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[maximilianthegreatest]

You know being transmasc after a life of growing up as the sole "girl" in male-dominated areas gives you a weird and complicated relationship with gender identity.

Like... being told straight to your face, "you're naturally bad at this cause you're a girl", "you're naturally weaker cause you're a girl", "you can act tough but you'll always just be a girl", "stop acting like you can keep up with the men", and even the well-intentioned, "Yeah women are like that, but you don't count, you're basically one of the boys"...

It leads you to this weird space where it's like. "Fuck you, women kick ass," and then busting yourself up to prove that you, a woman, *can* keep up, and not only keep up but do it better than anyone else, and taking pride in your femininity because it's not a fucking weakness, but at the same time knowing that... You're not a woman.

You're not a woman. You're not a girl. People just see tits and curves and decide that nature made you delicate, and then all of a sudden it's your responsibility to prove that you're not fucking weak, women aren't weak, while also saying, "I'm not a woman, though."

It's... bizarre.

I'm not a girl. But so long as I'm interpreted as one, I'm still gonna be held back by the same stereotypes. But if I ever stop being interpreted as one, then all the hard fucking work I put in to excel in my field is going to go down the toilet as "just something you can do because you're a man".

And fuck that. That's stupid, too. Guys shouldn't have their effort taken for granted like that, and it stings extra hard because you remember people just naturally assuming you suck and earning respect only to lose it immediately the second you step over to the "man" side. Because you've worked your whole life for something that as a man you'd just be expected to have naturally.

You SEE that shit staring you in the face, and worst of all people still walk around you in plain view and still talk about how women can't do shit and conveniently forget that you've BEEN ONE. "Because you were a man all along" or "because you overcompensate to prove yourself", whatever they think of to justify the cognitive dissonance that keeps their narrative going.

Nobody seems to consider that I'm not really different from women OR men, because those differences don't exist.

I'm not "naturally better" than women because I don't identify as one, and I'm not "worse than" men because I wasn't assigned the title by a third party. I'm just a person. We're all just people.

I'm just tired, man.

#this

[maximilianthegreatest]

I've been having the strangest dreams recently that make no sense and i can remember despite never really having that in my life. Googled it and well...

Antidepressants belonging to the SSRI class, such as sertraline, fluoxetine and citalopram - as well as serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) - were found in the review to intensify dreams and increase how often people reported having nightmares.

So just a PSA to anyone who's on happy pills, your dreams can get weird.

#antidepressants #dream #dreams #weird dreams #sertraline #ssri #what the hell since when #side effects

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Why is it always the catholic and religious parents who don't accept their LGBT kids? Like when I'm trans I'm straying from gods plan but when Deborah down the road dies it's what god must have planned for her?

Stop trying to explain your bigotry and closemindness by nitpicking the bible and your beliefs to prove your points and start thinking for yourself.

#ftm #lgbtqia+ #religion #transgender #lgbtq #lgbtq community #bigotes #trans guy #vent

[maximilianthegreatest]

That awkward moment when your learning about Judith Butler's theory of Gender Expression and your teacher keeps on trying to make and keep eye contact with you more than usual and asks your opinion several times.

#ftm #lgbtqia+ #awkward #please stop #teacher #a levels #media #i get it im weird #please just stop staring at me

[maximilianthegreatest]

Me in the mirror after every breakdown ever.

Fuck it. Fuck Dysphoria.

I'm gonna be the prettiest fucking boy.

The cutest lil dude.

The handsomest pup.

Even with all my body hair, and stretch marks, and chub, and wide hips and fem curves i'm still a boy.

I'm the prettiest fucking boy. My face is a seat made for the gods.

Im so fucking pretty.

[maximilianthegreatest]

I love these images so much but if you tried to do it with England it would just be depressing rather than mysterious.

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[maximilianthegreatest]

A photo I took during the summer at a pride parade. Pretty accurate if you ask me lol.

#politics #funny #this is a joke #pride #england #british politics #the goverment sucks #aesthetic