#yr honor i am not normal about them

[termagax]

👀 :DD

went looking to see if i could find his toast victory pose and google brought me my own post about a different victory pose so thats cool. anyways lets talk victory poses

the toast one in question. he is so fucking cute i love his tiny cup and how dainty he holds it and this one looks REALLY good with his two skin. its literally fat neck fsunday thats the theme of the day i want to bite him and lick him and kiss him and

my sc which i am not bothering to crop but i think these ones are so cutes. i switched to the 2 skin because i like his big eyes but its not the one i usually play with SAD. i like how cutes he is in the mine one his big eyes and the way he holds them is something im really normal about im really rlly normal about the ways in which he is kind of possessive. the medal one is cute because i like his big hand and dramatic ass pose hes so fucking proud of himself. fun fact for some reason his ass is rlly prominent in the 2 skin

the combination of the tanline + the way the lighting in the hero gallery work its just like. buddy. dude. mi amor. also points in the first oje of this set you can see his beautiful crotch belt i am so fascinated by his clothing decisions i genuinely need to fuck him so bad its not even funny.

this one isnt mine i stole it off reddit but i like his hologram one because it confused people at launch and i agree its kind of a weird thing for him of all people but i love it. ipad baby.

okay last thing and then ill shut up forever but his MUGSHOT. cutesness. i prefer the illustrated version because uegh euhmmmmmmm neck. hi. but like in general i think this ones so cute im obsessed w the bigness of his hands.

my favourite one is pointing to the sky obviously and ive spoken about it at length before so. uh.

no comment yr honor

#his neck. his arms. his ass. his belts. his stomach. ect. #🫁 #also my screenshots are so high contrast sorry. i need it i have a hard time seeing in this game already

[ilovehavingablog]

i don't know how are we supposed to move on from the constant shellings, watching it pretty much live every time you look into the news. it's been two years of full scale war and like, are we supposed to function normally if it wasn't us killed this time? or none of our close circle. the 8 yr girl body i just saw being taken from the rubble in a news video - well, u know, i didn't know her personally so im supposed to just. move on.

the human psyche can't cope with so much terror in a regular way, i am not able to feel all the pain and mourn every single one of my people dying and suffering, i would have to live for a thousand years to make time to really mourn and honor every soul murdered by russia so i just. "move on". i pretend im having a good day! which i had today - but also of course i didn't, but it didn't feel like a bad day in a usual manner either.

i feel so egoistical, obsessed with my insecurities and how to fix them, dreaming of having a life my brain cage stole from me when that world isn't _there_ anymore, waiting for me to join it and fulfill my dreams slut out and reach my potential and all that. im thinking about parties til the morning with no curfew, not worrying for life of your friends and parents and - everyone else really, not fearing for your life and the fate of your homeland, not wondering if you should go to the bomb shelter this time or at least move away into the corridor or just wing it this time - how does that feel?

the civil airplanes that could take me to a foreign country for 20 euros, my knees crushed by the seat in front of me. seeing and hearing airplanes and feel wanderlust or worry about the ecological state of the world or indifference, anything but not the instant tension. all of that is not a possibility anymore. (last time i was abroad i was terrified of not being able to return. i thought i was silly to worry abt it, worry about russian aggression spreading further. sweet summer child...) i feel guilty for wanting to indulge. i feel despaired knowing it's unreachable. there's only surviving and endless rage and mourning

[jung-koook]

Hi sky!! Happy birthday love!!🥳🎂

I've always been a silent admirer of ur blog, this is like my 3rd time? Sending u an ask. I just want to say how grateful I am that you exist, it sounds a bit silly I know but you're such a beautiful person inside and out(I haven't seen u but I just know it) and bangtan is so lucky to have a fan like you cheering on them from the very start of their career. It's truly admirable to see how devoted you are to bts and how much u adore jungkook🥹 and the other members as well. You were my first ever bts blog I came across and I fell in love with one of ur jungkook gif sets.

I've been struggling so much mentally for the past few yrs and these past few months were especially hard on me. I was diagnosed with adhd and it was very hard for me accept that and just live life all in all but whenever I came on tumblr and saw one ur posts or u freaking abt smth it just lifts up my mood involuntarily. It's like you're tinkerbell and when I see ur blog, it like sprinkles pixie dust on me making my mood better(sorry if that doesn't make any sense).

When you open up personally, I sometimes do relate to some of it and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm not that type of person who gets attracted to ppl or let ppl in my life easily but you've easily become one of my fav person. So thank you for everything that you've done. Forever grateful for all the lovely gifs u make.

