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arminluver · 2 years
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streamer! eren who does not give two shits about his fangirls and will never hesitate to give them a lecture about how he’s so not interested in them and only has eyes for you <3
streamer! eren who has embrassing and teeth rooting sweet photos of the two of you as his widgets and app icons on his phone
streamer! eren who’s chat(+all his friends) never fails to tease him abt it
streamer! eren who posts daily pictures of you doing the most basic things on his public twitter just so he can show off his hot gf !!
streamer! eren who posted “GUYS Y/N POSTED THE ABSOUKETE HOTTEST PICTURE OF HERSELF AND ME SHE POSTED ME OML IM GONNA MARRY HER SHES SO CUTE AHHH I LOVE HER SNDBJRRJ” with all the typos and everything onto his public twitter on accident.. his chat is still harassing him about it
streamer! eren who is always rambling on and on about you without even knowing… no like jean will have to step in and be like “LISTEN ASSHOLE WE GET IT NOW SHUT UP ABT Y/N AND PLAY THE DAMN GAME” and erens starts hard core blushing
streamer! eren who is constantly denying his chat of streaming with you because “no guys.. shes MY girlfriend NOT yours” or he’ll be like “she’s too hot anyways so all your eyes will melt”
streamer! eren who’ll read compliments from his chat and say a genuine thanks but when you text him “i’ll be home in five can’t wait to see your ugly ass 😩 “ he’ll be blushing so hard… AND THIS HAPPENS SO OFTEN THAT HIS CHAT LITERALY KNOWS WHEN YOU TEXT HIM
streamer! eren who loses a bet and streams with you
streamer! eren who is defending him and your relationship with his life as his chat goes “hmm you sure this is your girlfriend because she’s looking a lot like mine” “please y/n step on me” “PLEASE STREAM MORE OFTEN”
streamer! eren who simply grins at his chat after you kissed him because you wanted to remind him you have eyes for him and only him
streamer! eren who is incapable of loving anyone else as much as he loves you.
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arminluver · 3 years
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Hello vel i really love your blog , i like your writing and they way you transcript situations.
Could i request a playboy!jean headcanon please , thank you ♥️.
i’m so sorry this is so delayed! i couldn’t see anything in my inbox until now and i’m so so sorry :( anyways i hope you enjoy love! and thank you for the kind words!!
playboy! jean who is infamous around campus for being the hot guy that seems to be with everyone yet no one at the same time
playboy! jean who attended the party connie threw to relax and hang out, but was being dragged around by some random girl, who he hadn’t even asked for her name
playboy! jean who sees you and immediately has a new goal in mind, make you his
playboy! jean who makes up some half assed excuse and is already making covo with you when the girl he left realized what was happening
playboy! jean who does his oh so charming introduction and even has you wooed
playboy! jean who texts you first and makes the butterflies in your stomach explode
playboy! jean who takes you on cute dates, always asking for your input and opinions, always making sure you’re comfortable
playboy! jean who changes your friends opinion about him, making them think he was the infamous playboy who found the one person who would and is changing him for the better , you
playboy! jean who also thinks that for himself
playboy! jean who gets so caught up with how beautiful you look or how kind you truly are and is absolutely and completely in love with you
playboy! jean who wants to spend the rest of his life with you
!! the rest is like an altar angst ending !!
playboy! jean who goes to a party he was invited too and brings you along but someone walking by catches his eye
playboy! jean who doesn’t text you first anymore, resorting to you always starting the conversation
playboy! jean who stops planning and taking you on cute dates
playboy! jean who no longer asked for your input barely caring wether you were comfortable or not
playboy! jean who’s now giving you half assed excuses as to where he was, or why he didn’t pick up the phone or why he’s too goddamn busy for you
playboy! jean who can’t really seem to love you like he thought he did
playboy! jean who ghosts you
playboy! jean who you now ignore as you pass him in the halls.
