thissuicidalbitch

[thissuicidalbitch]

Tw shh

Every time it’s a battle between my clean streak and my brain

#s3lf harn #s3lf hate #s3lfharmm #self h@rm #self h@te #tw self destructive behavior #tw triggers #triger warning #tw s3lf harm

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[thissuicidalbitch]

I don’t even have my razor blades anymore, because I thought I was finally clean.

But the thoughts are back

#s3lf harn #s3lf hate #s3lfharmm #self h@rm #self h@te #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #tw triggers #triger warning

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It’s so hard to stay clean

I tried everything: rubber bands, red marker, ice cubes, …

Nothing really works for long

I am this 👌 close to relapsing

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Tw sh//:

I have this urge to cut myself and it won’t go away. I’m clean for 2 months now and slowly getting comfortable and confident with my scars. I can’t go back to cutting

Please I can’t

I thought I left these behaviors in the past

But now the thoughts are hunting me again

#tw self destructive behavior #tw triggers #triger warning #self h@te #self h@rm #s3lf hate #s3lfharmm #s3lf harn #tw s3lf harm

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That feeling when your social anxiety and your fomo (fear of missing out) fight if you should or shouldn’t go to the party.

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Christmas is so difficult.

So many calories and to many family members watching exactly what and how much I eat.

I hate it!

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It’s just to much for me

I’m exhausted

#this is depressing #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #tw depressing thoughts #just exhausted #im fucking exhausted

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I havn’t slept in days and it’s killing me slowly

#depressiv #sorry for being depressing #this is depressing #i need sleep #sleepless

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That shitty feeling when your relationship isn’t the same as it was and you realize it’s going to end soon, because you are slowly drifting out of each other’s lives

I still love her so much but I think she doesn’t feel it anymore. She is so distant now and doesn’t even reply to my messages anymore. I’m so scared to loose her cause she was my best friend long before we got together and she is the only one who really knows me. I don’t have anyone else.

#breakup #heartbroken

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I don’t feel like I’m terribly important to anyone anymore. I just kinda exist in people’s lives.

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Tw// self h4rm

I hate cutting myself, but I’m fucking addicted to it

#self h@rm #s3lf harn #tw s3lf harm #s3lfh4rm #s3lf hate #tw triggers #possibly triggering #triggering content #may be triggering #potentially triggering

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reblog this if you started worrying about your weight before you were 16

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<<< Binging till you almost throw up but not being able to throw it up

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