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Why is it I crave attention from those I should have long forgotten..

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I should have given in to my every ache in my body to kiss you that day. Maybe we'd be together now.

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(C) do you think about me like I do you my dear? Do you check in ever so often like I do ? It’s not as if I search you out but you’re always there showing up. tant

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Happy birthday. I’ll always wish you the very best.

#to you ac #to you #happy birthday

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Who knew a person who once meant the world to me, would cause the kind of hurt that I would still feel today-years later. It is the kind of hurt I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

Unsent letters to AC/ circa. 2012-2016..// C.A.T

#unsent letters #an excerpt from a story i'll never write #to you #to you ac

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I’ve never related to a person/situation as much as I do this.

#tiktok #Rick on tiktok #sad country #to you

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When you think of him, what do you remember?

I remember his smile the most. I remember feeling the safest I’d have ever felt. I remember that he helped me though one of the toughest times of my life. I remember the hurt that accompanied him, after all the highs.

#dear anon #written by me #penguin #love #sigh #life #to you #looking back #remember

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Releasing little bits and pieces from my past.

I am constantly reminded that I wasn't good enough for you. Nothing I could did would make me good enough for you to love me. I’m not sure what hurts most you saying that no matter what you’d always be there or the fact that I wasn’t even good enough to stay friends with. // an excerpt from a box of love-hate letters hidden in my closet, circa 2012-2016. // C.A.T

#to you

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I knew him for what felt like forever. Sadly I was the one who fell in love with a boy- as he became a man. I had opened myself up to him, let him in, believed him when he said he loved me. I then watched him disappear. We haven't spoken in years, but I’ll always have the hope that maybe one day we’ll talk again. I hope that, maybe we happened in another world. I felt that we could’ve had a love that set the world on fire. Oh what a shame that would be if it was lost.

//C.A.T. // lost journal entries from 2015

#written by me #life #penguin #love #sigh #i won't admit it #flashback #from a certain point of view #from a book i'll never write #for you #Texas #across the universe #maybe in the next life

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you updated ❤️ ~DL

I did. 💕 I’ve been recently reflecting on life. And just been more inspired to write especially after my manic episode. Sometimes I get lost in the past.

#written by me #life #ask #anon ask

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I never learned how to deal with one-sided love.

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This is so accurate.

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Sometimes

Sometimes I wish you’d message me.

Sometimes I wish you’d call me.

Sometimes I wish I knew what was going on in your life.

Sometime I wish I was still the person you trusted more than the rest

Sometimes I wish I knew what you were doing. Sometimes I wish you’d let me in.

Sometimes I wish I never met you.

Sometimes I wish you’d have left me to lose myself in the darkness.

Sometimes I wish I’d never known your name.

Sometimes I wish you’d let me drown in myself.

Sometimes I hate myself for wishing that.

Sometimes I wish I had you in my life again.

Sometimes I wish you’d were a part of my daughters’ life.

Sometime I wish I knew why you aren’t apart of my life.

Sometime I wish I would see your name across my phone.

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I can breathe again.

This is the last post for this page. I finally felt just a tad bit of the hate that he has for me, and boy does it make me feel well. Odd I know, but after all this time. After the years of my life I wasted, I can breathe. It feels good- no great. The end, you know the actual end. I will not be going down that road anymore, not for anything at all. I can finally put him behind me, a part of me will always wonder. 

He will only be a story  that I tell my daughter when her heart gets broken the same way mine did. He will only will be a story that I tell my daughter when she is pining over some who breaks her the way he broke me. He will only be a story that my daughter will hear as way to grow, and know that she will be okay. He will only be a story.

I also wanted to thank all of my readers and followers who have followed this from the start to end. If you want to you can follow my personal account and there is link on this page. Y’all have been so supportive.

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“We were never meant for each other but I’m glad that even for a sheer moment, it felt like we were.”

— J.DG (via wnq-writers)

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When you think of me, what do you remember?