Have the happiest 26th birthday ever!!! sending a lot of love and hugs your way💌💗🫂🫂

I'M GOING TO CRY OMG 😭😭😭😭 your message made me so emotional. I wish I could give you such a big, long hug right now.

I know how hard it is to know something like that. I've been to a place like this so I know a little about how you're feeling. but if I could help as a friend, I would tell you to see this as a way of getting to know yourself. It's really hard to be diagnosed with something, but with that we also start to get answers. and then you top feeling like there's something different about you and see that it's something normal than what you have. we begin to understand ourselves better and deal better with our feelings. in my life, depression affects me much more than my dyslexia, but it was much more hard for me to accept that I had dyslexia. It was a really long journey until I felt comfortable with it and stopped feeling embarrassed about it. I really hope something similar happens to you. I just wish your journey is not long like mine. I wish everything will be fine soon. and may you be able to get through this in a not so hard way. please don't be hard on yourself. this is the time you have to be your own best friend. take good care of yourself. don't let any negative energy from anywhere affect you. It's a time for you to focus on you and only you. "It's like you're tinkerbell and when I see ur blog, it like sprinkles pixie dust on me making my mood better" there are tears in my eyes right now 😭 this was one of the most special, beautiful, emotional and amazing thing I have ever read in my life. and having this directed at me made me so emotional and speechless. I will keep your message forever in my memory and in my heart.

I'm feeling so special and honored to be one of your favorite people. I don't know who you are but you have already become one of my favorite people, because I can see what an amazing, beautiful and nice person you are.

thank you so much 🥹 please don't be a stranger, come here whenever you want ok? I will always love seeing you here.

#reply #anonymous #fav

[yrsogross]

Ohh don’t mind me, Just dumping in your asks because you are the most approachable blog in this community 😬😬😬 I use the bathroom every single morning at the same time of day, about ten minutes after my flatmate leavees for work. My stomach just is aware of the time and I feel the need to go at that exact moment. The problem in question: Flatmate’s had a terrible cold for a week and has not been to work in FOUR DAYS. My body is apparently aware of this. I’m not embarrassed to go with them here.. I do not believe they would even hear anything.. It’s just I’ve not felt the need to go. I’m very mega bloated and gassy, having so many burps all day when I am normally not a burpy person whatsoever. Farting these dry almost animated pffbts.. I hate to phoneticize a fart but it’s actually like the stereotype of a fart sound you’d make with your mouth!! I’m ready to kick their ill self OUT at 10 AM tomorrow!! Not really, they’re a dear and it’s not their fault, but I WANT TO HAVE MY SHIT 🙈😵‍💫🙈😵‍💫

i’m honored that you think i’m the most approachable, plus i love getting anons <3

it’s rly cute that you have to hold it just because yr body is so used to it’s routine. just imagine how nice it’s gonna feel when yr finally back on that regular schedule, that one huge dump to kick it off..

#asks #anon #copro #eprocto #eructo

[winderlylandchime]

