everdin92

[everdin92]

i was a.. shy person in high school i didn’t feel close to most of my classmates i wasn't bullied. never was it's just when I was in high school I felt like I was with the wrong crowd most of the time I felt like I’m this tiny person walking among giants like I don’t belong

there was this boy though he was everything I was not he was popular people greet him wherever he goes they always wants to know his opinion on things it was almost felt like the room react everytimes he walks in and he, under some weird circumstances, was my friend

one day, I got invited to a birthday party it was one of our classmate's of course I wasn't planning to go i mean i felt small hanging around my classmate while we were wearing the same uniform i cant imagined hanging out with them when they got all dressed up and by 'hanging out' i mean standing near them feeling left out

no one ask me about this party but that boy, this friend of mine he text, "are you planning to go to Olivia's party?" "don’t know, not sure"  I lied. I knew for sure I wasn’t going "okay" he responded

now while at the party  he keep texting me "Adam just did the funniest thing..." "you wont believed who gave the most ridiculous gift" "they serve that dish that you like"

i cant help but smile reading those text not because they were funny neither because I want to know what’s going on there I just cant help but felt warm knowing that there, in the middle of the crowd that I’m so terrified of there's this boy who, while busy having fun, still thinking about me and despite that he was probably having the time of his life, he just couldn't wait to tell me all about it

#short story

[everdin92]

you were in my dream last night

again

it was a nightmare

but not because of you

you were the one that made it bearable

anyway

it was nice to talk to you again

after all these years

[everdin92]

it’s raining outside

as heavy as the burden i am carrying

not as heavy as this suitcase i’m dragging

i can hear voices from downstairs

a child’s giggle, followed by a mother’s call

it saddened me as it is comforting

before i know it

i miss home

#poem #homesick #prose

[everdin92]

really loving my lockscreen

#the beatles #paul mccartney #lockscreen #i've just seen a face #beatles

[everdin92]

a pile of ashes

and then where would you go 

when the place that used to be the warmest place for you

became cold and uninviting?

would you leave and wish the distance will bring back the warmth?

or would you stay and befriend the weather?

I’ll give you a third option,

you burn yourself, 

in the hope that the flame could tame the cold for everyone

and in the hope that they’d still love you even if you became nothing

but a pile of ashes

#poem #poetry #ashes #flame #personal

[everdin92]

Queen Midge and her Knights

#midge maisel #midge x benjamin #midge x lenny #midge x joel #the marvelous mrs. maisel

[everdin92]

walking with giants

sometimes it’s nice to walk with the giants

it made me feels like i’m one of them. like i’m a giant too.

or at least i could pretend i am one.

but at the same time,

walking with giants got me worried

for they are giants, 

they could step on me

and then not feel a thing

[everdin92]

A Mother’s Pain

cruel mothers are still mothers.

they make us wars

they make us revolution.

they teach us the truth. early.

mothers are human. who,

sometimes give birth to their pain. instead of children.

-Salt, Waheed Nayyirah

#poem #poetry #salt #waheed nayyirah

[everdin92]

one of the best thing I have ever watched. one of the best dialogues i have ever heard. everyone should watch it then maybe the world could be a little better. thank you Julie Andem

#skam #skam original #julie andem #alt er love #eva #noora #isak #sana #everything is love

[everdin92]

I feel like a broken glass

I’m in pieces

I’m not intact

but damn I can hurt you

[everdin92]

Peace be upon you for what you patiently endured. And excellent is the final home.

Quran, Al Ra’d (13:24)

#Al-Quran #Quran

[everdin92]

#anime #reLife #gif

[everdin92]

If you're gonna do something wrong, do it right!

Joey Tribbiani, Friends

#joey tribbiani #friends

[everdin92]

We know a little about a lot of things; just enough to make us dangerous

Dean Winchester

#dean winchester #supernatural #crossroad blues

[everdin92]

a note to self

#self reminder

[everdin92]

Acceptance isn't passive. It's choosing to stop resisting reality so you can focus your energy on dealing with it.

[everdin92]

at times like this

it was at times like this I feel like being closer to Him than ever it feels like He, Himself doing the work arranging every little things to go wrong so it all will crashed down on me at once I know it’s wrong on so many levels but that's what I feel and in case you forgot, He's the One that make us all feel things right? but it also at times like this I feel like everything serve its own purpose also at times like this I feel like being watched over, being guided I feel like He want me to see things in the way that I never did when it's not times like this

#poem #story #feeling #self