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A Fan in Distress:

This post is basically being sent in vacuum, since this is probably the millionth of its kind on Tumblr relating to J.K. Rowling. I for one, could relate to Harry Potter for the longest time, until very recently, since once you try reviving an old favourite of yours, chances are, that you might love them, or find yourself in an ethical dilemma worse than ever.

TLDR: As of today, I harbour no ethical dilemmas. Whatever JKR has said and done in enforcement of her transphobia is problematic, and considering her power and position is inexcusable. Her social capital has already been elevated enough to shield her from the monetary effects of any backlash thereof. And we don't need to add to it.

Time to let the Harry Potter franchise rest in its grave.

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Here, I'll confess my own sins. I'm an owner of all seven of those books. I've loved all of them more than life itself. I've loved Neville and I've loved Dobby. Completing my HP set was my first quest after I'd started earning, and I'd very recently bought the Harry Potter Almanac. It was actually after this purchase that YouTube (courtesy of its algorithm) threw up two podcast videos for me to listen to while working. (Yeah, I live under a rock, and, yes, apparently this issue of JKR being a transphobe hasn't really gained much audience in our country. I sincerely doubt that many people knew of this. They probably still don't.)

But yes, while ignorance may be blissful, it is certainly not desirable. And this is where those podcast videos by Contrapoints and Jesse Gender educated me about this issue. Particularly Aranock's testimony of her experience as a trans female, particularly with respect to the hatred and harassment she was subjected to after JKR's spiteful revelations actually shook me to the core. I felt despair, sadness, anger and yes, Guilt too.

I'D FELT CHEATED.

Because, you don't listen, JKR. For some reason, you've refused to listen, heed, and reason. This probably won't reach you, but I'm sure you would know what being unheard feels like, and here, you are, after having written of inclusion and consideration, love and respect, in your set of fantasy novels, standing on your millions that those novels got you, and yet, becoming the exact polar opposite of what you'd preached, and hurting millions in your obstinacy. You are now leading us to believe that your make believe world holds no good for anything apart from the age old viciously exclusionary social mores that people are fighting so hard against. Even to this day, even in countries as evolving as mine, even in countries as 'developed' as yours.

But yes, none of this makes any difference to you, does it? And as for us, we shall definitely adjust and cast aside something that millions of us grew up to love. For that, is the right thing to do.

So henceforth-

No Harry Potter merchandise for me.

No more Harry Potter books/films for me.

Harry Potter shan't be passed to my children from me. But yeah, Sandman certainly will.

An ashamed ex-Potterhead

#harry potter #jk rowling #anti jkr #transphobia cw #jkr #anti transphobes #we must do better #i must do better

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I'm on one 😬. It is on hold right now because (ha ha! Work!) but it is there on my AO3!

@heyifinallyhaveablog this scene was so Karna coded 😭😭😭

Forwards my "SS Rajamouli and Sanjay Leela Bhanshali should come together and make a Mahabharat film series" propoganda again

#mahabharat #desperately craving for the old fandom to return

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Name: toujours-nigel/walburgablack/Rhea Fic Fandom(s): Mahabharata/Padmaavat/Harry Potter Creation Idea #1: Satyabhama finds herself falling somewhat resentfully in love with Rukmini Creation Idea #2: Nagmati’s decade of being Ratan Singh’s only wife Creation Idea #3: Sirius and Remus reconnecting, lying low at lupin’s era.

#woah ho! #you see what I'm talking about when I say unconventional?! #this #padmaavat #Padmavati #beautiful words #ethereal brilliance

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Lily Evans has abandonment issues thanks to Pertunia and Severus. Petunia is the major contributor as that's her big sister who should have been her eternal confidant and best friend, but who has been abandoning her in increments their entire lives. Petunia, whose love remains conditional and prejudiced, who loathes Lily's very being, her jealousy turning to spite and bigotry because if she cannot have magic then it is wrong, immoral, unnatural... and so is her sister by extension. And Lily, who has only ever wanted two people in her life, watches one of them abandon her for no fault of her own. And then there's Sev, and I know I said Petunia was the major contributor to Lily's abandonment issues, but Sev was her hope. He was the hope Lily carried that she was worthy of love, that she deserved better despite her own sister's screams of freak! Sev was the one who assured her of this every time she cried about Tuney, Sev understood her, Sev would never choose anyone other than Lily, right? Wrong! Sev chooses Voldemort and abandons Lily for a side that wants her own eradicated, expecting Lily to remain content with him treating her unlike 'other' muggleborns. She's the 'special' one from the group of filth he despises, she's the one who 'deserves' to live, she's expected to fall in line and watch her own people burn while the bigots rejoice. At the end of fifth year, it may have been Lily that walked away, but it was Sev who stole her hope the second he called her mudblood. For in the 'mudblood!' resounds the 'freak!', Tuney and Sev's voices blending as one, attacking Lily's very essence, destroying her hope and faith. So, Lily takes the abandonment issues and vows to take down Voldemort and kill every damn death eater that dares cross her path on the battlefield. She will have no other friends, her trust gone up in flames, her Gryffindor courage extinguished in the face of her fear of being abandoned once more. And she carries that fear and nurtures it against James, so fearful yet resigned of him leaving her (he never will and he will spend their lifetime proving it to her). Lily nurtures that fear far more than she ever gets to nurture Harry, the one love she hopes will never leave her. And yet, it is her who leaves him because there's no other way to save Harry. But her magic stays, her love stays, Lily stays. The girl who got abandoned stays for her baby boy. The girl Lily Evans, the freak, the dirty blood envoking old powerful magic, her blood taking down Voldemort in life and in death for her own creation, her baby Harry. Lily stays.

