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Also I must say: I do not like the way Collapse characterized John. Love his interactions with Joseph but I think characterizing his sadistic tendencies as some kind of struggle with violent impulses is actually pretty contradictory with what we are told in canon.

What John tells us in his bunker is "I spent my whole life looking for more things to say 'yes' to. I opened up every hole in my body and when those were filled, I created more. But it was Joseph who shower me how selfish I was being. Always receiving, always taking. The best gift isn't the one you get, its the one you give." That, to me, paints a pretty clear picture. As an outgrowth of his childhood abuse John spent his adulthood engaging in self-harming behaviors, seeking out scenarios where he could recreate that helplessneess and release as a way to feel cleansed. Its pretty clear to me that these habits were primarily self-destructive, even submissive in nature ("always receiving, always taking"). "Things to say yes to" isn't quite synonymous with the American Psycho kind of picture that Collapse paints, John seems to have specifically sought out scenarios where he would lack control, where he would be hurt and preyed upon. Until Joseph convinced him to instead enact those desires on others. Take everything that was done to you, and do it to other people, not only to cleanse them, but to finally save yourself from the sin inside you.

Like to be clear: this isn't me saying John wouldn't do malicious cruel things without Joseph's interference. But making him a knife-happy bad dominant stereotype with an obsession for strangling people both contradicts how the main canon tends to characterize him, and also imo whitewashes Joseph's manipulation. If John is a collection of violent impulses, Joseph becomes not one of his abusers, but his handler. Its kind of a consistent problem with the Collapse where it is wants to continually frame the actions of the siblings as what they probably would have done anyways. Joseph is wrong for gaining by it, but it shies away from pointing out where he not only encouraged it, but at times redirected it into specific, more beneficial channels.

John had his brother never showed up likely wouldn't have been a very good person! He would still be a corrupt lawyer deeply fixated on his own desires and with a very destructive personal theology. But he does not pick up the knife to use on others unless his big brother tells him to.

#far cry 5 #fc5 #joseph seed #john seed #fc6 collapse

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Biannual rewatch of the Collapse DLC. I get the distinct impression that the writers didn't. Quite understand Faith and defaulted to stock abused cult princess tropes. Obviously every Herald is a lot more volatile and vulnerable around Joseph than they are around the Deputy but Faith I think winds up reading much more. Hapless and naive. What was interesting about Faith in FC5 to me is she always seemed like she was a little more aware of her circumstances than she wanted to admit to herself. More than that she was a talented manipulator and extremely lucid, even holding Joseph at arm's length to avoid jeopardizing her own power/repeating the mistakes which got her predecessors killed. I think there could have been something interesting done if it had dove a little more into Joseph's cognitive dissonance on the subject, on his mental insistence that she remains his sweet innocent (dependent) Faith its clear that she's playing his own game back at him, telling him what he needs to hear to ensure her own survival

#again to be clear she is very much his victim #and also i don't want his to sound like im like. faulting an abuse victim for not outthinking her abuser #its more. shes always been presented to us as smart and savvier than she let on #as well as concerned with preserving her own power #i think stepping back from that to do some really lazy addict writing was kind of a blunder #like this is how joseph sees her only gets one so far #far cry 5 #fc5 #faith seed #fc6 collapse

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If there ever comes another Far Cry 5 renaissance though I have to get more of you onboard with the fact that Nick Rye is bar none the most fuckable man in Hope County. I'm not speaking to you from a feminist malewife "he worships his lady and thats SEXY 🥵🥵🥵" perspective. I speak to you from a sheer animal kind of lust here my heart sank so severely when we found out this man was married. No ill will towards Kim she is also hot and funny but I was backdrafting proposals watching him speak soothingly to his stupid yellow plane. I need him bad

#his tag is overflowing with oh i bet he gets pegged #motherfucker i need to be bent over surfaces #sorry to my followers this is the posting quality one can expect to receive from me these days #far cry 5 #fc5 #nick rye

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thinking about this again. The thing about Sharky's writing is he's basically just another iteration on the Hurk playbook. Make a guy who's epic and whimsical enough that you, presumed dude player, can engage in antics that appeal to your inner 12 year old. But also make him pathetic enough that he's not a threat to your status as the chad alpha, make him stupid or bumbling or sexually weird or a hick. Something that makes it clear that he will be wingmanning you into eternity whenever the manchild act bores you.

