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There’s an ache in my soul so deep that I cannot name

#vent post

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I wish I could get in bed and never leave and just rot there

#vent post

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I lose everyone

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I’m tired of thinking I mean something to people and getting shoved to the side when things go wrong

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I don’t know how to explain the overwhelming sadness that I can actually feel in my body when I am this depressed. It’s been so long since I’ve been this bad.

#depression #mental illness #tw #self harrm #struggling

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Happy July, the month of both Disability Pride and Abhorrently Bright Sunshine

[ID: a 4-panel comic in medieval manuscript style of a person walking under the sun. In panels 1 and 2 the person looks up in delight and says: "Oh how I love that cheerful summer sun / The delightful light-sensitive migraines." In 3 and 4 the person looks miserable with dizzy and pain lines, and they continue walking, doubled over. /end ID]

#migraine #chronic migraine #chronic illness #chronic pain #queue

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Chronic pain isn't just one mild pain level all of the time. It varies from day to day or hour to hour. It can be really extreme, high, or rarely dip down to a lower level that most would still think would be unbearable to live with for long. When you do get one of those days where it isn't too bad, you think maybe things are getting better, only for it to cripple you again.

Chronic pain varies; it can be really bad, it can be tolerable, but only to return with a vengeance.

The only consistency in chronic pain is the pain.

#chronic pain #chronic illness #queue

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living with invisible illnesses means showing up to work everyday and hanging out with people and trying to have a normal ass life because people can’t see your illness therefore it really doesn’t exist to them

#chronic pain #chronic illness

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shoutout to disabled people who aren’t exactly sure what their disability is, disabled people who aren’t diagnosed yet but know something’s off, and disabled people who are struggling but can’t get any help because of a lack of diagnosis, access to resources, or anything else. shoutout to disabled people who are silently and invisibly disabled and have a hard time getting people to believe them, and who have difficulty managing their symptoms because they’re not sure what the problem is stemming from. it’s hard, but i see you, and im so glad you’re here. it’s over-said but your experience is valid. you deserve support and to be believed.

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I’m too anxious to sleep and I have to be up in four hours.. I have to advocate for my needs tomorrow and I’m terrified

#anxiety #chronic illness

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Laying in bed crying because my body won’t do what I want. I hate being in pain all the time. I hate passing out all the time. I most of all hate that my tests keep coming back normal. Something isn’t normal.

#chronic illness #medical trauma #chronic pain

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My eating disorder is flaring up

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I got my cane months ago and haven’t felt comfortable using it on campus yet but now every chronically ill bitch has one and if I use it I’ll just be the copy cat and it’s so stupid and…

Aw fuck it’s just the internalized ableism isn’t it

#chronic illness #painrelief #mobility aid

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I want to do bad things hahhahahahaha I won’t tho I just feel like shit

#tw

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Fuck you and I wish that I understood the things you said and did but you had to keep it some big secret for some reason and now we’re not friends anymore cause you couldn’t just fucking communicate but it’s fine at this point I’m not sure you were ever really my friend in the first place and that sucks because I loved you so much and I still do

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Wish I was dead but I have cats to take care of