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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#ha ha Ow #misc

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Taylor Swift - Down Bad

#taylor swift #you're the loss of my life #lyrics

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@taylorswift: A fortnight til Paris 🤍 

#white mic 👀 #taylor swift #eras tour

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Ed Kelce commented on this post, i’m cracking tf up 😭

https://www.instagram.com/p/C5qgNNySuB9/?utm_source=ig_web_button_share_sheet

LMFAO

#SHUT UP NO HE DIDN'T 😂😂 #that's too funny oh my god #ed kelce #taylor swift #travis kelce #laugh tag #in her chiefs era

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TAYLOR SWIFT Fearless Tour (2009 - 2010) Speak Now World Tour (2011 - 2012) Red Tour (2013 - 2014) 1989 World Tour (2015) Reputation Stadium Tour (2018) The Eras Tour (2023 - 2024)

#flashing tw #taylor swift #i knew everything when i was young

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1. holstein 2. jersey

3. brahman 4. highland

6. texas longhorn 7. black angus

8. brown swiss 9. guernsey

10. watusi 11. hanwoo

#cmon it's gotta be the hairy coo #cows #polls

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: THE ANTHOLOGY

Now and then I reread the manuscript but the story isn't mine anymore [insp]

#taylor swift #you're the loss of my life

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#master class these two are #sir patrick stewart #sir ian mckellen #xmen

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ANIDALA x THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT (2024) I love you, it's ruining my life.

#'whoa maybe i can't' when he's force choking her #star wars #taylor swift #you're the loss of my life

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LONDON BOY (Lover, 2019) SO LONG, LONDON (The Tortured Poets Department)

#taylor swift #darling you're my lover #you're the loss of my life

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#gold cage hostage to my feelings 💀 #flashing tw #taylor swift #there will just be reputation

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I guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted, just what we wanted. And he never thinks of me except when I'm on TV. I guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted. And I never think of him...except on midnights like this.

#taylor swift #i want your midnights

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT — Taylor Swift

#oh hell yeah #this is great #taylor swift #you're the loss of my life

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anyway. onto better things

#cats

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every taylor swift music video outfit

black and white checkered collar top in style

#taylor swift #i could dance to this beat forevermore

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Eras Tour surprise songs parallels

February 17, 2024—Melbourne, Australia: Mashup of Getaway Car, august, & The Other Side of the Door / this is me trying

#lmao she just really had cars on the mind that day #taylor swift #lyrics #eras tour

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GILMORE GIRLS 5.06 "Norman Mailer, I'm Pregnant!"

#yeaaaah sorry christopher you blew it #in the words of the immortal kelly clarkson: 'you had your chance you blew it. out of sight out of mind. shut your mouth' #gilmore girls