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Wow, YES. I need to read these. Enthusiastic vs. willing consent...again, wow. I never even thought to put it that way, but immediately upon reading those terms I understood how perfect they are for me.

It's so difficult being ace in a relationship where the other person is not, and you yourself never knew you were until you'd already been with that person for 11 years, and married for 5 of those. I really wish we lived in a world that actually INFORMED ITS YOUTH about the spectrum of sexuality. A world that, better yet, didn't lump everything into "straight, gay, bisexual, or asexual (meaning that the person wants 0 sex ever and never experiences desire)" 🙄

I could have known myself earlier, informed potential partners, accepted and understood myself. Now even though I know, I still struggle because on a daily basis I live the life of a person who thought (until she was 34ish) that she was one thing and now fights constant feelings of guilt, and anxiety over the thought that she'll destroy her relationship by being herself. Think I probably need to read both the book and the article.

i’ve been on hold at my library for a book about asexuality for a few weeks and i just read an article about some concepts in the book re: consent. and holy shit. blew my mind. i’ve NEVER read about consent in the context of a relationship with an ace and an allo that resonated so strongly with me, and as a person in such a relationship!! it’s so!!! i’m even more excited for the book now.

for anyone interested, the article is How to Negotiate Better Consent: An Asexual Perspective and the book i’m waiting for is Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society and the Meaning of Sex.

#asexuality #to read

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Someone come cheer me on. Be my platonic codependent soulmate who is totally obsessed with my WIP fantasy novel starring a bisexual female couple who are Very Stupid™, and their adorable Cinnamon Bun asexual who is literally too good for this world because he's not actually from it.

All the queer pining, all the outline disasters, all the ADHD. I'm not in the prime of my life (30s what), and I'm ready to get needlessly hyped up about myself by pretending my imaginary world is half as cool/motivational as my fandoms (looking at you, Sherlock/Magicians/Supernatural).

I'm very intense and it may not be worth it, full disclosure. My 2 modes are NOW and NOPE.

#my writing #the magicians #queliot #supernatural #destiel #all the good ships are queer ships

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Me. I have done this.

lmao i just explained what fic and fandom are to my therapist and talked about why it's so important to me, an adult woman

#relatable #yes #ily

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there’s a new lil magicians discord that I would love to have more pals on (esp closer to my age!) come talk about jennifer with me!!

#oooo #The Magicians #peaches and plums

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Quentin in his head every time he sees Penny:

IT'S INVOLUNTARY AT THIS POINT

#quentin coldwater #i miss Q #shake it off #the magicians #penny adiyodi #taylor swift #Youtube

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my body is a cage - arcade fire

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Help me leave these lonely thoughts behind When they pull me under, and I can feel my sanity start to unwind Darling, only you can ease my mind

Queliot & Ease My Mind by Ben Platt for @bitchesoffillory

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I don’t know what to say, Jules. I…I should have believed you, Jules. I should have known, and I’m—I’m… Look, that doesn’t make up for what I did to you, which was stupid and vindictive and really dangerous. I’m so sorry, Q. Thank you.

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So, let's delve a bit into the Spanish dub of Supernatural.

I’m going to go through a lot of terms here, and a lot of basics, in order to increase people’s level of understanding as to how the dub may possibly have come about the way it did.

This post will provide information and, I hope, allow some members of the fandom to move forward with their own theories with more reassurance. Information is power. I will define and clarify industry terms to the best of my novice ability to make it easier for others who wish to do their own research.

This post was inspired by the fact that I’ve been part of multiple fandoms in which queerbaiting has played an enormous part: I am tired of seeing fandom friends left devastated and without answers, no emotional resolution in sight. So this post is, in spirit if not content, largely dedicated to my fellow Johnlockers and Queliot shippers. And most of all, for Quentin Coldwater, who deserved not just better but the very best.

Disclaimer: This is my own research and there is a bit of speculation involved; I can’t guarantee 100% that I will get everything right (I hit some very frustrating walls looking up what should be easy-to-find facts), but I did a *lot* of work for this. Other people will doubtless be able to clarify points/give better specifics/correct what I’ve gotten wrong. I am not promising a concrete answer to “SPN gate” here, as without more information than we currently have that is impossible to declare with certainty.

More under the cut.

Keep reading

#spn gate #destiel #supernatural #queerbaiting #lgbt #lgbt+ #lgbt representation #15x18 #dean winchester #castiel #johnlockers #queliot #queliot shippers #quentin coldwater deserved better #spn family #they silenced you

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They're all The Worst (and I really only mean that about Alice) but I've wanted to kiss all of them at least once (and in some cases waaaay more than once)

I am NEVER *not* kissing Q, you have to fucking pry me off him when you're ready to die and then I will See To You

Penny gets very dirty kisses

(I will sometimes kiss Kady and sometimes kiss Julia but mostly I only want to kiss them at the same time. Julia mostly gets kissed solo when she's being cool to Q)

(I only DON'T want to kiss El .00000000001% of the time, and that is the time he and Q remember the mosaic and he goes all biphobia for a sec and even then it's really self-preservation dressed up in its finest "I'm being a butthole" clothing, and mostly El being emotionally closed off as a defense mechanism is still quite a kissable El)

(Margo is El but like, Margo)

(Mostly I need to brush my teeth and have a shot of vodka and punch something really hard after kissing Alice)

I kiss Josh every time I feel fond of him so, that's a lot and mostly done while laughing

I absolutely love The Magicians but there is not a single character who I haven’t wanted to slap at least once

#the magicians #eliot waugh #quentin coldwater #margo hanson #julia wicker #penny adiyodi #kady orloff diaz #josh hoberman #alice quinn

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Quentin! Get over here. The Magicians | S01E02: The Source of Magic (2016)

#the magicians #eliot waugh #queliot #quentin coldwater #the way he looks at them #margo hanson

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Help me, he's so beautiful

My Instagram (that used to be all cats) has been taken over by Quentin. And he is more puppy than kitten.

#i still miss q #the magicians #quentin coldwater #quentin coldwater deserved better

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#queliot

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― Juansen Dizon

#quentin #the magicians #quentin coldwater #q #i miss q

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DO NOT MAIL IN YOUR BALLOTS ANYMORE.

TAKE THEM TO A LEGITIMATE DROPBOX,

OR TAKE THEM TO THE BALLOT OFFICE.

#vote #signal boost

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#vote #please vote #jason ralph

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Peaches in my sketchbook

#peaches and plums