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my npd makes it hard to love and care about people normally. most of what i feel towards others is apathy, and when i do actually like someone, it's still in a messed up way that only makes sense to me.

#real actually

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You say youre paranoid bc you think someone you dont know well doesnt like you. I say Im paranoid bc I thought my dad was replaced by smth and that if I made one wrong move Id die

We are not the same

#garlic breath #this isnt rly a vent but ill tag it to be safe ig #vent #paranoia #tw paranoia #actually mentally ill #mental illness #this is what i get for indulging in my horror special interest i didnt sleep till daylight

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Any other narcs like hate anything that makes them feel coddled. Even though rationally it's probably from a place of love.

Ex: it's your birthday and something goes slightly wrong and everyone rushes to comfort you and ask what you want even tho you're not upset

Or like "can I make it up to you? We can go to xyz" no.

DONT SPEND TIME W MY ON CHARITY AND PITY IM GONNA KILL MYSELF WHAT.

#YEA I DO #i think its smth to do with taking things as attacks way to easily #care = pity = calling me weak #or smth like that #i like the attention hate everything else #id also be mad if someone didnt do this as well. bc thats basically telling me you hate me and want me dead #what i want is for ppl to idk shift the attention but still make it abt me #and what i mean by that is i want ppl to get mad at smth on behalf of me. bc it shows ppl care but dont see me as weak #look idk how my brain works i just know it sees anger as being strong and pity/sadness as being weak #hm yea so the whole 'pds are trauma responses turned disordered' is definitely showing rn huh lmao

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How does it feel to be the funniest person on tumblr

Absolutely fantastic ty anon

#asks #garlic breath

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Oh what the hell

Npd horse

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Funny you think I can admit when Im wrong to others and not just stew in fear for several days

#its called ignoring it until someone points it out and getting ready to lie to their face #im working on it dw #garlic breath #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #npd #narcissistic personality disorder

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Narcissists are winning all empaths want us shot on sight

#we are succeeding in life #garlic breath #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #actually mentally ill #actually neurodivergent #mental illness #neurodivergent #npd meme #npd shitpost #death ment #gun ment

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Me trying to be a good person and not wish death on ppl who vaguely annoy me challenge: Impossible

#WE HAVENT EVEN INTERACTED RECENTLY I JUST NEED THEM DEAD #god they annoy me 500 BRICKS UNTIL YOU DIE #this is only partly directed at someone (that ik irl so everyone here is good) #garlic breath #npd safe #cluster b safe #npd vent

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Tips for Cluster B Anger

~ coming from someone who has BPD and a psychology special interest Have you been feeling like your anger is completely uncontrollable and all encompassing? Do you feel like your anger controls you more than you control it? Me too! But here are some things I've found to be helpful: - Taking notes. Write down triggers for what causes your anger episodes (as well as other episodes e.g sadness or paranoia) once you come down from it and start looking for a pattern. Not only will this help you to slow down and self reflect, you can begin to either avoid those triggers or find ways to regulate the effects. - SLOW DOWN. If something is making you want to hurt someone else or yourself, slow the FUCK down. Push against the grain, step back and let yourself have a good cry or scream into a pillow. Do whatever you can to (healthily) process the emotions, no matter how long it takes, before making major decisions. - Avoid self harm, substances or unhealthy habits like disordered eating or emotional self harm. It's so tempting, believe me, but it will only serve to make things worse. You might feel like you want it to get worse now, but in the future, you WILL regret it. If you start feeling these urges, refer to the urge surfing diagram below this. - Get outside advice. Think you're splitting but you can't tell? Run the situation by a close friend or loved one and see how they feel about it. Try to relay it with as little bias as possible and see if they agree with the decision you're about to make or if you perhaps need to reevaluate some things. - Take care of your heart. I know this is cliche, but a good sleep schedule, hearty food consumption habits, hydration, exercise routine and mental health care go a long way in helping you succeed in the above tips. You are struggling with an illness, and ill people need as much care as possible. Become your own parent. This works for anger in all Cluster B personality disorders, as well as with autism spectrum disorders! Urge surfing:

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At the end of the day, the only person truly suffering from NPD, surviving NPD, and feeling hurt by NPD is the narcissist who has this condition.

With that being said, #surviving narcissism, #surviving npd, #narc survivor are our tags now.

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hi ehats your opinions on endos and transids and radqueers please tell me your opinion on danganronpa what do you think of people who use the term kinnie do you believein narcissistic abuse

IM GONNA FUCKINF SHOOT YOU VAL I KNOW THIS WAS YOU

Endos and trans-ids/radqueers are NOT allowed. I love dangitgranpa(idk jow to spell it)

Yes I believe in narc abuse..theyre all assjoles.../j (I DO NOT)

Fym kinnie I kin your dad the way I banged your mother last night

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IM LAUGHING SO HARD AT THE RAID SHADOW LEGENDS AD BREAK HELP ME

Hey all. Decided to make this post because I feel there's not enough positivity for narcissists.

I know there's a lot of self hatred within the community since, well, whether you lie to feel better than others or have another disorder that really makes you hate yourself it's like the one thing almost all of us have in common. I think it's neat that despite our differences in personality, interests, hell just lives in general we at least have that to bond over.

