew chew chewing on it #(i wont. if for no reason other than it would taste bad. alas.)

[grogspikey]

bye i get so sad when i think abt how few people have watched cr and gotten to experience how insane and cool and amazing it is

#i just saw the c3 scene with vax protecting keyleth on my fyp again #literally so crazy. like just absolutely mind blowing #and people HAVENT SEEN THAT. and even if they saw that one scene #it would mean nothing unless you know all the characters and all their stories #its my personal mission to spread critical role like its the word of god #i think everyone should watch it like #a lot of people wouldnt even like it💀 but it was so life changing for me #i cant imagine living my sad little life without it #critical role

[mxdotpng]

twirls hair thinking about adaline rozovy and his doomed struggle to live despite really not having a choice in the matter. you will forever be remembered as the weapon of light, hated by your comrades and mourned by your friends. your memory is stained in blood. there are more men you have killed than who you have saved. the world cries for your survival. you are loved.

#.text #adaline rozovy #just thinking about how alisaie has mentioned so many times that she hates heroic sacrifices. she hates it. #alisaie watches the very moment pass where addie decides it is her life for theirs. and they never see her alive again. #and alisaie will never forgive her for this. #never has there been a weapon more loved than she. #which is why alisaie wouldnt be able to hear her name after without feeling so. so angry. #i dont think her grief particularly manifests as anger but in this case. #in the case where she thinks there could have been another way. it is anger. a very sad anger. a very violent one. #i can really only imagine she comes back from the edge of the universe. addie's on her deathbed. and the only thing she can #really do is try not to take her anger out on anyone else. but she cant help it. #i can see it. alphinaud tentatively brings up addie in conversation and alisaie has to hiss at him. dont. dont speak her name. #and if you do as she did i will never forgive you either. #i can imagine its the same with thancred as well. for multiple reasons. #but that idiots guilt complex is so high hes gonna think its his fault. heavensward thancred part 2. electric boogaloo #didnt even think abt how krile probably has so much guilt about that either.... her and addie were close. trauma buddies. #and she is the one who guided zenos to him. she was the one who killed him. probably doesnt sit well in her brain #and tataru. maybe if her armor was just a little stronger. just a little better. then adaline would have ... #oh my god. addie. scions. normal. #normal moments. #she isnt even died shes just suffering elsewhere. hashtag. faking her death (accidentally)

[crest-of-gautier]

ohh when i finally look through my old clips from splatoon and have time to edit weapon splats compilation(s) + that salmon run death compilation i keep saying i’ll do it’ll be over for all of you...

#lizz.txt #whenever i don't feel like drawing or playing splatoon sometimes i'll just look through my clips and then put them into a capcut project #it will probably take awhile for me to do these edits though i have... 6 months of clips to look through LOL... #i really wanna look at my old charger clips... they're so cringe to me because for a brief bit i didn't use motion controls so i had- #the most stilted movement known to anyone... #its really funny to me that i only started learning motion controls in april (i did it for squiffer) and now i cant imagine life without it #i think my favorite part of being into splatoon is that it's acted as a renaissance of sorts for all of my non-drawing hobbies #pre-splatoon i haven't edited anything since my p///5 primetime and i rarely did any oc writing #so it's been really fun to get back into these hobbies. it makes me want to apply it to other things too! #i hope everyone here has a lil hobbie that makes them happy :) #i dont know why i be a little chatty guy sometimes but sometimes i really feel strongly for life and i need to get it out somewhere lol #thank you to anyone who reads my little textys. i appreciate it! you are going to do so great in life me thinks

[alladdinsanee]

i just realised it has been like a year of me being on this website???

#so many things have changed #so many people have come into my life #funny i didnt know any of you and the things wed do together this time last year #funny cuz now i cant imagine my life without some of you #fun fact yes i was just crying about that

[s0urte3th]

mom is bitching at me how i need to wear short sleeves TOMORROW, and just get over it

