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it’s been a while...

I’ll try to keep it short, simple and not too sappy. 👋

Keep reading

[yoonjinkooked]

it’s been a while...

I’ll try to keep it short, simple and not too sappy. 👋

Keep reading

[yoonjinkooked]

it’s been a while...

I’ll try to keep it short, simple and not too sappy. 👋

yeah, this is it, folks. 

I don’t think I will be coming back here anymore. I can’t and won’t say that staying away has been good for me, because in the grander scheme of things, was being here ever really bad? No, not really. It just isn’t me anymore. 

I’m healthy, and in a very good headspace. I don’t need writing and imagines as an outlet to function. My creativity has been going into my career, into my plans for the future, and sure, here and there, I do write a bit, but without reason, deadline or outside influence. 

What I’m trying to say here is, I’m good. For the first time, after a long time. I don’t waste my time, I don’t try if it’s not reciprocated, I don’t dwell on stuff I have no power over, and being like that, being that person, it kind of can’t co-exist with Neri, who I was here. 

So, I’m leaving this account open, for you to revisit if you ever wish to re-read some of my work. Who knows, maybe one day it clicks and I decide to wrap up all the loose ends? I won’t be active in other bts fanfic spaces either, so if you see my story without my user, it ain’t me - do be a nice soul and report it, as I do like to keep what’s mine safe. 

Stay healthy, peeps. Surround yourself with good - good vibes, good people, good music, good wine, good all around. 

Wish you nothing but the very best and see you, maybe, sometime, somewhere. 

Neri 🍉

#goodbye peeps #i'll really miss you

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just a small info check in from me

did a bunch of contemplation since my last post. health’s still not the best, work is... well, work, and lately, my inspiration is just... elsewhere. 

it’s funny, remembering i had other interest. and lately i’ve been spending more time with my family and friends (minus the quarantine period) and exploring other mediums that used to interest me before or have started to interest me now. I’ve been ARMY for 5 years now and 4 was spent neck deep in fanfic. Me not being able to write, first because of circumstances, then because of a lack of inspiration/motivation is telling. 

it’s not a dramatic goodbye - it’s not a goodbye at all, in fact. writing is slowly coming back to me, but not for these stories, not for tumblr, not for this account and not even for BTS. I hope it changes soon because I have so much I want to share, but I also thought it was only fair to tell you that i truly and honestly just don’t know. I don’t know when i’ll be able to write, what I’ll write and when I’ll post. I need to be okay first and I am far from it. And I’m not going to hold that against myself. my mistakes are mine alone but some shit I just can’t influence. 

so. see you at some point, sooner rather than later, I hope. take care of yourselves and be healthy 💜

#update #i guess hiatus? #i hate that word #i'll be back when I can and trust me #y'all would rather have that than me half-assing it #personal #neri rants

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Holding space for you and praying for your speedy recovery. 💜💜💜

thank you, lovely 💜

#neri answers🍉 #anon #ask

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Hi, it is I. Feels like the past couple of months, I only write updates on why I’m not here and what bad happened next, so it shouldn’t be a surprise that this post is exactly that. 

After 2+ years of being healthy, vaccinated, and distanced, I got hit by fucking covid. 13 days ago, started mildly, thought I had a weak ass flu. No fever, no coughing. Then 5 days later, coughing started. Got tested. Positive. Got progressively worse. Up and down, up and down. The current state is: a pulmonary infection ft covid and it’s still not getting any better. They even did another backup test on me just yesterday even tho the doc said it’ll very likely be negative - guess what, it wasn’t. It’s like I’ve been fucking hit with super covid hybrid and all I have is one bottle of antibiotics to save my butt from it being worse. 

It sucks. I’m tired. Writing is the last thing on my mind and it’s kwording me that I keep pushing back the things I truly want to work on but life just keeps getting in the way. I’m sick of having to push back my plans and honestly, I’m sick of barely writing 1k words in the past 3 months. 

All the health stuff with my family, the promotion, then my own freaking illnesses which just keep smacking me on the ass full force one after the other, I’m exasperated and barely clinging onto sanity at this point. 