#i mean yeah but then James never really abandons her #But Lily and Sev though #ugh #pottermania

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The fact that Snape is one of the youngest if not THE youngest professor is fucking hilarious.

#pottermania #frankly yes #I mean yeah like all these people were really young and yeah the HP cast is iconic but let's face it #all these people were in their twenties when they became death eaters #and james and lily were twenty one when they died #that's all the more tragic #and can you imagine a twenty one year old heart broken guy acting as a double agent #that's like #ugh! their ages add to the tragedy and I'm going to stop

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So I was rereading Harry Potter, when I came across this and thought- what if instead of Cedric Diggory, Cassius Warrington had been chosen to compete in the Triwizard Tournament?

Imagine Dumbledore calling out the name of the Hogwarts champion and it isn’t a Gryffindor, or a Ravenclaw, or even a Hufflepuff, but it’s a Slytherin. A student from a House most people hate.

Imagine Cassius Warrington getting up, and three out of four Houses are booing at him and shouting things like “NO!” or, “We can’t have a Slytherin champion!” or demanding a retry. But he’s a Slytherin- he’s been dealing with this shit since he got sorted, so he keeps his head high and joins the other champions.

Imagine Harry trying to catch Warrington alone because he doesn’t really want to associate with Slytherins (plus Malfoy has this tendency of being around the guy ALL THE TIME since he got chosen), but at the same time he’s also fair enough not to want him to walk into the first task unprepared.

Imagine Warrington walking over to Harry a few months later, and Ron and Hermione both jump into a protective stance, wands out, but instead of attacking Harry he just tells him to stick the egg underwater. (Because Slytherins don’t forget those who helped them out).

Imagine Warrington and Harry helping each other out in the labyrinth.

Imagine Harry being devastated when Peter kills Warrington- because Voldemort doesn’t care what house they’re form, a spare is a spare.

Imagine the uproar that causes among the Slytherins, because some of their parents really are Death Eaters and they know what really happened.

Imagine Slytherins fighting in the Battle of Hogwarts and shouting “This is for Cassius!”

#pottermania

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Chapter Four: Phantoms

Summary: Karna tries to find his way with himself.

Disclaimers: All past disclaimers apply

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She lets out a tremulous shudder.

A pair of dark eyes melt her insides into mush. Nothing in this realm can equal the rapturous tizzy that those eyes arouse within her. She is laved in passion, as pure as the primordial.

Another pair of eyes hold her, just as dearly as the last. These eyes send hellfire raging in the pit of her stomach. Her already churning gut is goes berserk in its extreme state of unrest.

She isn’t human. She isn’t empyrean. 

They’re fiends from the belly of hell. Fiends who’ve transcended all definitions, and earthly expressions. 

Fiends mired in breaths of rose, camphor, and incense.

Devils in their own Heaven.

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The Fiends

Disclaimer: NSFW content ahead. The characters and the fic written herein are entirely the imagination of the author. Since this fic/ficlet, (i.e. whatever the hell it turns out to be) relates entirely to the 'villains' of the Mahabharata, so chill. Plus, since The Kamasutra and more importantly, The Khajuraho Temples, are as old as time itself (metaphorically speaking), hence, I'm inclined to believe in the sexual liberation of individuals back in those days. Also, for further reference with respect to allusions to flexibility and navigating the grey in the Mahabharata, please refer to the Introduction in Bibek Debroy's translation of the epic. I believe the same is pretty credible, given the extensive research, and, the credentials of the author. Also, please note that, this sentence, has very little to do with this fic in itself. Also, yeah, since I'm still reading the expanded version of the epic, please note that my perceptions of the characters are based on C. Rajagopalachari's version, and of course, my own imagination here, and the perception keeps getting formed as I read further.

