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i never thought about that ... this is EVIL

first watch: ew, pompous egotist

second watch, after you know his mother died in childbirth and he thinks it was his fault:

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climbing out of my dark cave to share my latest fic that's now completed (parksborn x dead poets society). i'm not quite sure how long i'll remain hidden until the next time i post but have fun i guess

#raimi parksborn #harry osborn #peter parker #parksborn #fic writers #raimiverse #raimi trilogy #dead poets society #anderperry #hurting my boy harry is my favourite thing to do sorry not sorry

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I think it's severely overlooked that Arthur was raised by UTHER.

Uther who burned children, Uther who kept Arthur under so much pressure since he was a kid. And despite everything Arthur became the man his father never was. Yes he is a prat, yes he is arrogant, but he is also loyal to a fault and compassionate. He makes mistakes but he tries his best to fix it, Arthur isn't afraid to admit that he'd done something wrong. Which is a huge deal for a king or crown prince.

i can only imagine how difficult his childhood was, because he was growing up without mother. And he is stating repeatedly himself that he was trained to kill since birth. I just love him so fucking much.

Bro is my fav character

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i can't help but always think of parksborn when i listen to this song. especially the "love me, hate me, burn me, blame me" line, it's so good

#raimi parksborn #harry osborn #peter parker #parksborn #onerepublic

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Just took my meds so sorry if this is incomprehensible and or I repeat myself but I will never not want to put my head through a wall when people treat Harry not developing a goblin personality in the raimi trilogy like a plot hole because it’s just so obviously not. I know a lot of the third movie doesn’t make sense but please don’t throw the baby out with the bath water. As always will elaborate if I explain poorly cause I love talking.

From a narrative angle, performance enhancers do not by default make you evil or give you a goblin persona. They intensify who you already are as a person.

From the very scene they’re introduced, it is stated the performance enhancers did not affect every single animal they were tested on with the stated “violence, aggression, and insanity.” It was stated to be a single test. In real life, that could be an outlier, a fluke, or these symptoms could be random chance. That’s not how things generally work in storytelling.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, every single scene where the goblin does something evil and horrifying is foreshadowed and established with a scene where something related happens to Norman. Norman is about to lose his contract to Quest Aerospace, the goblin bombs Quest Aerospace. Norman is ousted by the board of directors and the announcement of this will occur after the world unity day festival (whatever the fuck that was even I can’t explain that), the goblin murders the board during the festival. He very noticeably ogles MJ during the Thanksgiving scene, who is, I feel compelled to point out, 17-18 in this scene while Norman is in his 50’s, and the goblin later threatens to rape her. And one of the most very obviously stated examples, Harry unintentionally tells Norman what Peter’s emotional weak point would be and he kidnaps MJ to use as a hostage to bait him. There is a constant and explicit link between the actions of the Goblin and the actions of Norman. Norman also folds incredibly easily to the Goblin, never really meaningfully resisting it. Hell, the scene where he finds out about the goblin he doesn’t even oppose him, he just remains in an area of neutrality. The very next scene where he interacts with the goblin, he is a willing and unresisting participant and enabler of the goblin’s actions, which he continues to be until he dies. He never resists.

The goblin was never an evil split personality that forced Norman to be evil. The difference between Norman and Harry that I believe caused the goblin is that Norman refused to be honest with himself in regards to what he wanted to do, that the actions of the goblin were things Norman would have done if he had the ability to do so without consequences for his actions. Power does not corrupt, it reveals, and Norman had the power to do horrible things without the things that would normally prevent him from doing so.

The goblin is a way for him to avoid accepting responsibility for his actions. It allowed him to redirect his bad behavior onto an external source. He was not forced to do anything. He was just a greedy and corrupt man who didn’t want the consequences of being greedy and corrupt on his own. That is the point of the parallels between him and Peter, give a man a mask and see who he is, Norman was given a mask and he took his chance to be cruel because it wouldn’t reflect on himself behind it and Peter was given a mask and chose to help people despite the fact nobody would know and give him credit for it.

Now back to Harry. Harry has no reason to manifest something that allows him to deny responsibility for his actions. Harry is, though dishonest with himself in regards to his emotions and frequently in denial about his fathers guilt because it would require him to address that the perfected version of his father that he bordered on worshipping was not real and something he crafted to cope with the fact Norman was neglectful and sometimes abusive towards him, developed because Harry didn’t want to believe and have to reconcile that. But Harry is consistently completely honest about what he wants to do. He wants to kill Spider-Man. He does not need to sugar coat that fact to himself, to make it less violent or to act like it’s not him who wants that because Harry is sure that’s the right thing to do. He has no reason to sugarcoat that to himself.

As a result, the performance enhancers do not make Harry suddenly want to mass murder or do terrorism, because Harry has no reason to want to do that. Harry’s motivations are very open and shut from this angle. He wants to kill Spider-Man, because he killed his father. He has no reason to do things like that because they won’t bring him closer to that goal. He has no reason to want unrelated people dead. I think it can very easily be argued that the serum lowered his inhibitions in what he was willing to do, going from letting Peter go to fight Doc and making an admittedly flimsy defense of Peter to his hallucinations of his father and walking away from him at MJ’s musical with only a few words prior to, after the serum, being willing to not only attack Peter directly but also being a bit more willing to drag other people in when he deems it necessary. But even when he threatened MJ, which was obviously bad and I hope we all know that, he does not threaten her life because he has no reason to want to hurt her. And I’m not saying he does that because he still loves her romantically and the whole scheme was earnest because I don’t think that’s true and if it was he would have actually forced her to be with him, ignoring how dubious his romantic feelings for her even existing to begin with are, but what I am saying is that Harry is pretty consistent with who he directs violence towards prior to his change of heart. He does not threaten MJ with violence towards her because he has no reason to want to hurt her. He has reason to want to hurt Peter. His desires in that regard are consistent.

