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Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

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"Stop saying 15 year olds with weird interests are cringe, they're 15" this is true however you should also stop saying adults with weird interests are cringe because who gives a shit

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The way you treat animals matters to me.

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“but why do we need to teach or mention asexuality in health class”

well my guy, maybe so asexual teens dont think something’s wrong w them ???

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AO3 Etiquette

It would seem a whole new kind of AO3 reader/writer is emerging and it is becoming clear not everyone quite understands how the website community works. Here is some basic guidance on how most people expect you to go about using AO3 to keep this a fun community archive that funtions correctly:

Kudos is for when the story was interesting enough to make you finish reading. If it sucked or was badly written, you probably left. If you finished - you kudos.

If you liked it, you should comment. It can be long and detailed or a literal keysmash. Writers don't care, we just love comments.

No critisism unless the author has specifically asked or agreed to hear it. Even constructive critisism is a no-no unless an author note tells you it's okay. Many people write as a fun hobby or a way to cope with, among other things, insecurity. Don't ruin that for them.

Do not comment to ask the author to write/update something else. It's tacky and off-putting and will probably have the opposite effect than the one you want.

There is no algorithm, it's an archive. Use the search and filter function to add/remove the pairings/characters/tropes etc. you want to read about and it will find you the fics that fit the bill.

For this to work, writers must tag and rate stories. This avoids readers finding the wrong things and missing the stuff they want. I don't care how cringy that trope is in your eyes - it gets tagged.

Character A/Character B means a ROMANTIC or SEXUAL relationship of some kind. Character A&Character B is PLANTONIC, like friendship or family.

Nothing is banned. This is an implicit rule because banning one thing is a slipperly slope to banning another and another, until nothing is allowed anymore. Do not expect anyone to censor for you. Because of the tags system, you are responsible for your own reading experience.

People can create new chapters and sequels/fic series any time after they "complete" a story. So it's considered perfectly normal to subscribe, even to a finished story. You can even subscribe to the author instead just to cover your bases.

Do not repost stories or change the publishing date without an extremely good reason (like a complete top to bottom rewrite). It's an archive, not social media. No one cares what's the most recent, only what fits their tag needs.

Avoid deleting a story you wrote if you hate it - orphan it so others can still enjoy it, without it being connected to you anymore.

This is a creative fanfiction archive. No essays on your insights or theories please. There are other places for that.

I KNOW there's plenty more I missed but I'm trying to cover most of the basics that people seem to be struggling with.

I invite anyone to add to this, but please explain, don't berate.

[aetherthecreep]

AO3 Etiquette

It would seem a whole new kind of AO3 reader/writer is emerging and it is becoming clear not everyone quite understands how the website community works. Here is some basic guidance on how most people expect you to go about using AO3 to keep this a fun community archive that funtions correctly:

Kudos is for when the story was interesting enough to make you finish reading. If it sucked or was badly written, you probably left. If you finished - you kudos.

If you liked it, you should comment. It can be long and detailed or a literal keysmash. Writers don't care, we just love comments.

No critisism unless the author has specifically asked or agreed to hear it. Even constructive critisism is a no-no unless an author note tells you it's okay. Many people write as a fun hobby or a way to cope with, among other things, insecurity. Don't ruin that for them.

Do not comment to ask the author to write/update something else. It's tacky and off-putting and will probably have the opposite effect than the one you want.

There is no algorithm, it's an archive. Use the search and filter function to add/remove the pairings/characters/tropes etc. you want to read about and it will find you the fics that fit the bill.

For this to work, writers must tag and rate stories. This avoids readers finding the wrong things and missing the stuff they want. I don't care how cringy that trope is in your eyes - it gets tagged.

Character A/Character B means a ROMANTIC or SEXUAL relationship of some kind. Character A&Character B is PLANTONIC, like friendship or family.

Nothing is banned. This is an implicit rule because banning one thing is a slipperly slope to banning another and another, until nothing is allowed anymore. Do not expect anyone to censor for you. Because of the tags system, you are responsible for your own reading experience.