Anyway, I love this community. a lot of you are the sweetest people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting-

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-and I'm looking forward to making many more posts here. I hope you're all okay, and if you're not then I hope you are soon. I love you all.

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Guys the @/smartestgirluknow blog is not Lola, it is someone pretending to be Lola

The actual Lola has said this abt the situation and many ppl can confirm that this is her:

Do not follow that account at all, IT IS NOT LOLA

#garlic breath #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #npd #narcissistic personality disorder

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NARCVAMP FOR THE WINNNN

'fact they actively launched a smear campaign on me for impersonating myself'

Smear campaign being: Lola the actual person who everyone can account for being the actual person lola going 'Guys this isnt me nor is this a joke I am genuinely being impersonated' and also providing proof that this blog doesnt belong to her

Sure buddy ok then.

ALONG WITH THAT, the ppl (read: 1 person who wasnt pro-israel, an abuser or in relationships with minors) weve banned for being 'annoying' were also spamming channels, randomly traumadumping in channels outside of vent and otherwise causing disruption which caused ppl to be uncomfortable

'moderators harassing other people on baseless accusations' Im genuinely trying to think of a time this has happened, but it hasnt. The closest thing happens is calling bad ppl out on their crap behavior, not 'harassment' lmao. Look I get having your bad actions pointed out and thrown in your face can hurt, but sadly thats a fact of life. Truth hurts my guy

'they're all brainwashed into following each other' What does this even mean lmao??? What, were a group of friends who encourage one another?? Idk thats pretty typical of friendgroups esp with similar ppl LMAOOO

Idk this post is crap, do better, stop impersonating someone and grow up? Just a little suggestion

the npd community has a serious problem with people being loud, boisterous freaks. yeah, narcissist community, but your narcissism doesn't inherently make you insufferable; your personality and actions do.

the fact of the matter is that despite claiming to be a friendly community in the end all actions taken point directly towards the narcissistic abuse concept that everyone fights against. take a look at the behavioral analysis unit server, a self proclaimed safe haven for those who have the disorder which would've been a fantastic idea if not for the fact the entire mod team is full of lousy freaks who ban people they deem unlikeable; funny considering if that's the ban criteria the server should be a wasteland by now. nobody listens to others, people bitch in the vent-replies-wanted channel about how nobody ever helps them then neglect to help others in need. moderators harassing other people on baseless accusations with the others encouraging them because they're all brainwashed into following each other. oh, let's not forget the fact they actively launched a smear campaign on me for impersonating myself.

self diagnosis based on the shitty posts from npd culture blogs run rampant, and i doubt any of you have done any research into the disorders you claim to have.

go fuck yourselves, you're all unlikeable and i hope each and every one of you involved in this gets termed.

#drama #idk what to tag this

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How to not have a personal burning hatred for someone bc theyre more popular than you?

#garlic breath #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #npd #actually mentally ill #actually neurodivergent #mental illness #narcissistic personality disorder #neurodivergent

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I need to chill the hell out and not mentally degrade everyone I meet. New year resolutions ig

#i need to stop looking at ppls art and go 'Christ your bad get back to me when you can draw' holy crap #garlic breath #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #btw again i dont say it outloud and your art is actually very lovely i just have rude thoughts #dw abt it

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The demonization of NPD

NPD = narcissistic personality disorder

ASPD = antisocial personality disorder

Narcissist = someone with NPD

Sanism = a type of ableism specific to mental illnesses and neurodivergence

Out of the four cluster b disorders, NPD is highly demonized and stigmatized. It could be considered a "casual demonization" due to the unique way it is. Only ASPD shares this unique form of demonization (post coming soon).

What is casual demonization?

Coined by me, causal demonization refers to a specific type of social demonizing. The "casual" is because it starts through everyday conversation, on social media, then outwardly spreads. It's not championed by specific groups, but rather everyday people. Because of this, it's far more difficult to unlearn and to destigmatize.

What does this demonization look like?

• use of narcissist in conversation to mean "abuser" or "bad person"

• posts spreading misinformation, like "narcissist eyes turn black" or "narcissists are demons"

• the stereotype of narcissists being manipulative, liars, and exploitative

• "how to hurt a narcissist", "is my loved one a narcissist", "how to deal with a narcissist", and media similar

• the assumption of the narcissist stereotype in most settings, even therapy settings

• the idea of "narcissistic abuse"

Effects of anti-narc sanism

• inability to receive a diagnosis due to stereotyping and medical biases

• lack of easily accessible resources

• lack of support system

• narc abuse truthers engaging in abusive behavior against narcissists

• belief all narcissists are abusers

• pushing narcissists out of activist spaces

• pushing narcissists out of ND spaces

The examples listed are not the only possibilities.

How to fight against anti narc sanism

• talk to narcissists

• educate yourself and others on NPD

• recognize that "narcissistic abuse" doesn't exist, and explain to others

• spread informational posts by narcissists

• address personal biases

• overall, don't be a dick and treat us like you treat "acceptable" disorders