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arminluver · 3 years
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absolutely gold
I request reader big spooning eren because he's just a big needy baby who is desperate for your touch and praises 😔🙏
jesus christ Eren is such a baby when you two are alone.
in front of your friends he’ll act all big and bad with and arm wrapped securely around your waist but the second you get home he’s all soft, kissing your neck and telling you how pretty you are and how much he loves you.
this man will literally whine when you don’t cuddle him.
usually he just goes to you, like if you’re sitting on the couch he’ll come lay his head on your lap and fall asleep while you play with his hair but if he’s being stubborn he will pout all fucking day.
it’s not until you two are tucked into bed getting ready to fall asleep that you wrap your arms around his middle, tucking your knees in to fit perfectly with his, that he finally softens up. he hums at every soft kiss that’s placed on his bare back, silently begging for more.
“my pretty boy, i love you so much baby, you’re absolutely perfect.”
“i love you too babe.”
he’ll turn around so he can tuck himself under your chin, it looks a little silly, a large man like him acting so small but he needs it, he needs your love, your attention, your validation. he loves the way you love him, it gives him butterflies.
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arminluver · 3 years
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i haven’t seen any eren fluff in a while, may i request some good old cuddling with him?🥺
leather and nicotine
Eren Yeager x gn reader
warnings: Eren himself should be a warning, none
a/n: EREN DESERVES ALL THE CUDDLES!!! i’m now aware that the title seems like it would be for smut
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“babe,”
“hm?”
“babe!”
“what Eren?” you ask, exasperated. you turn away from your laptop and give him a tired look only to see him open his arms expectantly, “i wanna cuddle.” he says.
you roll your eyes and turn back to your laptop, “when i finish this assignment.” you say. Eren let’s out a loud groan, “babe, please?” he pleads, drawing out each word. you shake your head but stay silent.
your boyfriend lets out an annoyed huff and comes to stand behind you, wrapping his arms around your shoulders and peppering kisses across your face, “you deserve to take a break baby, come lay down with me.”
a deflated sigh leaves you and you finally push away from your spot at your desk, eating a triumphant smile from Eren, you follow him to the bed and immediately crawl into his arms.
he holds you tight to his bare chest, occasionally kissing the top of your head, “see baby, isn’t this nice?” he asks. you hum and nod, “yeah, thank you love.” Eren smiles at you and tilts your chin up so he can place a kiss on your lips, “no need to thank me sweetness, i love loving you and being loved by you.”
you can’t help the giddy smile that rises in your chest, even after all this time Eren still manages to make you feel like a school girl with a crush. maybe it’s the boyish charm or maybe it’s just the fact that he loves you like the world will stop spinning.
you tuck yourself under his chin and breathe in his scent, “you smell good ‘Ren,” you mumble, “oh yeah? like what babe?” he questions. you hum and think for a moment, “like leather and nicotine, but in a clean way.” you say. Eren laughs at your response, hugging you tightly, “glad you like the way i smell.”
you shrug, “i like everything about you,” you kiss his chin, “i like your nose,” you move to kiss his nose, then his eyelids, “i like your eyes,” you press another kiss to his cheek, then finally, a deep kiss on his lips. he kisses you back with a certain need, he needs you like the tide need the moon, like a fish needs water.
“you know how perfect you are?” he asks you. you smile at him, “you’ve told me many times, but i’m not opposed to hearing it one more time.” you kiss the soft flesh of his neck, eliciting a small chuckle from him.
“you’re perfect my love, everything i could have asked for.”
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arminluver · 3 years
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hey bestie me again !!
if you’re still taking requests can i get some jean fluff/comfort headcanons?
