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Upon a recent rewatch I noticed that the distorted singing that plays in the background of Irving's death is his own voice singing "Hampstead Is the Place to Ruralise" during Carnivale, which makes me feel wretched.

Hampstead Heath was historically a popular gay cruising ground, and while the song was published in 1861, well after the events of the story, the intense level of detail in the material culture depicted in the show suggests that the creative team knew what they were doing and went out of their way to pick this song for the euphemism.*

Throughout the series we see Irving afraid of Hickey, or rather his own desire for men that he recognises in the other and the associated "chaos" that could ensue. Add to that David Kajganich saying that Irving thought Hickey and Farr were having intimate relations and approached them to "stop it or to touch it", and Hickey's attack seems to subtextually validate Irving's fear that were he to entertain his desires, disaster would strike. The song with its euphemistic context, a distortion of a merrier moment, highlights Irving's nightmare.

This ties to the whole personal tragedy of Irving's end. When he meets Koveyook and his companions, Irving introduces himself first by rank and title, before simply "John". His sheer joy and relief at connection and Koveyook's kindness hints at the possibility of building a sense of self based not on what the Empire wants him to be, but only who he is as a person among persons. It's hardly guaranteed that survival would have led him to accept himself wholly, but I feel that all these details suggest a potential for further growth, untimely snuffed out.

*EDIT: I did not know this anachronistic song choice was an honest mistake (according to David Kajganich’s Q&A) when I made this post. Forget what I said about intentional creative license. However, the euphemism still works for me.

#john irving #he died for my sins confirmed #the terror

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he's long like that

first day of standing lessons

#the terror #edward little #terror shitposting

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side dish for the dundy collection: @vvanessaives gently provided me with better screenshots of the scene in ep 5!

and also edited one so we can all see how pretty freezing dundy is, with his silly goggles! 💗

#so polite #cradling the pocket watch #dundy le vesconte #the terror

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#i need season 2 asap #eoin mcgonigal #sas rogue heroes

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Paddy Mayne + signature pose

#just a little guy #cock shame #paddy mayne #sas rogue heroes

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need more shows with subtle yet inherent to the narrative homoerotic relationship...

#rec me anything pls #im dying here #please i need to be fed #homoerotic storyline #the terror #sas rogue heroes #homoerotic narrative #queer shows

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the long thereafter

#the terror

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repaying the guy who saved you from drowning by chaining him to a ship that’s about to be consumed by a kraken… i love #feminism soooo much

#another reason why dead man's chest is superior #elizabeth swann #pirate #pirate king #pirates of the caribbean

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jopson dying think crozier abandoned him is the cruellest thing in this show nothing will top that

#truuuue #like Edward is my favorite character and i was in shambles by the time we got to his death it hurt so much #but also i went like: ok that was terrible but i don't think it tops jopson #the terror #edward little #thomas jopson

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doing the george hodgson eucharist monologue in my competitive theatre class i’m the coolest ever

#you truly are tf #the terror #george hodgson

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Everyone keeps asking Watcher to reconsider bc most of the audience isn't going to follow, but it's pointless. This is a huge decision for their company. One that you don't make before crunching the numbers multiple times. The sad thing here is that they know.

They're going to be making content for the top 1% of their audience who can afford it, and they don't care that you can barley pay for your groceries. Leaving behind the very people who made them relevent in the first place, the ones who probably care about their craft the most doesn’t bother them. It's always sad when an internet creator reverts to tv content and or streaming platforms. Particularly so bc it truly goes to show no matter how down to earth ppl seem, at then end of the day they don't care ab their audience, only if they're making more money.

And sure there is something to be said here about youtube and how they've been running things for a while now but it's not being adressed even by the ones who suffer from it. they'd rather go make another terrible platform.

#goodbye puppet history you helped me through anxiety and sleepless nights like nothing else could ♡ #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #youtube

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bury my fics with me when i die

#ik they're just silly little stories and character essays but #I've never applied myself so consistently and with so much passion to any other form of creativity in my life #i can't write without putting bits of myself in there and in a way they're the closest someone could come to truly understanding me #even more so than by reading my diary #and i think they should stay with me forever #fanfiction #writing #fanfic

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kaz rowe really is the best video essayist / content creator out there. i love the way they shape and articulate their videos, they always make everything so interesting and fun to learn

#i love being an history nerd #kaz rowe #video essay #fav youtuber

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oh my god

#don't mind me i have a very high fever #john irving #the terror #irvinging

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JOPSON and LITTLE exchange a look.

#op you will be held responsible for my actions #fkn crying #joplittle #the terror #thomas jopson #edward little

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he fr took one look at des vœux penguin looking shape and said hell nah

really admire edward's dedication to serving cunt as much as possible on the shale wearing the fuck out of that greatcoat while everyone else was out there in slops like my guy said 'if we're off the ships i will NOT wear the shapeless potato sack' and then by god he even did a jaunty little cap lift about it while hauling the barge

#Edward and Des vœux are fashion foils #the terror #edward little

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THE TERROR (2018) — 1.02 'Gore' ◈ [francis crozier gifs] ◈

#ok crozier girlies... i finally get it #🥴 #francis crozier #jared harris #the terror