I remember telling him
“I adore divine masculinity”
and how protective it can be,
how safe I feel inside it’s capsule
I know what it’s like to have the purest,
protective devotion; of love,
and if kept unspoiled by possessiveness,
stays beautiful lifelong
I am tradition
and I am feminine;
called dainty and soft,
a contrast against his tough hands,
rigid and Adonis body, which have
seen labour, hard work and strife
remembering how he’d come home,
dirtied and in sweat but I could've basked in his fumes
and he would spoil me with tangibles & tenderness
and it felt so natural, to come into his part,
as I do mine
from this, I learned:
I always want my opposite
to be strong
in his own ways
Before we parted ways,
you said,
“I hope I’ve set the standard for how a guy should take care of you”
and now I’ve known no man who enters the romantic parts of my life
without intent to provide & give,
and for that I am thankful
for what I’ve learned, and knowing what I have to give,
and what I admire and require
the discourse on masculinity can sometimes strain my heart,
for I adore what it provides;
the space of security when in touch with itself
from my brothers to my lovers,
I’ve known good men
good men who nourish and appreciate my feminine,
and through it, grow healthily into their own
I know it’s a balance,
I know I lean into my masculine when I need to
and healthy men have their femininity refined
But through this shared dance, I’ve grown ever so appreciative
of this ying & yang
and for the gentleman care that nourishes me,
I’m forever soft in its presence
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nos âmes se familiarisent de temps à autre,
quand nous nous sommes retrouvés,
je savais qu'il y avait quelque chose à apprendre
ton âme ressemblait beaucoup à la mienne,
qui grandit lentement en elle-même
remplissant les fissures de l'amour
des amants du passé
Je suis restée froide pour me protéger,
tu m'as gardé à bout de bras
pour sauver ton propre coeur
et je ne t'en veux pas,
mais j'ai grandi,
Je n'ai pas peur de montrer de l'amour là où je peux.
et comme je tombe lentement dans
la vie renouvelée
J'espère que tout l'amour que tu gardes
trouvera la place qu'il mérite
tu pourrais être mon futur partenaire commercial,
j'espère que tu sais que je prie pour toi
et peut-être dans une autre vie,
nous aurions connu mieux
mais pour toujours tu seras
un amant éternel pour moi
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is this what it means to be haunted?
to see you in my grasp, time frozen still
you’re there and i can feel you
I could almost kiss you,
but i wake
and again,
you’re lost from reach
And I want to forget you
but you stain a place in my heart,
and on my mind,
forever, you stay
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a feeling that comes to me
sparsely, sporadically
I dream of you and wonder why
I wonder if this feeling spans the skies
I wonder if you can sense it from where you are
an ache in unison
or am I alone in this?
I came and I went,
no longer at your stride —
but I sense you so close,
and wonder if you’re here with me now;
being kept up by the same longing
I’ll carry with me my whole life
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This summer rain,
while Neck Deep blasts
I’ve died and lived a thousand times like this
An echo chamber of days
that continue on in a grey-stained haze
Then there are warmer days,
beach tones,
sunsetaholicism
Days I crave the sound of
lighters flickering,
J’s sparking,
the laugh she makes that I love her for
To savour these moments all the same,
but they slip from me and I let them
And here I am,
wondering:
where has this life gone?
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Yahya Hassan
you came to me late,
in the dire frenzy for an in-depthness
that seems as good as gone
in these realms of modernity
But your work strikes gold,
bold and large;
inspires me to the core in my expressive continuance
I swallow all your words
cause it feels so close to mine
I feel the madness and see you through
the petty offenses, religious criticisms,
Danish disdains
If only your father had been good to you—
perhaps, then, you wouldn’t have been
Dostoyevsky revitalized and
Srunge, back in the flesh,
with pain inborn, in you and every bloody verse
you forage from your childhood demons
If there is an afterlife,
I know who will take you in
And when you see Dostoyevsky,
« tell him I love him »
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you are who I want,
between my sheets,
my fingers,
at the end of all my days
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he said
“it’s ego death every time”
it’s too hard to take and too hard to feel
but I wanted to know
perception heightened,
vivid colours and all
let me see god
and the things I’m too scared
to see and admit
along the way
let it wash over me,
with all I have to lose,
so I know better
how precious this life
can seem to me
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the best of descriptions
bring me to this word:
« whelmed »
the world,
flooding,
with pain,
with sounds;
injustice pleas and all
deafening as the mounds
of media has gotten
i cannot forget why
these sirens go off as they do
even as I come to my knees in fatigue
and pain for all that this senselessness
has caused
to answer this call,
this need for tenderness
at a time crippled with broken bones
to only flood this world back
with the immensity of the love
that holds itself in this shell
this, for you:
I respect and see you,
dripping as you are,
in all your black excellence,
and this loud strife—
let me dote on all this,
rather than feel helpless
in its clutched grasp
this is what the world needs to hear
and in this,
let me be but a pawn
to kill the pain
that kills you
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Antalya
No pictures,
no worries
Just you, me
the sea & the sun
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It’s ok
I feel numb
I am worth it
The people I love
love me too
And that’s all that matters
Let this feeling slip away
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I hope to see you someday,
as we were when I was 20
with the same intangible longing
and faltering when I was 23
but when will I see you next?
Miles away,
this distance,
all the years,
start to fade on me
But i sense you in common places,
here and again
think of you on your birthday
the everything and nothing
that happened in between
Do you mind if I fill this time,
as writers do,
thinking of the impossibilities?
All I have left of you is a phantom scar
of where you grazed,
atop my head in an embrace
Until then,
un bacio grandissimo
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Sad Happy
and you’ll never know as much. oh god, you’ll never know
guilt washes over me and it’s ok.
love washes over me and is equally just as painful.
what do I want? desire leaves me frustrated, drained and bleeding…
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wondering
will you be the one I write about till the end of my days?
or will you be another archived period in this mausoleum of feeling?
it would pain me to see what we have
go down as a great love lost
but I don’t know where we’ll go
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pictures in my head
of the desert,
of me, lying here in bed
it’s the annual return to
nothingness
and I want to drive far,
drive fast
but I suffer here,
of boredom
and boredom is doom
I feel no ambition…
and then I stop
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I can’t talk about my despair and looming hopelessness.
I’ll cage it, as always, letting the turmoil spill inside this fleshy suit.
I need more sleep. I need more music
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I still have faith.
But that was the unfortunate sound of my serotonin depleting to a numeric nothingness.
Time to sit back and endure the pain of my stupidity.
Oh, this life. How it turns the knife. Still strong, though. Mostly.
Faith.
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