I am trying my best to just write honorable mentions bc if i wrote everything he said that made me question our sibling dna this would be an essay. But i do want everyone to know: he watches the show as if he’s watching a sports game, elbows on his knees, legs shaking at times, palms all over his face and a lot of ‘ugh!!!’ And every so often he hits me/grabs my shirt and yanks it bc i sit next to him while making some type of a noise. Anyway: ‘oh god, is this what i look like to you while i watch this show? Is this a call out? Am i being called out? Oh my god am I emmett? Nah I’m more fun’ ‘HE IS GETTING A HERO AWARD? Why? Oh Justin. HELL YEAH HERO! Yeah bitch, listen to Emmett, you saved Justin’s life!’ ‘awwww He is rushing home to Justin bc he gets scared! HERO!…a hero in love..can he already admit that he’s in love ffs this is taking forever, I mean what has to happen for him to say ily to Justin?!’ ‘Ew. I mean i know the gay friends sometimes kiss each other and i get it but i don’t like Michael..*long silence while he watches* maybe i should kiss my homies too sometimes, let them know i care’ ‘WHAT DOES HE MEAN LESS DESERVING?! Ohhh lover!! I like the sound of that. Cmon just tell him you love him! It would make my life SO much easier’ ‘oh he is so totally not going to that comic con hahahhaha’ ‘oh damn he really did forget about comic con, i was just messing. Damn..OH HE REALLY SAID FUCK THE POLICE’ … ‘they want to take away his award?! Oh hell no! I will not allow this *looks at me scared* if i hate these two does that make me homophobic?’ ‘I need Mike to stop being annoying bc him and Justin could be a cool duo! OKAY DEBBIE STOP BLAMING BRI BRI FOR EVERYTHING! Why do they keep doing this? I am tired, and i am all alone here defending him and it’s getting hard bc theyre on the other side of the screen’ ‘DEBBIE KNOWS BRI BRI LOVES JUSTIN!!! HELL FUCKING YEAH DEBBIE! Now help me get him to admit it to us all! And by us, I mean me’ It’s at this point that he looked at me and just flapped his arms all over the place and then went back to watching. ‘Oh my god! He is walking with him and holding hands! In broad daylight! Better chance seeing you date a dude than Brian holding hands on a walk. EXCEPT *points to paused tv* HE IS DOING IT RIGHT THERE! HE SAID NO HANDS! look at Bri Bri hugging him and GOD DAMN IT!’ He is currently groaning while flapping his hands in the air ‘he clearly loves him! Why is he making things so complicated for me!!’ ‘OH MY GOD JUSTIN! His teenage lover! FUCK YEAH! Oh my god, sweet sweet boy please never change! I need him to stay like this. WHAT has he stolen from Justin?! SIR I WILL FIGHT YOU MYSELF’ ‘THAT GUY FUCKS RAW?! AND HE JUDGES BRIAN?! I guess everyone IS a critic’ ‘yeah give him the fucking award! See, mel and lindsey can be cool, they don’t suck so much when they’re not as uptight..would it kill them to be like that more often?.’ ‘I KNOW THIS SONG- OH MY GOD JUSTIN IS HIS BOY! AND HE IS WALKI- COME ON SONNY BOY!!! HE! I! HIM! I CANT WITH THIS! LOOK AT HIM REACHING HIS ARMS OUT! LOOK AT THAT SMILE! HE KNEW HE COULD DO IT! And the kissing! BRIAN JUST ADMIT IT ALREADY! *pauses on the kiss* So there’s the Brian that Michael knows or thinks he knows and there’s the Bri Bri that Justin and I know. AND HE IS LOVELY! And I am better than Michael’ ‘yes Justin tell him! He is a hero!…it has to be killing them to speak nicely of Bri Bri. Oh HE DIDNT SHOW UP OH THATS FUNNY! Ffs can Mel be on Brians side once? I need a reason to like her’ ‘i guess Michael got his dynamic duo dream back.. he needs a better dream and life, this is sad and that’s coming from a 36 yr old dude who is drugged out of his mind in his sisters house..wait that sounds bad..fuck oh god am i michael?’ After this he went outside for a smoke and just stared into the sky and when he came in he went ‘it was cute and calm. I think that means im finally watching it normally and not going crazy’

ANON! I do not want your brother to have to find out what it will take for Brian to tell Justin he loves him (and yet, I definitely do).

"Oh he really said fuck the police" is gold because that is my EXACT response to that scene.

His response to "my boy walks down the street" is correct and accurate and all of us. Also his analysis of Brian and Michael and the Brian Michael knows and the Brian Justin and fandom knows is so spot on.

Look, anon, when this is over your brother is going to need to be set up with a tumblr and an AO3 account. Those are just facts at this point.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

[angstymdzsthoughts]

For the corporate spy!AU. After WWX is framed and the divorce is settled, he finds himself blacklisted from getting a job. That, plus the parental alienation (LWJ has primary custody of LSZ), Jiang's disownment, and generally being a social pariah leads WWX to decide to move overseas and start over. He packs up his life and moves in with his old friends Wen Ning and Wen Qing. He's sad to leave his son behind, but he can tell staying would hurt LSZ more, considering all the lies told to him (1/?)

Corporate spy!AU. WWX decides to change careers in his new country, and with his savings and WQ's help, goes to medical school. During the 13 years before JGY gets caught, WWX graduates with honors and takes a position as a doctor at a remote research facility, and only stays in contact with WN and WQ. When JGY's lies are revealed, he so far out of contact that he doesn't even hear about it, and it takes LWJ another 3 years to get into contact with him. WWX is confused when he does (2/?)

Corporate spy!AU. "Why are you bothering me now?" is the first thing WWX asks LWJ once he's tracked down. LWJ wants to marry him again, and during the 3 yrs he's been looking for WWX, LWJ and his family (LQR, LXC, LSZ), the Jiangs, and everyone from their old social group have worked up a fantasy that WWX will forgive them and marry LWJ again. WWX thinks this is his only chance to have a relationship with his son, and with so much social pressure, he agrees to move back and marry again. (3/?)

Corporate spy!AU. But WWX doesn't love LWJ like he did before, and he's still constantly waiting for someone to stab him in the back like last time. He gets a job as a doctor, keeps finances completely separate, and tries to keep himself apart from the Lans, Jiangs, and everyone else. LWJ worries constantly that his love will leave again, and showers him with gifts, anything to show his love, but others pressure LSZ to guilt WWX not to leave. They're constantly scrutinized and miserable. (4/?)