What I can say is, I will try. Not cause you’re pressuring me or anything like that - you’re not, you’re the sweetest bunch in this world and I haven’t gotten a single passive aggressive message, regarding anything, much less something rude. I’m promising to try on my own volition because I need to learn how to fulfil the promises I make to myself, before even daring to make them to other people.  BTS tell us to love ourselves, but we need to remember to forgive ourselves sometimes, too. Cause it’s fucking hard. It just is. We all have shitty battles and shitty things to deal with and an abundance of shitty days. So I’m internet hugging you all. Well, I need to be away, so I’m internet thumbs uping at you. 

I truly, honestly, from the bottom of my cold ass heart, hope that I will be able to write soon and that I will be able to write well. 

Thanks for reading. Please stay healthy peeps. Love you! 💜🍉

#neri updates #personal #trigger warning: covid #tw: covid

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The last hurrah 🥵🥵 I would love to further explore yn explore her semi-dom sexcapades with Hobi

i'm happy you enjoyed it! i'd love to explore that story further at some point, it should be fun! Hobi is *the* ideal fictional BTS member for some sexcapades experimentation imo! thank you for reading! 💜🍉

#ask #notfunnybutfunny #fic: the last hurrah #neri answers🍉

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is your hand ok? please get better soon. 💞💞

thank you for your worry anonie 🥺

my hand is perfectly okay now, this time around it's the work overload that's getting to me, but I'm writing as I go so I should be around on this hellsite more 💜

#ask #anon #neri answers 🍉

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Did I tell you monster for rent is amazing? In case I didn't, I love the world building and the sex was amazing. I don't usually dont do supernatural creatures but this was great and yoongis personality was on point with the irl yoongi. I like this not so OOC BTS I been reading from authors. Also get well soon 💜

If you did, I must have missed it, I've been in and out for months now 😭 Thank you so much for reading and for your kind words! I can't wait to explore more supernatural Yoongi & BTS in general, there are several stories collecting dust in my drafts 👀

thank you so much! you're the nicest!!! 💜

#ask #neri answers 🍉 #notfunnybutfunny #fic: monster 4 rent

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las vegas, day 4 (cr. jung-koook)

#The only man #The one and only #If found return to Neri pls #😭

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officially fully recovered and have a couple of days off ahead of me (including two full weeks in may) SO YOU WILL FREAKING FINALLY STARTING GET SOME UPDATES

ya girl spilled boiling water over her right hand (middle and index finger caught in the crossfire) so there DEFINITELY won’t be any typing/writing for me soon 😭😭😭😭

#pray with me over here #may the writing gods bless me #cause i need all the help i can get #neri updates #neri rants

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Anxiety happens when you think you have to figure out everything all at once. Breathe. You’re strong. You’ve got this. Take it day by day.

Karen Salmansohn (via quotemadness)

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not to be weird or anything but i’ve been checking your blog for sandman part 2 every day for months 😅 get well soon and thank you for the story!! appreciate all you do 💚

oh anonie, it's not weird at all! back when I was more of a reader, I used to do the same thing.

I feel horrible for making you guys wait this long for a resolution, especially since Sandman was supposed to be a oneshot originally... I wish I could just snap my fingers and have it done, but crappy thing after a crappy thing just keeps happening 😭

The good news is, a huge chunk of it is written, so it'll be the first thing done once my mojo is back and my fingers are okay 💜 I will announce it a few days ahead so that you don't have to check daily, you will know as soon as it's ready to be edited 💜 thank you for reading and being this patient with me! 🍉

#anon #ask #fic: enter sandman #neri answers 🍉

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ya girl spilled boiling water over her right hand (middle and index finger caught in the crossfire) so there DEFINITELY won’t be any typing/writing for me soon 😭😭😭😭

#neri is a walking disaster #neri rants #i need to be bubblewraped

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love to see him so happy ♥ [cr. dwellingsouls]

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unfortunately, i’m gonna have to push back the Our Story update AGAIN. I’m tired of doing it but it’s proving to be impossible to write. Everything does, tbh. Life’s been crazy busy and writing just doesn’t come as easy as it once did

#neri updates #neri rants #i'm ready for this block to go to hell

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if you ever have doubts whether or not my writing is inspired by some real life situations, rest assured that it is ABSOLUTELY NOT, because this dumbass just called herself GIMLI (cause i’m smol and ginger, ya know) in the middle of a flirty chat with a dude I like

#honestly #he can ghost me #i won't hold it against him #i'd ghost myself #personal #neri rants #i just needed to put this out there #and not let it eat me away on the inside #poor dude