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This thing still exists?  Wat.

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Hmmmm.

Maybe I should post something new... Eh.

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A look towards the future. I've always wanted to see if I could create music like this myself, since it's something I've always loved hearing. Everything played/created by me. A lot more things like this will be recorded in the future. Please let me know what you think!

#SoundCloud #Edazer #Orchestral #Ambient #Post Rock #Post Metal #Guitar #Violin #Cello #Shoegaze #MONO #Japan #Piano

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Disclaimer: Make sure you have headphones, as I have panned certain sections to certain sides! Another piano/orchestral thing I made. Made between the hours of roughly 3AM-7:30AM on 5/2/13. It's minimalist, but at the same time complex in a way, haha. I enjoyed this one quite a bit. It's the first work I've used brass in for quite awhile. There's a piano, two violin sections, a cello section, a contrabass section, a trumpet section, and a trombone section. The trumpet section may be a little cheesy, but I liked utilizing it in this way. Comments, feedback, criticisms always welcome. And as always, thank you for listening!

#SoundCloud #Edazer #Orchestral #Piano #The

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New Avatar, haha.  Yeah. >__>

#guys with long hair #dudes with long hair #Long hair #men with long hair #Beard #Long Beard #METULLLLL #Me #myface

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Lawl... I do not think I have it in me anymore...

Heh.

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Heh.

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You're gonna have a great life... Without me. Today... And Tomorrow. And for a long, long time.

Beyond The Grave

#Gungrave #Beyond the Grave #Brandon Heat #Beautiful

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Got sent home from work a bit early for essentially looking like shit. Was pretty dizzy for about an hour, heh. And a manager came by and asked what was wrong. Losing the ability to look ok, a bit. Heh. Gotta work on that. I am so much stronger than this, lawl.

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How I feel, most of the time, haha.

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Opening at work and then spending bunny day mostly alone. I can't wait to go home and take a nap. Only 7 hours to go.

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I should be asleep right now... >__>

#Hair #long hair #guys with long hair #men with long hair #bedtime #sleep #derp #Should be sleeping

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So, I just beat Metal Gear Rising... It was really amazing and far, FAR exceeded expectations.  And the ending, especially Sunny's last lines...  It gives someone like me hope. That all my pasts sins, and all the wrong that I've done... I mean I never believe I'll really be able to atone... Or that I'm really worth anything.. And no matter how much good I can do will ever make up for it... But... Something like this, heh... Gives me a small amount of belief that people may remember me as I am now. And that there is hope for change, and that I always won't feel this way.  And hope is something I am in increasingly short supply of these days.  If you haven't played it, do so.  A beautiful game.

#Metal Gear Rising #Amazing #Hideo Kojima #Ps3

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Haha, wonderful. Emotional/mental stresses are starting to manifest in physical form now. Throwing up and 103 fever, whoooo, haha. I'll bring it down. Going to sleep well tonight, I think. 

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Away

It's REALLY bad.  Sorry.

Like everyone in my life... That I resolved to help, that I taught to fight...  You said you'd never leave, You told me to believe...

You said you were the one,  That I had been waiting for all along, Selfishness,  In wanting this,  Never quite broken,  Must always carry on.

What is wrong inside of me,  All close to me eventually see,  There is no one who would want to stay,  There is no reason for me to pray . Hope is long gone now,  I shouldn't linger here,  Giving up I can't yet allow, I must finish out my year. 

Truly alone among the stars,  A universe as empty as I,  Traveled apart so very far,  Defeated by a lie. 

Twenty-five years is long enough,  Through the barren wasteland alone,  Through the ice and through the fire,  I cast aside my selfish desire,  My petty thoughts of love undeserved,  My broken soul,  The broken words.

Now I feel I'm beyond mend,  Waiting for a time when it can end,  The day is coming when I lay down my head,  The sun set, and I rose in it's stead,  The day when I can finally rest,  Is soon arriving and none should fret.

No one would ask me to stay, Too far along is my soul's decay, Instead of pretending there is hope for me,   I would sooner be away.

EW - 3/22/13

#Poetry #Prose #Garbage #Terrible #Death #Life #Love #Goodbye #Awfulwriting

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Sometimes it's really awful to be correct.  To be proven wrong once,  At least when it comes to this...  It would be the most beautiful gift... To be wrong.

#I think I'm finally done #Haha #Heh #What's wrong with me #Alone #Depression #Death #Life #Alone in the Universe #Wrong #Right #Beautiful #Gift

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Something I apparently wrote One thousand and twenty-eight days ago... At this, the Fifth of March at Four in the morning in the year of Two Thousand and Thirteen... 

#Reverie #Vanished #Gone