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i’m not strong enough for this 😭😭

#madney #rae.txt #911 spoilers

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What the fuck is going on over here boys????

#where is this from???

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thinking about how cleverly structured buck's storyline in 7x04 is

#with regard to the whole does he want eddie? does he want tommy? thing. like. the way it was slowly built up was so well done #idk i just pulled an all nighter maybe i'll come back later to talk abt it #rae.txt

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A tough conversation for @maddieandchimney

#been in my feelings abt them all day #maddie #chimney #madney #5.12 #s5 #gif #911

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BUCK & EDDIE ▸2x06, dosed

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♡ countdown to the madney wedding ♡ (1 day) ↳ 5.12: boston

#6 MONTHS 6 YEARS NEITHER OF US COULD EVER FORGET YOU #HNGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #boston episode of all time truly #maddie #chimney #madney #buckley-han fam #5.12 #s5 #gif #911

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please please please please reblog if you’re a writer and have at some point felt like your writing is getting worse. I need to know if I’m the only one who’s struggling with these thoughts

#it's why i stopped writing fic. so yeah

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I made you mad. And I made you cry. I made you laugh sometimes, you know? I drove you crazy, but I think you spent so much time trying to make sure that I didn’t get myself killed that it made you remember what it is to live.

#💕

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evan buckley i have grown quite fond of you

#pretty!! #buck #911 #fanart

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incorrect 9-1-1 | 10/? ↳ inspired by this text post

#just watched this again and i'm dying at this gifset lmao #crack #6.10 #s6 #gif #911 #buck #eddie #sang han

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911 HIATUS REWATCH 2x13 - Fight or Flight

#HE SAID NO ONE COULD BE THAT STUPID I SAID YOU DON'T KNOW BUCK 😭 #also 'please don't let him die' bjadfhs;akfhalksjdf #buck #athena #chimney #2.13 #s2 #gif #911

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it's not a poll with 911 in it unless at least twenty different people look at a photo of the characters in turnouts and still call them cops 😭

#just saw that ship poll again and. yeah #rae.txt

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😁 Oliver Stark as Evan "Buck" Buckley ➤ 9-1-1 | S07E05 "You Don't Know Me"

#his face is so glowy and shiny and happy i just. i can't 🥹 #buck #bucktommy #7.05 #s7 #gif #911 #favepost

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9-1-1 CHARACTERS OF COLOR WEEK 2022 ↳ DAY ONE: FAVORITE SCENE

#🥺 #mrs. lee #chimmey #lees #4.10 #s4 #gif #911

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WIP Wednesday 🏥

Tagged by @tizniz & @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove (and so many others over the past week and a bit)

My brain is still taking a vacation after the mammoth that is Rival Firefighters 🚒 (she’s 85K people), but here’s a little something I’ve been very slowly chipping away at from LA Lonely 🏙 (it’s rough and from the notes app on my phone sooo please be kind 😅)

They’ve just handed off a teenager with a TB fracture after a failed attempt at parkour, when Eddie sweeps through the ER doors making a beeline for the nurses station.

He looks harried, his posture rigid and tense, tripping the alarm bells in Buck’s head, their siren sounding out Chris Chris Chris.

“Hey Bobby, can you give me a minute?” he hooks his thumb over his shoulder towards Eddie and some of his worry must be bleeding through because Bobby’s brow furrows in concern before he gives Buck a nod. “Thanks Cap.”

Buck jogs over to Eddie who is tapping his fingers restlessly against the counter of the nurses station.

“Eddie!”

Eddie startles and turns to face him. “Buck?”

“Are you okay? Is Chris —“

“Chris and I are fine.” Eddie reassures him and Buck feels his next breath come easier with the weight of fear no longer crushing his chest. Eddie runs a hand through his hair, his shoulders dropping with a shaky exhale. “My Abuela fell while watching Chris. I’ve been trying to get some kind of support for him, but there’s so much red tape and Abuela insisted she was fine watching him. I should’ve put my foot down and told her no, figured something else out.”

“Hey,” Buck places a hand on Eddie’s shoulder, ducking his head to catch Eddie’s eyes, “this isn’t your fault.”

“Then why does it feel like it is?”

There’s so much guilt swimming in Eddie’s eyes and Buck wishes he had the right words to say to alleviate some of it.

