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HELPGAZACHILDREN!!!!!

Med @fairuzfan’s blog got terminated by tumblr which is obviously unjust for all the people who rely on them for resources on Palestine, but it now leaves Hussam’s helpgazachildren donation drive without a point of communication, and has deleted all previous information Med had shared about the drive.

Please remember to keep donating to helpgazachildren as Hussam’s hard work getting resources to families in Gaza should not have to be hindered while Med is working on getting their blog back 🤍🇵🇸

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 7 days

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and the bird opened its mouth and smiled

and the fish understood that the bird was not happy

but that a smile was the natural expression of a murderer

who was about to get away with its favored pastime

the fish understood that it was not a particular sufferer under its god

and wished absently that it had appreciated the glimmer of water before it had been plucked from it

and thrashed violently to free itself, screaming and shaking and crying in a way understood to the fish

and then the fish thought of nothing

and the bird swallowed, and smiled to itself, in the way of murderers and everything with large enough mouths

and also thought nothing of the fish

#traditional drawing #pelicans #traditional art #birds #white pelican #‘everybody shut up and look at this baby pelican’ voice #poetry #I guess look i never learned how to shut up when there weren’t people looking at me #also listen to pelicans we by cosmo sheldrake it’s intoxicating #i have like six more of these but only one other is finished #I’ll send him off in a couple weeks I think. put a text post between them

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 12 days

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Hundreds of people are about to board a flotilla and deliver urgent humanitarian relief to Gaza. Please share this video and follow Gaza Freedom Flotilla. The more people watching, the safer the participants.

#free gaza #free palastine #gaza #humanitarian aid

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 15 days

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Fundraiser masterpost

This is a masterpost for the evacuation fundraisers I've vetted so far, a few other fundraisers I find trustworthy but have not been able to vet (inability to communicate with the organizer), and a few semi-completed fundraisers or fundraisers for a different purpose (like house rebuilding, or aid distribution). The numbers next to the names have no significance beyond ease of navigation for me for when I check their progress in the future. You should look at the disclaimers instead and focus on those. Occasionally I will update these with new info, including new fundraisers, and the amount of cash that's been raised. Check in regularly on the original post when you see it being reblogged. In all likelihood once its reached you it's already outdated. Also please don't overlook the Sustainable Aid options near the bottom! The brain drain is already creating problems but having another way of keeping or creating new knowledge and key members of a functioning society is important.

VETTED FAMILY ESCAPE FUNDRAISERS

Walaa Abusamra (1). 10 family members. 24.2k out of 80k €.

Ezzideen Shehab (2). 6 family members. 7k out of 32.5k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Madleen Abu Jayyab (3). 4 family members. 18.7k out of 70k USD.

Jehad Shehada (4). 1 individual. 3.5k out of 15k CAD. LOW ON FUNDS.

Aser Alassar (5). 5 family members. 405k out of 550k SEK. Or 37k out of 51k USD.

My friend Mona Abu Hamda (6). 9 family members. 59.5k out of 75k USD.

Mohammed Shamia (7). 7 family members. 8.9k out of 35k USD.

Abdullah Al-Saghir (8). 9 family members. 67.3k out of 100k €.

Randa Abubakr (9). 6 family members. 14.6k out of 17k €. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Fadi Alshrafi (10). 9 family members. 54.5k out of 85k USD. (1 evacuated)

Osama Abdelrahman. (11). 9 family members. 35.2k out of 45k €. (1 CHRONICALLY ILL CHILD, NEEDS TREATMENT)

Alhaw family and the Albittar family (12). Between 18 and 12 family members. 8.8k out of 90k €. (EXTREMELY LOW, NEEDS FUNDS)

Verified Fundraiser by Palestine Asdiqa to help a malnourished baby with cerebral palsy. (13) 7.7k out of 31k USD. (URGENT + CHRONICALLY ILL CHILD, NEEDS TREATMENT)

Rana Abu Ahmed (14). 6 family members. COMPLETED ✅

Mohammed Abu Matar (15). 6 family members. 9.9k out of 34k CAD.

