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wheres seasons greasons

#i was on tumblr for 3 seconds the other day and this post took me out #seasons greasons #misc

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#hahahaha

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Hey! Just wanted to say i love your fics and your words and i would read literally anything written by you even if it's not from the fandom im in. Speaking of, if you have published works(non fanfic?) written by you i would love to read them too, or the ones to be published in the future, it would be nice if you could let know when you publish?:))

Thank you so much! I'm definitely trying to publish (had an agent... lost an agent... looking for an agent again) but it's slow going and I've had no luck so far. I've always been worried about connecting my online identity to my professional one since you hear about authors being harassed for problematic stuff they've written, but times are changing re: how fanfic is perceived by the public and I really would like to be able to share if anything happens—mostly because of nice people like you who are rooting for me and would (hopefully) enjoy my original work. I've also played with the idea of self-publishing shorter form stuff under a pseudonym. I'll try to let you know if I land on anything or if anything happens. In the meantime I'm extremely grateful for your enthusiasm!

#mysecretbs #mysweetanons #personal

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YOU'RE ALIVE!!! admittedly i won't be reading the fic i just got an email about bc it's not my fandom but i'm v happy to see you're still around

I'm alive!!! And when I get messages here I get absolutely no notifications, so please forgive the late response...

I have to admit that when I crawled out of the woodwork to post a League of Legends fic for characters that have never interacted in canon I ping ponged between laughing and wincing for the people who are subscribed to my ao3. Absolutely no one was waiting for that fic to happen. Thank you for rejoicing at my continued existence regardless! 🙈😂

#mysecretbs #mysweetanons #I have three unfinished fics that haunt my conscience #they will not get finished unless something very unexpected happens and i am very sorry #i will not post unfinished multichapters again u_u

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Evan Cagle

#HELP ME HAHAHAHA #eldritch things #monsters #monster stuff

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Long time no see! Or fic! During the pandemic I sold my soul to riot games and became a person who genuinely enjoys playing League of Legends. My coworkers assure me this makes me a psychopath BUT I have good company in the pit with me... good company that encouraged the writing of this fic. I had way too much fun, as always. I don’t know if any of you who follow me here have an interest in LoL, let alone a random ship that never interacts in canon, but here I am linking it anyway!

Summary:

Aphelios takes his crisis of faith to Ionia, planning to cross over into the spirit world at the famed spirit blossom festival. Running into a handsome prize fighter insistent on protecting him from the assassins at his heels is fine. Running into that man's badger-wielding lookalike on the other side of the veil is a problem; how is he meant to reach Alune if this guy thinks the path is too dangerous for a mortal, and who the hell is Mooncake?

#league of legends fanfiction #my writing #settphel

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Will you be finishing your Star Wars fic on AO3? It truly has been enjoyed by so many people. Especially those of us still salty about how the sequel trilogy ended.

Hey! Thank you so much, I really appreciate that. I'm definitely one of the salty people! Unfortunately the conclusion—which I'd hoped would enliven me to finish—sort of sucked all the wind out of my sails. The Last Jedi made me think I loved Star Wars for a few years but now I think I might just love Rian Johnson movies. That's not really to blame the conclusion for my unfinished fic... I just should never ever start multichapters while burning for something because eventually I run out of steam, and I hate disappointing people.

I don't think I'll ever finish Nemesis, or my two other unfinished multichapters for different fandoms. I'm really sorry about this. If it helps any I have an unfinished reylo beach volleyball AU (lol) that I have spared you from by not posting chapter one of the twoshot before it was finished. SO I HAVE RESTRAINT SOMETIMES... just not all the time.

So: no, unless something strange and wonderful happens. I'd love to have the time and energy for this, but it seems incredibly unlikely T_T Please love yourself and read other, better fics. Or imagine the ending you want! You deserve the SW conclusion of your dreams.

#mysecretbs #/ reylo #fic: nemesis

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hi!! how are you?

Hello!! I've been scrolling through asks—mostly nice ones about fics and my writing—wondering how to answer them! Ever since I became aware I'd accumulated a lot of unanswered asks I've felt bad about not replying, but the longer you go saying nothing the harder it becomes to say something, since a pithy "thank you that's very nice" doesn't feel worth the wait... Tumblr doesn't help by not having timestamps, so I have no idea how late to the party I am. Which is to say, thank you for asking! Haha.

