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here, always || kim namjoon

Anonymous asked:

Namjoon comforts you when he finds you upset please I need this so badly I’m suffering,,,

kim namjoon x reader

summary: namjoon helps you through a bad mental health day 

genre: angst/fluff

tw: panic attack 

for my favourite anon

The first time he saw me cry was seven months in. Namjoon and I were driving back from the supermarket, bags of shopping jostling in the back seat and the radio quietly playing. I stared resolutely out of the window, barely having spoken since we left. My hands were shaking, so I had put them underneath my legs and was trying to take deep intakes of breath.

I could feel his eyes on me every now and then; the unsaid question “what’s going on?” hung between us. I felt so exasperated with myself. Already an anxious day, the supermarket had almost sent me over the edge. Too many people, too much noise, too much to take in.

I’d had to shut my eyes and hold desperately onto Namjoon’s arm until we walked out. He hadn’t said anything yet – I had told him about my anxiety before, but he had never seen me like this, and I couldn’t help but to feel ashamed.

There was a growing ache behind my eyes, and a spinning sensation in my stomach.

“It was a bit chaotic in there.” Namjoon said, and I turned my head to see his eyes set on the road. It sounded like he had been thinking of what to say for a while, and I wondered how much he understood of what I was feeling. I hummed in agreement, watching his face. His hair was soft and ruffled over his forehead, and his skin smooth and bare. Just looking at him made my breathing start to ease. The car engine rumbled softly.

We didn’t speak again until we got home, at which point he parked and turned in his seat to face me. His eyes were sympathetic, but again he didn’t address it directly.

“Can I make you some tea?”

I couldn’t help but smile shakily, nodding. “Please.”

Namjoon busied himself boiling water, getting out two cups and stirring honey into my drink whilst I sat on the sofa and closed my eyes, feeling exhausted but extremely on edge. He walked over and handed me the mug, his eyes lingering attentively on my trembling hands as I took it from him. We sat together in beautiful quiet, me leaning my head against his shoulder as pulled out his phone to scroll through social media and tilted it to let me watch. It was calming, but my breaths still felt caught in my throat, and I was sure my legs would give way if I stood. I wasn’t registering anything in front of me. 

Finally, once I had finished my tea and placed the cup down, he turned his phone off and turned to face me with a tentative look.

“Are you okay?”

My lower lip trembled, and my throat ached. All it took was for him to ask me that. 

Tears were suddenly leaking from the corners of my eyes. I couldn’t wipe them fast enough, and a large, warm hand cupped my cheek to wipe under my eyes. I could see that his heart was breaking seeing me like this, but I couldn’t seem to catch my breath. Everything was tipping.

“There’s too much, I have so much to do, I’m-“

“Try to breathe, angel.” He whispered, both hands holding my face now as I crunched my eyes closed.

“I can’t.” I wheezed.

“You can, do it with me, in… and out...” I tried to follow his exaggerated breaths. At first, the panic was too much, but after a while it started to work. I followed his gentle instructions, squeezing his hand hard. Finally, the rhythm slowed until I wasn’t dizzy anymore. Oxygen returned to my lungs. 

“That’s it.” He murmured, starting to trace shapes over my palm and fingers. It worked well, distracting me from my clenched breaths, his feathered touch hypnotising. 

Once I was breathing normally enough to satisfy him, his arm came around my shoulders and finally pulled me into him. I gripped his shirt, pushing my face into his chest and focusing on how his lips were trailing along my temple and cheek.

My tears were still spilling onto his shoulder.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered, but he squeezed me tighter.

“No, don’t do that,” Namjoon spoke lowly in my ear, “it’s all fine. I just want you to be okay.”

“I am, now.” I sigh, relaxing my grip and sinking further into his embrace. He smelled familiar, and he was so warm. My breathing finally even, my mind started to clear. The tears ceased.

“It’s all okay now. I’m here.” He stilled and we lay in silence for a moment. “I’m grateful that you weren’t alone.”

I pulled back and pushed the hair out of my face, wiping under my eyes again. “You made it easier.” At that he smiled, and brushed my cheek with his knuckles.

“Film? Food?” He asked, and I laughed.

“Both, preferably.”

He made ramen whilst I watched him indulgently, and we put an animated film on. Once we had finished eating, my eyelids started drooping, and he guided me so my head rested on his lap. He took off his rings and started to gently stroke through my hair, eyes focused on the screen. But he was frowning like he was thinking hard.

“It’s all gonna be okay, you know?” I tried to let those words sit in me for a moment. “Just tell me when you feel like that, even if it’s only a bit.”  He peered down at me anxiously, and I nodded. He tapped my temple lightly. “Let me in here.”