your writing is amazing <333
yes yes yes!! your wish is my command (i love you so so much <3) bae you gotta stop boosting my ego 😩😩 also this is sorta short so lmk and i’ll write another longer one ‼️
jean would notice right away when you feel down or something in your mood changed. maybe it was the slight drop in your shoulders or maybe it was just abundantly clear to jean what you feel, but he could read you better than anyone else. so when you walked into your shared room just a little bit quieter than when you left it jean was up and peppering you with kisses. “hey love, you’re finally home.” “missed you so much” he slowly dragged each word as he pressed tiny delicate yet passion filled kiss on your nose, cheeks, forehead, and finally ending with your lips. you couldn’t help the smile that made its way into your lips. “how was your day j?” you asked wrapping your arms around his torso, feeling a bit better than you had. “absolutely boring” he chuckled into your hair. “how was yours” he returned. and you pored your heart and soul out, telling him each thing that happened. and he listened intently to each word you were saying. after you were finished he spoke a single ‘jump’. and when you complied, you rested your head in the crook of his neck and he carried you to the kitchen. “are we in an ice cream mood or no?” which leads to you now, cuddled up with jean so tightly there was not even a cm of space between the two of you with a movie and half eaten ice cream long forgotten as jean tells you bedtime stories his mom used to tell him. right before slumber dragged you under you muttered “jeanboy needed bedtime stories?” which was followed by a light chuckle from both of you.
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arminluver · 3 years
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hello???? your streamer!Jean headcanons?? god tier.
do you happen to have anymore streamer!Jean or maybe even some streamer!Connie thoughts?
i love you <33 and THANK YOU THANK YOU THANKS YOU for letting me rant on about streamer! jean and streamer! connie
streamer! jean and streamer! connie
streamer jean who posts cringey ass photos of you on his public twitter and says it’s absolutely necessary the whole world sees how adorable the two of you are
streamer jean who takes thousands of photos of you with his headset on
streamer jean who lets you take over his stream when he leaves to do whatever he does
streamer jean who loses the game on purpose to (a) piss eren off and (b) to get off earlier bc he missed you
streamer jean who starts a stream but leave the room when you called him to help you with something and just forgot about the stream for like 2 hours
streamer jean who can never live that down and will be teased constantly for leaving midstream by everyone for probably the rest of his life
streamer jean who never shuts up about you, ever. like ever.
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streamer connie who will only ever you adress you as “bug” or some embrassing nickname that you despise on camera
streamer connie who will never let anyone talk even remotely negating of you like it someone in his chat says something like “y/ns hair looked whack today LMFAO” he would block them without hesitation bc no ur hair looked fucking awesome today
streamer connie who avidly keeps his public twitter updated on your guys adventures
streamer connie who literally dedicated a stream to him and you making ramen together
streamer connie who constantly find a way to bring you into the conversation
streamer connie who goes on your long rants about how you love sasha more than him
streamer connie who then reads the text sasha sent him out loud “stfu bald ass your just upset y/n didn’t give you a kiss on the cheek when she left🙄”
streamer connie who then starts a full argument with sasha who’s now joined the v.c and somehow you got on and now the three of you are in a hilarious argument
streamer connie who loves the person he becomes when he’s with you
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arminluver · 3 years
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i wanted to share this (sfw tiktok link) w someone because this is 100% jean and his s/o and you can bet he does the exact same to his s/o
NO BC YOUR RIGHT LIKE THAT MF WOULD STRAIGHT UP JUST WALK INTO THE SHOWER WHILE YOUR IN IT AND JUST SMACK THE SHIT OUT OF YOU and then i genuinely think this just becomes a more common thing around the house. like i feel like you would be standing in the kitchen cutting some fruit and jean just happened to pass by, and he just slaps your ass. or jean could be reading the mail and calls you over for something and by the time you leave to go back to whatever you were doing you’d have slapped each other at least twice.
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arminluver · 3 years
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Holaz! I’d like to make a request if ya don’t minddd 🥺👉🏼👈🏼
I was wondering if you could do piece (hc, drabble, or anything ya wanna do) about whichever jjk character with a seemingly stoic!s/o but gets all softy on cute things like puppies and shtuff like dat? 🤧
Ty! 💗
of course of course of course :)) i feel like yuji would be stunned out of his mind so i chose him, hope you don’t mind! also, pleasee let me know if this is what you wanted if not i promsie i’ll write you another one! <3
the sun was slowly setting in the background as yuji droned on about being the first years gojo had sent out to exorcise a cursed spirit when he noticed you were obviously not impressed by being ‘chosen’. “come one y/n, i bet you would look better if you smiled more” the pink haired boy tried lifting up the mood. “are you saying i’m not attractive because i know-” you began but stopped when you saw a that a stray puppy had taken an interest in your legs. your normal monotoned voice stoped and your face lit up. “yuji yuji it’s a pup- it’s so cute! the tail! the little paws, the everything!” you screamed, excitement coating your voice. yuji went through every human emotion in the span of 1 minute. the boy had never seen you so light hearted. it was like the spirit of a little kid had possessed you. your voice went up by at least 4 octaves, yuji counted. your shoulders dropped, and you laughed. by the time the puppy had fixed his curiosity and left you, yuji still had his mouth opened, jaw hitting the floor. “oyy, what’s with the face, never seen a cute puppy before?” your voice back to normal. stunned and didn’t know the approprié responce yuji bit his tongue and settled for a simple “i told you you looked better with a smile” in which you huffed with a slight smile on your face.
