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This still sucks so much but I think it has reduced

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tfw the fictional characters in your head have stronger bonds with you than most real life people

#im 18 i need to grow out of it #undaydream.txt #mdd feels

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still using this blog, just plan to expand to my screen addiction journey also. look forward to posting more soon.

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I hate MDD but damn if it helps me cope

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Me when watching movies and finding something I can use in my paracosm

#mdd feels #this is me watching better call saul and praying the paraself DOESNT pursue a law degree #girl dont do it…

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having a love life with madd is fucking impossible how is anyone meant to come close to my fictional boyfriend from my daydream universe 💔💔💔

#mdd feels #my husband…

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When you’re exhausted but a really good moment is happening in the paracosm

#mdd feels

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I think it’s important to recognise that though MDD has protected me a lot, it now holds me back more than anything. Yes, it is a disorder, but it held me when I was 8-15 and all my friendships didn’t feel legitimate and I was constantly undergoing sadness due to them and being bullied in my own friend circles. Which must’ve hurt a lot, and daydreaming protected me from the degree of that hurt because I had friends in my head that not only liked me but truly loved me.

It’s actually pretty hard to “address” trauma now because MDD has acted as a form of repression and a lot of my real memories are blurred because I was constantly out of it, disassociating into my daydreams. And it helped me- at the time- but it doesn’t serve me anymore. I want to let it go.

#actually mdd #undaydream.txt #maladaptive daydreaming

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Im actually excited for my kalimba to get here

I dont usually feel excitement for things like this

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going to attempt to dismantle some parts of my life through journalling to figure out why i’m so avoidant of reality

i kinda… refuse to believe that i’m just “like this”

i also believe myself to suffer from anhedonia outside of daydreaming, which is difficult.

i just impulse bought an electric guitar and a kalimba. the kalimba arrives earlier so i can start having fun with it pretty much immediately. the guitar will only arrive in june, it’s a full set to get started. i have a lot of energy to daydream and i suppose i have a theory that… listening to music is a pleasurable experience that triggers daydreams, so logically if i was playing the music myself then the daydream outlet could hopefully be cut off because of my focus whilst the satisfaction of music remains. it might be a stretch but i think we’ve all heard stories of the predominantly hyperactive adhders getting into music which helps them channel some restlessness. i have predominantly inattentive so i just hope it works the same.

#undaydream.txt #how about… #undaydream.mp3 #for music :)

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I think we’re about to find out if having access to a music outlet does anything for MDD

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From the MDD advice post, it said you should give your MDD a name and a face. So, I don’t think I’m very good at this but I will try.

My maladaptive daydreaming is…

A pretentious harpy called Dina. She honestly doesn’t know anything about the world and doesn’t really understand humans, but she wants to tell me what to do. And drag me away from other activities so I can daydream.

For a grounding phrase I guess “Not today Dina” has stuck in my head already.

#MDD recovery #personification of my mdd hope it helps #undaydream.txt

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MDD strategies from reddit:

Your MDD compulsions having a name and a face, personify it, you can distance yourself from it and resist it being a part of you. You can tell it no.

Other mentally stimulating activities.

Contingency plans for specific triggers.

Work out why you really daydream, what does it help you cope with? Why did you start? Are there overarching feelings?

MDD is one problem in it’s own right. Tackle it like nothing exists outside it. If things are connected to other mental health issues, you need separate plans.

Lots of mindfulness is supposed to work but it does require a conscious effort.

Extra mindfulness during daily/repeated activities.

“It’s a marathon, not a sprint.”

Recognise it’s normal to miss MDD.

#undaydream guide

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one of my friends apparently hyperfixated on russian and i was so mad at myself (and a little at them because they tried to be relatable and claim it was useless… no? just own it!) because i think ive managed to pull off a successful hyperfixation on japanese only once

#im gonna make this a linguistics blog if i ever surpass mdd #nah… just kidding. i will probably share my advice here if i ever overcome mdd #undaydream.txt

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maladaptive daydreaming, adhd, and phone addiction all go hand in hand.

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Does anyone else just get really upset about the different hyperfixations and special interests they could have had??? Like .... I could've been studying the ancient world and had fun doing it! I could've picked up extensive knowledge about dead poets and authors with beautifully written masterpieces! I could've been discovering and enjoying countless amounts of information on our solar system, or historical fashion, or iconic bands! But no, instead I devote my time and effort into gay french men who appeared for an eighth of the story and then all died. What the fuck man

#mdd feels #adhd feels #mddadhd feels #i would be SUCH a good language and linguistics hyperfixator #i promise. so brain. #please.

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another day of resisting MDD hmm heres what im gonna do today

1. Japanese

2. Draw

3. Write something new

4. Drink something new

5. Journal

6. Do more of that philosophy course

#i have MDD and i hyperfixate so its like #i feel like im more prone to spending all day on my hyperfixation (genshin) #god i do not want to be hyperfixated on genshin anymore. #i will die for real #undaydream.txt #some FOOL on duolingo took my first place spot #but dont worry im not learning JP via just duolingo #still im mad >:(