#‘you NEED to wear them tomorrow’ or what. #youre gonna take my phone away? im just AnXioUs and need to get the fuck over it? #woman youre lucky i dont fucking take my car and leave. youre lucky i don’t disappear without a trace. #‘we love you and dont care and dont judge!’ i understand that. i do. #but sometimes that just doesnt matter. you can say that to me all you want and ill always have a voice saying otherwise! #i cant just get over this hump. i dont know how to explain it to you but i just cant. its not that simple. #i cant just.. get up and get moving like you want me to. i dont know how to tell you that im absolutely fucking exhausted. #‘youve been taking a break for 6 weeks now’ and? i worked my ASS OFF. FOR 5 FUCKING YEARS STRAIGHT. I DESERVE A BREAK! #IVE EARNED A GODDAMN BREAK. IVE EARNED A FUCKING SUMMER OFF. THIS IS MY FIRST SUMMER OFF IN 5 GODDAMN YEARS WOMAN #i dont care if you think im being lazy. im sorry i dont work the same fucking way you do! but thats a you issue! #‘you need to get your life together’ WELL I DONT WANT TO! I DONT WANT TO RIGHT NOW! I WANNA BE A STUPID COUCH BUM! #i basically just learned that EVERYTHING. I WORKED FOR! IS USELESS! i pushed myself to the edge a constant amount of times over the past 5- #years for NOTHING. because i am incapable of doing anything without someone telling me to or holding my hand. #how do you expect me to know what to do with my fucking life when the life i thought i always had was just shattered? #ive trailed off my planned path! i didnt plan for this! i never thought it could happen! i thought id be PERFECT! #imagine being told your entire life how smart and capable you are only to fail right as someone isnt holding your hand anymore. #just #whatever man. if i dont wanna wear short sleeves i wont. if i dont wanna go outside i wont. #i didnt want to interact with the world anyways. especially after finding out that i dont fit in whatsoever.

[katyspersonal]

Now that I think about it, it is bizarre how speaking about good things like how "broken" people deserve love, acceptance and healing can give you a label of "hurr durr this person says we should put up with emotional manipulators instead of keeping them accountable!!!!! >:(" these days. I mean, this is not a far stretch to how saying that only communication and good interactions can change society to the better apparently leads to assumptions from CERTAIN people that they are demanded to talk with those hostile to them. (All coincidences with real life events are accidental source dude trust me!!!! XD)

I just think this is absurd how it is not painfully obvious in general, that voicing your own perspective doesn't impose obligation on everyone to do the same. It depends on an INDIVIDUAL. Those devastating emotional manipulators deserve someone to carry on and accept them - as well as people who are not up for the task better off quit and save themselves. There is no rule that applies to everyone and there is no right way to act besides what you decide - there are only advices. It is like this in many things. Humans are complicated, in our interactions - very close or not so much - we always balance between "You should extend EFFORT if you want a change" and "Back off and do not extend effort if it breaks you". Either decision can be a good call, either decision can be your worst mistake, and either decision is okay to propose. Life and people are hard to predict, that's why it is fun!

Additionally, people make TOO big of a deal over morality of a choice. So what if X throwing Y away when Y was healing and barely started to trust X broke Y, thus making what X did not really nice? Would X really have to perform emotional gymnastics to prove that Y was just evil and irredeemable and probably was full of shit and didn't deserve anything etc? Like... making mistakes is fine, as well as making a choice that's good for you but is bad for someone else. So what if someone DID give up on another person easily? So what if someone DID choose the worst moment to quit possible? This can happen too, not every unhealthy bond is textbook example abuse, sometimes you literally just befriended a person with emotional baggage and decided they were not worth effort. There is not always a huge underlying reason about how that person is totally inherently bad and a monster. No need to fret so much about having decisions record perfectly clean of anything wrong, we all are cringe anyway.

But since I said there are no rules, only advices, here is an ADVICE from me: you should be very wary of people who feel attacked when you propose extending an effort instead of throwing a person away (whatever is the context). It is a no-brainer that you proposing something doesn't mean they have to think the same! We are people with autonomy! So why certain people get so butthurt about someone suggesting a course they personally don't want to take?

Because they are unwittingly projecting their OWN attitude. Because THEY are the categorical people who express their propositions as orders and not as advices or choices. As result, they think you have the same control freakery in mind. But trust me bro/sis/sib, you had good intention and it's not your fault THEY are defensive and vindictive.

Be wary of people that get defensive over an ADVICE instead of just not taking it if they don't wanna.

#disco horse #yeeeees here i can use this tag!!!! xD #psychology #life #people #epic life advice #wow guys did you like how i pulled an oddly specific example from thin air? #i have a really great imagination! #*snickers like an absolute child* #but honestly tho #i am on the 'ditching emotionally damaged person will not heal them' team #and someone else can be on the 'nobody should have to put up with their shit' team #the thing is? both are needed! #if this manipulator is always loved and accepted they likely wont change and get spoiled #if this manipulator is NEVER loved? they will see no reason to change because bitch for who #then there are people who cant change period and you can still choose to accept them anyway #without any morality statement! just because you like it here! #it is about variety of choices and experiences #i am just sharing my slice of experience #bitches label literally some emotionally unstable adults as monstrous abusers without empathy #because they want to feel justified leaving a person that was too much of a chore #and saying 'hey maybe lets not do that' is not an order but a slice of experience #i find people dumping people over problems like... i am very blessed that i have- #-friends who are patient about my emotional problems #but honestly bitches these days think EVERYTHING that demands emotional effort is abuse looool #and its okay to talk about it! just as it is okay to talk about quitting what destroys you! #but pain is not always bad thing. pain friends go through for each other can be great.