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arminluver · 3 years
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streamer jean who feels bad whenever he gets asked out or hit on because he doesn’t want to make you feel like your not enough for him :(
streamer jean who makes it almost obnoxiously clear that he has a lovely s/o that he loves very dearly and is “not interested in you hoes”
streamer jean who blushes and secretly loves it when eren teases him abt you during their streams
streamer jean who makes you sit on his lap as he games/streams bc he claims your his lucky charm and he claims “i never do this well when your all the way on the bed”
steamer jean who has pictures of the two of you as his screensaver
streamer jean who has his chat tease him abt his screensaver all the time
streamer jean who doesnt have a stream schedule bc what if he wants extra cuddles one day but he promised his chat that he’d be streaming
streamer jean who shows you off to eren connie and armin (mostly eren) every chance he can get
streamer jean who gets absolutely roasted in the gc and has to have you come in and save him
steamer jean who then needs you to kiss him and cuddle him until “my wounds heal from those fake ass bitches harsh words”
streamer jean who loves you beyond words and actions can express <3
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arminluver · 3 years
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if u a real homie 😻 you would be sending me your requests about any fictionally 2 d character(s) thats on your mind ‼️
okay but no please, feel free to send requests at your convenience :)
i will write literally anything besides smut
they could be canon universe or modern au or anything that pretty heart of yours desires
im most familiar/comfortable with characters from:
attack on titan, jujitsu kaisen, bungo stray dogs, I PROMISE THERES MORE MY BRAIN IS JUST NOT WORKING
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arminluver · 3 years
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Can we get a part 2 to that eren fic 😩
AHHH IM SORRY THIS IS SO LATE!!
which oneee??
<33
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arminluver · 3 years
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streamer armin who has fan girls obessed with him yet shuts them down bc he loves only you <3
streamer armin who got you into genshin and now you can’t stop playing with him
streamer armin who dedicated a whole stream to you bc he love you more than anything
streamer armin who gained a large following yet doesn’t let that change anything
streamer armin who has you on has lap as he plays with eren, jean, and conny
streamer armin who shows you off on his public twitter
steamer armin who is so obessed with you constantly goes on rants about you
streamer armin who blushes when his chat starts blowing up with things such as “ooooo armins in love” “armin your blushing”
streamer armin who blushes even harder when he reads the chat.
streamer armin who gets off early bc you said you missed him
streamer armin who is the best.
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arminluver · 3 years
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a rigged game
relationship: eren x gn reader 
a/n: sorry for the lack of post but i am back! this is an au so no spoilers! I've done smt with a similar trope but this one is not rushed and I love this one :) 
summary: you fell in love with the devil. the boy who was known for nothing but sleeping with girls and forgetting their names half way through happened to be the boy your heart cried for. you are different than his regular hookups being that he could play with your mind, your heart to his pleasure. 
warnings: angst, a$shole eren!  cussing, mentions of hookups, non established relationship,  and such let me know if i missed anything! 
you always adored the brunette, wether he’d have his tongue shoved down someone’s throat or be laughing with his friends, you always found your heart skipping beats when you were near him. you weren't stupid, you knew the truth, hell, you've even seen it. eren jaeger was a fuck boy, and a big one. rumors of one night stands who mattered no more to him than a paperclip ran around the school, yet no one cared. when word called saying eren jaeger was targeting off a ‘bucket list’ the girls at school practically begged to be on that list. truth was, no one could stray away from him, he was like a negative magnet pulling all the postives around him to him, it was a rigged game. 
