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BYE

To everyone who cared about me I love you and I hope nothing but the best for you in life, this page will be nothing but a remembrance of whatever it is that this account is I'm sitting here with a knot in my stomach listening to music.

  I'll miss what life could have been the way things sound, the way things smell the way everything feels I'll miss it, it scares me that everything comes to an end but I guess the end never ends if you never let it.

  I've never felt a sense of communication with someone ever in the life that I've lived even though I've had quite a few people over the years try and help me, but I've never been fond of help every time someone tried to help it made me feel very useless and like I wasn't do7ng anything right.

  I know I don't and didn't live a good fulfilling life, but I like to think that I did something good for my own wellbeing but I can't really think of much I did for myself I've always been the person who wanted to help and not being the person getting help.

  There's so much more to say and not enough time to say it, I'm not good with goodbyes so I'll leave with this "I wasn't the best, but even the devil was an angel" I hope you find my message well.

  

     Goodbye

                Sincerely, Nobody

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December, 31st 12A.M (PST) 3P.M (EST)

"It's better to burn out, than to fade away" ~kurt Cobain~

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I wish I knew you

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  I wish you were my distraction

  I wish I had something to distract me I keep coming back to this same conclusion, I'm alone I don't know why but I'm alone it's a selfish feeling considering people reach out to help me but I still feel alone I can't even actually say I feel alone anymore I just feel, lost.

  My mind is always empty yet so all over the place, I really wonder and hope that the afterlife is a good place I hope it's worth leaving my family devastated I wish they wouldn't feel that way, I don't see the sadness with death like most people do I feel it's the most beautiful part of a persons life I just want it to be beautiful in the end.

  I kinda wish I had a distraction in my life I'm very miserable I'm tired and I want to sleep with no chance of waking up

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<3

some pic i edited a while ago

#hello kitty #hk oc #nature #graveyard #cemetery #semetary #dead people #oc art #oc rpg

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I recommend: untrust us

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Anybody have any good song suggestions???

#music #emo music #punk rock #goth music

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okay i need to be less stuck up for the time I have on this earth I need love 😅

#please #love #lol

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I should just disappear. Nobody would miss me if no longer existedd

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The washed get washed away, and the stuck get left behind there's no place in life to feel fine at least not in mine.

#poetry #kinda

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I'm so weird I have an eerie obsession with self harm and just, blood in general (I'm sorry if your reading this)

#im sorry #nature #tw sh related

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  When i die i don't want my family to come see my grave i dont want to be cremated, just buried with the soil but i do not want my family to come see my grave cause of the shame i will have brought with the way of death i die of.

  Suicide is not looked apon in my family in my own opinion i love it, i fantasize about it i get light headed thinking about it my mind races all the time i can never hold a steady thought i feel selfish because im sad that I've done stuff for people and expected something in return.

  My mind is agony and i want to die by a tree or just, a place in the woods it's all i dream about who knows maybe today maybe tomorrow i make my dreams come true hopefully soon.

#obituary #kinda

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This song will always be great

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My time on earth is almost up I'm already way too old to still be alive, im 19 so I should be dead within the next two years or so but I've lived a very happy yet lonely life I've dreamt about a girl for a majority of my life and its always the same girl but I've never met or seen her.

I know its weird but, I've come to the thought that I need love before I go but I haven't been able to find it for the past years of my life so I guess life is meant to be left in a mystery for me.

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I have so many thoughts of murder i inow its not ethical, nor is it excepted by anybody but I feel like I should put it in the open as a form of therapy so I don't act apon anything.

I get thoughs of committing murder over a span of years, like a serial killer.

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i hate being alone

#friends #frienship #somebody #someone help #not that anyone cares