People can create new chapters and sequels/fic series any time after they "complete" a story. So it's considered perfectly normal to subscribe, even to a finished story. You can even subscribe to the author instead just to cover your bases.

Do not repost stories or change the publishing date without an extremely good reason (like a complete top to bottom rewrite). It's an archive, not social media. No one cares what's the most recent, only what fits their tag needs.

Avoid deleting a story you wrote if you hate it - orphan it so others can still enjoy it, without it being connected to you anymore.

This is a creative fanfiction archive. No essays on your insights or theories please. There are other places for that.

I KNOW there's plenty more I missed but I'm trying to cover most of the basics that people seem to be struggling with.

I invite anyone to add to this, but please explain, don't berate.

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I'm like a baby, I like bland sweet food and I need a nap anytime I get an ounce of stress or else I wanna cry

#weird brain #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #stress sleep

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happy pride month, friends!

[ canon + headcanons ]

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Bonus: 🥺

#ok but ashton knowing exactly what to say because them too died and felt like a burden #and them THANKING her for it was probably the best ever thing to assure her #their sibling dynamic just gets to me okay #i'm completely normal about this #ashton greymoore #laudna #cr c3 #cr spoilers #cr3

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Today's (25/07) Brazilian national day of the Black, Latina and Caribbean Women

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gender envy is nice but what about gender appreciation? what if i don't exactly wanna go with my own gender in that direction but i'm still like "love what you've done with the place" when seeing someone's gender presentation?

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lord grant me the strength to accept the plot lines i cannot change

courage to continue to watch the show

and wisdom to remember i am not a member of the psychotic part  of the fandom

amen

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so mom ditched me... again. not an uncommon occurrence really, she's been doing that since i was 2.

at least nowadays we have mobiles so she can warn me, things were different when i was a kid. we'd come to the city she lived in and stay at my aunt's apartment, then she'd tell us she'd come pick me up the next day at a said hour and grandma would set me up in my nice outfit and I'd be waiting for her the whole day, all for her not to come and call apologizing in the end of the day because something came up.

And my grandma, that fucking badass, would deal with it so graciously that i never even realized something was wrong. She handled those situations in a way that made me never even feel bad about it, never resent my mom, it was just all fine. She surely didn't do it for my mom, she didn't deserve it anyway, but for me. My aunt would be pissed off because that wasn't fair, and she was right, she would have done something nice with me that day if i weren't expecting my mom. things would've been different if grandma didn't keep her in check.

Thing is, this has always been her. always when she plans up for us to have lunch, for example, i keep thinking 'well, hope we'll have lunch at x day' but I'm never sure it will happen till it actually does. and i particularly hate when plans change, mainly if she warns me that same day an hours before. there's always a "little problem". She woke up late because she was doing whatever the night before, or she missed the bus, or my stepfather went apeshit, or she didn't do the work she was supposed to finish days before and has to do it now.

See i SO know she has her many issues and i try not to blame her for it, it's just that it gets a bit tiring

#vent post #personal vent #little vent #mommy issues

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Ok, I'd like to say I feel like the houses are not very well interpreted, or maybe they are... but if so, the system seems kinda off

See... I think the thing is... the students within the same house don't necessarily have "similar traits" that'd be stupid, you put a bunch of kids with similar personalities who have magic in a room?! they probably WILL fight!

I think the house's similarities is solely in their morals and (maybe) beliefs and/or view of magic itself but not necessarily similar traits.