you wished you could say you followed your brain rather than your heart. choosing to stray away rather than in his arms, but here you are, in your bed, naked with eren rushing his clothe onto his body. “gotta go find armin, wish i could stay” before rushing out the door taking a a piece of your heart with him. it was an obvious lie, armin’s out of town for the week with connie, jean, and marco, eren knew you knew this, he was the one told you. that has been the routine for around 4 months now. each time, his lies more transparent, almost as if you were suppose to know he was lying. 
you could leave, you should leave, but, you won't leave. you are stuck because eren isn't always like this. there are moments where he’ll stay the night and whisper sweet nothings in your ears as if you were together. ‘im so lucky to have you, baby’ ‘you’re so pretty, you know that’ words like ‘i love you’ ‘i need you’ slipping past his lips. he’d tell you stories of his friends, of him. and you would go back to blindly loving him. those were what you craved for, that side of eren. but of course, there is no other side of eren. 
you were suppose to be like any of his other one night stands, but, well, eren can't help but crave the love you have for him. unlike anyone else he could tell you didn't just like him cause he was rather hot but because you think he is a person, a person worthy of love and he loved feeling needed. maybe he didn't need to tell you all those stories, whisper all those ‘i love yous’ but what was the difference, the word ‘love’ has no meaning to him, it is as if he's saying he hates you. the stories weren't ones he held dear to his heart, they were ones he’d say to a stranger. but, of course in his eyes, you were a stranger. a stranger who loved and needed him. a strange who gave him validation. 
the truth was simple, eren jaeger has you in his grasp, and you are letting his grasp get tighter in hopes one day, maybe the sweet eren you know will lose the never ending game between the two of you and love you. 
but the game will never be won, by no man, by nothing. eren has you thinking you have a chance at winning, that he's used his best piece, that he's at his ropes end, but in truth, the rope will never end, the game will never stop. 
because a rigged game cannot end. 
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arminluver · 3 years
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please read!
So, India is dying.
Look, I know a good number of you are from the US and things aren't amazing there either, but my country is literally on the brink of collapse. So I'd love it if we could talk about that for a minute.
If you can't do anything else, please just read and reblog.
A second COVID wave has taken out the healthcare system. There are no more hospital beds. There's an oxygen shortage. There's a critical vaccine shortage. The Central Government has thrown its hands up and is passing the baton to the State Governments to do what they can.
There are over 16 million covid cases. A record 330,000 new cases reported yesterday - comparable to the US at its peak. 187,000 dead as of today.
There is no plan.
Mass cremations are taking place. The cremation grounds are running day and night and they are short on wood. People are watching their loved ones die while waiting for a hospital bed, and then they're unable to give them the proper burial rights.
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Hospitals are overwhelmed. Patients are being confined, two to a bed. They're the lucky ones.
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We are on the verge of people dying in the streets.
This is the second-most populous country in the world. The largest democracy. A country that encapsulates over 15,000 years of recorded human history and has endured everything from famine to invasion to colonisation.
We might be at the end. This might be the thing that does us in.
People are dying.
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People are dying.
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People are dying and there is no plan.
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More good news? Variants are popping up. A double mutation strain has shown up. It is resistant to current vaccines. This will not go away. This is the devastation they warned of when the anti-maskers were out protesting the minor inconvenience of covering their face in public.
My country is on the verge of an emergency state. Our government has failed us. This is as dire a situation as it ever could be.
Look. I don't do much with my life. I write fics, some of you have read them and that's pretty much it. I spend my days with my head in the clouds because that's where I like to be.
But two days ago, my grandmother tested positive, had to be taken to hospital and the ambulance caught fire.
She barely made it to the urgent care she needs.
So, here I am, using whatever meager platform I have to cobble this request together. Because I have to do something.
If you can, donate.
Or spread the word.
Help. Please.
