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i’m really out here, secretly in love with my best friend, at my big age of 23 🤡

#what i would like to know is: how have i had 0 character development since the age of 15??? #there are times when i think he might feel the same way too. and i know everyone around us just assumed we were dating over the last 2y. #but there are other times where he treats me like i am a BOY 🤡 #and next year he is moving to NY. the thought of which makes me feel sick #he just does my absolutely fucking head in and yet i adore this man so much and he has been my joy and confidante and partner in crime #since i was 21 and truly all i want to do is just share every aspect of my life and myself with him #🤡🤡🤡

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my best friend is back at work tomorrow. feels like instant sunshine

#haven’t seen his dumb ass in a week and a half #which is really nothing - but feels like forever #idk what i’m gonna do when he’s working abroad for a couple months #but i came home so exhausted and down today and he just texted and made me crease and said see you bright and early tomorrow #and my little heart went yh. it will be bright 🥹 #although ik he’s going to go straight into VEXING me the second he steps foot in the office loool

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changing every “i should have known better” to “i know better now”. i will not judge past versions of me through the lens of who i am now.

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“In my early twenties, it had never occurred to me that the women who gained their power from beauty were indebted to the men whose desire granted them that power in the first place. Those men were the ones in control, not the women the world fawned over. Facing the reality of the dynamics at play would have meant admitting how limited my power really was—how limited any woman’s power is when she survives and even succeeds in the world as a thing to be looked at.”

- My Body by Emily Ratajkowski (2021)

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Barbara Crooker, “And Now It’s September,” [ID in alt text]

#poetry #autumn

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“As soon as you begin to ask the question, Who loves me? you are completely screwed, because the next question is How Much? and then it is hundreds of hours later, and you are still hunched over your flowcharts and abacus, trying to decide if you have gotten enough. This is the loneliest job in the world: to be an accountant of the heart. It is late at night. You are by yourself, and all around you, you can hear the sounds of people moving in and out of love, pushing the turnstiles, putting their coins in the slots, paying the price which is asked, which constantly changes. No one knows why.”

— Tony Hoagland, “The Loneliest Job in the World”

#written words #love

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this never stopped being so crazy

#tbh this has ruined me

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truly why are some men 🤡

#I went to dance salsa this evening for the first time since the summer and this man got angry at me for being too short for him 😭 #Idk which depths of hell the men in that class came from but NEVER AGAIN

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Ada Limón, from “Forgiveness”

[text ID: And aren’t we all alone in the end? / You put your head for a moment against my chest. / Then, all I could hear was our breathing, and I understood / we were both human and animal-hearted, / bound to the blades, and bound to outrun them.]

#written words #favourite

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Yes we remember K! Holy shit lol. Well, good luck for the next chapter of your life - what is your work path if you don't mind me asking?

!! it’s crazy to me that some of you guys were here when this was all happening 3 years ago - i actually met up w him last week! not gonna disclose what i’m doing for work but thank you for the luck ❤️ hope you’re happy & well!

#answered #anonymous

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Astrophotographer, in Idaho, captures falling meteor fireball.

#videos #nature #favourite

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photos under my "dream home" board in pinterest.

#h

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Daily stretches for mornings and better sleep.

#reference

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Mood board for my future dream home 🏠

#images #h #for my new home !!!!!

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source

#why this man so cute tho 🧡 #reference

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I don't know if any of you lovelies have been here for years but does anyone remember K who I dated that summer in Paris three years ago? He's moving to my city for work 20 minutes away from me, and we start on the same day.

#He reached out over a week ago and I still can't wrap my head around it. The chances of this man I dated right before I started university #moving to my country my CITY and starting work at the same time as me right as I have finished university... #It's so funny bc at the time a friend said 'I don't think your story ends here. I think your paths will cross again in the future' and #I laughed it off bc I really thought I'd never see him again #I hope we do catch up because it would be so interesting to see where life has taken us over the past few years #He knew BABY Tris and my nostalgic heart would love to revisit that snapshot in time #It's just so funny I think you forget sometimes how deeply you once cared for people who are no longer a part of your life and I've #scrolled through my archive and all I talked about all of August 2018 was him. It's very sweet (embarrassment aside) to look back on it all

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Hi love! How are you doing? I hope you’re doing well! I just wanted to pop by and say that I miss your posts and just those posts where you talk about something, they make my day! but I hope you’re doing well <3 all the love to you xx

Hi friend! I'm well, thank you so much for checking in! It's been a busy few months, I graduated and am moving to London where I start work next month, so life is crazy crazy at the moment. I'm so nervous (but also excited. but also stressed!) that I feel like I have butterflies all the time, but I think this next chapter will be good.

How are you? I hope you're doing well too, all the love right back at you. xxx

#answered #slowdeathinblue