Moataz Abu Sakran (16). 3 family members. 12.4k out of 20k $ ORIGINAL CAMPAIGN COMPLETE, NEEDS TRANSFER FEES COVERED. 629$ out of 5k needed.

Ayah Abu Sidu (17). 10 family members. 15.8k out of 50.4k USD.

Said Fadel (18). 7 family members. 19.7k out of 50k USD.

Tasneem Nabil Musa (19). 7 family members (ALL INJURED, NEED MEDICAL CARE.) 10.5k out of 50k USD

Belal Azmi Msallam (20). 14 family members. 7.1k out of 160k AUD. EXTREMELY LOW ON FUNDS.

Mortaja Family (21). 11 family members. 28k out of 70k €.

Abu Ramadan family (22). 14 family members. 10k out of 148k €.

Mai Rajab (23). COMPLETED ✅

Amal Abu Shammala (24). 4 family members. 33.7k out of 42k €.

Maryam & family (25). 30.3k out of 50k USD.

Haneem Abdelhalim (26). 8 family members. 31.8k out of 40k USD raised.

Ahmed Masoud (27). 12 family members. 10k out of 60k €.

Mohammed Fareed (28). 30.2k out of 60k CAD.

Lena Nofal (29). 40.6k out of 44k € (NEARLY COMPLETE, original family registered to evacuate, extended family are being helped now)

Rasheda Alfaiomy (30). 6+ family members. 27.5k out of 65k USD.

Ula El Hindi (31). 1+ individuals. 8.6k out of 15k €.

Muhammad Safi (32). 5+ family members. 4.5k out of 30k BP. LOW ON FUNDS.

Yazan Khalaf (33). 18 family members. 16.9k out of 40k USD.

Afaf Masoud (34). 5+ family members (2 evacuated). 83.8k out of 110k €.

Motasem Khayal (35). 5 family members. 1k out of 43k € (26.5k needed for escape.) EXTREMELY LOW, NEEDS FUNDS.

Youseff Abu Saeed (36). 3 family members (1 is already out for treatment). 155k out of 200k USD.

Abdulaziz & Abdullah, escape & surgery (37). 2+ family members (1 has already been treated, 1 NEEDS TREATMENT). 96.3k out of 150k BP.

Nadine Abdullatif (38). 8 family members. 113k out of 130k AUD (NEARLY COMPLETE).

Sami Salhab (39). 6 family members (5 already evacuated). 16.9k out of 26k €. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Jehad Al Ghandour (40). 5 family members (1 already evacuated). 31k out of 100k USD

MORE VETTED FAMILY ESCAPE FUNDRAISERS (tumblr has a character-per-block limit, there's no difference between the following fundraisers and the previous ones).

Mahmoud Algharabli (41) COMPLETED ✅ (check last section for more info)

Dr. Marah & family (42). 2+ family members. 7.2k out of 40k USD. LOW ON FUNDS.

Khaled Alshabrawi (43). 5 family members. 1.5k out of 35k € (25k needed for escape, but will begin with 10k for stable housing). LOW ON FUNDS.

Muhammad Osama Alzaq (44). 5 family members. 3.1k out of 60k BP. LOW ON FUNDS.

Mohammed Wishah (45). 7 family members + 1 pet. 7.9k out of 71.5k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Muhe Ayman (46). 5+ family members. 6k out of 60k €. (CAUTION: If you scroll down in the GFM there are photos of mutilated and dead babies.) LOW ON FUNDS.

Abdallah Animal Rescue (47). 1 individual + lots of pets. 34.5k out of 40k USD. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Haya Orouq (48). 5 family members (1 injured, NEEDS TREATMENT). 35.9k out of 50k.

Retaj Abu Abdo (49). 8 family members. 9.1k out of 60k USD.

Mohammed Zyad (50). 9 family members (1 MISCARRIAGE). 5.6k out of 40k BP. LOW ON FUNDS.