[salsadifragola]

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#salsa ramble #vent? #idk i was just thinking #it was kind of heartbreaking to learn my mother never really loved to sew #that she learned it out of desperation to have a skill she could use for work #she was never really interested in the craft just that she could use it to work at a fabric or whatever #its heartbreaking to me because i cant even imagine how it feels to craft without love #everything you create is uniquely yours and its something you can be proud of! no matter how small or 'bad' it may be #and to live your whole life doing something you find uninteresting and boring is #idk soul crushing #i could never #but then its something so common i have realised #i know im so very privileged to being able to keep myself floating with something i love #mum nowadays only does repairs on clothes and sometimes sews stuff for this company #she told me that there was a time where she tried making clothes to sell #but she hated it #she hated making... #idk why im thinking so hard about this i should stop

[starswake--archived]

🍓 and sunflower please!

hello stan !!

🍓: idk what's going on HOWEVER i enjoy seeing all ur dutch jokes :] glad ur enjoying urself buddy

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without? 

Writing. Hands down, writing. It stuck with me for this long in life, and the periods where I'm not writing I genuinely don't feel like myself. So if all else fails, at least there's writing and if not, then I have no idea what.

#snow answers #garlandgerard #lolol that period i went through beginning of this term where i didnt write for like 2 weeks and i straight up thought i was dying #but yeah i mean. #i mean i dont post any of my writing. #or well theres some i do when im feeling super passionate about it ! #but yeah i just cant imagine a life without it since its been w me since i was like. 6...7? #little kid snow just be writing godawful ghost stories at the age of 6-7 #the memory is still super funny to me bc i remember i was like NO!!! LEAVE ME ALONE IM BOUT TO MAKE A MASTERPIECE #and i was using those kiddie table playsets or whatever to write the worst thing imaginable lolol #i mean im godawful at writing BUT hey im writing what i like so that must count for something right? #anyways thank you ! i really appreciate the wittle distraction

[orcelito]

You know what man the fact that I can't fuckin do shit with my cheek without pain is NOT helping bc I can't like. Smile. Or sing along to songs. Bc too dramatic of movements Hurts

Sitting here like 😐 all the time and I swear my mood is following

#speculation nation #negative/ #two days of extreme pain in the entire right side of my mouth. fuck my life for real #i cant put on CHAPSTICK without it REALLY hurting #bc the movement of like. rubbing my lips together. like u put on chapstick then rub ur lips together to get it in #that drags my canker sore against my teeth in a way that hurts sooo much #but i am someone that Religiously puts on chapstick. especially in the winter. so you can imagine the kind of suffering im ine #just apply chapstick and awkwardly . shift the lips around without the pursing movement. it's awful #having to pinch my cheek to pull it away from my teeth as i eat is Also very fucking annoying. and not super effective either #id like to think the spot is getting smaller but who fuckin knows #sorry discacc fans who want an update but despite having multiple days off in a row. i am in Hell. lmao. #hard to write under these conditions... 😔

[milo-is-rambling]

How to stop liking people so much that I accidentally fixate on them and spend so much time thinking about them that I have a separate in my brain version of them and a real person version of them. It’s difficult because it works in two ways. Either I like a kind person and the brain fixating is just a like. Living in the love type obsessive feeling and it’s fine yknow a little weird but not terrible. Or I like a person who is Bad for me and I obsess over the fake what they COULD be in my brain version and I’m so attached to the fake version that I let them hurt me in real life bc I like the possibility of them being kind/holding on to the in the brain version for comfort despite knowing it’s hurting me in the long run.

#imagine a Milo (me) without attachment issues. that’s right. you CANT!!!! #just deleted some sections from one of my weird real people I know fixation type boards and like idk I just feel so weird about it like I #know it’s not normal but it’s not bad like it’s not I’ll intentioned at all I just want to curate a vibeeeee #I want to have playlists and Pinterest boards for the people I love and appreciate in my life #it’s like all the love that I don’t vocalize bc I’m traumatized and I feel like everything I love will leave me or be ripped away from me #goes into Pinterest boards and tumblr tags and Spotify playlists. like. idk. #I find my mind screaming JUST BE NORMAL!!!!!!!! so often. it’s infuriating. there is not a (sober) moment where I’m not just judging myself #I love you weed I’m gonna go put socks and shoes on and then go to michaels and get yarn and make something cool hopefully