Corporate spy!AU. Then something happens at the company which WWX would have been able to prevent if he still worked there, and LQR and Mdm Yu make it apparent that they blame him for it. WWX has been the scapegoat before and isn't interested, and LSZ is leaving for college, so he decides to do charity doctor work overseas. LWJ is furious and the Lans and Jiangs all fight about WWX being driven away again. The fighting leads WWX to decide to stay away longer, and get a divorce again. (5/5)

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The car ride home from Lan Qiren's office is tense and quiet, as things normally are between the two of them without Lan Sizhui around. 'A marriage only in name' is what Lan Xichen had called them last month. Lan Wangji had silently agreed but he had no right to complain about his marital troubles, not when he had been the cause of them.

Wei Wuxian laughing quietly make him turn to look at him. "I am blamed when I work for them and I am blamed when I don't work for them... Isn't that funny, Lan Zhan?"

He had gotten a call from Yu Ziyuan more then an hour ago, screaming about an issue with a business deal between the Jiang and Lan corporations. She hadn't given him much chance to get a word in and had placed the blame of the failed deal firmly on Wei Wuxian. She hadn't stopped until Wei Wuxian hung up and blocked her calls. Shortly after both of them were summoned to Lan Qiren's office. He was just as angry as Yu Ziyuan and held Wei Wuxian responsible as well. Lan Wangji had stayed quiet while his uncle lashed out at his husband, unable to say anything in Wei Wuxian's defense.

Now, driving home afterwards, Wei Wuxian looked more then defeated.

He gave an exhausted sigh, not looking at Lan Wangji when he said "I can't do this again, Lan Zhan."

#reply #Corperate Spy Au #Wei Wuxian #Lan Wangji #Lan Qiren #Madam Yu #mdzs

[winnix85]

About Lewis Nixon’s mother Doris Ryer Nixon (Mrs Stanhope Nixon)

Source: mostly from old newspapers and digitized documents (I can’t guarantee the accuracy because they are fragmented information. I will just put it out there for someone may find some interesting useful backstories).

Doris Ryer was born on Oct 1 1894.

Her father Fletcher Ryer was a wealthy pioneer agriculturalist in California. He owned 6,600-acre (27 km2) ranch on Ryer Island, which was named in their honor. Because Doris was his only heiress, this ranch all went to Doris and then to Lewis Nixon III and ultimately to Grace Nixon. It's an agricultural (instead of livestocks) ranch. They grew crops, fruits and vegetables such as wheat, milo, safflower, pears, apples, cherries, grapes, tomatoes and asparagus. They produced such large amount of asparagus that Doris's mother, Mrs Ryer was nicknamed Asparagus Queen back then. This farm is still up and running today, managed by Clarence Hester from 1950s to 1990s (Nix' war buddy, the regimental S3, the one who wrestled with Dick in that photo), after him by his son Thomas Hester.

Doris was educated at Madame Payen's school in Paris from 1906 to 1914 (her entire high school).

Fletcher Ryer died an early death in 1911 (when Doris was about 16). Doris was close to her mother Mrs Blanche Ryer. Mrs Blanche Ryer, though very charming, married very very young. As a pretty, attractive, wealthy widow she determined to ensure that her daughter Doris have a brilliant "bellehood" as a girl. She took Doris to tour around the world. For example, in Sep1913, they traveled to Russia to present Doris at the court of Tsar Nicholas II (Very inconvenient timing, I have to say).

Doris was very sweet and attractive, with pretty black eyes. Her mother has always been most ambitious for her handsome daughter. She aimed to marry Doris to British aristocracy. Doris was presented at Buckingham Palace in 1914, wearing "a white satin princess gown embroidered in pearls and brilliants". Mrs Ryer has had her eye on several members of the British aristocracy for Doris, "but this cruel war, of course, smashed all of her well-laid plans to smithereens." She has to stoop so low to choose from American heirs.

Doris married Stanhope in Jan 1917 in New York at Church of Heavenly Rest. Their wedding was the social event of the year. Guests from coast to coast attended Nixon-Ryer wedding.

The bride's costume was soft white satin, made in combination with pearl embroidered net. She worn a lovely veil, the same that had been worn by her grandmother at her wedding, which was held in place with a band of diamonds. Her only other ornament was a necklace of diamonds with a large pear-shaped diamond pendant, the gift of the bridegroom.

Because the father of bride has died, she was given away by governor of New York Charles S. Whitman. Among those in attendance were the Brazilian ambassador and Argentine ambassador.

