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bringing the bullet journal back

The first time I started bullet journaling was in 2020. I was severely depressed and suicidal and started bullet journaling at the suggestion of my therapist. I had friends who were going through similar stuff at the time so it was an activity we did together (over Zoom, usually, because pandemic). I kept doing it through the lockdown and kind of stopped around the end of 2021/beginning of 2022. I don't know exactly why I stopped but I definitely have a few theories. One, being that ironically, I had too much stuff to do to spend time bullet journaling. Which makes sense- all I was doing during the pandemic was online school, some internships, and being depressed. Once it was "over" (no, its not really over; covid is still very much a thing), I started going back to hobbies, social stuff, etc. But its still kind of ironic that getting more thing to do made me not have time to do the thing that would help me plan said things to do. I think there's an explanation though. I was doing too much. I was so far down the aesthetic bujo side of social media that I was doing way more than I needed to. I didn't need 3 pages of fancy artsy spreads just for the aesthetic. Don't get me wrong, if that's your thing and it brings you joy, more power to you. Personally, I was so stressed about making the perfect spread, I would rather have not had a spread than have an imperfect spread. So, what's new? Well, first off, I tried using Notion. Hell, I still use Notion. And I freaking love it. But there was still a gap. Notion is great for planning, organizing all of that. I use it for all of that, too. But I realized, there was some bit of that artsy bullet journal spread that I was still missing out on. And so, I'm bringing the bullet journal back. With a LOT of changes. First off, screw all the pretty pages from Pinterest, Instagram, etc. No fancy notebook either- just an unruled composition book. I want to keep this as simple (or complicated) as I want. I'm getting rid of all the trackers that I never used. It's just going to be a giant, messy, chaotic to-do list, with some aspects of the bullet journal still in it. I'm keeping my monthly spread and possibly adding a finance tracker because I'm way more in charge of my own finances now. The rest of it, however, is going to be raw, unstructured chaos. I want to be able to scribble down ideas that came to me at 3AM without having to find 30 brush pens and a pack of supertips, y'know. Raw, unstructured chaos. And hell, if I want to be artistic at some point, no one is stopping me from doing that either.

Let's hope it goes better this time (and that I rip out less pages from that notebook).

#studyblr #university #stem aesthetic #studyspo #dear diary #bullet journal #bujoinspo #bujo #aesthetic #stem academia #mental health

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thinking about the three "files" shows representing the three watcher founders

ghost files = ryan

mystery files = shane

food files = steven

#its the holy trinity

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this is lowkey me and my friend but we're both STEM majors lol...they're ENVS and i'm pre vet

being a humanities major who’s friends with stem majors is so funny because you’ll ask your friends what they’re doing today and they’re like “UGH it’s so stressful i have to stabilize the reactor core for my nuclear power midterm and then i have to build the supercomputer from i have no mouth yet i must scream for my electrical engineering homework :/ what about you” and you’re like “oh well i have to read a fun little book and write an essay about gender.” and they still think you have it worse

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refseek.com

www.worldcat.org/

link.springer.com

http://bioline.org.br/

repec.org

science.gov

pdfdrive.com

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chemistry, choccy, and chester <3

how are you doing today? you can join me for a cup of hot chocolate if you want some company

#studyblr #university #stem aesthetic #stem academia #studyspo #aesthetic #chester bennington #linkin park

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new favorite study spot?

i love that you can see the whole campus from up here!

i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone...honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, nothing you can say can stop me going home

#studyblr #university #stem aesthetic #stem academia #studyspo #my chemical fucking romance #my chemical romance #famous last words

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they are so real for this

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Lost | Linkin Park

Teepublic | Displate | Redbubble | artstation

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rainbow bubbles on hot choccy

#i think my hot chocolate is gay #hot chocolate #gay #queer #queer community

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It's useful to know that whatever you're living with isn't actually normal. Realizing the difference between a healthy vs an unhealthy household environment can really open your eyes. I feel like it's the first step in become self aware and reflecting about what's really going on.

Alot of the times when kids grew up in a dysfunctional toxic household, they feel like whatever they have been living through is normal so when they talk to friends about, say about a family routine, these friends will be wondering why things seem sooo abnormal hearing it. (Something that's happened to me, which let me to start question everything).

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This is pain on another level. Trying to recover from this takes a long while since its unlearning the pain and relearning that it was them all along and not you the whole time!

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ideal friday night

#watcher #watcher entertainment #shane and ryan #shane madej #ryan bergara #boogara #shaniac

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I’m alive I just got called a nerd by a ghost so I had to take a minute to gather my dignity

#choose your fighter nerd or daddy #choose your fighter #nerd #daddy #watcher entertainment #watcher #ryan bergara #shane madej #ghost files #!!! yay it’s out #shane and ryan

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these bots NEED to be taken care of NOW! What kind of monster lets people run around stealing usernames like "sillylordship" just for SPAM PURPOSES?!?!!

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Thank you @middaydramatic and everyone who got me to 25 reblogs!

y'all gonna make me cry fr

sorry if this has been done before lol

#25 reblogs #tumblr milestone #thank you

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

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pretend those are brownies for all of y'all <3333

#100 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you