On that note, I've seen some theories about it, one of them argued that it is a MAGIC school so it'd only make sense if the house were sorting people based on their perception of magic... it went like

"slytherin - magic is a gift and must be protected, mainly against the ones who would dare to hurt your fam

hufflepuff - magic is a tool to build and keep society going, and is also a gift, one that should always be shared with the community

ravenclaw - they basically see magic as something too big, too much to be learned, they see it with curiosity and want to explore it to it's fullest

gryffindor - they see magic as a weapon against all that's wrong in the world and they always have this or that cause they wanna fight with magic"

And then there was that other theory... that one from the test with the primary and secondary house... can never remember the name

anyway, that one is more moral driven about the houses and it's take is something along the lines of:

Slytherin is a people driven house, since it's their people. They support and stand by their people no matter what because "you don't turn your back on your family".. that's probably where the tradition thing comes into play "be with your fam, respect fam" until (maybe) they finally learn that family doesn't need to be blood family, and then it's way easier to really feel the house's ideals. And sure there might be that cunning witty thing too and that probably lies in the belief of progress/reaching and goal through people (one way or another)... am I making sense?

Hufflepuff is very similar to Slytherin. they're both people driven houses, but Hufflepuff is about ALL people, not just their people, but all the community. They believe in progress/reaching their goal through hard and steady work. To build their community and keep it thriving. Different from Slytherins, they'd sacrifice one of "their people" for the good of the community

Ravenclaw obviously is all about the curiosity. They believe in progress/reaching their goal through dedicated research and study. They believe in annalizing the situation and the world they live in to get the best results and know what outcomes to expect... (also I have a feeling Ravenclaw is the house that is mostly detached of traditions and of family beliefs... like... their ideals can hardly be taught, like they're the most "independent" house...?)

Gryffindor, alongside with Ravenclaw seems less people driven, but more like... ideal driven. Thise are the ones who would abandon their family for their ideal (See Percy and the Weasleys as an example, Percy left for what he believed (even tho it was a stupid belief) and his fam just let him go and kept on track of their own ideals (even if hurting)) they're the ones who will literally fight for their beliefs even tho mostly these beliefs are towards the benefit of their community. (Sure there were *aheam* some... gryffindors who only cared about themselves and just sold their friends) And some would argue that gryffindors couldn't not be people driven because they value friendship, loyalty and camaraderie... but well if those are their ideals... idk

Then I think all houses can be VERY similar or very different, and that's how I think there can be so much diversity inside them... Also tradition, peer pressure, biases and, sure, the circumstances they're in can cloud people's ideas about their houses a lot. See what I said about tradition in the Slytherin house...? Also I think Slytherin is way more similar to Hufflepuff than to Gryffindor. Slyth and Gryf have their similarities but mostly they're founded on totally different ideas... Maybe the circumstances cause them to act like two sides of the same coin...? And tradition, pride and nobleness are ideals of both houses, yes, but that's probably mostly related to their history and wars and whatever

my ramblings! I just took some theories i read and made my own interpretations ok...? they're probably flawed!

#harry potter #hp #hogwarts houses #hogwarts houses theory #gryffindor #slytherin #hufflepuff #ravenclaw

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Okay, eu sempre tive em uma parte (em maioria) inconsciente da minha mente, a noção de que alguma coisa sobre a dinâmica da minha família e minha criação iriam me afetar (possivelmente de maneira negativa) em algum ponto da minha vida... Mas o possível erro na base da estrutura incrivelmente foi algo que não manifestou nenhum efeito negativo visível (por mim) até mais ou menos agora. Dezoito anos e meio depois. E ainda assim é algo tão sutil, gradativo... Seria difícil dizer que teve algo a ver com a base, mas teve. Alguma coisa fez um “click” na minha cabeça um tempinho atrás. Não começou agora. As rachaduras finas demais para serem notadas nas paredes dessa torre vêm aparecendo há um tempo. Com uma frequência indefinida, mas particularmente alta ultimamente.

