scapeghoastgoatstoghost

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and i swear, if you left this world last night, i will take my leave of it next, and i pray we find each other something somewhere along whatever comes next

#personal #suicide

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it is very apparent that any stability i had was pulled together by a thread of "at least i have a stable job, home, etc" and with that thread pulled the loose and decayed stuffing of my mental health is falling to the floor and crumbling very fast

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years later and Let ME Dance, Let ME Glisten still gets me pumped

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perhaps i can find affordable housing in a grave

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Venom: Let There be Carnage is just a Marvel alternate universe version of Natural Born Killers

[scapeghoastgoatstoghost]

it might seem obvious, at least it does after the fact to me, but listen to the songs your partner listens to a lot, they might be saying things your partner is feeling but can not express themselves

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every significant person who i have lost has left without a goodbye, how terrible i must be to not be worth two syllables

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Loss is my constant companion, i thought for sure you would take It's place

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"the trouble is, i find good memories to be more painful than bad memories. i feel like the fun people always leave"

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howl's moving castlevania

#howls moving castle #castlevania

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i have been all clogged with mucous for the better part of a week, feels like a sinus infection and now i think it is moving to my ear/s, as the right ear is feeling suddenly all stuffy, if this continues i may have to get it checked out, which i obviously do not have money for, until then, if anyone can help with some money for it i will try taking some Mucinex or similar product, sick while homeless extra sucks

CASHAPP: $cryptiditpyrc

VENMO: cryptidcoin

#personal #homeless #cashapp #donations #VENMO #mutual aid request #funding

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went up to a nearby bus stop to take advantage of the open wi-fi in range, another homeless person was there, older guy, a bit out of it and talking to himself some nonsense but also capable of holding lucid conversation, he said he was hungry.me and my friend had earlier dumpster dived a big bag of hash browns and a few bottles of sweet tea so i went to our stash spot and got him some of both, he was some genuinely happy, he said he loved me 😂, i think that is the best i remember feeling in a long time

#personal #homeless

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anyone else headcannon bluebell as eventually awakening shamanic abilities and having apollo as a guardian ghost?

#shaman king #bluebell bloch #apollo #spirit partner #guardian ghost #oversoul

[scapeghoastgoatstoghost]

"hey, mind if i vape?"

𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘪𝘱𝘦

#personal #meth #ice #spun #tweaker

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five years..

we should be celebrating 7 years together, instead we are heading towards three years apart

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55 minutes, that is the length of the walk from my childhood home to edgewater beach, where my brother died. 55 minutes and just 1.6 miles, that is the length of my brothers journey through life. all our lives all we wanted was to escape that house, our father. he barely made it out the door. i have made that walk since living out on the streets. 55 minutes, 1.6 miles, i wonder now, with all i have working against me, how far will i make it?

#personal #homeless #life #death #ohio #cleveland #edgewater #drowning

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i find myself being jumpscare spooked on a hair trigger lately, a regression to my abused early years and a telltale effect of how recent events are eating away at me, mentally and physically

#personal #homeless