After the wedding the new couple went to Bermuda for honeymoon and then they lived at 52 East Fifty-second Street NYC (but later moved to 46 East 65 Street). In 1920 census, the household of the new couple included Stanhope the head of the house, Doris the wife, Lewis the one and half yr old old baby son, and a butler and 3 maids. They also have a suburb house at 167 Grange Ave, New Jersey (a 20-room estate, equiped with oil burning hot water heat, a 4-car garage, servants quarters, a boat house and a stable).

After marrying off her daughter to the Nixons, Mrs Blanche Ryer re-married in 1920 to Clifford Erskine-Bolst, a British conservative party politician. Mr Erskine-Bolst was elected to the British House of Commons in 1923 and again in 1931. To help him win the election, she made generous donations to King George's Hospital in England. She campained hard for him, making speeches and appealing to the constituency in the South Hackney district. 

In 1920s, mama Doris bought a villa at Riviera France from the late Grand Duchess Anastasia of Russia. She lived there until her death in 1939 (This villa went to Nix. But he didn't like living there, too much hassle to open the house. He prefered to stay at the hotel Cap Estel. In 1950s he leased it to the Kennedys).

Doris and Stanhope seemed to be ok in 1920s. They attended social events together and traveled to England together. After Lew, they had a baby boy in 1922 (who tragically died in 3 months. Doris' mother went to New York to be with her.) Then they had Blanche Nixon in Aug 1924 (also born in NYC). While living in NYC, it seems little Lew was often spending time with his grandfather. Grandpa often took him to play at central park. For example, he took Lew to that model yacht regatta in central park when he was 7, and to skate in central park in Jan 1927 when lew was 8. In 1927, Doris took 2 yr old Blanche to France to visit her mother, but she didn't take Lew (maybe he was too naughty?). Anyway, Doris took Blanche to see grandma almost every year but Lew was only with them on one visit when he was 10 yr old.

Doris appeared to be lonely and out of place in the social circle of New York. Here is a social note about her in 1929: "A remarkable girl with her embroidery frame, actually engaged in a simple, normal occupation in a land where the atmosphere is charged with hang-overs, gambling-losses and mistrust. Nobody around here looks twice at a woman with mauve hair like Madame de Roch, or at a man with ear-rings and a bracelet on his ankle. But let a girl take out a half-finished centerpiece and commence embroidering and every lorgnette in the crowd is whipped into place."

At the end of 1920s, Doris seemed to be so unhappy to live on the east coast anymore, and she still regarded CA to be her real home. Stanhope sold their house in New Jersey and bought a new house in Montecito (also a mansion with a large stable and everything). In the 1930 census they were living at 180 Cold Spring Road, montecito, CA (Stanhope, Doris, Lewis (11yr), Blanche(5yr), and a French governess, and 2 servants). Lew attended boarding school at Cate School in Santa Barbara.

In social notes in 1930s, Stanhope and Doris mainly attended social events in CA (Santa Barbara and San Francisco), they also travel to New York to visit Mr and Mrs Lewis Nixon Sr.. The family traveled a lot, not only back and forth between east-west coasts, but also trips abroad. Doris always took Blanche with her, but Lew traveled on his own even when he was as young as 15 yr old. It appears that Doris and Stanhope's relationship has gone sour in 1930s. For example, in this 1934 social note: "The Stanhope Nixons will spend the Christmas holidays with his parents, Mr. and Mrs. Lewis Nixon. Mr Nixon will return to California on Jan 1, and Mrs Nixon will sail for Europe to spend six months on the Riviera with her mother." (almost as if Doris was running away from Stanhope and hide in France after briefly met him on Xmas day. Meanwhile 15 yr old Lew was at boarding school in CA).

In 1940 census, Doris and Blanche were still living at 180 Cold Spring Road, montecito, CA (with a housekeeper, a cook and a maid). Stanhope was no longer in this household. Maybe they have separated. Lew was also not in this household for he has left for college.

Among the CA high society, Doris was a all-around likable person: "Doris is always bubbling over with enthusiasm, her joy of living and her wit making her a welcome guest at any affair". She was very enthusiastic about opera (and art events in general, such as oriental dance). She attended the openning of Opera Season at San Francisco every year (usually with Blanche, and she will grab Lew when she can catch him). In 1940, she offered a prize for the "Best one act play" to stimulate interest in the Lobero Theater of Santa Barbara. She also went to see excellent plays in New York when it's in season and made some witty comments about the remarkable fashion trends in New York: "The only lavender and old lace that you see today is on the individual--the lavender in the tinted hair, and the lace on the dainty unmentionables."

