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this just screams GAAAAYYYYY

Hannibal (2013-2015) Skyfall (2012) John Wick: Chapter 2 (2017) Severance (2022-) My Policeman (2022) You (2018-)

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musings on flowers

Adonis, Early Autochrome Photography: Beautiful Color Photos of Natural Flowers From Between the 1900s and 1920s, Mary Oliver, Mia Dong, Andy Warhol, Nayyirah Waheed, Le quattro strade (Alice Rohrwacher, 2021) @365filmsbyauroranocte, @partizany, Claude Monet, The Novelist’s Film (Hong Sang-soo, 2022) @365filmsbyauroranocte, Thich Nhat Hanh

buy me a coffee

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The soul-sucking presence of this void Fills me with sea of thoughts I avoid Of joy, of peace – denied and destroy'd Is this life they say as – mortal-coiled?

- I.M.

#emptiness #literature #writing #quotes #poetry

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My lolo died last November, at a very untimely point in my life. My mother called me around 8 in the morning, and I just knew at that moment, he had gone, departed. And the only words I could utter was, "what time?" I'm so stupid. I'm not sure about what I felt exactly. I couldn't compose the word out of my mouth. I just know that it would feel too real once I say it out loud.

My lolo and I weren't really close but we've shared just enough moments for me to remember him by. I haven't heard him speak in a full sentence for a long time for he doesn't really talk much, even on those days he was the strongest. Now, I just regret that I didn't initiate a conversation everytime I visit him. I try to imagine, until now, how he had gone. But I can't. I can't imagine him laying in his new bed, waiting for it to come, because how do you wait for death? how do you wait when your time is limited?

Mother said he didn't suffer, "a good death," that's what she said. But I know deeply how much she blamed herself for his death. How she told us over and over again that he would've lived if she only had the money to pay for the hospital bills and how he told her moments before that it's okay.

It's November again, yet there's still this sadness and emptiness inside me that I couldn't shake off.

It's November again, how I wish for time to spare me the grief of what I lost that day and of what I will lose today.

Talin Tahajian, “It’s November again” [ID in ALT]

#november #grief #to those we lost #life and death

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my misery comes from my self-deprecation habit of thinking that I'm not fit to – and in any way shouldn't – be a part of someone else's life because I change and break and ruin everything with the touch of my love.

#misery #literature #writing #self reflection #love #prose #quotes

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i think what fucked me up most about the midnight club is how desperate everyone was to believe in something, in anything. and in their desperation, all they found was each other. the stories mike flanagan create are actually heart-wrenching but this was on another level. the fact that he’s shown in every show that ghosts are not simply ghosts, they are wishes, and faith, and love, and sadness, and desperation. how when no one can bring themselves to believe in the truth they take to tales, and stories, to help themselves feel better. how every ghost story in the show was just themselves coping with their diseases and their pain. how fantastical is it that they held onto something so tightly, but it slipped through. like the sunlight in the trees or the wind through the grass. how no one blamed ilonka for believing in something so.. strange to make her friend better.

at the end of the day all they wanted was each other to do better. to live. how terrifying is it to know that you cannot live for much longer? to accept it? to let go of the ghosts and to simply stay present? how do you love and how do you lose? how do you accept loss? how do you grieve? how do you hold someone’s hand and not let go even when they do? how do you let someone go when they’re ready to but you’re not?

anyways this was my little tangent thing i’m still sobbing over the show. no one hmu will be rotting in my room for the next month

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We're all creative in the sense that we all get inspiration and influence from each other's originality.

Okay, I almost forgot how it felt the last time I've actually let myself be immersed in a class discussion until we had this intellectual and open exchange of thoughts about the concepts of creative writing. Our teacher asked one of my classmates to explain creativity based on the definition from the PowerPoint slide. And I don't think I've ever heard a better way of interpreting creativity as what my classmate pointed out: " [creativity is] if you have a square, you turn it into a cube." The analogy is just perfect and on top of that, it fits to our previous debate about the Theory of Intertextuality --which suggests that there is no such thing as truly original in this world. In layman's term, creativity is taking on a traditional thing and turning it into a unique piece of work. Being creative is not built around the notion of originality it is in the way you apply your ideas ingeniously to an existing body.

#literature #writing #quotes #creativity #creative writing #arts

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THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE (2018) THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR (2020)

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#stig dagerman #a burnt child #a moth to a flame #literature #writing #book quotes

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‼️SPOILER ALERT‼️

DON'T TALK TO ME. I know how everything's gonna end up for laurel lance in S4 because I've watched The Flash first before Arrow... so her death shouldn't hurt me, but look at me and the 10 different kinds of pain I feel right now. PLS BRING THE BLACK CANARY BACK😭😭

#laurel lance #black canary #the arrow #arrowverse #canary cry #s4e19

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you've gotta understand i don't post on here to gain followers i do it to empty my mind ruthlessly each day so i dont go insane . me posting about a character is just me shaking my brain upside down to make sure everything comes out

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WTF IS THIS SORCERY!?!!?

the MEATBALLS menu????? wtaf tumblr

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my internal monologue is better than any podcast. wish you guys could hear this shit

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— Bob Dylan from When the Deal Goes Down on Modern Times (2006)

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if this ain't true enough ughhh

Exactly

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― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

[text ID: People have forgotten this truth," the fox said. "But you mustn’t forget it. You become responsible forever for what you’ve tamed. You’re responsible for your rose.]