Also, I repeat, please do not read any further, in case you might find it offensive. Not that anyone is going to read it anyway, haha!

A callback to older, simpler, times:

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Fandom: The Mahabharata | Mahabharat (TV 2013)

Pairings/Relationships: Bhanumati/Duryodhana, Duryodhana/Karna, Bhanumati/Duryodhana/Karna

Warnings: Mature, and, NSFW content ahead

Taglist: No one.

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Dreamlessness and Epiphanies:

The sight that these nights beheld were as primal as they were surreal, wild in all their serenity, laved in lust as the lovers prayed in their ecstacy. Silk sheets ensconced camphor-scented sinews mingled in rosaceous limbs. 

This was it. These lovers needn’t seek heaven. For what else could heaven possibly offer saturated, sated souls?

The young Kuru Princess slept dreamlessly in the warm confines of her husband’s embrace. 

You’re beautiful, My Princess!, she hears a deep voice waft into her being.

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#arpitascribblesonmb #mahabharat #inksplotch

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I still reblog and leave comments whenever I can. And frankly the less we talk about old fandoms, the better

No one reblogs on tumblr anymore.

No one leaves comments on Ao3 anymore.

Seriously people the lack of fandom interaction these days makes me genuinely depressed, it never used to be like this, makes me wonder what's the point of coming online to do anything anymore.

Reblog a post so other people can see it.

Leave a comment so the author doesn't feel like giving up.

Fandom cannot live on Likes or Kudos alone.

#so 'me' most of the time #gone are the days when people wrote or at least tried to write and there was an audience #now ugh! #the mythology fandom on Tumblr was so seemingly polarised #but two blogs gave me some hope for us

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Sorry but the epics are not meant for your lgbtq interpretation, they have a deeper spiritual meaning.

Anon, how dare you come into my house and try to insist that a deeper spiritual meaning of the Mahabharata excludes queer people and queer existence?

The tides of the war weren't turned on the back of a trans person for you to say this. Krishna didn't literally marry a man for you to say this. The battle for a better and kinder world didn't happen for you to say this.

Get it through your head that if gods exist, and if they are good and holy, then they wouldn't differentiate between any of the beings that exist in the universe. If you don't understand this then I'm afraid any deeper spiritual meaning of any religious text would be lost on you.

-Mod S

#I'm so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooooooo happy to see this blog and this reply #may you live long and healthy #love you so much #mahabharat

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Bruh you can't just fandomify a religion like that

Without me.

- Mod S

#God this! #Mahabharat #i really can't stop laughing

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Chapter Three:

Demons of Amour

Summary: Bhanumati is in a mess, and she tries to deal with it in a manner she thinks best. Only, it really isn't.

Disclaimers: All past disclaimers apply

Tags: @chaanv , @vidhurvrika, and @rheaitis

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My Princess, the phantom comes to her yet again.

This time, she knows better than to let the faceless intruder in. This was nothing but a spirit, a ghost, a demon. And demons ought to be exorcised. There was no place for such impropriety in her solitude.

More on AO3

The Fiends

Disclaimer: NSFW content ahead. The characters and the fic written herein are entirely the imagination of the author. Since this fic/ficlet, (i.e. whatever the hell it turns out to be) relates entirely to the 'villains' of the Mahabharata, so chill. Plus, since The Kamasutra and more importantly, The Khajuraho Temples, are as old as time itself (metaphorically speaking), hence, I'm inclined to believe in the sexual liberation of individuals back in those days. Also, for further reference with respect to allusions to flexibility and navigating the grey in the Mahabharata, please refer to the Introduction in Bibek Debroy's translation of the epic. I believe the same is pretty credible, given the extensive research, and, the credentials of the author. Also, please note that, this sentence, has very little to do with this fic in itself. Also, yeah, since I'm still reading the expanded version of the epic, please note that my perceptions of the characters are based on C. Rajagopalachari's version, and of course, my own imagination here, and the perception keeps getting formed as I read further.

Also, I repeat, please do not read any further, in case you might find it offensive. Not that anyone is going to read it anyway, haha!

A callback to older, simpler, times:

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Fandom: The Mahabharata | Mahabharat (TV 2013)

Pairings/Relationships: Bhanumati/Duryodhana, Duryodhana/Karna, Bhanumati/Duryodhana/Karna

Warnings: Mature, and, NSFW content ahead

Taglist: No one.

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Dreamlessness and Epiphanies:

The sight that these nights beheld were as primal as they were surreal, wild in all their serenity, laved in lust as the lovers prayed in their ecstacy. Silk sheets ensconced camphor-scented sinews mingled in rosaceous limbs. 

This was it. These lovers needn’t seek heaven. For what else could heaven possibly offer saturated, sated souls?

