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Literally the whole point (partially anyways)

''but if you strv3 you will be too sknny for men and lose your period :(''

THERES NO DOWNSIDE IN THAT SENTENCE??? ^^

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Log for may 21

So I’ve been staying with family so staying under my limit has been pretty hard so that’s why I haven’t posted one of these in a while

Finally was able to skip breakfast today :)

For lunch I ate kinda heavy since I’m having dinner so late I didn’t want my stomach to be noisy all afternoon lol. I had a tuna sandwich (390) and hummus (105) and cheese crackers (150)

Then for a snack I had one those chobani flips yogurt cups (170) it was birthday cake flavored lowkey kinda disappointing and definitely a waste of calories. I had a bowl of strawberries (20)

For dinner I had to go out with my family I was originally only going to have the tomato soup (200) but everyone commented on how little food that was so I also got breadsticks which came Alfredo sauce (750 and that was only for half) :(

My total was 1795 I literally want to die

I really hate this month I surprised I haven’t gained more somehow I keep maintaining around 153

#pro for me not for thee #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating cw #skinandbones #starv1ng #tw skipping meals #starv3 #i need to lose so much weight #anor3c1a #disorder eating

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Damn these targeted ads are getting a little too targeted for my comfort

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i can’t believe minors keep making it into my dms.

i’m 22.

do not fucking message me if you’re a minor.

i could get in huge trouble when your mommy takes your phone and sees you’re on edblr.

you are a child. i love u all but if ur a minor we can NOT be friends.

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Ugh I hate my life rn not only am I being forced to go to my brothers school concert which is almost 3 hours long we’re also going to dinner after which means I’ll have to eat really late . Plus the only thing that seems remotely safe is tomato soup:/ which is so boring but everything else has meat or is really high cal. We’re going to Applebees so most of the menu is over 1000cals per serving. I hate America the food not even that good so why is it all so high cal?

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! Calling all ed accounts !

I know this isn't going to be seen as much as I think it should but it is important anyway. There is an account going by fuzzypatrolking that is harassing ed based accounts. They are claiming that this isnt a safe space for us and that we use it as an excuse to indoctrinate children into ed culture.

Many of us say minors DNI and block anyone who is a minor

even my therapist isnt mad at me for looking through ed tumblr (yes fuzzypatrolking I have a therapist go cry about it)

My ed developed from physical and sexual abuse when I was just two years old which destroyed any positive thinking about my body, having other adults who can relate to my experience is helpful and counts as a safe space

If you dont want children looking at ed content thats on you the parent not the rest of the internet... parental controls exist.

Many people who have ed accounts vent and don't give tips, we never body shame each other or others, its an eating disorder that changes OUR preception of ourselves not other people

Fuzzypatrolking also claims the accounts they have interacted with have called them fat... which most likley means they are interacting with minors

We understand we are mentally ill, we never claimed to deny that. Most of us are in therapy those who arent like they claim are most likley minors who dont know how to startr conversations.

Of course I am going to get mad at the whole account reporting. I have had 10 accounts termed in the past 4 years and have then lost a lot of amazing people who knew what I was going through and could support me when I was mentally unwell (not that my feelings are theirs to control)

If they are so mad that we are harming minors why are they not talking about fake ana coaches who actually prey on vulnerable teen girls to get nudes in the form of 'body checks'

Stop harassing mentally ill people who are finding the support they need to eventually recover. You are not helping. You are harming. Instead of talking about the real causes of eating disorders you push that blame onto those who experience the same eating disorders.

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I need to know this badly

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

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Omg why are there so many car alarms going off there’s literally three going off at the same time for the past five minutes

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Why can’t I stop eating? 🤮😭

#pro for me not for thee #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating cw #skinandbones #starv1ng #tw skipping meals #starv3 #i need to lose so much weight #ana0rex1a #anor3c1a

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"but you don't look disordered..." LET ME COOK☝️

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REBLOG IF YOU HAVE STRETCHMARKS

This way people can see they’re not alone. I have them and this would help me see that.

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[ adult anas like/rb ]

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Forgot to post day two yesterday so I’ll do two posts today instead. I’m 5’4 unfortunately I really hate my height I really wish I was at least 5’6 maybe even 5’8 I feel like tall people especially women are just more attractive.plus I would look skinnier at a higher weight if I was tall.

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Log for may 9th

Only fasted for 16hrs and I broke it at noon with a bagel and cream cheese (400)

Then for dinner I had I had part of a cheese calzone we got takeout again:/ so idk about the calories probably around (500) it was super greasy

So my total for today was 900cals finally back to comfort area calories wise. Lately I’ve really hated going above 900 it just feels like too much. If only I could go back to omad but unfortunately I’m staying with my family rn and they would probably notice maybe I can at least do a longer fast tomorrow. I did have start my fast at 10 instead of 8 like I normally do so I might only be able to do 18hrs of fasting instead of 20hrs like I normally do when I’m at my place.

No exercise again today

#eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #disordered eating cw #skinandbones #starv1ng #tw skipping meals #starv3 #i need to lose so much weight #ana0rex1a #anor3c1a #disordered eating in tags #disorder eating #disordered eating mention #tw eating issues #tw restriction #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #tw ed ana

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I seriously need this feeling again I miss it

i love waking up hungry. My stomache growling, my vision blurring when I get up, being dizzy and struggling to concentrate on anything.

#4norexla #ana0rex1a #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #tw ed sheeran #an0rec1a

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Log for may 8th

Couldn’t fast again today:(

Breakfast I had yogurt(180) again

For lunch I had tofu pad Thai idk about the calories I’ve never had it before it was sooo delicious but also makes me extremely nervous I think the portion I ate was at least 430 cals since it was way left than half the container.

For dinner I had a Mac and cheese cup(220) and hummus (105) with crackers (65) and seed cluster(56)

Was only able to take a picture of my dinner I feel like it looks like shit but honestly it was kinda fire

My total for today was 1056cals not great but acceptable

No exercise today ether :/

#eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #disordered eating cw #skinandbones #starv1ng #tw skipping meals #starv3 #i need to lose so much weight #ana0rex1a #anor3c1a #disordered eating in tags #disorder eating #disordered eating mention #tw eating issues

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Day One: CW:153.7

HW:188

LW:127

UGW:90

#eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #disordered eating cw #skinandbones #starv1ng #tw skipping meals #starv3 #i need to lose so much weight #ana0rex1a #anor3c1a #disordered eating in tags #disorder eating #disordered eating mention