Where they fucked up with Sharky is making him read as both inexplicably faggy and also like. Nonthreatening to the point of being inexplicably adorable. You have to zone out every three comments before he says something with some mid 2000s bro bigotry (brogotry) but between his transparent desire to eat pussy and "you got eyes I could swim in for days". Like what were we as Tumblrinas supposed to do but adopt him. Get him a goddamn Miku binder the author is dead welcome to the revels America.

I'm generally not a fanon supremacy person I generally find the process of turning a character into a fandomized oc pretty obnoxious but Sharky Boshaw is an exception. Every piece of fanart drawn by a transparent bisexual makes me forget this man was written to be epic by straight dudes in 2018. Please give him ADHD even harder its important to my well-being

#the thing about my far cry posting is I sound sooooo sane and stable whilst i do it #anyways then they made him a dilf in new dawn #f slur #i guess #sharky boshaw #far cry 5 #fc5

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The faster we tumblrize the more I forget how much he resembles men I grew up around and how much those actually suck to be with. Give him more piercings and fluffy hair. He listens to Mitski now. I sound like I'm being ironic I 100% am not

I'm generally not a fanon supremacy person I generally find the process of turning a character into a fandomized oc pretty obnoxious but Sharky Boshaw is an exception. Every piece of fanart drawn by a transparent bisexual makes me forget this man was written to be epic by straight dudes in 2018. Please give him ADHD even harder its important to my well-being

#sharky boshaw #far cry 5 #fc5

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Had an unfortunate incident today when I was hanging out with Sharky and Staci in the Wolf’s Den and Staci (recently liberated) was having a mild breakdown and chanting to himself “WE ARE MEAT, WE’RE ALL MEAT”

and Sharky chose that exact moment to chime in with “Jerky is the Lords food”

#hes trying to help : ( #sharky boshaw #staci pratt #far cry 5 #fc5

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I'm generally not a fanon supremacy person I generally find the process of turning a character into a fandomized oc pretty obnoxious but Sharky Boshaw is an exception. Every piece of fanart drawn by a transparent bisexual makes me forget this man was written to be epic by straight dudes in 2018. Please give him ADHD even harder its important to my well-being

#like its pure self indulgence as a bi trans dude #to just fag this man to hell and back #also every fem!dep that self ships with him is doing gods work #far cry 5 #fc5 #sharky boshaw

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Lrb relevant something about the way each brother is constantly reiterating their trauma in an attempt to subdue it.

Jacob, most direct and long-term recipient of their father's abuse, surrounds himself with people he's conditioned to become violent at the drop of a hat.

But its ok, because he controls the trigger this time.

Joseph, left abandoned by the splitting of their family, creates conditions for his new Family that are so untenable it's only a matter of time before any given member tries to leave him.

But it's ok, because being forced to constantly negotiate, gaslight, and threaten people into sticking with him makes him feel like he has power over his isolation this time.

John reliving his childhood torture every goddamn day, carving himself up when he can't carve up others and having his fear of damnation dangled over his head by his brother god. Constantly repenting, constantly atoning, never forgiven.

But it's ok, because he holds the knife this time. When you hold the knife, you get to say when it stops, and you get to extract sin from others rather than have it extracted from you.

#i thought about a faith addition to this post but honestly #faith distances herself so hard from her past self she functionally pretends she never existed #its a very testimony approach to trauma #obviously very hollow #but it means shes not really seeking reflections of herself #shes afraid of a mirror more than anything #far cry 5 #fc5 #joseph seed #john seed #jacob seed

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John projecting and diagnosing everyone as Wrath and Jacob projecting and diagnosing everyone as Weak and Joseph projecting and diagnosing everyone as Pride

#what if i died what then <3 #joseph seed #john seed #jacob seed #far cry 5 #fc5

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I know he was like suicidal or whatever but instead of just slumping back and dying menacingly would it have killed Jacob to wrestle us into the dirt a little bit before he went