Souad Al-Kurdi (51). 5 family members (1 DIABETIC W/O INSULIN, CRITICAL, 1 INJURY). 3.7k out of 50k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Mahdy Zourob (52). 1 individual. 622 out of 20k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Ahmed Alboji (53). 5 family members. 78.4k out of 100k USD. (TIME SENSITIVE)

Sama Lulu (54). 7 family members. 5.4k out of 80k USD. LOW ON FUNDS. (CAUTION: PHOTO OF INJURED CHILD IN GFM)

Fadel Moghrabi (55). 4 family members. 33.3k out of 40k USD. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Qosai Hani (56). 2(+?) family members. 28.2k out of 40k USD.

Khaled Khraizim (57). 14 family members. 32.6k out of 100k €.

Ahmed Raida (58). 3 family members (1 INJURED, NEEDS TREATMENT). COMPLETED ✅

Rozan family (59). 6 family members. 3.6k out of 38k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Samah Oudh (60). 5 family members. 30k out of 35k USD. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Qasim Al-Kafarneh (alternatively: gfm) (61). 33 family members. 1st one, 5.7k out of 80k AUD. 2nd one 86k out of 94k USD. (NEARLY COMPLETE)

Mahmoud Qassas (62). 42 family members. 6.9k out of 200k CAD. (ONE CHRONICALLY ILL, NEEDS TREATMENT)

Ottawa4Palestine’s vetted fundraiser spreadsheet (76 different families with listed fundraisers)

UNVETTED, BUT HIGHLY LIKELY LEGITIMATE ESCAPE FUNDRAISERS:

Rasha family (1). 5 family members. 1.3 out of 15k € (EXTREMELY LOW, NEED FUNDS)

Natasha Matar (2). 14 family members. 20.8k out of 200k CAD (140k needed for escape). LOW ON FUNDS.

Islam Daher (3). 6 family members. 2.6k out of 50k CAD. LOW ON FUNDS.

Ahmed M. Saleh (4). 4 family members. 8.3k out of 35k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Salwa Zarifa (5). 4 family members. 2.1k out of 50k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Moutasem Quffa (6). 6+ family members. 7k out of 65k €. LOW ON FUNDS.

Alaa Nidal (7). 4 family members. 12.6k out of 22k BP (original goal met, family evacuated ✅. Extended family being helped now, 2 INJURED, 1 OF THEM ELDERLY)

Zeina and her family (8). 3 family members (1 evacuated, 2 NEED TREATMENT). 6.4k out of 90k $. LOW ON FUNDS.

Jamila Begum (9). 7 family members. 35k needed. UNKNOWN STARTING AMOUNT. Zelle 347-738-0257, and Venmo @/merilm

OTHER FUNDRAISERS:

Mohammad Qadas. NEEDS TREATMENT + FOOD. EXTREMELY URGENT! HAS CHILDREN TO FEED!!

Help Yousef Replant Family Farm & Greenhouse. 2k out of 50k BP. SUSTAINABLE AID.

Rebuilding Developers Plus and Gaza’s community. 2.4k out of 47k €. SUSTAINABLE AID.

Samar Elrayih Hydoub. It seems that most family members have been evacuated, but they need an emergency 1.5k for medical expenses.

Eman Abdel Rahman. Need help rebuilding home and access to food. 7.1k out of 42.6k USD.

Ibrahim Adil Osman. All intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need some financial support to start being stable enough to make money to get more family members to escape.

Anonymous Palestinian-Canadian woman. She was doxxed and harassed by zionists until she got fired. She's in a very precarious situation and needs funds to survive daily life. NEEDS FUNDS.

Abd Al Karim Adnan Alakklouk. Most intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need some financial support to start a new life and send more family members money to survive.

Bana AZ. All intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need a bit of support in establishing a new life. (only 866 € left to meet goal)

Kareem Abu Samra. All intended beneficiaries have been able to escape. They just need support to establish a new life.

Mahmoud Algharabli (previously no. 41). All intended beneficiaries have been evacuated. They just need support to establish a new life.

Al Hitana Omdurman soup kitchen.

Helping the People of Gaza – Mutual Aid Fund (run by my friend Mona)

Supporting Displaced Families in Gaza (CareForGaza)

Emergency Medical Relief for Gaza Refugees.

