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i got sussed on twt for asking this so 3dblr ;

i have a doc appt and med review in a couple weeks, and i need to weigh more when they take my vitals . suggestions please ? my mom will be with me , and i don't want anything to be obvious . i wont have my phone or shoes , but i could probably put smth in my pockets , i just need to keep it hidden well .

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i am so fucked rn. im rapidly switching moods today. part of me is so happy and excited for the upcoming year, and finally feeling okay. then the other part wants me to scratch my eyes out because everything is so overwhelming and im never going to be good enough or live up to peoples expectations, and i cant commit to anything bc im a fucking burnout !!!

anyways i feel like my insides are rotting . idk why lol . i think i need sleep . yea im gonna sleep ... i should sleep lol.

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me struggling to figure out things to put in my carrd for my personal life bc i literally am so involved in my ed .

until now i always thought it hasn't taken over my life but . i have to find old games bc i haven't played them in months . and i can't think of my favorite horror movies - the biggest thing in my life .

lmao .

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IM GONNA FUCKING SCREAM .

context ; my friend is over this weekend as usual , and it also has ana . we both hav ed'z and its a bond . we share tips n shit , toxic but he's like my fav person . anyways .

i got a shirt yesterday , and it was a childrens M . i was showing my dad , and he was like " that wont fit you !! "

so i put it on and showed him , whatevr . anyways , with the layout of my house , my dad was in his office , and my friend was in my room . i was walking to the bathroom , and bc of the walls i could see my friend and he could see me , but my dad couldn't see either of us . i walked into the bathroom to change my shirt again , and my dad literally said " you look so long and skinny - almost anorexyk ! "

and me and my friend literally just . looked at eachother . and i had to physically stop myself from screaming . im . what .

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fun fact everything is free if you're smart enough <3

[ thid post is sponsored by the fact that i got 2 free stickers today :) ]

[ if its a chain it's free reign xx ]

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gotta be one of my most d1s0rdered meals, i'm gonna hav ice cream instead of dinner since im gonna fish and kayak today xx <3 ( dont even wanna think abt the chemicals in my body rn ) ( # junk0r3xic life )

includes ;

- diet pepsi ; 0kcal

- stevia ; 0kcal

- nine strawberries ; 35kcal

.*☆*.

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poll time except its not a poll and its 98% likely that i'm not gonna listen to what anyone replies with !! ♡

.*☆ what show to watch tonight while im exhausted? xx

1 . finally rewatch pr3tty l1ttle l1ars ( cringe nostalgia, ik )

2 . rewatch more buzzf33d uns0lved , and probs be mad bc ive already seen a shit ton of it recently .

3 . watch ssvss or to the b0ne so i can rot in my own dis0rder ♡

hard decisions xx !!!

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me ; * doesn't eat, walked in circles for an hour straight, and gets 4 hours of sleep every night *

also me ; * suprised that im tired *

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calculating how many minutes it will take to burn my dinner ; a tut <3

disclaimer this is just a silly math equation im not promoting anything . im not responsible for you taking my advice .

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first of all ! i take a stopwatch, and walk at my normal pace for as close to one minute flat as i can.

my number was 113 steps !

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next , the average person burns 0.04 cal0ries every step. this is a fairly good reference to go off, but if you somehow know the exact number u burn, go for it .

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using this simple equation , i can assume i burn about 4.5 cals every min of walking .

# of steps per min [÷] 0.04 , kcals burned each step. = total kcals burned per min.

aka ; 113 ÷ 0.04 ≈ 4.5 cal0ries burned every minute i walk.

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this is a super easy way to tell how much u burned on a walk !

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also , using the c0mmunicative pr0perty , you can also use this formula to calculate how many steps u need to walk to burn a certain number of kcals !

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for example !

A = kcals burned every minute

B = minutes walked

C = number of kcals burned total

A × B = C

however by the basic math properties , this also means that C ÷ A = B !

so u can do it in reverse for the same effect <3

like this !