Additionally, if the performance enhancers did just make people violent and crazy by default, Harry would have continued to have violent desires when he lost his memory. He didn’t. Because the moment his reason to be violent were gone in his own mind, his own mind lost its reason to behave violently. The same thing applies to after he had his change of heart. Once he actually accepted his father was at fault and responsible for his own actions, he no longer had any desire to hurt Peter or really anyone because the desire was no longer there.

The performance enhancers are not intended as something that changes you or suddenly makes you evil and the goblin isn’t DID and I will always maintain that idea as being ableist. To pin everything Norman did on the goblin is to allow him to do what his very goal was from the get go: to be able to use it as something to pin his behavior on that would allow him to walk away consequence free. To deny his responsibility for his actions is just this really irritating woobification that seems to have happened to almost every evil male character people like because people can’t just accept they like bad people for some reason. And don’t get me started on NWH, a lot of this perception is because of that movie, a movie that completely failed narratively on almost every front and couldn’t even get the basic timeline of the trilogy right, so it’s not outrageous to think that Norman was outrageously out of character in that movie.

And to a degree I can’t even begrudge it. Norman is a very different character in NWH. And I understand very well that it’s probably not fun for someone to see NWH, like the funny angsty old man who’s sort of harmless and silly seeming, and then have to reconcile that he’s a vastly different character and a deeply bad person in the original trilogy. I guess I just sort of wish NWH’s characterization hadn’t come to be treated as the default, correct, or as something that should or even can be retroactively applied to the trilogy. Because it shouldn’t. On many fronts, not just Norman, retroactively applying NWH to the trilogy basically destroys it.

More than willing to have good faith discussions if someone disagrees as long as it’s, well, in good faith. Not gonna begrudge anyone for liking Norman because of that NWH characterization either. I do perceive these movies through a more specific lense.

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that bothers me so much every time!! funny story about that: i'm still not sure if i gaslit myself into believing it happened but i am 100% sure that when i was sitting in that cinema, they actually mentioned harry's name in the german version (i think it was norman but i'm not sure). then months later i watch the english version and it doesn't happen and ever since that experience, i question my memories

still kinda mad how they didn't give raimiverse harry a better mention in nwh like “he died in my arms, after he tried to kill me” hello he died in your arms after he SAVED you??? why did they not bring that up huh??? also not to mention “i don't know how to work in a team” “me either” like ok pete sure i guess harry can just go fuck himself huh

#raimi harry lives in my mind rent-free #maybe he lives there for too long already #send help

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i either write teenage/young adult parksborn or parksborn as parents in their late 30s. there is no in-between. now i'm combining both in one fic because i'm a slut for the concept of dad!harry

#raimi parksborn #harry osborn #peter parker #parksborn #raimiverse #raimi trilogy #dad!harry osborn supremacy #harry would be such a good dad imo #but he'd be afraid to end up being a horrible father like norman #just give us spider-man 4 to show us their marriage and family life #please marvel/sony/sam raimi i'm begging you #i even offer to write the script for you

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to my fellow fic writers: what do you do when you have writer's block? i'm just empty and nothing consumes my soul to keep me going and i hate that :( i wanna daydream about my ideas all day and spend the evenings writing but i can't :(

#writers block #fic writers #fic writer problems #fic writing is a mess #writing is hard #raimi parksborn

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I will forever be mad that we jumped from the season 3 finale immediately to the darkest hour.

"Look, Arthur is taking charge and the Roundtable_tm is finally assembled!" to "And now we kill one of them off in the most painful way possible." speedrun.

Why were there no episodes of all the knights goofing off together while Arthur tries to keep Gwaine in check and Merlin and Lancelot commit high treason in the background? :(

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fun fact: when a fic is getting little interactions and stuff which makes me subconsciously drag out the next update and then someone leaves a really nice comment, i update earlier just for that specific person

You gotta read wips. You gotta read stories that have been abandoned or haven't been updated in weeks, months, years. You have to give a story a chance even on the chance it never gets finished. The biggest reason besides personal stuff for a story to get abandoned is the lack of engagement. A comment is sometimes all it needs for a new chapter, even years later. Read that wip from 2017 that never saw the final chapter. Leave a comment that you loved it. Subscribe to the story. Sometimes you need to appreciate the things that never got finished, and perhaps make an author's day that someone loved their story despite that. Comment on wips. Comment on every chapter. It makes a difference.

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real footage of me when my writer's block is kicking in again and idk what to do with my life because my soul is empty instead of being consumed by a brand-new fic idea

#fic writers #peter parker #spiderman #fic writer problems #writers block #writing is hard

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have you ever read a fanfic so good that you wanted to write a fanfic about that fanfic, but was too shy / too intimidated to ask for the author’s permission and too afraid that your writing wouldn’t be half as good as theirs and that it would be an insult to their work that was basically a literal masterpiece, so you just sat there fantasizing about their work and how beautiful it was and how you wished you could just eat it and how you wished canon could write your blorbos half as good as this writer did and how you just wanted to cry because you just loved that fic so much????

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Hello fictional man, you badly need therapy. Unfortunately, what I'll be giving you instead is men and more feelings.

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watching/rewatching a show when you already have an established favorite character is great because every time they come on screen it's like

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i'm not sure what it says about me that spider-man 3 is my comfort movie when i'm incredibly sad and heartbroken