Help Sudan Tarada Initiative.

Amer Qudaih’s Relief efforts in Gaza.

#palestine #masterpost

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 16 days

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five minutes off finishing Julia Ducournau’s Raw and can I just say

LanodhIEHOWHSJksjiwhrhe !!!?3&/!?!!!!!!!

Because

hey want the fuck And Also More

More immediately please never stop what you do

I feel like someone just crawled inside me had an epiphany and slinked out of my nose, leaving me with the endorphins and a sense that I am no longer the most interesting person to ever live in here

I want to go run laps but it’s dark and piss cold out right now no hang on I’m sure I can mock one up

I need to draw 80 screencaps and I dont have the talent for full scale body drawings

It’s not going to stop me

I’m not gonna get into it but it’s been A Week for me, fuck today was thirty hours long, in terms of emotional movement and life changes and sheer fucking synapse responses

Ms Ducournua please I think you’ve permanently rewired pieces of my brain I haven’t so hyped coming off a film since The Thing, I

I would fight bears for a sliver of your skill

The acting is phenomenal, scoring is gorgeous, all of the actors throw it out of the park and the special effects team need one of every award you can give for that

Oscar, Medal of Honor, Nobel Prize in fine arts

Garance Marillier you performed some of the best body acting I have ever seen, the way you held yourself and walked and moved your arms, facial expressions laosbjeosnsmnwbbe

Titane and Raw are just fucking masterpieces I can’t

I can’tttt express what these meant, the female lens to sex and parties and objectification and the visceral horrific realities of having a body

Sex that’s about everything but the act itself! Sex that’s about pain and invasive reflex and discovery and fear and imposed shame and human desperation, about the kind of violence you do to yourself and other people.

Nudity that isn’t sexual, it’s just there because we all have bodies! And skin isn’t an expression of want or social communication it came free with your fucking humanity!

Hey. Hey. If you’re this far in. And you like, or at least can stomach body horror.

Go watch these films immediately. They’re both wildly different in subject and story but carry this incredible capacity for gore and violence and mundane suffering and the horror we put ourselves and other through to survive.

I’m gonna go start a fight with a deer, be good people.

#raw (2016)#horror movies #self reblog for clout #i promise im still alive. and I’ve got new stuff coming #my work hours are eating me but I’ve been staying silly #just haven’t finished a lot of stuff #life and I are having a spat right now and I like my odds but it will not be an easy w #i’m so serious go watch raw #and do whatever you can for the strike tomorrow

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 19 days

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REMINDER THAT APRIL 15TH IS A GLOBAL STRIKE DAY FOR GAZA

Don't stimulate the economy and participate on local action, the site below contains more info about the strike.

The strike is mostly in the US, but you can help regardless of country, you can also share info, boost posts in social media and put posters in your city about Gaza.

#palestine #strike #free gaza #palestinian genocide

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 1 month

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job hunt

“Why don’t you—”

“—just tell us something—"

“—little about yourself—”

“What would you like to know?”

“Oh, anyth—”

“—that comes to—”

“You really should’ve just walked into traffic last night.”

“Excuse me?” Rosa’s voice rings faintly in her own ears. The interviewer leaves the sentence curling on the table between them, blinking owlishly at her.

“Well, I was saying you can just tell me anything you think the company should know. about you, while you’re considered for the position,” the examiner repeats, some flat annoyance creeping into the words. The shock clanging around Rosa’s ears latches onto it, rage snapping up through her chest and hitting nothing, snarling at an empty chamber as her heart limps out of her teeth.

“I… apologize, I, misheard you. My fault, thank you for elaborating,” she says, feeling the words glide over her tongue as she convinces her hands not to lunge over the desk.

She walks from the yellowing back office two minutes later with a promise for future contact, and a mouth filled with dust and blood and printer ink. She will not remember the drive home.

