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me after getting triggered and knowing ill be unable to feel joy for days

#arggggghh #txt

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me after reaching out to multiple friends, colleagues, and family members, online and irl, about my increasingly concerning mental health and suicidal ideations and only getting sad face emojis and lmao sames back and realizing that no one can save me but myself

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"im glad you survived" girl im not!

#tw death #negative #journal #art #furry

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opens bumble and sees the guy who threatened to kill himself after he tried to sleep with me when i was in high school and he was in college 🤨

#bbg dont u know they only allow people 18+…. ur preferred age range isnt on here #txt

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have spent many days crying because everyone [irl] wants something from me but never check on me or ask if i need help or shows any sign of thinking of me when im not there but my best friend just sent me pictures of dinos that he thought i would like and i have just been sitting here sobbing bc someone i actually know in real life acknowledged my existence without asking me for something

#sobbing

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me staring in the mirror knowing i just offered to house my sister because shes depressed while being haunted by the knowledge that on my 21st birthday she took me out to bars with 10+ of her friends i had never met who all bought be drinks and i had never been drunk before and she made me chug all my drinks to haze me until i passed out at the table and she woke me up screaming in public saying i was an embarrassment and made me call my then partner to come get me who dropped me off at my house unsupervised and i went inside and vomited everywhere and woke up covered in my own vomit because i vomited in my sleep and almost asphyxiated on it and now im a recovered alcoholic

me staring in the mirror knowing i just offered to house my sister because she’s depressed while being haunted by the knowledge she told me that i ruined her vacation the moment i stepped out the psych ward because i was on a court mandated 72 hour hold after trying to kill myself

#moving this here for the sake of everyone else lmao

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Apparently some people couldn't access the Neurodivergent Insights website on a recent post, so here's the graphs for those interested.

Neurodivergent Insights

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"Everything happens for a reason." No. It does not. Fuck that, fuck off, fuck you.

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people who experience psychosis and anger issues and paranoia and delusions and intrusive thoughts and addiction and dissociation and other “ugly” non-romanticized mental health issues i love you and i believe you and you are not a bad person

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you are lovable, even if:

someone didn’t love you in the past.

someone doesn’t love you back.

someone said you weren’t.

you believe you aren’t.

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Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurted my feelings

#me

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it's always "why the fuck would you tell me that" and "i'm concerned for your mental health" and not "that's an interesting fact"

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it’s just one of those croissant days

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i loooove being delusional. catch me ignoring reality altogether. catch me never being reasonable ever. catch me straight up making up things in my head to cope. delusion is my best friend

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Sakura Diaries - 桜通信 (1997)

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hes so me

#txt