“You’re in there.” I smiled. “And in here.” I touched my chest. At that, he laughed, shaking his head. Then he leaned down to push his lips against mine, cheek nudging my own. His mouth was soft and my lips moved of their own accord against it. He then pressed a long kiss to my forehead.

“Your anxiety is nothing to be ashamed of. We’ll work on it together.” He pulled back and smiled with dimples, spreading warmth through my tired chest.

“Love you. Thanks for being here.” I mumbled, finally letting my eyes close. His fingers continued their ministrations through my hair and I was asleep in minutes.

“Always.”

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#kim namjoon x reader #rm #bts imagine #glad everyone loves comfort as much as i do #i hope this is reassuring!! #bts fluff #bts comfort #namjoon imagine #namjoon x reader #bts reaction

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long day || jeon jungkook

jungkook x reader 

summary: both you and jungkook have had a long day, and you revel in each other’s company once you make it back home. 

genre: fluff!

words: 1250

let’s just pretend it hasn’t been literal years since I last posted :)

It was a cold night, and wind was battering the walls of my apartment, rain splattering the windows wildly. I glanced over at the doors leading to the balcony, watching the plants on the table stand heroically as their stems were bent and their leaves flapped desperately.

Just as I was wondering if I should bring them inside, I heard the front door being opened, and some shuffling noises. I left my desk to peer around the corner, and pulled my sleeves over my hands at the draft that had been let in whilst the door was ajar.

“Look at the state of me.” Jungkook stood in the entryway, pouting and holding out his arms to show me that his coat was soaked through. His hair clung to his forehead and his chin was dripping. I pursed my lips to stop the laugh trying to force its way out and shuffled over, looking him over as he continued to frown.

“My poor baby.” I mumbled and knelt down to untie the laces of his sodden shoes. I leaned them against the wall by the door and then stood up to unbutton his coat. I noticed he was trembling slightly, and quickened my pace. “You know there’s a thing called an umbrella.”

He scrunched up his nose. “I tried to use one, smartass, but it kept getting inverted by the wind.”

I tutted, shaking my head and enjoying how his pout deepened. He seemed so young whenever he got stroppy like this. With his coat off and hung up, I took him by the hand and led him up the stairs to the bathroom. His fingers were freezing and I brought them up to my lips as we walked, only letting go to turn on the shower. He whined, reaching for my hand again. I smiled and fiddled with the temperature controls with one hand, the other still in his cold grip.

“Right then.” I turned to him and pulled my jumper over my head, already toeing off my socks. “Strip.”

His eyes widened, and despite the pathetic state he was in, the corner of his mouth still lifted in a smirk. “Yes ma’am.”

I pulled off my own clothes as quickly as possible, desperate to get under the hot water. Jungkook was struggling to peel off his soaking socks and I laughed as I stepped into the shower. “What a sexy sight.”

He lifted his head, raising his pierced eyebrow and giving me a look that made my stomach flutter. Socks abandoned on the floor, he finally pulled the rest of his clothes off and took one large step until he was under the water with me. I shrieked at the feeling of his hands on my waist.

“You are freezing!” I stepped back against the wall.

“I know,” he laughed, and stepped closer again. “That’s why we’re in here.” This time he trapped me in with arms, leaning his palms against the wall either side of my head. He shut his eyes, face inches from mine, and tilted his head back as he enjoyed the hot water hitting his back.

He let out a long sigh of relief, smiling slightly, and I swallowed deeply, unable to take my eyes off him. He opened his eyes, smirking down at me when he realised I’d been staring. He leaned down until his nose was touching mine, gaze flickering between my eyes and my mouth. But before he could kiss me a shiver ran through my body; the wall was cold against my back and I was barely under the hot water anymore, his large frame blocking most of it. Jungkook frowned.

“Come here.” He murmured, pulling me off the wall and into his arms. His skin was warmer now, and I relished in the feeling of his body against mine, resting my head on his shoulder and trailing my hands through the ends of his hair. His fingers ran up and down my spine, massaging the muscles of my shoulder and he swayed us slightly from side to side.

“You’re tense.” He said in my ear, rubbing my neck with one hand. I hadn’t realised, but he was right. This sort of weather always left me on edge, and it had been a long day of work. I took a deep breath and tried to relax my muscles, leaning more heavily into him. He took the weight easily, wrapping his arms around my waist to support me. “Baby.” He mumbled sympathetically, pressing kisses to my cheek and shoulder.

“You are too.” I say, feeling the hard muscles of his back and pressing my fingers into the places I could feel the most tension. I hit a tight spot at his shoulder and he groaned, squirming in my grip. I laughed. “Stay still you big baby.” He let me massage it for a while longer before pulling back to push his hair off his forehead, licking the water off his lips.