#writers on tumblr #job search #job hunting #dissociation #original writing #somewhere between intrusive thoughts and auditory processing issues #suicidal themes #like it's not the lynchpin but it does come up #i wrote this awhile back while i was job hunting. and it looks like i'm going to be doing it some more soon #i've got other 'capitalism is the ninth circle of hell' mini pieces #they feel like a series to me but i don't know that i have anything more to say with this one specifically

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 1 month

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five minutes off finishing Julia Ducournau’s Raw and can I just say

LanodhIEHOWHSJksjiwhrhe !!!?3&/!?!!!!!!!

Because

hey want the fuck And Also More

More immediately please never stop what you do

I feel like someone just crawled inside me had an epiphany and slinked out of my nose, leaving me with the endorphins and a sense that I am no longer the most interesting person to ever live in here

I want to go run laps but it’s dark and piss cold out right now no hang on I’m sure I can mock one up

I need to draw 80 screencaps and I dont have the talent for full scale body drawings

It’s not going to stop me

I’m not gonna get into it but it’s been A Week for me, fuck today was thirty hours long, in terms of emotional movement and life changes and sheer fucking synapse responses

Ms Ducournua please I think you’ve permanently rewired pieces of my brain I haven’t so hyped coming off a film since The Thing, I

I would fight bears for a sliver of your skill

The acting is phenomenal, scoring is gorgeous, all of the actors throw it out of the park and the special effects team need one of every award you can give for that

Oscar, Medal of Honor, Nobel Prize in fine arts

Garance Marillier you performed some of the best body acting I have ever seen, the way you held yourself and walked and moved your arms, facial expressions laosbjeosnsmnwbbe

Titane and Raw are just fucking masterpieces I can’t

I can’tttt express what these meant, the female lens to sex and parties and objectification and the visceral horrific realities of having a body

Sex that’s about everything but the act itself! Sex that’s about pain and invasive reflex and discovery and fear and imposed shame and human desperation, about the kind of violence you do to yourself and other people.

Nudity that isn’t sexual, it’s just there because we all have bodies! And skin isn’t an expression of want or social communication it came free with your fucking humanity!

Hey. Hey. If you’re this far in. And you like, or at least can stomach body horror.

Go watch these films immediately. They’re both wildly different in subject and story but carry this incredible capacity for gore and violence and mundane suffering and the horror we put ourselves and other through to survive.

I’m gonna go start a fight with a deer, be good people.

#Raw (2016)#julia decournua #film review #Julia Decournua’s Raw #body horror #Titane (2021)#some of the best fucking filmmaking ever put to an audience I’m Dead Serious #film recommendations #movie review

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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spring intermission

yes, you’re dying, yes your skin will eventually peel and rot

your body will remain in grass and stomachs and you will be long gone

but you are here now and that black-out vision isn’t helping anybody

settle into worn leather and that stuttering heart and breathe

let your skin settle at your shoulders and rock backwards with the settled weight of it

do not strain yourself chasing that which will not hide from you

the cicadas have nowhere else to be

that bile in your throat is all your own

acid is not immortal, and skin will scar, and grief can die

the bugs get it

you’ll get there.

#poetry #dissociation #panic attack #look sometimes i fuck up my scheduling for the mildly more professional sibling blog #and if that's happened here #forcing me to scrambling back through completed work until i found this genuinely pretty good snippet i don't remember writing #then that's between you me and the cricket army isn't it #gore warning?#this is pretty tame for me i don't know

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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lion pit maintenance from the banks of a gravel-lined river

i have you propped onto this shaking dining room table that neither of us own

the both of us shaking with it

because you’re laughing into my shoulder as i do my best gladiator impression

as i appraise you like a treasure i have won

(i am laughing with you because if anyone ever tried to win you you’d have seduced your way onto their tongue)