After the Pearl Harbor Attack, Doris turned from a socialite to a civic leader. In 1942 she became the national vice-president of the American Women's Voluntary Services (AWVS) (and during ww2). The AWVS recruited and trained women to harvest crops, do nurse works, driving trucks and sell war bonds. She encouraged women to show more interest in international affairs. She also founded Guide Dogs for the Blind in 1943 (primarily to help the blinded veterans) and she made generous donations. In addition, she was the state commander of the California Cancer Society.

The AWVS duties kept her so busy, she has to relinquish her box at the opera house. She only had long enough time to have a toasted chicken sandwich for lunch. She put generous amount of English mustard on her sandwich. When her friends cautioned her not to put too much, she said:"If it puts me out, I will be a most excellent subject for the first aid class I am about to attend, and we will all find out how much we know!"

In the summer of 1945, Doris and Stanhope finally divorced (Stanhope even filed counter-suits seeking divorce on the grounds of desertion). They divorced in August, and Stanhope married "the Blond" in September 1945.

In June 1948, Doris died at home (944 Chestnut Str San Francisco CA). She had a stroke (and she always had hypertention). It seems her death was an unexpected sudden death because one month before she was still traveling around France with her daughter Blanche. Her will dictated to split her legacy equally between Blanche and Lew. She also left generous amount of money to employees such as housekeeper, secretary. For a former maid, she gave her $225 monthly for life.

#doris ryer nixon #Doris Ryer #Mrs Stanhope Nixon #She was a wonderful person #Generous kind and funny #lewis nixon #band of brothers

[kinncman]

A LIST OF PLOTLESS TOWN RP-FRIENDLY CHARACTER IDEAS & CONNECTIONS INSPIRED BY MOVIES! (PART 2)

once again, you can obviously spin any of this in any way (platonic, romantic, familial) etc, and not all of these are the exact plots of the movies they are referencing so pls don’t @ me i am but a lowly translator of ideas.

click here for part one.

content warnings for: drugs, food, hospital, light implications to a toxic former relationship

THE LAKE HOUSE // basically, the lake house except nobody is a ghost and everyone is from the same year <3 muse a is an architect who has been living in The House they built. for reasons utp, they are forced to sell it. muse b is the buyer. muse a can’t let go of the house so even though the title has been transferred to muse b, they keep making excuses to visit The House.

LIGHT SLEEPER // muse a is a former drug addict whose job is delivering drugs to high-profile clients. muse b is their ex and also a former drug addict, with whom their relationship fell out bc of the drug abuse. they coincidentally meet again in a hospital when muse a visits a regular client of their boss who OD’d and muse b’s mother is in for chemo/other intense procedures. muse a and muse b reconnect. they both confess that they are now clean and sober. muse b doesn’t believe muse a since muse a admits that they still work for their old boss, but muse a insists that they haven’t used in years. muse b, on the other hand, is a successful business person who’s really cleaned up their act and is nothing like the person muse a knew before (i.e. a Mess TM). despite the feelings that they hold towards muse b, muse a knows that they should keep their distance since they are the reason that muse b started using in the first place and they wouldn’t want to throw any progress away. HOWEVER, fate seems to keep bringing them together in the most inconvenient places and when they least expect it the most; they allow themselves to indulge in old habits (sex, not drugs) even tho they know they’re totally bad for each other. just when they’re starting to become regular fixtures in each other’s lives again, muse b disappears for weeks on end. as it turns out, they were the one who was never clean and sober to begin with.

PHANTOM THREAD // muse a is a highly-renowned fashion designer / artist / photographer who meets muse b and decides that they want them to be their muse (after already having had a string of former muses). being invisible all their life, muse b accepts this new role— however, to muse a’s dismay, they are nothing like any muse they’ve had before in that instead of having their muse wrapped around their finger, muse b has them wrapped around theirs. great for exploring shifting power dynamics!

GRAY MATTERS // (originally a familial and queer relationship but hey whatever floats your boat) muse a and muse b are siblings (or best friends could work, too). muse a gets engaged to muse c and muse b is their maid-of-honor / best man. because muse c and muse b are the two most important people in muse a’s lives, muse a makes them spend the week before the wedding together bUT OOPS muse b realizes that they have feelings for muse c and they share a drunken kiss which muse c instantly forgets about in the morning??? which is #awkward because 1) MUSE C IS MUSE A’S SPOUSE-TO-BE and 2) MUSE B NEVER REALIZED THAT THEY’RE NOT STRAIGHT. so now they’re trying to deal with coming to terms with this newfound attraction that never thought they could have with the same sex on top of trying to decide whether or not to remind muse c of what they did that one night (since they seem to have zERO recollection) and come clean to their sibling / best friend.

