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The cat distribution system worked incredibly in Kallus' favor

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OH something else I learned on Wookipedia recently? Apparently there are will o'the wisps in the marshes of Lothal. A planet that is notorious for its deep connection to the Force

Do with that what you will

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Oh, my soul 🥺

Buckle up lads, I’m about to have what I can only describe as a category 5 autism event.

(long post incoming)

so there’s this song by Will Wood called Against the Kitchen Floor, and besides the fact that it slaps hard, it reminded me way, way too much of what I view Kallus’ and Zeb’s relationships to be like (at least from Kallus’ point of view)

There’s several lines I really want to highlight, but on the whole the song fits excellently. Long analysis of lyrics and heavy conjecture under the cut!

Lord knows I owe you more Than I'm pretty sure I ever could give anybody But I can't pin down what normal people want from foreign objects Bottom shelf erotic products like me

I like to think that Kallus probably has little to no idea how being a normal human being works because he was with the empire so long. He and others have been used as tools for so long that their sense of self worth is highly diminished. As such, when he enters a relationship with Zeb, Kallus doesn’t know what to do or even if Zeb truly wants him because he’s himself. That’s also reflected in the next line ‘So I could hold your hand but, keep you at arms length’

I swear, I'm really trying It just don't come natural to me to think that you'd want me for me I swear, I'm really trying Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet

This line also fits really well with what I was taking about above. Kallus wants to love Zeb, but he doesn’t think that he’s human enough or deserves it.

…I only know that I'm still lonely That morbid sort where even company can't cure me And the more you reassure, the less I trust

This one is a bit self explanatory, but I’ll do it anyways :). The more Zeb assures Kallus that he loves him, the less he believes it, because he views himself as a charity case. He’s incredibly lonely, but he can’t bring himself to love the one person that truly loves him back.

The vertex of my redemption arc The searching on that virgin heart I'm catatonic in your arms Crying, "How did I cause so much harm?"

This is one of The Big Ones. Besides the point that one of the lyrics is literally ‘redemption arc’, the last part fits almost too well with the Purge of Lasan and Kallus’ role. Yet, Zeb is literally the vertex of his redemption arc; he’s the one that pushed Kallus to ask questions about the system he was a part of.

I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours Don't say "I'm sorry, but this can't go on" I know you've got scars of your own But hide my knives before you go I'll either live or die alone

This is the second Big One. Zeb is just as scarred as Kallus is (maybe even more so) and Kallus helped create some of those scars. The guilt he feels is immense, and the line ‘Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours’ fits so well it makes my chest ache.

I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress I promise, I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible I swear, I'm so fucking sorry I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all

Again, Kallus wants so badly to love Zeb, and he wants to prove that he can be human enough to return Zeb’s affection, but he doesn’t believe that he is or can be a good person after everything he’s done. Nevertheless, he still decides to try his best

(@seth-silver-ink)

#This is so good #kalluzeb

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I’m 100% sure this is what he was thinking about…

#Hey at least it's a nice ass #kalluzeb #His face though 🤣

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Cooking is so satisfying, like, you get to be creative and then eat it.

i always feel so accomplished after i cook dinner for myself 🫠

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What kills me is Kallus screams SO MUCH in this episode 🤣🤣🤣

gay sex

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I would like to add: Gel in a lava lamp

things that would be dope to be

the marble in spray paint

boulder at the bottom of a lake

the last leaf of autumn… take your sweet old time

lightbulb filament

grain of sand

pillbug that just discovered an insane composter

cumulonimbus cloud

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Thrawn would've loved playing Age of Empires

#thrawn #mitth'raw'nuruodo #grand admiral thrawn #Thrawn ascendancy #age of empires

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Passenger's back! Something short and sweet to get me back into the swing of this fic.

#*SHRIEKS* #IM ON MY WAY

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Rebels Height Chart

if anyone is interested, I drew this height chart for some of the characters. The heights are directly from Wookiepedia.

These heights are from earliest character appearance (Season 1-ish) in Rebels specifically.

This chart also assumes everyone is standing directly next to eachother and also assumes Zeb is stretched up to his full height/not slouching/crouching like he normally does.

Yes Maul's robo legs made him super tall.

Poor Kanan got a little lost behind Hera.

#star wars rebels #star wars #sw rebels #swr #height difference #Height chart #maul opress #arihnda pryce #kanan jarrus #hera syndulla #ezra bridger #captain rex #c1 10p #sabine wren #garazeb orrelios #alexsandr kallus #ahsoka series #yogar lyste #mitth'raw'nuruodo

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#HES 6”4?????

@heart-of-a-rebel16 please have these complimentary pictures of Kallus being taller than everyone else. 😆

Kallus's Eyes

So, I made a connection, Kallus is likely very light sensitive.

Our guy has Amber eyes.

---And his descriptions involving light are things like this:

---General knowledge of Amber eyes gives us this:

---And also from personal experience, I also have Amber eyes:

--- I can tell you that even if it's cloudy in the middle of the day, I have a really hard time keeping my eyes open cause it's painful/uncomfortable. Low light conditions like dawn and dusk really are the most comfortable.

Thought it was kind of neat information to share about how Kallus likely interacts with his world and now I completely headcanon that he's very light sensitive. 💛

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zeb is runner up for the 'who loves kal's long hair the most' award because winner is me and I can't stop painting it

full (nsfw-ish) image under the cut!

#😲😲😲 #Why yes I would lick both of these men why do you ask #His hair (and the rest of him) is beautiful! #Love Zeb's fuzzy stripes!!

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My master plan as a fanfic writer is to lure people in with smut and trick them into reading about my Glimmer of Hope design ideas

#👀👀👀 #I for one am here for both of those things #Would love to hear more about the Glimmer #And read more smut

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I feel the Kallus booty shorts deserve their own post

inspired by @machetespaghetti ‘s wonderful meme vv

#You thought correctly 💛

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#tho i wonder if this would make it initially hard adapting to life on lira san

@sunatsubu I propose Zeb buys him the cutest sunhats. 🥰

Kallus's Eyes

So, I made a connection, Kallus is likely very light sensitive.

Our guy has Amber eyes.

---And his descriptions involving light are things like this:

---General knowledge of Amber eyes gives us this:

---And also from personal experience, I also have Amber eyes:

--- I can tell you that even if it's cloudy in the middle of the day, I have a really hard time keeping my eyes open cause it's painful/uncomfortable. Low light conditions like dawn and dusk really are the most comfortable.

Thought it was kind of neat information to share about how Kallus likely interacts with his world and now I completely headcanon that he's very light sensitive. 💛

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i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

#Boy have I