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staring at the celing

thinking i could do this all day

time is frozen and so is the mind

nothing and everything come at once

i feel like i can dissolve

i only know i was alive

cuz my heart beats so loud

the sound of the city is like a hungry monster

it could have eaten me up if i ever stepped outside

mosaic in my body

i could just float and disappear

sometimes i don’t know where I am

is this a home or just a place to rest

why did i do this instead of doing what i’m best

what a silly question yet there’s no answer

maybe it’s just an expression

i really have no explaination

so i start to write ‘cuz i’ve been doing less lately

which turned out to get worse

i know i’m useless when asking those questions

but i guess that’s the point

is it just the mind or the reality

i can’t quite fit in or let it hit me

so i distract myself and avoid it

and i call it coping mechanism

i’m such a narcissist

i don’t even let myself feel bad conciously

subconciously it’s always been there

maybe if i keep staring

everything’s soon to be as white as the celing

#poetry #poets on tumblr #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #writing #freestyle

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By horror surrealist photographer Christopher McKenney.

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Fiona with Gungi

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Andrew Bird and Fiona Apple

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i got problem with sharing tho, that’s why i choose tumblr. a platform which nobody around me using. so i can’t get caught with all my teared-up post lol

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"Hybris" series, 2013 - by Monica Piloni (1978), Brazilian

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i started to take up writing once again, but i’m really struggling. idk where to start, there are too much things to care about. i try to stay focus but all i can feel is this hedache due to thinking so much. i feel so useless, everytime like this. i keep on messing up my life and miss all the opportunities i should have. i know i’m ưhining, but it’s not like i’m giving up. i just hope things to be better tomorrow.

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i’m as raw as a paper

rough on the suface

cut on the edges

i’m as pure as a paper

paint me any color

red, blue or green

i’m as skinny as a paper

too thin to stand

too delicate to be wraped

burn me i’ll catch fire

pour me i’ll be dissolved

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Fiona Apple photo by Joshua Kessler, 1997

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Karim Rashid for Issey Miyake (2003)

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i listen to taylor and fiona. That doesn’t sound like a match at all and many ppl against that idea and i dont even know why. I mean they’re very different ofc but besides that i think i could related to them the most. While taylor made me feel close like a sister then fiona is more like a mother, both giving great advices and feelings and obviously the music are top tier. Idk how to break it down more clearly but lol that’s the thing i wanna tell… not interesting or smart but yeah…

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Ellen von Unwerth - Nadja Auermann Wearing a Dress by Karl Lagerfeld for Chloé (Vogue 1994)

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Fiona Apple – Fast as You Can, Los Angeles Metro, Red/B Line