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What's another suicide attempt

Take some bleach

Take some ammonia

And have a good sleep

Good night

27 years wasted

Cheers to making it all stop

#tw #bipolar depression #manic depression

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Help

I called the suicide hot line and I wasn't suicidal enough for them to not end the phone calls.

Help. I feel so low not even the suicide lines want to talk to me.

I just don't wanna be sick anymore. Someone cut the bipolar disorder out of my head.

#bipolar depression #manic depression #depression #personal and shit #bipolar #bipolar disorder

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Just that annoying suicidal girl complaining about life but too scared to kill myself 🤷‍♀️

#personal and shit #bipolar depression #manic depression #deppresion

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I can't keep anyone happy

Useful at being useless

Waiting for the day the depression kills that last part of me

Then I'll just kill the rest

#personal and shit

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I've lost my will

I've lost the last of the light

I've picked a date

Relief will be painful

But it will pass

I am tired

I am sick

I am done with all of this.

#personal and shit

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I didn't pull the trigger

I just held it in my mouth

I was kissing death

He didn't kiss back

Had my finger on the trigger

Just need that final push

I'd give the final pull

And all that pain will rush out of my head

All those thoughts will be blown away

Can't be depressed when you're dead

#bipolar depression #manic depression #depression #tw

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For someone who takes about killing themselves all the time,

I sure just need to man up and just do it already

#personal and shit

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And what if I did kill myself? What if I listened to those voices whispering the solution. What if I just did it. I want to. I've tried before with a revolver with two bullets and spun. Pulled the trigger twice. I lost the game I wanted to win. I left it up to chance and I'm still fucking here. I want to play again. But what if i lose again? I'd have to live the life with the ramifications.

Then I'd have to keep playing until I win.

#personal and shit #bipolar depression #manic depression #bipolar #trigger warning #tw

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One day these suicidal thoughts are going to be louder than reason

#personal and shit #bipolar depression #manic depression

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Wonder what it's like to not wrestle with suicidal thoughts.

#personal and shit

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I feel that the appeal of dying is so high

Because control when

How

Where

I have control

For once I control what happens to my life.

When?

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Death does not strick me with fear. Living shakes me to my core

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Overwhelmed

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Help

I am so deep

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Insomnia! For no reason!

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