LONG SHOT // muse a works for muse b, who is a very powerful exec / influential artist / whatever. muse a is very much infatuated by muse b, who thinks that they are way out of muse a’s league. muse a reveals that muse b used to come over to muse a’s house to babysit them (because lbr, even tho the the age gap might not be that much, a 14 yr-old will be paid to watch over a 10 yr old). what happens from there?

VELVET BUZZSAW // muse a and muse b are rival art curators / music producers who claim that they are the ones who have rightfully ‘discovered’ muse c. muse a and muse b then go through great lengths to try and win muse c to sign over to them. muse c has no plans of defecting to either sides but decide to string them along for the perks (and for the attention). great for exploring a kooky triad of frenemies or a polyship.

PORTRAIT OF A LADY ON FIRE // muse a is a painter / filmmaker / photographer who is tasked with relaunching muse b’s career. muse a thinks that muse b is a brat. muse b thinks that muse a is full of themself. 

I’M HUNGRY, I’M COLD // you might wanna try and watch it here first, it’s v short! muse a and muse b are best friends who’ve been on the lam for a long time (for reasons utp) and are now broke bc they blew up all their funds on life’s little pleasures. maybe they start conning people? maybe they try to get a dozen dead-end jobs at once that they suck at so they keep going back to square one? either way, they must decide whether or not they should finally face the music and go home. or maybe they just need to find the means (and a reason) to stay in their current town, and fast. 

BABETTE’S FEAST // muse a is formerly the head chef of a michelin-star awarded restaurant who is now working as something else. muse b had one unforgettable (for sentimental purposes, reasons utp) meal in said restaurant which, unbeknownst to them, was cooked by muse a. the two meet in the current setting, several years later, and become friends / lovers / etc, with muse b sparking muse a’s interest in cooking once again. muse a cooks The Meal™️ for muse b, not knowing what it means to them, and muse b finally recognizes who muse a is as they are flooded by memories of that night they first tasted the dish.

CIGARETTES & COFFEE // muse a and muse b are newlyweds who are in town for their honeymoon. however, things go awry on day 1 when muse a blows it all on some stupid, petty thing (in the original, they blew it on a game of craps in a casino when they’ve neVER played craps before and muse b is fuckin LIVID it’s just hilarious and sad) and their relationship is immediately put to the test when they have to figure out how to scrape money to get home (but also maybe kind of fall in love with the place??? and decide to start their family there??? idk) 

SUCCESSION (this is a tv show but this particular dynamic is just too damn good not to include) with a little bit of THE PANIC IN  NEEDLE PARK // muse a and muse b come from rivaling families (for whatever business, but they gotta be high profile). they meet while theyre trying to be lowkey doing ~~normal people stuff and instantly click despite their families’ tumultuous history, but have to keep their relationship (platonic or otherwise) away from the public eye to avoid raising suspicion from the critics. they think they can help each other’s recoveries by being in each other’s company but all they do is enable each other, further destroying not only their lives, but their families’ reputations as well. 

#rpc #rph #rp help #writing help #plot ideas #*

[roxannarambles]

Sitting in my draft folder. I wrote this last summer and never posted it because I didn’t finish writing it and forgot to finish, but hey let’s post it now for funsies!

A Very Condensed Summary of My Reactions While I Binged Most of Owl House Season 2 (In August 2021)

 Ep1

* So this Golden Guard is the new antagonist of S2, ok. Cool looking character design . . . (then he talks) OH, he’s pretty young, didn’t expect that. And that’s . . . a really nice VA whoever that is. Hm, ok so they’re making this character a cocky lil shit, ok. Yeah, he sure is a jerk . . . . why do I sort of like him? >://// NO HE’S A JERK DONT LIKE HIM noOOo stop

* Eda protecting the selkie-monster was great, I love that they protected the cool monster instead of the typical ‘slay the beastie’ plot

* Hootie and Lillith friendship not expected but hey I can roll with it

Ep 2

* In this world it is apparantly good and normal for citizens to just casually buy what’s essentially military-grade weaponry, ok. I am even more scared of this world now

* I noticed Alador goes along with his wife but doesn’t seem as eager to cruelly manipulate his kid like Odalia is, hmm, wonder how that’s gonna play out later

* Ok I love the direction they’re taking the glyph magic, that’s just awesome

* HeCkkk yeah Amity jumping in to rescue Luz (& defend her honor) and being all bad-ass, that was perfection

Ep 3

* Oh man this ep. When Eda told King the truth and he was melting down about it, it broke my heart. Oh man. And he bounced back so fast. If it was me I think it would have taken me a lot longer to process all that, lol. But hey it’s a cartoon, they don’t have a ton of time for their eps 

* But seriously, background story for King!! and raising a billion more questions is awesome, dope spooky monsters too

* Altho King naming it Jean-Luc just made me think of Picard 

* WAIT I forgot to add, Hooty . . . doing . . . THAT. Detaching from the house. Disturbing new revelations. It makes sense, from the direction of this season including Hooty as more of an actual character (and not just comedy relief), that they’d devise a way for him to actually participate more. But whoo boy it’s disturbing too lol

Ep 4

* A story that deals with snakeoil salesmen and medical scammers. I can’t help but think about recent world events and all the foolish anti-vaxxers. The story probably was not written with that in mind (no idea when the script was actually penned) but I still couldn’t help but think about it.