(and bitten down with as much force as you could manage before someone pulled you off)

there’s an unfinished puzzle, somewhere near the center of the shaking table

i can hear cardboard moving around as we sway into each other

and i bite the inside of my mouth to kill the urge to sneak an arm around you

to snap one between my fingers

little stale piece of paper and incomplete story piece and glossy ink

to appraise it for a second, catch it in the light until the sheen of a factory press blurs the colors past recognition

to pop it into my mouth before your eyes have finished tracking my wrist and swallow

and i can tell myself that i’ve been keeping myself from eating gravel since i was seven

and that the click of falling pieces instigated that deep-rooted instinct to put foreign objects in my mouth and find out what happens when i bite through them

i can tell myself that there is a poetry to unfinishable puzzles

that i will make this moment eternal in a frustration i will never see

that it’s the closest thing to etching our initials on the underside of the rocking wood we can get to without signing our names on the crime

that i’ve always found love declarations made of hearts and initials tacky

but mostly it’s that i hate the owner of this dining room table

and i know the kind of attention she affords a half-finished puzzle

a one-inch stretch of cardboard is a very small price to pay

to leave her with an unfinished accomplishment, and a wriggle of paranoia, and a picture she will never love fully

(and i am projecting again)

i am no stranger to theft

but consumption carries the weight of the divine

the difference of destruction to unmaking, of a little finesse and some calculated misery

(you have murmured something into my collarbone and it is very hard to hear anything over the footsteps roaring in my ears)

i mouth something appropriate back at you as your face blanches

so either i’ve gotten a lot worse at this or some of those footsteps are real

but i left the back door unlocked on our way in and she’s never been god’s most efficient little soldier

even when it comes to ruining afternoons

so i anchor my weight to my heels and move to retreat with you

to capture this priceless treasure and recede from the pit of my enemy

and i’m starting to lose track of the story we were spinning

because my wrist is still stretched around you and i can see loose pieces scant inches from my fingertips

and i am hesitating

because i was raised according to the interest of polite country folk and social standing

and the saliva in my mouth is starting to taste of glossy fruit and mania

and i’ve been trying not to listen to one of those

(and she’s still coming inside)

i am your roving head and gladiator

and i am going to travel us far from the reach of a squealing door and footsteps that still set something alight in my chest when i hear them

i am going to carry us over an aging back porch, with its groaning spine

and i am going to ignore the urge to clear a little counter space and leave a heartfelt note

and i am probably not going to burn my mother’s house down

(i suspect i’m probably going to try)

#no fuck you i like this one #self reblog for clout #i said lying

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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Global Strike on March 2nd

shutitdown4palestine has called for a global strike on 2nd March

What to do for 2nd March

Walk out from work and/or school

Picket Israeli embassies and consulates

Picket against companies that profit from Israel’s occupation of Palestine (Lockheed Martin, Boeing, Raytheon, Northrop Grumman, General Dynamics, Elbit Systems)

Host speak outs

Wear kuffiyehs

Wear black armbands

The website linked has further information about this strike as well as protests that may be occurring in your area.

Aside from this, as usual, boycott, call your reps, and donate when you can.

#palestine #free gaza #rafah #and as the poster says there are marchs all over the place #I know there’s a bunch in the u.s.

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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Rare pity, mercy and compassion of the giants called humanity

#art that isn’t mine #god. god. just #‘I don’t think I should be allowed to kill something because I am afraid of it.’#‘because I am bigger than it is and I can’#it’s about bugs it’s about spiders and human connection and the diversity of lived experience #thank you for arranging these #these are some of my favorite poems #I had never seen 10 legs 8 broken before #and it’s astounding #animal death

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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the average nutritional value of road salt and the inside of a 9 millimeter casing

i have a secret

i have a secret and i’ve never managed to look my father in the eye while admitting it

and i’d rather spit in your face than tell it to you in confidence

the kind of secret you drag bodily into your grave and hope your stomach buries before the dirt gets that far

i have a secret i’d rather die than tell you and you’re about to figure it out

two and two make four, you can do this slugger

and there is glass in my fingers and slush warming itself on my ankles

and you're staring me down with shaking fingers

and between the two of us i’m pretty sure you’d vomit first if i smiled with my whole mouth

and you’re still just fucking standing there with my life in your hands like it was hard to grab

(i’m wondering idly if there’s enough money in my wallet to palm to you)

(enough to ask you to pull the trigger wavering between my right eye and collarbone)

(the odds of it hitting somewhere solid enough to kill me fast)

