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Man, honestly I'm done with tumblr. I don't have the energy or really had motivation for social media anyway, not that I had much to begin with.

If I do come back, it's not until after the current clown, nay, circus of a CEO is banished to the shadow realm.

As one of the most tranniest faggiest people to live I say this with my whole heart: Fuck transmisogyny. Fuck any -phobics in general. Fuck racism and the AI bro bullshit. (And fuck anything else I may've missed too.) Sue his ass for everything he's worth.

If you still want to keep up with me for whatever god forsaken reason, I have a YT. That's all.

Later. Vehicle tool. You know the ones, I hope.

(If you have no idea what's going on, maia crimew [nyancrimew] and fanonical are following along the situation closely, check out their blogs for more)

#text post #if matt follows me to yt im throwing hands <3 ai techbro pissbaby #bro bought the trans gay people website and got surprised there was trans people in it what a joke #also only tagging these for people who filter them out cuz they're in a diff form -> #f slur #t slur

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#2d animation #digital art #rain world #video #undescribed

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#work in progress #2d animation

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*dies*

Teaser GIFs of work on my other Zephyrus MAP part

Art of a hybrid dinosaur concept by a friend for an ongoing contest

Character design concepts for a friend (Order and Chaos, respectively)

Miscellaneous drawings from note-taking sketchbook

#digital art #traditional art #2d animation #pencil #oc(s) (not mine) #image #gif #undescribed #dear tumblr let me move text blocks on web when making posts it's so fucking annoying having to work around them thanks

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🦀🦀🦀 TUMBLR LIVE IS FUCKING DEAD 🦀🦀🦀

[Image description: A screenshot of mobile tumblr's dashboard showcasing the home, search, activity, and profile buttons. The button for tumblr live is gone. End ID.]

#good fucking riddance and rest in piss you useless piece of garbage #shitpost #image #described

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i make vial go spinny yippee

[Image description: A GIF of an empty, roughly sketched vial spinning as if it were falling. End ID.]

#gif #wip #described #this is for a map part

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dude what was i cooking when i wrote this

People sometimes call artists "drawers" but has anyone ever called writers "worders"

#text post #no but i still stand by what i said

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merry chrysler also apparently I've been on tumblr for over a year at this point now as well jesus christ (though that anniversary was in october technically)

#digital art #oc(s) #original character(s) #oc: dan #undescribed #no id #image #whar??? ? is my favorite next to the one with the guitar stupid little pathetic feller

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toxic friendship with using 50+ fucking layers to shade ended, now using gradients + cel shading are my best friend

#digital art #oc(s) #original character(s) #oc: radon #oc: zyra #image #undescribed

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Motivating message from Saint Rain World

[ID: A roughly sketched headshot in pencil of the Saint, a fuzzy slugcat with closed eyes and a long tongue sticking out of its mouth, from the game Rain World with a karma flower growing out of their head giving a thumbs up. To the left it says "SAINT SEZ" (says) in capital letters, with "die" written below in all lowercase. On the right is the date the drawing was made, 12/7. /End ID]

#disclaimer: do not actually die it's bad for you #anyway i just got to get through finals starting Saturday and then I'll be free again #traditional art #pencil #rain world saint #rain world

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sorry for lack of art I accidentally got into Dinosaur Game and school eats up most of my time here's one of my favorite screenshots I've gotten from the game

[ID: A black indominus rex with orange markings from Jurassic World is tossing a human up in the air to catch in its mouth and eat. The photo is framed like a postcard with the text "Take a trip to Jurassic World" in the bottom right corner. /End ID.]

#i have finals and like 5 drawings i need to complete for a class :( #as if this isnt the consequences of my own actions biting me in the ass

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Normal trans suite activities: Microwaving testostorone and blowing bubbles

#this shit usually happens on wednesday #also not the first time we've had silly goofy kinda shit occur here #text post

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made an Ao3 account except I have no idea what to even post to it cuz i dont write fanfic lol

#ive been made aware that original content is posted to it too but still lmao #but like #who tf gonna read about my little guys (and even then idk if i could really share their main story cuz its everchanging) #also if anyone who uses ao3 sees this i appreciate any tips #text post

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I hate society and how it treats and categorises (non-familial) relationships.

Society says "only platonic, romantic, and sexual" and completely ignores everything else. Says those are the only types of attraction you can feel. No nuance, no nothing. It all can be categorized into those categories. Not to mention of course it feels like platonic ones must always come second to romantic/sexual ones.

That's cool and all, but what if I have attraction that doesn't fit any of those things? What then?

Let me be clear, I know love isn't always romantic. But that's what the term is mainly connected with and I don't want that confusion even if I clarify it. But my view on relationships and attraction are so far disconnected from society's norm that if I try to talk about how I feel I'd always have to cater how I explain what I'm feeling to the people who follow the norm. And that's the problem. I can't.

Society has no words for how I feel. How can I describe what I feel without being forced to say "love" ? I don't want to use that word because of its connotations, but society doesn't care about anything else so we only have "love." How am I supposed to explain what I feel without the fear of it being misinterpertated? As an example: How do you tell someone that you want to be physically intimate with them (hugging, cuddling, kissing; all traditionally romantic things) and would also partake in sexual activities with them despite not being romantically or sexually attracted to them and not feeling that you need to be in a relationship with them to do those things?

And of course fuck monogamy and exclusivity being the standard.* Can I not show my affection to friends in relationships? Obviously I understand that they may be uncomfortable/not want to do some of the things I previously mentioned but why something not inheritly romantic/sexual like physical contact have to be restricted for people in relationships?

(*If people prefer or are happier this way, good for them. What I'm saying is I wish open relationships were more normalized, not that everyone has to be poly.)

I'm just tired of trying to fit myself into society's strict boxes. I don't want to try and explain what I feel as "romantic," "platonic," or "sexual." I need words outside of "love" to explain deep connections to people not associated with being platonic or romantic. I wish it was normal for people to be more open like that. I'm tired of trying to fit in just in general. I don't feel human. I feel like an alien among what is supposedly my own species.

Derailing a bit from the main topic but: Society just wasn't made for people like me. If you don't fit an overly specific image of "normal" society just says to go fuck yourself. I know this post is mainly geared for a-specs, but this last part can apply to basically anyone.

We are not obligated to fit ourselves into those boxes. But it's really hard to reject societal norms and feel comfortable doing so.

#asexual #aromantic #uhhh if this applies to other identities feel free to add on #text post #long post #obligatory 'haha among us' #also yes i know about queerplatonic relationships but like #societal norms doesnt give a shit about qprs so they arent really relevant here i feel #and yes i know about alterous and queerplatonic attraction but still #idk its all just complicated and im tired of trying to define and label everything i feel.

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sopping wet milk webkinz cat of a man (canon)

#digital art #oc(s) #original character(s) #oc: aniket #image #undescribed #currently in charcoal drawing hell

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I was gonna upload other things with this cuz it felt awkward just to drop it alone but since the pics of art I did for class refused to upload might as well just do it (this wasn't for a class)

#digital art #it came to mind while listening to the song start over by abandoned pools #future animation maybe #i mainly just wanted to upload it cuz it prety :)

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Anyway some art

#traditional art #pencil #marker #i didnt feel like posting the random wings of fire heads on my wof sideblog #uhh i forget the rest of my tags