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any special skills? well i am so empathetic i can literally walk in your shoes, think and live like you, even make friends and start dating while completely adapting everything about you

the cons? i am going to see everything you could have chosen to do instead when you chose to go with the actions that completely destroyed my ability to trust, believe and love. the actions that made me into a walking misery.

and this is the moment i drop my hyper empathy towards you and i want to see you suffer.

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Haven't been posting a lot cus I'm trying to keep a spiralling episode in control.

It is so damn hard to just not lose everything you worked towards sometimes

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i have adhd so if i remember an odd, specific thing you liked that you mentioned only one time like 4 months ago, believe me, you truly have a special place in my heart

#^^^

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Can we talk about something

When someone is trying to manipulate you but you don't like them so you WILL NOT be manipulated by someone like that and you immediately call it out cus you don't like them enough to put up with it and the embarrassment on their face as they realize their plan failed.

#Did this just happen irl? #You can't prove it #But it did #Yes #bpd blog

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My love language is loving so much that I don't have any left for myself

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watching her going from "can i text you when i get home so you know i got home safely during the night?🥰"

to "what the fuck does it have to do with you if i get home or not?"

has got to be one of the most painful experiences i've ever had

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Why! Why why why why why why

Why do I keep caring about her even after she said she's selfish and only going to care about herself.

Why is it so damn hard not to care. Feels like it should be easier the way people are in general

#I'm soooo done #But I'm gonna do this again #Why am I like this #bpd blog #bpd #actually bpd

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you see, when someone abandons me i relive every single occasion someone has abandoned me. used to be bad but manageable, now tho i cant even form new connections because if i have to go through another breakup and consequentially relive everything else all over again i'm a 100% sure i'll snap. i'm barely holding it together after the last one anyway.

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Remembering the time when my ex was asleep until like 2 pm and I had no way of knowing this so I thought she was dead and cried so much that I threw up

#bpd blog #bpd stuff #bpd life #bpd #actually bpd #This is what nostalgia is like with BPD for me lol

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Fr tho

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I think the saddest part was never you leaving me. I think it was you taking a piece of me that I don't think I'm strong enough to ever get back

#bpd blog #bpd stuff #bpd life #BPD #actually bpd #I don't think I have many more parts remaining

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And then I send it all anyway 😎 *crying under the glasses*

#Anyone? #Just me? #bpd blog #bpd memes #memes #bpd

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My skin care routine

1. Wash face with some water and dab gently with a towel

2. Apply toner followed by serum

3. Destroy the world

4. Apply moisturizer

#I think that would fix me #Tbh I need Bob the Builder at this point #bpd blog #bpd stuff #bpd memes #memes #bpd

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I'm so tired of getting taken advantage of. Why does it always take me so long to recognize that someone is being toxic and stop myself from getting used again

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