(the potential energy of a prayer so i can die, godless but quickly)

(god let me die quickly. god please turn the knife from somewhere i won’t see it coming)

there are spots in my memory like cheap film reel and there’s blood on the ground between us

and i can’t remember whose it is

there’s a copper smell in my mouth and ringing in my ears and i think that might be real

but there’s this look on your face like i bit your mother, or maybe just you

and there’s blood all over the fucking place

and despite who’s holding the gun i don’t think it’s mine

streetlights are creeping down the alleyway like overbearing parents and they’re glinting roughly off every surface they can reach

yellow-white fuzz growing off windows and chainlink fences and a tire well

i can see the back half of a car around your wobbling knees

some old tanker halfway up the sidewalk and throughly in the mouth of the alleyway

i think i'm blacking out and i am so fucking scared i am about to miss my own death and

(i can’t stop staring at the grey-green car)

(paint glittering like soft chalk, somewhere between colors and my legs twinge underneath me)

(cramped and clawing and aching softly, the body willing the spirit to stir, to rise)

(to cross pavement like a dead man, to stumble, upwards and over)

(to rap a line of knuckles against the window, to see if it would break, if anyone is still sitting inside)

(if anyone is about to hear a murder from all the distance of two-hundred feet and a corner office)

(i can’t pull my gaze away, even as the muzzle flashes with the streetlamp mold)

(black then grey than white-gold and gone, sunk into the sea of dark static that surges when i turn my head that far)

(i haven’t been able to see out of my right eye for a couple of minutes now)

it’s not snowing

it’s not snowing anymore

i don’t know why it matters

why relief lives in a clear, starless sky waving down at a blood-smeared alleyway

where my knees hurt and my teeth hurt and i am not in any pain that is going to mean anything

i don’t know how much of me is mixed in with the grime and the slush and the gravel and i’m starting to suspect it doesn’t matter

because i’m pretty sure i’m gonna die here regardless

because it’s skin to cold to nothing, because i cannot feel my mouth

enough of my throat left to know i am not speaking aloud

enough of me left to shiver and ache and watch you from somewhere on the ground

even as the wind tugs hair loose from the smear of blood spilling into your eyes

as mine sting and blister under the care of spilt ends and a breeze made of glass

and i’m starting to think the glass isn’t real

(It’s shredding my mouth and melting in my throat)

(cool and thin and lukewarm while it pools in my stomach)

(a faint whistle from the mouth of the alleyway, deadened in this brick maw of service doors)

(i am half dead and slack jawed and overwhelmingly grateful)

(because from this angle i can slide my gaze far enough over to meet yours)

and i much prefer the version of this encounter

where you are gifted the view of my death

and not just the view of you killing me

#poetry #existential dread #kinda?#it's more of a general #existentialism #than anything else #it's about dissociation and blacking out and the thin visual line between road salt and black ice #i don't know. i'll probably post gore or something next time productivity's been weird #but i promised not to attack myself for that sort of stuff #so i'll see you next time #as always #to you

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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SPREADSHEET OF PALESTINIAN ESCAPE FUNDS‼️TIME SENSITIVE

Operation Olive Branch is a continuously updating spreadsheet of Palestinian escape funds where progress towards their goals is being tracked. As of right now, there are over 100 funds listed there.

Any amount of money can make a difference. With their recent decision to bomb Rafah, the only remaining “safe” territory in Gaza, Israel has forced Palestinians into a corner by giving them nowhere else to go. The international community has given Israel the ability to act with impunity - it is long past the point in time to rely on those in power to hold Israel to any standard of compassion.

Today, I want you to look at this document, choose a fund, contribute to it, and share it. The people in Rafah are living on borrowed time. Free Palestine.

#palestine #free palestine

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 2 months

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LINK TO THE SPREADSHEET

#palestine #a hundred people giving 5 dollars will quickly surpass 5 people giving 50 #there’s no perfect phrasing I just. you can do more than you think

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sacrilegious-skeletal-scribe · 3 months

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lion pit maintenance from the banks of a gravel bed