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marked by the stars

#happy 1000 days #gojo satoru #eerie pretty boy #jjk #jjk fanart #arblogs

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Caged Bird

#eerie pretty boy #gojo satoru #jjk fanart #jjk #arblogs

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#🔥🔥🔥 #hange zoe #hange zoe simp hours #snk #snk fanart #arblogs #arsimps

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after a tough mission, they’re discussing about the villain’s quirk

#manifesting kacchan's recovery #everything's alright #right? #RIGHT??? #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #bnha #bnha fanart #arblogs

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The quintessential " I'm about to die but I'll become your eye and see the future with you. " >>>>>>> " The destroyed left eye of mine, it closed the day with the last thing it saw burned into it, was your dampened face. So by the time my right eye closes you'd better not be showing me your disheartened face. " >>>>>>> " My six eyes tell me you're Suguru Geto, but my soul knows otherwise. " shounen trauma starter pack

I'm truly sorry for anyone who went through the naruto->gintama->jjk pipeline and got utterly wrecked by the mentally ill white hair bastard x war criminal ships

#ah yes my favorite dynamic #monochrome menaces #kakaobi #satosugu #takagin #happy birthday chibisugi #arblogs

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Maybe She's Not Such a Heinous Bitch After All

For @lockedinthelabyrinth

It was inevitable this season that without Ben, Klaus either had to learn independence, get another enabler, or find another abuser.  Now we know.

A lot of people look at an abusive situation and ask, “Why don’t they just leave?”

Well, The Umbrella Academy just showed you exactly why.  Steve Blackman et al. revealed that the same mechanism that keeps people with their abusers actually exists in you.  You went through the thought process with Klaus this season, wondering whether this Reginald is actually different, and while you probably didn’t reach full faith in him, you did doubt he’s all that bad.  We’re told that bad people only do bad things and good people only do good things, but never in human history has this been true.  You may write someone off because they’re a terrible person, but then they show a side that brings you close again—they’re a generous lover, or they buy you a present, or they take you to a playground and spend quality one-on-one time with you.  They seem self-aware, like they know exactly what they did to you and they’re sorry now.  But then, the abuse comes back around.  They’ve just managed to be nice enough to you that they can keep you on the hook.  That’s all they were doing.  And you’re never quite as immune to this as you think.  If you grew up in this sort of environment, it’s entirely likely you’ve pretty much lost the ability to see it coming. The warning signs just look like normal behavior to you.

Privately, to myself, I call this the “Heinous Bitch” phenomenon, after the Crazy Ex-Girlfriend song “Maybe She’s Not Such a Heinous Bitch After All” (which is brilliantly done in a 60’s girl group style, go listen to it).  It’s a song sung when the main character’s emotionally abusive mother starts being oddly nice to her, and having the relationship with her that she always dreamed of.  Many people go through this stage periodically with their abuser, and the relationship between Reginald and Klaus this season perfectly illustrated how it happens.  Hell, a lot of Klaus’ dialogue is eerily reminiscent of some of the most clichéd things victims say about their abuser during this stage—saying his father is different now (though in this case it’s literal), encouraging other people to give him a chance, all that.  But it ends like it nearly always ends in these situations: a return to the norm once the abuser feels like they no longer benefit from being nice.

This may not be the Reg of Klaus’ timeline, but Reg is still Reg, and knows himself so well he can pick the game up right where his other self left off.  He can tell Klaus is, at his core, a deeply empathetic person who is so desperate to refill all the scoops that have been taken out of him that he’s the most vulnerable target.  Fei foreshadowed this in the first episode by calling him the weakest link.

Do I think 100% of the kindness we saw from Reg towards Klaus was faked?  Not really.  I think there is something about Klaus that Reg came to like.  I think he has some genuine warmth toward Klaus, but it doesn’t go very deep.  I got a touch of regret out of Colm’s performance as he was leaving Klaus to die.  Others might disagree.  But he didn’t have to say the things he said.  He could have just shut Klaus out with no explanation, if he truly didn’t feel any kind of way about him.  Instead, he gives him an explanation and an apology.  The explanation is utterly, needlessly cruel, and the apology means nothing because he then proceeds to do the thing he’s apologizing for even as Klaus begs him not to.  Still.  In that moment, I think Reg was being honest—both about his poor opinion of Klaus, and about his regret for what he was going to do.  Otherwise, what good would it do to tear him down one last time?  Reg is slightly fond of Klaus, but he loves Abigail, and has chosen not to risk taking Klaus along the path towards her, despite that fondness.

