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sure I could become a slut. but you see, I'm scared

#by talos you are right #and I hate it

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SCREAMS

#AJDHDSSHSJHXDUXJDHJD #shadow the hedgehog #beloved

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Commission of Lord Brocktree from the Redwall series (with a custom weapon) for a client on Instagram. This was so much fun. :)

#ohhhhhhhh my god YES!!

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*exultant screaming*

Anybody care for some little ponies?

Made the sonic one a couple days ago and ended up loving it, so now there's a tails and Amy to match, making an AU I suppose. Enjoy!

Edit: realized an AU needs a name, I've decided on

"MLP: Friendship got Faster"

#oh my word these are BRILLIANT! #THE CUTIE MARKS #THE BOUQUET TAIL #I COULD NEVER #well I mean I tried but THIS IS S TIER QUALITY

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WELP

SONIC WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE???

#time to blow a ton of money on Shadow pancakes #because I’m easy like that #shadow the hedgehog #this is hilarious actually

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happy Jesus regeneration

#it’s EASTER why did I have to GOOGLE to find this?! #happy Easter #lol #I’m a slut for memes

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Recently taught my mother about our fantastic tumblr holiday

#ides of march #julius caesar #happy stab a man day

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cupidow <3

did @vladim-3d's dtiys and. idk man i dont liek it anymore nfndnbfn BUT i tried and thats what matters 👍

go follow them btw their art is *chef kiss*

#MY MAN #Beloved #shadow the hedgehog

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I’m selfish.

I often feel like I need to apologize to Mom and Dad.

They adopted me, put so much time, and money, and energy into raising me as their own, and despite their best efforts, I turned out wrong. Wrong compared to my siblings, my peers, their peers; everyone.

I know they love me. But I feel so much shame for being this way, a failure who refuses to get better, be better; a waste they’re forever tied to. I’m a disappointment to my family and parents, even if they’ll never say it.

And don’t even get me started on the ‘friends’ I’ve made, who I constantly keep mistreating and abandoning because I can’t fucking talk to people anymore, and the guilt of it deepens my silence further.

I sit in a hole I dug for myself, endlessly lying to the few people I have left in my life, giving out empty promises while I know damn well I’m not going to tell them that the voice urging me to end myself keeps getting louder and louder. That the belief that everyone is better off without me is getting stronger and stronger.

I can’t keep trying anymore; it hurts too much to try. I can’t bring myself to. But at the same time, I can feel how much this is slowly killing me, day after day.

I don’t know what to do, other than hold out for as long as I can until I drive off and disappear somewhere with a letter and a cup of bleach. Knowing that they’d search for me, mourn me, even if I don’t understand why anyone would still want me around.

Isn’t that fucked up? Isn’t that selfish?

#vent post #tw sui ideation #I haven’t been ok for a decade now

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#aaaaaaaaaaa

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#well #now that I feel horrendously seen #I’m going to go cry now

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do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

#6:09 PM #home #I’m a constant source of embarrassment to my parents even at the age of 30 #also I’m hungry

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Been hyper aware of my behaviors as of late. Especially the ones I’ve had ever since I was a child, that are still going strong.

#ADHD #autism #stimming #poll #sincerely asking

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#poll #oc #a useful tool for later

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The thing that's so cool about Shadow is that his original motives actually make sense, regardless of Gerald brainwashing him. He went through so much pain on the Ark so that they could find the formula for immortality. So they could cure Maria, his SISTER. And then she was killed. It was all for nothing.

Shadow had every reason to hate humanity. They took everything from him and it was about time he returned the favor.

It was only because of the fact that Maria means so much to him that he changed his mind in the end. Shadow made a promise to Maria and he NEVER breaks his promises. Ever. If it weren't for his pure integrity, Shadow would've destroyed Earth without a second thought.

And he would’ve gone down with the ship. We saw what Shadow was doing when the Ark started falling. He was just standing there, looking out the window. He wasn't trying to save himself in any way. He was just done. So tired of fighting and ready for it to be over.

It was only Amy reminding him of his promise to Maria that gave him the motivation to keep going. To do everything he could to reverse all the damage he'd done.

He had no reason to care. But Maria means that much to him.

#amen #Shadow will always be so much more than the shitty edgey-sasuke memes #he is my one true Blorbo and has been my muse for over a decade #and I love him no questions asked #Beloved #Shadow the Hedgehog

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I’ve been loving this game so much, but I just had to capture this moment of the Dapplewoods turning into the Cobblewoods.

(The game crashed the second I left the area, lol)

#Paleo Pines #paleopines #Sura the Allo is a good-good girl