“Let me wash your hair.” I said, reaching for the shampoo. He obligingly turned around, letting me reach up to massage it through the roots and ends of his hair. As I washed it out, smoothing my fingers through the dark curls, he started singing. Some soft melody, bouncing beautifully off the walls of the bathroom, and I smiled. Still humming, he turned around and took the shampoo from me. I turned to face the wall and felt his fingers rubbing it into my hair, taking his time to massage my scalp. I closed my eyes in bliss.

“Have you eaten?” I asked him once my hair was clean, turning around to see him looking at me with warm eyes. He nodded, ceasing his humming to step forward and push his lips against mine. My arms looped around his neck and he deepened the kiss, gripping my waist.

“And you?” He mumbled against my mouth. Water was dripping down both of our faces.

“Mhhm,” I nodded, “probably too much.” He laughed sweetly, kissing me again.

“Don’t be silly.”

The bathroom was a steam room by the time we got out. Jungkook threw his own towel around his waist before holding mine open for me. I let him wrap it around my body, and he rubbed his hands up and down my arms with a twinkling smile.

“Feeling better?” I asked as he rubbed his hair with a towel, now in dry clothes. He nodded with a sleepy smile.

“Much. Thank you.”

He started to head towards the bedroom, turning back to check I was following. I hesitated at the top of the stairs, but I hadn’t even said anything before he was walking over to grab my hand and pull me away.

“No, no, no. No more work.” He chided. I tried to meekly pull away, with no success as he effortlessly pulled me into the bedroom and steered me towards the bed. Once I was in, he got in and threw a large arm over me so that I couldn’t escape. But under the covers, my soft pyjamas on, and Jungkook’s warmth next to me, there wasn’t much that could have forced me out of that bed.

I turned my head and kissed his nose, turning the light off with my other hand. He was already dozing, breaths deep and even. I shuffled closer, letting him curl his arm around my head, fingers lazily playing with my hair. The weather carried on outside, battering the window. Neither of us noticed.

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#bts imagine #jungkook x reader #fluff #jungkook scenario #yes i disappeared off the face of the earth #probably no one even remembers this account #but i impulsively wrote this in half an hour and thought it was cute #so here #bts reaction #jeon jungkook #jeon jungkook x reader #bts fluff

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Hey, how to make something like masterlist? Sorry for interrupting.. Lile has line below the words.. sorry im not speakinf english that well

don’t worry at all!! and your english is perfect

honestly making a masterlist is HARD like they should teach this shit in school, I just used this post and followed it like a bible

good luck!

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ahhhHHHhhHhH!!! you're bACk!!!!!!! I miiiisseeedd youuuuuu 💖💖💖💖 i feel the nEED To update you on operation mochi so! here it is! Like i said earlier, him and his friends found out so i avoided him for about 2 weeks (which was literally the worst 2 weeks of my life) but then i got really sad so i started talking to him again and ! he was totally okay with me liking him even if he didn't feel the same so now we're like this dynamic duo and he lets me hug him all the time uwu anyWAYS ILOVEYOU

(pt 2.) ILOVE YOU AND I MISSED YOUUU FRIENDDDD 💖💖💖 YOU PROBABLY DIDNT EVEN WANT TO HEAR MY LIL DRAMARAMA BUT THANK YOU FOR LISTENING (to my ted talk) IN REGARDS TO EXAMS I GOT THE BEST GRADE IN MY GRADE FOR ENGLISH BUT I ALMOST FAILED MY BIOLOGY ONE OOPS okay BYEEEE 💖💖 -head over heels anon

AAAAAA omg THIS IS SO PRECIOUS :”)) 

I’m so glad you two are still friends and he’s been so nice about it my faith is restored uwuuwuwu 💖💞💗💕

CONGRATS IN ENGLISH DAMN UR SMART and I just failed a bio test yesterday too so SNAP 

#also I LOVE hearing about your life lol #all of you #I live vicariously through my followers #tell me more life stories #headoverheelsanon

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emoji spell for good luck in successfully buying bangtan world tour tickets!

(likes charge, reblogs cast)

#plsplsplsplspslpslspslpslplplpplsplspls #god knows I need this #tickets come out soon and #I #am #praying #anyone managed to get any yet??