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arminluver · 3 years
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always
summary: a little levi fluff in which you and levi have a word that will always hold special meaning. :))
relationship: levi x gn reader
a/n: i really hope you enjoy
warnings: slight angst (if you squint) please let me know if i missed anything!
levi never told you he loved you, not because he didn’t, but rather because he didn’t want to lose you. everyone he has ever loved had left him, so maybe if he didn’t tell you how much he loved you, the universe wouldn’t take you away from him.
you knew this ahead of time, you knew how levi sheltered himself from things like love afraid of getting hurt, again. you knew.
so instead of saying “i love you”, you resulted in saying “always”.
before leaving for an expedition levi would never fail to pull you away from the world, making you his, and only his for the moment. the moment, where he’ll softly cup your cheeks and let his lips fall on yours and whispers of an “always” could be head by you, only you.
when it’s night fall, and your on lookout duty, levi never fails to bring you a nice cup of warm tea with a blanket. not always will he press his lips onto yours, but always will he ghost a whisper in your ear, that spoke “always”. even before you said thank you.
no matter the situation, “always” would always be shared. until levi decided, your were with more then an “always”. you were worth an “i love you” and more. so damn the universe, levi ackerman was not a coward, and will not be one.
his lips met yours, but only for a second. once he pulled away, a million “i love you” for the ones he didn’t say filled the air.
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arminluver · 3 years
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a real love story
summary: you've fallen for humanity's strongest soldier, but he's not known to show affection. maybe you're the exception, or maybe you're just another comrade who've fallen for the captain only to be met with the harsh reality.
relationship: levi x gn reader
a/n: sorry this is kind of short, but please enjoy!
warnings: angst, cussing, mentions of not able to differentiate between fairy tale and reality, (let me know if i missed anything!)
You couldn't help the swarm of butterflies that danced as you caught a glimpse of the captain. Or the air that punched your lungs when he pins you down during training. You couldn't help your feeling towards the man, you simply couldn't. But who could?
Since being assigned to Levi squad, you took every chance you could to be close to him.
When the captain needed someone to help calm the horses as he tended their wounds, you were there.
When the captain needed someone to account for what happened on an expedition, you were there.
When the captain needed someone to help him carry the trash, you were there.
Not only that, you never failed to sneak in a few extra actions or words.
"Hey captain, good job on the training today." Or "did you want to walk to dinner together?" which was always met with a cold stare and him walking the opposite direction.
When you tried to sneak a few touches he would never fail to tell you to do something that resulted in you being away from him.
Yet, each time, you could help but tell your self it would all work out in the end. You were going to get a love story.
It had started out as a normal day, you and your fellow comrades were wiping windows and sweeping floors, per Levis orders, when you noticed the lack of Levi. Levi was never one to step away from observing his squads cleaning, worried they will lack off without his supervision. It was unusual, but you were rather focused on cleaning, dreading the consequences if you didn't clean well. You went about your day, until it was dinner, and still no Levi appeared at the table. It wouldn't harm you to look for him right? Plus, maybe he was going through it, and seeing that you're the one who comforted him he might fall deeply in love with you, like in the books, right?
The cold breath of the night time tickled you skin, coating your arm with a layer of goosebumps. You had no idea where you were walking too, only that you were looking for a certain figure.
He sat, his back and head against the oak tree, figure relaxed. the breath you had just taken seconds ago seems to vanish and you found yourself staring.
"y/n" he called, connecting you too reality.
"oh, right. I noticed you weren't at dinner so I just wanted to check in on you, make sure your alright" you replied rushing each word out of your mouth.
"l/n, I don't know if you have't noticed but the world is shit, we aren't living in some fairy tale, I'm not some fucked up hero who is incapable of love. and you're not the someone who will change that fact, this won't be some epic love story." the silence was deafening
"and if you can't look over that factor, then leave the scout regiment, we don't need soldiers dying because you were too busy daydreaming." suddenly, you wished he hadn't broken the silence.