Eu queria chorar... (Quero?) Mas é sempre assim. Uma palavra, uma frase que eu ouço, aí a minha resposta, e aí eu me sentindo, de alguma maneira, culpada ou algo assim. Aí vira uma discussão acalorada, mental ou verbal, às vezes composta de poucas frases, ou um discurso que eu nunca realmente term..., isso se torna um turbilhão, e vêm tudo e eu quero chorar. Mas é incrível como eu NUNCA posso naquele momento. Naquele momento eu SEMPRE preciso me concentrar em me acalmar. Porque têm gente em volta, gente que se preocuparia, e não saberia nem responder com o quê é que eles deveriam se preocupar... É coisa demais. Não chorar na frente de ninguém... Well... Quando eu finalmente posso chorar, escrever sobre, refletir. Já não dá mais. Eu já perdi a chance de falar o que deveria ter falado e chorar o que deveria ter chorado.

Eu nunca suspeitei (Sinceramente) que eu seria uma das pessoas que se sufoca com as palavras não ditas, e eu QUERIA dizer. Mas é sempre assim. Sinceramente ninguém entenderia... É coisa demais, anyway.

Voltando para o início, para a estrutura... (Nessa minha outra tentativa de escrever o que me fez querer chorar para início de conversa)... Eu não sei... E não vou começar pelo começo porque afinal, qual é o começo?

Solidez? Well... Eu me sinto uma estranha, e me sinto cada vez mais afastada da minha família. Cada vez mais. Demonstrações de afeto me parecem quase estranhas... Quando estou sozinha com uma pessoa ou um núcleo da família é mais fácil, e minha familia tem muitos núcleos. Mas eu não sei... Não tem bem uma unidade. Veja bem, isso pode parecer bobagem porque para a maioria das pessoas é simlesmente mais fácil ficar do lado dos pais (ou pessoas que os criaram) em tretas de família, maaass... Eu fui criada pelos meus avós, mas meus avós não são (não sinto que/se posso chamar) meus pais. Meus pais “foram presentes”. Então não posso tirar o lugar deles como pais. E têm os meus tios que também praticamente me criaram... Fui criada pelos pais do meu pai e tia, e o que minha tia é? Como eu devo vê-la? Tia? Irmã(quase!)? Segunda mãe(praticamente!)?

#a text i didn't finish

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Just for context, this test is literally a single competition for the whole country, battling for a place in one of the federal universities (free and the best grad education in the country). This year's test has 3.1 million signed people... The smallest number since 2005. Still, most people want a spot in a med school... it's the most wanted major... certainly because of social prestige and money. Most of them don't really want to be doctors, but they have money. They can afford living farther than 3 states from their family (supporting them), some could even affor a private med school. It's my third year trying. The test isn't that hard, but i need at least 790 points to SAFELY know I'll get in. and the national average grade is around 550... seems close but it isn't. I got a 754 after 3 years... not nearly enough.

"You have the almost perfect life" literal words from a family member. And i know it's true. I'm not a poc, I'm physically healthy, I'm ok financially speaking, I have a big, mostly supporting family. And that is why i feel even worse. Because I feel bad when i shouldn't, when I have no reason to. I feel ungrateful and spoiled and selfish and petty for not being able to be ok right now. Afterall these are all common "problems". Evertbody feels lazy and unmotivated sometimes... You gotta simply do things youre supposed to.

And I'm SO fucking privileged. I am 21 and i didn't have to work a day in my life other than the year internship in that dammed company when i was 17. I only have to study so I can get to med school and be a doctor one day. That is what i want and i know that. It's what i see myself doing in the future and i am even able to see myself happy. But i can't study for that... so they think i may not really want it. It's not true. I ACTUALLY like studying... but i also like drawing and reading and reading tarot and spending time outside. All things i cannot make myself do either.

I can't study. I remember around 5 years ago... i could do anything.. that time is long gone now. I don't even know who I am anymore... not really

I know i like animals and the woods and i used to be SO cheerful and talkative. I like fantasy stories, fanfic and now I'm just tired.

And sometimes I feel well.... it doesn't last enough for me to actually get in a productive state.

I also feel like i don't belong. Always have. It's stipid really. I was raised by my grandparents, my aunt and uncle got me under their wings like parents very quickly and honestly (probably not intentionally) shut my patents off... They are complicated, i know... both kinda self centered and distant with their own lives and families but they're still there. Grandma's my mom, really.