No pressure tagging: @diazsdimples @hippolotamus @spotsandsocks @wikiangela @wildlife4life @watchyourbuck @missmagooglie @mellaithwen @monsterrae1 @neverevan @bekkachaos @nmcggg @captain-hen @lover-of-mine @loserdiaz @ladydorian05 @exhuastedpigeon @elvensorceress @eddiebabygirldiaz @evanbegins @rainbow-nerdss @rewritetheending @the-likesofus @thewolvesof1998 @theotherbuckley @try-set-me-on-fire @athenagranted @steadfastsaturnsrings @sunshinediaz @spagheddiediaz @shitouttabuck @devirnis @bidisasterevankinard @fortheloveofbuddie @fiona-fififi @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @homerforsure @hoodie-buck @jeeyuns @jesuisici33 and as always, anyone else who wants to share something -> consider this your official tag 🏷

#he just wants to help eddie 😭😭😭😭

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some things fall when they're meant to fall

11k (so far) | rated T | read on ao3 Eddie’s gaze drop to Buck’s lips—pink, like his birthmark. Eddie wants to taste those lips, and he wants it with a fierceness so sudden it shocks him. “I’m, uh,” Buck stammers. “Last night. When you saw me and Tommy…we—we were on a date.” Everything inside Eddie goes still. If his heart is a kite, then this is the moment it plummets back to earth.

or, Buck tells Eddie some news. Eddie has a realization and breaks up with his girlfriend. Not necessarily in that order.

written for @burnthatbridge

Chapter 2/4 now up on ao3

Eddie is happy for Buck. Obviously. It goes without saying that he’s happy for him.

And look, it’s not like it’s hard. Not when Buck’s been walking around like the LA sun shines specifically for him. He’s got this shimmering halo of excitement around him these days, and beneath that, a kind of deep relief. Like some of the heavy weight he’s dragged around with him his entire life has been lifted.

More than anyone Eddie’s ever known, Buck has spent his life searching for something. And finally, he’s found it.

Not Tommy—although Buck does get a particular blushing grin on his face whenever he talks about him. What Buck has found is something bigger than that. A truth about himself. An answer to a question he never knew to ask.

So yeah, Eddie’s happy for him. How could he not be? This whole year, when he hasn’t been worrying about Chris, he’s been worried about Buck and how he’s been dealing with the aftermath of the lightning strike.

He’s not worried anymore.

And as for Eddie’s own revelation…the realization that for him, all roads lead to Buck, well…

He’s not thinking about it. He’s doing everything in his power to act like nothing’s changed, to act the way the Eddie Diaz of two weeks ago would act. The Eddie Diaz whose brain hadn’t yet caught up to his heart on the matter of Evan Buckley.

“So, there’s a Dodgers game this evening,” Eddie says, jiggling his car keys nervously while he waits for Buck to finish changing after their shift. He rests his gaze somewhere to the left of Buck's bare chest. “I was thinking about inviting Tommy over to watch. And I know you’re watching Jee so Chim and Maddie can work on wedding stuff—”

“Eddie,” Buck tugs his shirt over his head and looks at Eddie quizzically. “We’ve already been over this. I was never actually mad that you were hanging out with Tommy without me. I mean yeah, I guess I felt slightly excluded, but it was more about—”

“Yeah, yeah I know, the giant crush you had on the guy,” Eddie says with a fond eye-roll. There. That’s something two-weeks-ago Eddie would’ve said, right?

(read chapter 2 on ao3)

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@leothil

#i loved this so much #buddie #fanfic #911

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i know they didn’t really get a chance to get to know each other while shannon was still alive, but do you ever think about the bond between buck and shannon? do you ever think about the “all the people i love most belonged to you first” of it all except in this instance it’s not a sad statement in the same way? it’s not a “i’m worried they will never love me as much as they love you” but rather it’s a “i’ve got them. i love them. i take care of them and i always will. because you can’t. and i’m so sorry you can’t.” because yes buck will never be a replacement - but at the same time, no one wanted this. shannon made a lot of mistakes, and so did eddie, but she didn’t deserve to die, chris didn’t deserve to grow up without a mother, eddie didn’t deserve to lose his first love, even if they wouldn’t have remained a romantic pairing as they found their footing in life.

there will always be an absence. always.

do you think buck goes to her grave sometimes? by himself? not as often as chris and eddie - but sometimes. and the first few times maybe he doesn’t quite know what to say, but eventually he grows more confident, and he starts confiding in her. “eddie is going through x, and i don’t really know how to help him, but i’m trying. i promise he’s going to be okay. i’m taking care of him.” or “chris wants x and y, but eddie and i want c” as if she’ll be able to weigh in? because she should be there to be allowed to weigh in?

i don’t have a conclusion to this but anyway

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