"oh" you muttered before watching him sit up walk away, away from the dining hall, away from you.
you had always known, deep down, that life isn't some great story. that, such love stories didn't actually exists, but you had hoped. hoped for a great love story, one where everything works out. but there are no such things as great love stories.
this is not the great love story of y/n l/n and Levi Ackerman, but instead a real one, one where there is no happy ending.
but of course, that is what a love looks like, no kisses shared, no love grown, nothing but the simple truth.
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arminluver · 3 years
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fair
summary: modern au:
eren yaeger, the infamous playboy, you swear you won’t fall into his trap and become one of the girls who he uses. but he’s different with you, right?
relationship: eren yaeger/fem reader
a/n: i had originally meant for this to be shorter but i messed up and ended up having to rush the relationship. it is not my best work but i like this trope. okay happy reading friends!
warnings: angst, toxic! eren, toxic! relationship. explicit language!
the sunlight slipped pass the blackout curtains and ran right into your face. you groan, “why the fuck are they called ‘blackout’ curtains if they don’t blackout the sun?” your roommate, who had been outside your door debating on wether or not she should wake you up simple let out a laugh and said, “it’s a good thing we got the cheapest ones, aye? anyways y/n your going to be late to see eren” dragging out the last sentence. emitting another (louder) groan, you move your legs off your bed and started the day.
sometimes you wish you could make up words. make up words that describe exactly how you feel, like now. you wished you could’ve grabbed a pen and wrote a word into existence. a word stronger than hate, that would be the word you chose. which would also, be the word you’d describe your feelings towards eren yaeger. which wasn’t exactly fair towards the green eyed boy.
“hey l/n, how about you stop by the dorm and -“
“cut it out horse face, the last thing y/n would want to do is be near you” eren interrupted jean. the sandy haired boy did no more than roll his eyes and you and continued on with armin.
“don’t mind him, alright?” eren asked gifting you a small smile. a genuine smile, or so you thought.
unfair, that’s what it was. you were unfair to eren yaeger. you had sworn you would never have any relations with the yaeger boy when you first entered college. you promised you would not be one of the hundreds of girls who shamelessly fell in love with eren only to be met with the harsh reality, that, eren yaeger loved his reputation more than anything. upon making this promise, you had never actually communicated with the boy. so you thought you would do the right thing and give him a chance. i mean he had always acted nicer, softer towards you than other girls. and so to hell with that damn promise, you were going to be fair.
that’s how it started.
more specifically, it started with things like walking you to class, taking you to the nicest place in town, taking you to see movies, buying you books, morning kisses things like “y/n why have we never done this before” in which you would reply with “because i thought you were the biggest asshole around” and a cheeky, genuine smile.
but, it’s soon progressed into this, ghosting you for days, then weeks. when you finally got ahold of him it was always some lame excuse like “i was at jeans family thing” jeans family was out of town or worse “my phone died”. in which you accepted because you wanted to give him a. fair chance.
“come on y/n, don’t be bais, give him a chance”
and chances for you grant him.
it had been one of those months, eren had told you he was going back him for summer break and to not contact him, being he wanted to spend time with family. you were use to it by this time, but quite frankly, you were getting more and more upset. nothing says “stop overreacting your boyfriend loves you and you just need to calm done” like a good old fashion frat party.
you went to the part hoping to get wasted.
you went to the part expecting it to be less crowed being that many students were away for break.
you went to the part not expecting to see your boyfriend with his tough down a blonde girls throat.
and you went to the part not expecting to feeling your heart break.
it’s pathetic, your the one who broke the promise, your the one who wanted to be fair, your the one who wanted to stay with eren, your the one who loved eren. and you were the one who expected him to get up and apologize, expecting him to stutter over his words, to beg for your forgiveness. how pathetic. the brown haired boy merely looked your way and winked. he fucking winked. that’s bastard. but what were you going to do? run up there and scream, make a bigger fool of yourself.
you had broken your own damn promise.
you had wanted to be fair. and now look at you.
in the end, eren yaeger will only love his reputation.
in the end, eren yaeger couldn’t give two shits about what’s fair or unfair.
in the end, eren yaeger only wanted another tally of the girls he’d gotten with.
in the end, there is no such thing as fair or unfair.
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