She's also my safe place.

But still, every penny they spend on me, every space and time i take from them, every ounce of worry i cause them sends me a jolt of guilt.

and trust me i have caused a lot of worry and money spending. First as a baby, when some doctor misdiagnosed me with galactosemy, nasty thing. Then came a whole bunch of exams and special food, whatever. Then as a kid, 5 years old, to be exact, when i fell from a fligof stairs and almost ended up loosing the movement of my left leg... I'mfine now, sure. At 7 it was like it never happened.

I think i feel like i don't deserve to be loved... That their unconditional love shouldn't be there(?) Ridiculous right?! I have this HUGE support net and i can't connect or really rely on them... i mean i do! but i feel bad?! Is THAT how low my self-esteem is?!

I'm just SO scared of disappointing them, of worrying them... So i hide it. They (one specific they) don't like how my mom lives her life, or dad and my half siblings (dad's step kids) live their lives... They all have mental disorders. Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder... they'd hate to see me take meds, live "that life", become a "chemical dependent" *eye roll*... Yeah, sure thing. Still their opinion matters.

How do i even change that?

#context #little vent #vent post

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"You have the almost perfect life" literal words from a family member. And i know it's true. I'm not a poc, I'm physically healthy, I'm ok financially speaking, I have a big, mostly supporting family. And that is why i feel even worse. Because I feel bad when i shouldn't, when I have no reason to. I feel ungrateful and spoiled and selfish and petty for not being able to be ok right now. Afterall these are all common "problems". Evertbody feels lazy and unmotivated sometimes... You gotta simply do things youre supposed to.

And I'm SO fucking privileged. I am 21 and i didn't have to work a day in my life other than the year internship in that dammed company when i was 17. I only have to study so I can get to med school and be a doctor one day. That is what i want and i know that. It's what i see myself doing in the future and i am even able to see myself happy. But i can't study for that... so they think i may not really want it. It's not true. I ACTUALLY like studying... but i also like drawing and reading and reading tarot and spending time outside. All things i cannot make myself do either.

I can't study. I remember around 5 years ago... i could do anything.. that time is long gone now. I don't even know who I am anymore... not really

I know i like animals and the woods and i used to be SO cheerful and talkative. I like fantasy stories, fanfic and now I'm just tired.

And sometimes I feel well.... it doesn't last enough for me to actually get in a productive state.

I also feel like i don't belong. Always have. It's stipid really. I was raised by my grandparents, my aunt and uncle got me under their wings like parents very quickly and honestly (probably not intentionally) shut my patents off... They are complicated, i know... both kinda self centered and distant with their own lives and families but they're still there. Grandma's my mom, really.

She's also my safe place.

But still, every penny they spend on me, every space and time i take from them, every ounce of worry i cause them sends me a jolt of guilt.

and trust me i have caused a lot of worry and money spending. First as a baby, when some doctor misdiagnosed me with galactosemy, nasty thing. Then came a whole bunch of exams and special food, whatever. Then as a kid, 5 years old, to be exact, when i fell from a fligof stairs and almost ended up loosing the movement of my left leg... I'mfine now, sure. At 7 it was like it never happened.

I think i feel like i don't deserve to be loved... That their unconditional love shouldn't be there(?) Ridiculous right?! I have this HUGE support net and i can't connect or really rely on them... i mean i do! but i feel bad?! Is THAT how low my self-esteem is?!

I'm just SO scared of disappointing them, of worrying them... So i hide it. They (one specific they) don't like how my mom lives her life, or dad and my half siblings (dad's step kids) live their lives... They all have mental disorders. Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder... they'd hate to see me take meds, live "that life", become a "chemical dependent" *eye roll*... Yeah, sure thing. Still their opinion matters.

How do i even change that?

#woah that was a trip #vent post #little vent #it's fine really #family #family issues