The young Kuru Princess slept dreamlessly in the warm confines of her husband’s embrace. 

You’re beautiful, My Princess!, she hears a deep voice waft into her being.

More on AO3

#mahabharat #duryodhana #Bhanumati #inksplotch #arpitascribblesonmb

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Smutty One-Liners Part V

"Your moans are my favourite sound."

"Tease me some more and I'll show you my reaction."

"I haven't said that we're done here already."

"Staying quiet was never your strong suit, wasn’t it?"

"Make me shut up then."

"I will give that mouth something to do."

"A little biting never hurt nobody."

"Let's commit some sins."

"Come on, don't just undress me with your eyes."

"I have dreamed of this, but this is so much better."

"Can you feel how my body is reacting to you?"

Who knew that you're hiding such a dirty mind."

"Getting you naked was just the first part of my plan for the night."

"Let's have some fun we won't forget in the morning."

"You're wearing way too many clothes for what I have in mind."

Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV

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Smutty One-Liners Part IV

"Can you feel how much I want you?"

"I can never get enough of your taste."

"Let's try something new tonight."

"We don't even have to take our clothes off."

"I want to ruin you."

"Yes, please, do it!"

"Your tongue is truly extraordinary."

"I have seen you naked before."

"No bed needed."

"Sleep is overrated. I have better ideas."

"You know me so well. You always find the right spot."

"Please, don't ever stop!"

"Our bodies fit so well together."

"I could do this all day. And definitely all night."

"Let's get you out of those clothes."

Part I | Part II | Part III | Part V

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Smutty One-Liners Part III

“Your eyes are already saying yes, now I just need your mouth to tell me the same.”

“I can never seem to get enough of you.”

“How about we continue this somewhere more private?”

“Oh, can you feel this?”

“We won’t be missed for a couple hours, we should take advantage of that.”

“I went to the gym, so I will be able to hold you up even longer.”

“How about we get really dirty before we shower, so that it’s actually worth the effort?”

“Reality is even better than my dreams.”

“I told you, you would eventually start begging.”

“You always know so well what I like.”

“Oh, you’re such a tease!”

“I’m not necessarily hungry for food right now.”

“You’re so tense, do you want me to make you more relaxed?”

“Hmm, is that a threat or a promise?”

“Who would have thought that this is something that you’re into?”

Part I | Part II | Part IV | Part V

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Smutty One-Liners Part II

“You’re a lot more flexible than I thought.”

“I want to please you.”

“Tell me what you would want to do, if you were here right now.”

“Your shirt got a little dirty, how about we take it off?”

“I want to give you a hickey, so everyone can see how I feel about you.”

“Oh, I love that sound you make.”

“Do you want to take it off or should I do it for you?”

“I never imagined you to be so sensitive, but I love it.”

“Maybe you could use that mouth for more than just talking nonsense.”

“If we weren’t in public right now…”

“Your hand feels much better than my own.”

“As soon as we’re both sober, we can do every dirty little thing you ever dreamed of.”

“Come on, you have to work for it.”

“I’ll take it that you like what you see.”

“Your moans will wake everyone up and I’m oddly fine with that.”

Part I  | Part III | Part IV | Part V

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Smutty One-Liners Part I

“I dreamed of your legs wrapped around my waist.”

“Don’t act innocent when we both know where your mouth was two minutes ago.”

“We should probably leave, before we start a scandal.”

“Stop looking at me like that or my knees will not hold me any longer.”

“I think you lost your underwear somewhere.”

“My tongue still remembers the way you taste.”

“Is there some space left in that bathtub?”

“The way your eyes get darker when you get aroused, is making me lose my mind.”

“I want to count every one of your freckles with my lips.”

“Jealousy seems to be a great motivator for you.”

“Oh no, there is only one bed, what will we do now?”

“I could make you feel better.”

“Get back down here, we’re not done yet.”

“Later you will definitely need to tell me where you learned this.”

“I know I should care about the reason why you’re naked in my bed, but I will just enjoy it for a moment.”

Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V

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Smutty One-Liners Part VI

"Feel this? It's just for you."

"Let's ruin ourselves for anyone else."

"I want to taste you so badly."

"Make me beg for it."

"Oh I can do this all night long."

"You surprise me every day."

"Let's find out how much you want it."

"Kiss me, I can't wait any longer."

"Come on, please, do it."

"Oh, you like that?"

"Hmm, you're not very patient, are you?"

"Well, let's see what happens tonight."

"Can you kiss it better?"

"Oh, you're hard to please."

"I had a very nice dream that started like this."

"You are so amazing, please never stop."

"Can you be good for me?"

"It's so hot when you talk like that."

"Stop teasing me and do it!"

"You're still holding back, just let go."

Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V

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