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Its mr steal yo gurrll

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So, I was right

You never did see my worth

But I don't resеnt you

I was convinced I was gettin' the world

Thank you for makin' me think that I

Had everything I had asked God for

You made me feel so damn good, I forgot you didn't love me, SC

#sabrina claudio #spilled thoughts #ex boyfriend #love stinks

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How a man can destroy someones life and self esteem and feel no remorse i will never understand

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We promised we would always tell the truth and be there for each other. I guess only one of us can keep our promises

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Chapter one Forgetting the forgotten.

Ive lived next to a person,slept,ate,everything short of died in this persons presence. Not once did they ever see me or the significance of having me there. Ofc they would forget me im already forgotten. But now it must take on a new life and i must now forget that person who should already be forgotten. As i have been alone this whole journey just unaware

#breakups #dont reblog #spilled thoughts #sad thoughts

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unsung icons

U know a pop culture topic we never really see talked about. Underappreciated triple threats, or at least really fucking talented. some examples would be Mandy Moore, MAX, Lindsay Lohan and Anna Kendrick but the list could go on and on. From Disney and nickelodeon stars to hosts on talk shows these triple threats have been making mainstream media and giving people their personality all over the globe. triple threat ofc meaning that they can sing,dance,and act. Most of the people listed can even play instruments and more.

i like to think the trifecta of talent was created by the public but really it was media moguls finding the perfect formula to promote their brand. What better way then to annoy people through endless replays of their excellent marketing strategies. The formula works by having the performer take on the work and the producers taking all the credit but since the performers are often children when they start there is often a disconnect when it comes to setting boundaries especially when there's money involved. Like Mandy Moore and Lohan being from Disney and in the same movie? ENDLESS PROMO. Top off the cherry with the fact that they can EnterTAIN and are pretty. Disney's mind should be blown right. WRONG confessions of a teenage drama queen was swept under the rug like every other Disney channel original. Lindsay ofc is huge and will always be but do people know she can actually sing? very few. Mandy Moore anyone check for her after like 2005 i think not. But they are icons like Beyonce and Britney spears. who were marketed by who else Disney. hmm see a pattern. Who is your favorite actor or popstar who can act? comment below or share! ill get to the patters and the other people later i suppose. till later peace and love to all.

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i hate being a simp

#Spotify

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“You became like coffee, in the deliciousness, and the bitterness, and the addiction.”

Mahmoud Darwish

Instagram: @solitudeismyeuphoria

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For old times sake is actually such a heartbreaking and beautiful sentiment. Like, let’s do it for the love that used to be here. It is reason enough.

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My weekend reset goals

Grocery shopping

Clean out phone and emails

Plan week

Keep room tidy

2-3 work trainings

Prioritize sleep and water intake

Journal in the morning and night

Go through one bag of old clothes and donate

Skincare and Haircare

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POV; you're in my brain w me. lets say the theme is #logic.

I have absolutely no idea what i am doing with my life. I know my next steps and i know what i want but everything is upside down now.

Shattered Reflections: Waring my heart on my sleeve unbiased

Heartbreak can be an excruciating experience, tearing apart the very fabric of our emotions. It has the power to shake us to our core, leaving us questioning everything we once held dear. In times of betrayal, the pain can be particularly intense, leading us to doubt not only our relationships but also ourselves and our life plans. However, within the depths of heartbreak lies the potential for growth, resilience, and a renewed sense of self.

Betrayal: When trust is shattered and betrayal takes center stage, it feels as though the very ground beneath us crumbles. We question the authenticity of our connection, doubting our ability to judge character and make sound choices. The pain cuts deep, and the shockwaves reverberate through every aspect of our lives.

Heartbreak has a way of casting doubt on our life plans. The once-clear path ahead suddenly becomes clouded, as we question our decisions and the choices we’ve made. It’s natural to feel lost and unsure when the foundation of our future has been shaken. time and timing feels like everything. for some neurotypicals its easy to just channel all those raw emotions into work or mundane hookups but then when they sit with themselves at the end of the day they were never really happy to begin with. Maybe a better choice of words would be not fully healed or fulfilled.

A Time for Self-Reflection:

Amidst the chaos and turmoil, heartbreak presents an opportunity for self-reflection. Take this time to pause, reassess, and rediscover your true self. Explore your dreams, desires, and passions that may have been buried beneath the weight of the relationship. Realign your goals with your own values and aspirations.

Embracing Resilience:

In the face of heartbreak, we discover the incredible strength and resilience that resides within us. As we pick up the pieces and begin to heal, we realize that our capacity to endure pain and overcome challenges is far greater than we initially believed. We may also believe or discover some of the harshest emotions/ realities. and completely form a new ideology. to fully heal you must never be afraid of change. Change is constant. Harnessing this resilience to rebuild your life on a foundation of self-love and personal growth. is always the first and last step in remaining your ideal self.

Heartbreak has the power to leave us shattered, questioning our life plans and our sense of self. However, within this painful experience lies an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. By reflecting on our values, embracing resilience, and reimagining our future, we can emerge stronger, wiser, and more authentic than ever before. Remember, in the midst of heartbreak, you have the power to rebuild and do Anything.

this was mostly a letter to remind the little me inside that everything will be okay. this whole blog is ploy to become an actual adult through journalism. You want someone to blame its pop culture but i am just doing my best okay. I started this blog to allow the journalist and scientist inside me to flourish since I always shoot myself in the foot before walking. This opportunity to speak my mind freely and with judgment [even though it isn't ideal] is an opportunity none the less and will me me stronger in writing and hopefully as a person. I hope my words have moved you in a good way and if its in a bad way maybe ask yourself why before throwing your emotions on other people. till next piece.

peace and love to all

#reading #spilled thoughts #letter to my love