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Send this to five people you want to hug!~ Keep the game going to spread love! ♥️

hug me brother

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PASS THE HAPPY ALONG! :) When you get this, reply with five things that make you happy and pass along to ten nice people. 🌈✨💖

HAPPY THINGS YES This Is My Area

here are some things that made me smile today:

it’s so sunny!! it’s finally t-shirt weather and there are flowers out and it makes me :)

bts getting scared by ellen (jin and hobi I cannot)

my friend and I cried laughing because I tried to write ‘successes’ but just ended up writing ‘succ’ and handed it in to my teacher

stray kids being dorks

you guys!! I finally returned and got to talk to everyone again I missed this blog and all of you

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Hi! I’m new to tumblr and I just want to tell you how happy your writing makes me!! You’re so good at writing! As an aspiring imagine blog, I wanted to ask if you have any advice on starting up an imagine blog!! Thankyou!! I hope that you’re having an amazing day!!

AAAA you’re so cute hi!!! also your acc is FLOURISHING I just read your most recent thing and it was so cute I think I died lmao rip

I don’t really think u need my advice your blog is already better than mine and you’ve only posted two fics, BUT I’d basically say find your niche (like what you want to post, your style, the genres etc.), reach out to writers you admire or active followers so you can make friends!!, post regularly if you can and make sure you’re having fun running it, otherwise there’s no point

go flourish further and overtake my account I’m rooting for u

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This is just a quick question. Is it just me or anyone but I feel like I’m gonna throw up when I think about the world ending. Like where will we do after we die, will we still be able to feel what we’re feeling right now. I just tend to overthink a lot.

this was a while ago but honestly YES this is what my brain does when I can’t sleep like what is death?? will we all just die out and leave no legacy of us every existing? so basically is everything we do meaningless??? or am I just overthinking? am I now overthinking overthinking?

#anyway #lol #hope you're okay #try not to overthink it isnt good for ur soul

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It's been years since I had a real crush on anyone who wasn't famous or fictional tbh

fat mood

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I’m new to this blog and oh my god I love your writings! My favorite is probably happenstance (hope I’m spelling that right, forgive me if I’m not) it’s just so fluffy and it makes me all giggly and warm on the inside, your such an amazing writer, I hope you continue to write more amazing things!! Ps. can I give myself an anon name, since I saw that some anons have names. Can I call myself Mint?

I CANNOT believe you like happenstance it’s literally probably my least popular one and aw someone likes it :”))) thank u a lot and YES OF COURSE Mint that’s cute

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Hello I just stumbled across your blog and now you'll be seeing a lot of asks from me thank you for your time and I hope you have a good day or night!

aaaaa thank you so much!!! the sweetest

I haven’t been around but I’m here now and I love you hope your life is going great 

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hello- okay I have a crush on my church pastor’s son and he’s so cute but he doesn’t know I exist at all! my breath hitches and I feel so awkward and giddy when I’m around him. I feel like I’m too fat, ugly, and stupid for him so I’ve been skipping meals and doing weight loss subliminales because I think he’ll like me and notice me. my mom had the guts to invite my crush and his family and a few other people (including his friend) over and wiki how to stay calm- anyways I love your blog.

hi this was a while ago but pls pls this is not healthy!! 

please don’t skip meals or go on any kind of diet that you don’t want to just for this boy, it’s great that you like him but you shouldn’t be changing anything about yourself to please him! I promise you’re gorgeous the way you are right now and if he disagrees I will fight 

stay healthy pls ily 

#this is important #please don't do this #ur beautiful #not fat ugly or stupid #be nice to yourself PLS my heart is breaking #ily

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Can I adopt head over heels anon omfg they're so adorable

oml I know :”)) precious

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AAHHHHHH IM DYING RN OKAY SO SCHOOL FOR ME STARTED YESTERDAY AND I WAS WITH MY FRIEND AND THEN THE MOCHI BOY CAME AND SAID HI AND I LITERALLY BEAMED AT HIM AND GAVE HIM A HUG AND HE WRAPPED HIS ARMS AROUND MY WAIST AND I LITERALLY LIKE MELTED AND WENT INTO OVERDRIVE OMG ASSDDFFGGHJJKKLLLL IM DYYYYIIIINNNNGGGGG -A V EMOTIONAL HEAD-OVER-HEELS ANON ♥️♥️

ok this is another update here ooh this is stressful especially because my exams r comin up and i have to focus on my studies BUT!! something happened and i’m annoyed okay to basically my friend is dating mochi boy’s friend and mochi asked mochi’s friend whether i liked mochi and his friend was like “ye it’s obvious” so now mochi, his friend, and MY FRIEND all knew so now i’m avoiding him and being sad about it T-T i hope ur doing well boo take care of urself 💖💖♥️♥️ -head-over-heels anon

oh my GOSH head-over-heels anon its been so long since this has anything else happened?? your life is like a drama I swear 

hope you’re living well hope mochi boy is still cute hope your exams went well hope your skin is clear I love you

#I have missed talking to you guys sm #sorry I didn't reply sooner!!

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hey hey you ... 💜

hi lovely 

#how are you??? #missed you