4.5kcals each minute × 66 minutes walked ≈ 297 burned in 66 min <3

which also means !

need to burn 297kcals , ÷ 4.5kcal per minute ≈ i need to walk for 66 minutes <3

and thats ur daily math lesson ! - vennspo xx

( also ive totally been walking the entire time i wrote this. i've been walking 48 min now lmaoo . my legs itch so bad , only 18 more to go xx )

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i have no idea how much im burning, literally just buying new clothes while i do this. gonna go until i physically cant and call it good xx

walking laps around my room 2 burn dinner cals , listening to some new d34th m3t4l bands <33

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walking laps around my room 2 burn dinner cals , listening to some new d34th m3t4l bands <33

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also i might make my own if i find some cute fabrics i like xx <3

hey xx ! if anyone could tell me where to get cute sets like these , esp any on amaz0n , id be eternally grateful <33 ( already getting the 2nd one from brandy )

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hey xx ! if anyone could tell me where to get cute sets like these , esp any on amaz0n , id be eternally grateful <33 ( already getting the 2nd one from brandy )

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ugh i'll need to get more foods for the week tommorow. gross, i know, but i went through my low cal foods this weekend since i didnt have any choice. thankfully they did help me avoid eating an insane amount of cals. the best part of binging when you only have low calorie foods is that instead of eating 8000kcal, you only have around 1000kcal <3 which is still a deficit !! id love to pick up some more rice cakes, a couple more yoghurts, and def a halo top or two. i want to be a teensy bit easier on myself since im incredibly depressed and doing terribly lately. im so anxious tbh :(

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hey ⲉdblr / sⲏblr , i'm thinking of writing a short series on my experience with an ⲉd and sⲉlf haⲅm .

~ .*☆*. ~

if i decide to go through with the writing i'll post it here and possibly on other platforms ☺︎︎

however , i'd like to include some other people's stories in my writing ! if you'd like to contribute, please reblog, leave a reply, etc. if i get enough replies i'll make a form for some basic questions ! obviously any identifying details would be changed if i were to post this.

( id esp like to include people w mia, ortho, and bed since i don't personally have expierience with these !! also if you have experinces in hospital id like to hear them if youre comfortable <3 )

some questions i'd like to start with ☺︎︎

1 . what type of ⲉd do you have ? || how do you sⲏ ? ( cvtting , bruising , etc , no big details please )

2 . how long have you had it ? || how long have you done it?

3 . general summary of your experince ?

4 . what effects have you noticed most ?

5 . do you want to recover ? have you tried to recover ? if so what was your experience like ?

( in the mean time , ⲙlⲣ diⲉts coming soon!! )

.*☆

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ugh i feel like shit so heres a vent rant whatever . none of this makes sense and i cant think right atm .

also tw for both sh and ed lmaooo

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pro tip , rum is ASS !! i had like 2 shots and it tasted horrid , plus getting buzzed in the headspace i was in was a terrible idea !! i r3l4psed and hit my first baby beans on my hip . i also didnt eat right , obviously , and all of my low cal foods are mostly sweets so i feel like vomiting rn . i cant get any new foods or order a pizza ofc , because im basically alone for 2 days 👎 its 2:30 am and im fighting sleep because i feel so shitty . i ended up taking a vid and venting which admittedly helped , but fuckkk i just feel so physically shit rn. hopefully when i wake up i'll feel better .

i regret not asking my mom for pizza . also i love my mom so much but i dont show it and i mkss her rn . i just want to give my parents a hug and cry like a child . im in a paranoia induced panic episode and gonna force myself to sleep so i cant feel like this now . goodnight disordered people on the internet . i might delete this some day but . whatevr im too fucked to think straight rn .

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i cant tll if im fucked up form the booze , blood loss , or hair chemicals . probably all 3 right noa . im alone for thr next 2 days , i had 2 shots and did styros on my wrist . just waiting for my hait to process so i can shower lmao . also j havent eaten tofay . :)))))))) see u all in a while im not gonna sleep for like another 20 hours lmaoo its 10pm

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