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What the FUCK am I triggered by MCR??? I’m going to off myself they used to be my favourite band.. fuck you <REDACTED>

#rant #ventcore #anotexia #bullimic #gay #alt #ana/mia #anabp #bullimia #emo #anaboy #body dysmorohia #not pro ana

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You ever like,, sob your little heart out to someone and they just sit there ignoring you?

Me too xoxo

#anotexia #bullimic #gay #alt #ana/mia #anabp #bullimia #anaboy #body dysmorohia #emo

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I keep getting caught in this spiral of like,

“I’m going to fast but I should make sure I don’t have any food to distract me, so I’m going to eat it all and purge it up!”

And then my family buys more food.

#anotexia #bullimic #alt #ana/mia #anabp #bullimia #anaboy #body dysmorohia #emo #gay #ftm ana #not pro ana #pro anna #pro ana #ana #trans and anorexic

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How do you all you mfs exercise ,, I walk for 20 minutes and I feel every joint in my body fail me

#anotexia #bullimic #emo #alt #ana/mia #anabp #gay #bullimia #anorexic and trans #anaboy #not pro ana #pro anna #gay and anorexic

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I’m not hungry, I’m bored.

I’m not hungry, I’m bored.

I’m not hungry, I’m bored.

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It feels illegal to relate to this as much as I do 

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Hjdhsjsjdj i binged but my body is too weak to purge (vomit) so I took sum lax,, but now I wanna try to vomit ,, but if I vomit,,, I’ll lose the lax!!!!

Basically,, am an idiot

#bullimic #alt #ed eating disorder #ednos #eating disorder #ed #anaboy #not pro ana #anotexia #pro anna #pro ana #anorexic #anorexia #anabp #ana/mia #body dysmorohia

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meme i found on pinterest

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[almost fainting every time i get up]

(softly) its like a reward...

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Gonna start a fast 2day,,, I have a doctors appointment to get referred to the ED clinic and I wanna be skinny for it xoxo

Can’t wait till I have to pretend to GAIN weight at the doctors, smh

#anaboy #not pro ana #anotexia #pro anna #anorexic #ana #body dysmorohia #bullimic #ednos #orthorexia #anabp #ana/mia

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Ksjsjsjdjks I keep B/P but not purging enough, I’m so mf dumb shshjsjsnshshjsjsjj stinky stinky idiot

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Not me binge watching AHS to keep me fasting 🤡🤡

#ed eating disorder #ednos #ed #anorexic and trans #ftm ana #not pro ana #myproana #ok maybe a little pro ana #emo #alt

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I’m fucking whE EZ IN G

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Why does no one on here talk about the horrors of an ED there’s probably children on here fantasizing our lifestyles. well ill be the bearer of all bad news...

it’s true, eventually

•your hair will thin, and fall out everytime you touch it

•if you lose weight too fast you will be left with loose skin (no one told me how to prevent this I just live with it because I’d rather this than be “fat”)

•you will faint in strange places (not everyone)

•you can’t hide it forever

•it is embarrassing

•it causes anxieties about things you never worried about before

•it causes you to envy or even be disgusted by loved ones

•it is excruciating painful being malnourished (hunger pains are no joke)

•being skinny won’t bring you love, but you WILL notice how much more attention you get now that you’re thin

•you will still hate yourself

•you won’t want to see your body naked anymore

•it’s hard to find love because you’re carrying this heavy weight on your chest that you cannot tell anyone

•you will have no tolerance to drugs (extreme lightweight)

•the saddest part of having an eating disorder is slowly dying right in front of the people you love and they don’t notice, they just congratulate you and tell you how good you look (sometimes they won’t even mention it as if it’s something you should’ve done a long time ago)

•you won’t feel sexy when people squeeze you during sex, or hug you tight just to feel how boney you really are. instead you’ll feel disgusted and afraid, mostly ashamed.

•you’ll lose your motivation for almost everything besides losing weight, in fact it’s one of the only things that brings you pure joy

just a mini rant because I remember when I was a middle schooler I had a tumblr and I used to do the same thing... wonder why I didn’t look like everyone else, drool over these skinny bodies. Please understand that we are sick and we do not welcome you with open arms to the “community” please RUN while you still can. Reblog if you wish because I really wish I read this when I was 13.

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Also I literally last used this blog in 2018 but I have NO memory at all of my last relapse?? Did my brain just hide my mental illness from me??? Sexy strange behaviour

#ed #tw #ed eating disorder #anorexic and trans #trans and anorexic #bullimic #anabp #ana/mia #emo #alt #myproana

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Update is cool now

What the fuck is actually happening???

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What the fuck is actually happening???