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Just out here hurting my own feelings on the daily 😘

(in desperate need of softer world au’s of these two)

 P.D 

#I love this!! #I don’t know how to tag it though because I lhave no idea what fandom #but it’s so beautiful #thank you for being inspired by my words #inspired by me

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"He gave you a heartbeat. He gave him a tomb."

Your story still ends with you dead and intertwined | p.d (via lostcap)

#lostcap inspired #bbc sherlock

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the chances of buck looking tommy in the eyes and going "you think you're close? well have you ever tasted his BLOOD" are low but knowing him truly never zero

#hahahhahahaha #he just bottles it in #keeps it to himself #911 spoilers #911 abc #buddie

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crying laughing actually why are they like this

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 abc #evan buck buckely #buddie thoughts #buddie

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Pride month is here so,,,

Available in ko-fi! I Instagram

#queue #buddie #911

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things i love:

-space

-the ocean

things i am terrified of:

-space

-the ocean

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I don’t know how to tell you that I miss you. So I don’t.

I think about texting you at least once a week now. It used to be once a day. It’s been years, really, of that wanting.

Your life has a trajectory that mine no longer mirrors. I was there, I was there, I was there I want to scream into a tiny blue bubble. I don’t.

You forgot me first. I want to yell at you. But I don’t. Nothing is that simple, not really. I’m not even mad at you, I don’t know why I want to yell. Maybe because I can now.

I think of the last gift I ever sent you. The one for which there was no return. I think of the first. From me. From you. I still have it. Next to my mother’s ashes, my most prized of things, the ones that hurt too much if I think about them too long and so I put them on full display so I never have to really look at them. That’s the secret you know, you gotta let your past blend into your wallpaper.

I think of all the things that can change in ten years. Of all the things that don’t. That didn’t. I think of you, I think of me. I draft a text I won’t send. Set the reminder in my brain to think of you next Tuesday.

#sometimes I drink wine #I shouldn’t #😂

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i miss my friend–no. i don't know. she is no longer mine. she is no longer herself. it's been years since. she came up to me, us, once and– i wanted to talk again. i was excited. i wished and i hoped and i, as always, was disappointed (a universal constant). because she was not her and i don't know the new girl, do i? i wanted to talk about smurfs and sea creatures and existentialism and the fae-folk. all she wanted was gossip and "oh did you hear?" and "god, haven't you heard?". i miss real her

We are never only our roots. We are the petals and the stems, the bark and the leaves, flowers and trees that grow from who we once were, who we used to be, to who we are.

Have you asked in the same language? One she speaks, one you speak? In the color of her leaves? Or do you only ask in the way your roots are still tangled and waiting, in the ground? We do not have to stay the same. We are not meant to stay the same. And maybe she wants to talk to you about the sky and the stars and how no matter how tall and wide she grows, they keep getting dimmer and farther away. Maybe. You won’t know until you ask her how it is to grow and she asks you the same. Ask her about her spring and listen. She misses summer. She misses you. Ask her.

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| P.D

(insp)

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PARK HYUNG SIK and HAN HYO JOO as JUNG YI HYUN and YOON SAE BOM HAPPINESS (2021) dir. Ahn Gil Ho — maybe in the end, you were both just meant for the flames; p.d

#this is gorgeous #I LOVE THIS #so so so much #xx #tvn happiness #kdramanetwork #kdrama #inspired by phi

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“i miss the plush of your lips: soft to touch, and sweet to kiss.”

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“Language is alive. As alive as civilizations and the people and the lands they fill. One year, ten, decades, centuries Go by. And still, it remains. Ever-changing and adapting, stealing, molding, discarding. Language is a journey: changing, from one stop to the next, from generation to generation, continuing forever.”

— on words and history // e.q.

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[gripping the edge of the sink with trembling hands, eyes bloodshot] i do not need to be good at the things i love to do them

#que

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i love unhinged women but i also love women who try so fucking hard to be hinged. clinging to those hinges by her fingernails.

#q

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imagine being the first ancient person to realize that the ocean and their tears taste the same. imagine realizing that your sorrow and the waves share a taste. i wouldve gone crazy

#queue #fuck #I’ve missed shit like this #shit that speaks to my soul #words #if only

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Being a long time Tumblr user makes you privy to a lot of deep magic because you were there when it was written. Like the old trend of blogs having autoplay in them. You would check a blog and music would start blasting. Over your music. As if the Geneva Convention wasn’t real.

#queue #q #honestly #tho #like #is this what it feels like #to be a ruin #a relic #I wonder if #the things that were so long ago lost #could watch us discover them #if this is what it would feel like #I’ve been here so long #I saw the dawn #I survived the Great War #😂😂😂 #why #I’m so tired #why am I talking in the notes like it’s 2014

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and i wake with your memory over me.

#merthur #merlin #!!!!! #midnights #Taylor #queue #wow I’m adding things to my queue #lol