#there is something about the fact that iirc #he touches you the least of all the heralds #faith and joseph are constantly in your space #john a little less so but he's still straddling your ass #jacob doesnt touch you till he's dying closest he gets is the Chair lean #also his flirty michael jackson moment of pushing your gun down #i hauve covid i think #far cry 5 #fc5 #jacob seed

[rookisaknight]

hey bud, would you mind pinning me to something and letting me struggle against your weight for a while? it’s good for my mental health

#mm. i shant say it

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Not to discount the importance of mental health services but it is a little funny to me when people explain their no cult AUs as like "The Seeds went to therapy" like the only thing needed to interrupt that chain of events was some twice a month talk sessions. Maybe a little CBT thrown in for flavor. Damn guys you almost overreacted there :/

#to be clear i know people are just using go to therapy as a shorthand here #im just imagining john getting ready to go into the torture bunker and then going mm #janine said i might need to take a step back from all this for my well being #shes gonna be disappointed next session if i tell her i went in :/ #far cry 5 #fc5 #jacob seed #john seed #joseph seed #faith seed

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John Seed is so much of a character because there are so many things wrong with him but when you look at him in the context of the narrative framework its like

#and in his case both are true #far cry 5 #fc5 #john seed

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My relationship with Jacob Seed. You know those movies about a guy and an older man where the older man is his tough as nails mentor in a dangerous line of work. Doesn't approve of him at all initially while the main character is like fuck this old timer I'll show him. But over the course of their journey they develop grudging respect, friendship, and eventually some deeply daddy-issued homoeroticism unexplained by science. And then at the end the older man dies or retires and the main character marries his hot daughter who's been in like two scenes beforehand. Mainly to establish she's hot and a chip off the old block and its somehow even gayer because its like you would marry his blood just to touch him by proxy.

Its like that do you guys find this relatable

#far cry 5 #fc5 #jacob seed #hello to my 6 followers i hope you are holding on out there #yes my period is COMING

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Far Cry 5 as Text Posts - Jacob Seed

#the first one. thank you jacob i needed to hear that #jacob seed #far cry 5 #fc5

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i think about john and dutch a lot, and i read a really great meta by @paperclipbracelet the other day that made me think a lot.

often times when the dynamic between dutch and john is discussed, people asses that john would have worshipped dutch in return. but what if he didn’t? what if part of what drew dutch to john was the chase and subsequent dopamine hits that came with succeeding in that relationship. arthur makes it easy, all dutch really has to do is call him “son” and arthur would throw himself off a cliff. literally. but with john, i wonder if part of what drew dutch in was figuring him out. both arthur and john are pretty introspective individuals, but i don’t think it’s outlandish to say arthur is a bit easier to figure out as a person and is more emotionally and socially in tune. (of course, they’re both quite awkward and withdrawn, and john he clearly grows a little more into his own by the events of rdr1)

i can imagine dutch feeling like he’s taking on some great challenge in deciphering what makes john tick and how to get him to regard him in the same respect arthur so easily does. when he “succeeds” its like a great triumph. he dotes on him, he goes easy on him, he talks him up, whether it's “deserved” or not because what he learns is this motivates arthur in turn as well. arthur vies for the attention dutch will so frivolously give to john, and dutch notices how much more he does what he’s withholding.

where arthur is like clay, easily molded, john was like stone that dutch needed to chip away at. 

#this is generally how i tend to read them! #john always seems put off or confused when people refer to him as dutchs favorite #and i keep thinking about that year when he bailed #its the kind of thing thats deeply inconceivable to arthur for whom the gang is everything #but i think. while john does love hosea and arthur and dutch i dont think he really ever expected the gang to be the rest of his life #its why hes the first to start questioning in a really pointed way #and i think why hes able to compartmentalize in a way thats needed when hes sent to kill them #again im worried this comes off as john slander this isnt me saying he didnt care about them #but that he has an easier time than arthur seeing himself as separate from them #which drives dutch up the fucking wall #because all his tactics are predicated on a very specific kind of family loyalty #hes lenient with john because i think he keeps hoping it will make john feel dependent on him #rdr2 #john marston #dutch van der linde

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Also controversial: I like sadiarthur but I like it in a butch4butch lesbian way. Or a fem4fem gay man way. No in-between reckon with them

#you wouldnt get the swag of i cant believe we're both trans and cowboys #sadie adler #arthur morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2