And it’s bad.  It’s very, very bad.  In some ways, you could see it as being worse than Reg treating him with only cruelty.  Reg shows he is capable of cognitive empathy (an ability to imagine how someone must be feeling based on their circumstances, which is the kind of empathy ND people often struggle with), and when that’s the case, it can be forgiven if one believes he is also capable of emotional empathy (responding to someone else’s emotions with the same or similar emotion).  I think Klaus believed Reg finally understood him, and in a way, he was right.  Reg understands Klaus like he understands a puzzle he put together.  But understanding the damage his alternate self caused Klaus doesn’t mean he has had any emotional response to it, any compassion for him.  He knows exactly how Klaus is going to take his words, and says them anyway when it would have been kinder to simply shut the door and say nothing.

Klaus has seen that his father knows exactly what he did to him in the past (because he told him in the graveyard scene), feels like he has finally gotten some healing from it, and then been told he was worthless all along.  Finally, he is shoved to the floor as he reaches for Reginald.  That’s an angst dumpster fire that’s going to keep Klaus fans warm for a long time.

And Klaus’ reaction to it is immediate.  Once he makes it to the Void, he gives up.  He tells Luther it’s because he (Klaus) is always messing up, so it’s better for him to just stay out of everything and relax.  The way I take this, it means that Klaus is blaming himself for Reg’s betrayal because he fell for his manipulations.  Victims often let their abusers off the hook because they have accepted that they won’t change—they can, but it’s not a realistic expectation to have.  Luther was the perfect person to see Klaus through this because he knows the Heinous Bitch cycle so intimately, and won’t stand for Klaus wallowing in self-pity. I kind of think he must have told himself the kinds of things he tells Klaus here, to break himself out of his own funk.

This is how the same people get in abusive relationships over and over again. It’s how abused people stay with their abusive partners.  It’s the ultimate trick of an abuser—not terror, but kindness.  And it is cruel.

#klaus hargreeves #reginald hargreeves #tua meta #tua #tua s3 #arblogs

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#pain #klaus hargreeves #reginald hargreeves #tua s3 #tua gifs #tua #arblogs

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 strawberries part twoo🍓🍓🍓

#fruity assholes #happy gego day #satosugu #gojo satoru #getou suguru #jjk #jjk fanart #arblogs

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#dadzawa and his problem children #wonder duo #indeed it's a wonder how they're still alive #midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #aizawa shouta #bnha #bnha fanart #arblogs

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everyone thinks Bakugou would be the jealous one but let’s be real here

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#feral gremlins #shinbaku #bakugou katsuki #shinsou hitoshi #bnha fanart #bnha #arblogs

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“Just ask Klaus” should be the motto of s3

#foursight #clairvoyant klaus #klaus hargreeves #tua s3 #tua gifs #tua #arblogs

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Polaris

#happy 900 days #I miss you #unboxing when #gojo satoru #jjk #jjk fanart #arblogs

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and then they DID

#ow ow ow #4&5 #immortal and time-traveler #ugh this motif this contrast so brilliant #clairvoyant klaus #klaus hargreeves #five hargreeves #tua s3 #tua #tua gifs #arblogs #one who foresees future events vs one who saw the future #the one who saw the inevitable (doom) vs the one who controls/is the inevitable (death) #one who went to the future only to see his loved ones dead vs one who went to the past only to see his loved one die

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Klaus and Five — My siblings keep dying on me + I can’t die like a normal person: Canon Edition.

#4&5 #they're twins #the contrast in their characters is amazing #from powers to personalities to experiences/backstories #and the best part is that they meet in the end #like how they talk over each other only to arrive at the same thought #or how they understand each other in their own way #chaotic (in opposite spectrums) duo #immortal and time-traveler #I adore their dynamic #klaus hargreeves #five hargreeves #tua s3 #tua #tua gifs #arblogs

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Five + patting Klaus on the arm

#pat pat #you're a good brother #stupid son and tiny dancer #chaotic (in opposite spectrums) duo #4&5 #five hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #tua s3 #tua #tua gifs #arblogs

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Klaus + Lila parallels

#I'm so bi for them #chaotic in-laws #they're besties #klaus hargreeves #lila pitts #tua s3 #tua #tua gifs #arblogs

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Can we talk about how the afterlife gets more and more colorful as Klaus becomes more and more in control of his powers? Cause that’s BRILLIANT filmmaking right there

#the void: now in technicolor #the void is the wizard of oz as hotel obsidian is to alice in wonderland #klaus hargreeves #but really the journey of his powers shown through color is such brilliant storytelling #I see your true colors shining through and it's gay immortal #tua s3 #tua #tua meta #arblogs