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intro post 📌

hi! my name is eve :> i’m 21, currently a masters student and part-time researcher, and i’ve recently started relaps!ng dis0rdered eating. i used to be on ED instagram but recently came to EDblr bc it’s just superior ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i initially started struggling with ED when i was 13, spiraled very quickly and became severely underw3ight by 14, and was sent to treatment for recovery the summer after i finished 8th grade.

i’ve struggled on and off between then and now, but the fear of losing self control and gaining weight, on top of my poor self image, has come back stronger than ever lately.

i got broken up with this past summer, realized that i actually hate my body more than ever, and decided to do something about it.

my cw is 118. i don’t necessarily have any specific gws. i just want a fl4t tummy and for my thighs to not rub together again

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Reblog if:

- You support recovery.

- You support those in recovery.

- You support seeking help.

- You want  people to seek help.

- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.

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when i’m trying to fast n my mom makes my favorite food for dinner

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reblog if you want to lose

10-15 pounds

by christmas! 🎄

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food diary: 11/29/23

breakfast

cookie dough chobani flip: 160cal

lunch

tuna salad cucumber boats: 340cal

full 340 not pictured; total includes leftover tuna salad that didn’t fit in the cucumbers

dinner (not pictured)

big mac (no middle bun): ~490cal

1/2 medium fry: ~160cal

total intake: ~1200-1300

impulsively ate mcdonald’s tonight. regret is setting in and i’m telling myself i should’ve just gone to bed. but trying to be kind to myself; according to a TDEE calculator, i need to eat a bit over 1400 to maintain and 1700 to gain. so realistically, i know i will be okay. i just feel so so guilty about it. i was doing so good

might just count today as an unplanned metabolism day and practice more self control throughout the rest of the week

#3d f4st #ana bllog #ana meal #ed relapse #mealsp0 #tw ana diary #ed meals #ed not sheeren #tw ed diet #ed vent #ed not ed sheeran #mealspø #low cal meal #low cal restriction #meal$p0 #ana rant #4n4blr #4n0r3xia #4norexi4 #4norexia #tw 3d vent #3dtumblr #@na vent #@n0r3xia #@nor3xia

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food diary: 11/28/23

breakfast

chobani flip: 150cal

lunch/dinner (not pictured)

bacon and egg taco: 540cal

total intake: 690cals

i think i’ve decided to stay under 800cal every day between now and my birthday (dec 24th)??? i’ll see how it goes

also started working out again :3 hoping to feel beautiful again soon

#ana meal #mealsp0 #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #low cal restriction #ed meals #mealspø #ed relapse #ed not sheeren #tw ed diet #ed vent #ana bllog #tw ana diary #3dtumblr #3d f4st #tw 3d vent #4n4blr #4n0r3xia #4norexi4 #@na vent #@n0r3xia #th11n$po #th1nnsp0

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food diary: 11/27/23

breakfast: 132cals

2 rice cakes: 44cal

cottage cheese: 80cal

cucumber: 8cal

lunch: 76cals

red plum: 30cal

1 cup watermelon: 46cal

total intake: 208cals

birthday is coming up in less than a month n i need to look pretty in a dress i have sooo i will be restricting as much as possible between now and then

#ana meal #mealsp0 #ed relapse #tw ed diet #ed not sheeren #th1nnsp0 #th11n$po #mealspø #ed meals #4n4blr #4n0r3xia #@na vent #@na tips #3d f4st #3dtumblr #ana bllog #tw ana diary #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #4norexi4 #low cal restriction

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starting a food journal, day 1:

2 chicken & cheese tamales: 280cal

1 baja fish taco: 140cal

13 chicken & vegetable dumplings: 230cal

total intake: 650cals

i didn’t have a goal for today other than to eat less than i usually would and track what i ate. not bad in my opinion

#ana meal #mealsp0 #th11n$po #tw ana diary #4norexi4 #ana bllog #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #3d f4st #f4sting #low cal restriction #th1nnsp0 #4n4blr #ed relapse

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