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some of them

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theyre making a birthday cake

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Where are the people who like gross, nasty boys huh? Where’s the people who want a boy who’ll be totally dependent on them? Where’s the people that will see a messy room filled with clothes on the floor and just ignore it to cuddle with the boy?

I need someone so bad

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Something reminiscent of when i was younger. I miss the old days in which i could at least pretend to be happy. I know ill never be that innocent 17 year old again. Why did you do this to me? I trusted you.

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[marcellushazel]

BPD culture is being avoidant yet dependent. Being emotional yet completely numb. Being immensely happy and concerningly sour. And at some point along those lines nothing works anymore and you go on autopilot, like a personal shutdown if you will.

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[marcellushazel]

Jirais wear girly kei.

Girly kei is not jirai.

Jirai is not a fashion, but jirais commonly wear and are associates with girly kei. Other alt styles like subcul or japanese punk are common.

[marcellushazel]

Yes i want attention so what? So do all of you yall jsut too much of pussies to admit it!

Bleh!!!!!

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[marcellushazel]

Ughhhhh i just want him to be nice to me!

Its not fair! Please just say you love me!

Please! Please!

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[marcellushazel]

soon he will regret rejecting me i'm the least two-faced bitch in this whole school, I am the purest hearted yeah may be mentally unstable but that's just to balance myself so I don't become a mary sue!

i'm so lovable! i do all your hw, i bake for you, i write you cute notes, you become my muse for poetry, I pay attention to your infodumps, memorize them, recite them in my mind, indulge in your interests, take care of all you give me, collect them (I still got your pen you gave me when you took mine as a gag, even if the ink ran out! and the gum wrapper from the gum you gave me on SAT day!) and yet I can't collect your heart?

when you slobbered all over mine and scarred me with your presence? plunging those words deep, deep into my heart? one day you will regret rejecting me you'll figure out I was the best fit for you the most flexible the most considerate the most perfect the only one for you that's why we were born with the same last names

and not siblings

it was for a reason.

but that's why you wear thick ass lenses in your glasses.

you were always blind to the truth, and stubborn to ever be proven wrong.

[marcellushazel]

Im new to tumblr, hello jirai community!

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