I'm doing pretty well, persistent world politics dread notwithstanding. For the past few years I've been focused on original writing, and it's going a lot better than it used to for lots of different reasons. How I felt while writing fic is a good guide for me; I used to write original like it was my cross to bear, and I had to learn to have fun with it instead. I still struggle to find that balance a bit, but I have lots of support from the people around me... many of whom I met right here!

Despite squirreling away some of my favourite people to live in my group chats and heart forever, I definitely miss being active in fandom. I miss you guys! I loved seeing all the creativity and feeling like part of a community. I had an amazing time while active. I think the "you ship/write/enjoy X so you must [deeply personal judgment]" attitude has become a bit too dominant for me to find the same outlet I once did, but mostly it just got easier to be myself privately. I'm naturally low energy... I need to conserve that little bit I have for actually doing stuff instead of wondering whether what I like makes me a bad person.

So that's where I'm at! I've been loving KJ Charles books (fave so far = The Gentle Art of Fortune Hunting) and I space them out with other books so I won't run out too quickly. Mr. Fanmoments and our feline child are both doing well. c: Hope this overly long reply finds you and everyone reading well too!

#mysecretbs #life update

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#LOVE!!! #lissa this is so goooood so much food in your style #plasters it all over my body #hq manga spoilers #haikyuu #oikawa

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woud you object to someone commissioning art from one of your fics as long as you are given credit?

Absolutely not! I’d love to see that too. 😄

#mysecretbs #Anonymous

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can i draw fanart of your fics?

Yes of course!! I love seeing fanart of my fics. 😍

#I'm sorry for the late reply if it's late ;; #mysecretbs #Anonymous

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me waiting in the grounds of my vampire wife’s castle estate for her to let me back inside after she banished me during an argument

#hahahaha #vampires

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i don’t know why anyone has to feel insecure about their bodies, when objectively, humans are all freakish horrors. Every last one of us. Hairless, fleshy, gangly beasts walking upright straight as a tree with bony tentacles on the ends of our limbs. 

you have a hole in your face full of sharp bones and you’re worried that your belly is a little squishy 

#hahahahhaa #body positivity

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I NEED A HIMBO

IM HOLDING OUT FOR A HIMBO TILL THE END OF THE NIGHT

hes gotta be strong

and hes gotta be fast

and hes gotta be dumb and polite

#himbos #a good and relatable song

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“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”

— Vincent van Gogh, The Letters of Vincent van Gogh (first published 1914)

#hope #quotes #vincent van gogh

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there ARE ways to cut down on your private info being surveilled and commodified.

consider not owning an Alexa/Google Home or at least keeping it unplugged when it’s not in use. yes, the AI is shit but don’t be lulled into a false sense of security – the microphone works just fine and has been shown to record and send out your data even when the corp promises it isn’t!

that Amazon doorbell is constantly recording video and using it in who knows what unethical ways, including - this is verified - sharing it with ICE. owning one directly endangers your neighbors who aren’t consenting to this surveillance!

consider not using Google for everything – try an anti-tracking search engine like Duck Duck Go even if you have to resort to Google after. we can’t get a better search engine until we train it with use!

consider replacing Chrome on your phone and laptop with Brave, a browser built literally on the exact same software (Chromium) but which not only rips out allllll the bloaty tracking Google adds in, it also attempts to block a lot of the tracking that giant websites like Facebook do on every single web page you visit (even if you aren’t logged into Facebook). it runs literally identically to Chrome, only faster.

like basically as an individual you can start taking back control of your data by learning who steals what and how, and taking steps to curtail that theft.

consider checking the permissions of the apps in your phone. Facebook and others routinely steal your contact lists and even your text message and call history, and part of what they do with this info is to build highly detailed “ghost profiles” on your friends who have never been on facebook in the first place and don’t know they’re being surveilled through your phone.

resist the urge to give into apathy! there are things that can be done, and it is worth it to take back even a bit of your private life. we don’t have to just cave to the capitalist surveillance state.

importantly, once you’ve started looking at this shit in your personal life, it may seem more feasible to look at how to organise with others to more effectively resist capitalism’s ever-growing control of our private data.

#data privacy #misc

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#HAHAHA #puns #misc