* Poor King. It didn’t even cross his mind his dad might not be a great guy until Lillith said that to him. It was super crappy of her to do that but she was too distracted by her own shit to realize it, so, eh, what can you do

* Lillith getting a taste for what it’s been like to be cursed for all those yrs was nice to see

* A portal lead, Titan’s Blood, whoo!

Ep 5

* GUS GETS AN EP WHOOOO this is so long overdue the kid has been ignored for so long

* Really great ep for him, so happy with it. Although I’m sad the pretty purple-haired girl with orange eyes turned out to be a jerk, I KNEW it was gonna happen too, I was like “NO come on the nice girl is gonna be a jerk again isn’t she? ;___;” Why does it gotta be the girl with the coolest-lookin’ design, man

* On that note I feel like the theme for this show is “people who seem nice are actually often jerks and people who seem like total jerks actually can often end up being v. good”

Ep 6

* Such a big lore drop, oohhh. 

* I love the idea of the Palisman so much, so I loved this episode. Thought it was very well done. And reflecting Luz’s uncertainty about her direction. I cannot wait to see what her Palisman eventually ends up being. I’m super glad they’re taking their time with it. Also I can’t wait to see Luz’s friends with their animal familiars.

* I am a bit confused though, if Plaismen are created via wild magic, doesn’t that make them illegal? Why is Hexside openly having an Palisman Day?

* Also WILL AMITY GET HERS??

* OK so . . . I love Hunter. love him love 

Ep 7

.........I missed this episode somehow? WOW how did I not realize that. Ok still need to watch an episode.

(The rest is unfinished)

#toh #the owl house #mystuff

[curiosityjams]

re: iz*one

first of all, i wanted to say i didn’t plan on writing something about the disbandment. the past few months have been incredibly rough on my mental state to the point where i feel as if i’ve lost all sense of self. shit has been so rough for me, their disbandment being confirmed made that even worse for me. however, i realized i need to learn how to be okay with like...being open about my own emotions in a time of uncertainty and writing them out helps me in a way even if a lot of those emotions i’d rather keep private. i’ve also been going thru a time where i’m currently reevaluating this past year and everything i’ve done/felt in the past few yrs (2.5 of those years being izone’s run), so i thought i’d write something about the disbandment and what iz*one means to me, esp during this point in my life. i’d write more about what led me to this point, but if i did, i’d end up writing a whole novel, so i’m just going to keep this as short as possible.

also if this is a jumbled mess, i’m sorry!!!!

since we’re here to talk about the inevitable, i just wanted to say that i’ve probably had a harder time accepting them being gone than i thought. i knew they were gonna disband eventually bc lol produce group, but also, knowing what happened with the voting scandal and the panasonic, it makes it even worse for me. i hate that they didn’t even bother to handle their disbandment in a way that wasn’t complete horseshit. i hate how the pandora screwed everything up. i hate how we didn’t even get a proper goodbye from the girls. i knew that this was going to happen, but i fucking hate how it all turned out. i can’t say i’m 100% happy with the ending and honestly, don’t think i’ll ever be able to fully accept that they’re no longer a group. 

that said, i’m not here to vent.

while i’m obviously upset that they’re gone, the fact that they were ever a group to begin with--i’ll forever be grateful. i avoided getting into them for the longest time because of my own trauma from being involved in the 48 fandom (smth i’ll talk about at a later time bc it’s a lot), but the moment i decided to watch their “up” performance and actually give them a chance beyond looping la vie en rose, that’s when i fell in love. i fell in love with the music. i fell in love with the visuals. i fell in love with the bond between the girls. most of all, i fell in love with the fact that during a weird transitional period in my 20s, i found a group that gave me the closure i needed in a time where it felt like the world was against me while also giving me the strength i need to move on. 

while we’re on that topic, let’s talk about kwon eunbi.

as you already know from my url, eunbi is obviously my bias. she’s the leader of the group, under the company my ult group, lovelyz, is also in, and THE absolute all-rounder. she’s extremely talented, super fucking funny, a babe of THE highest order, and the best single mom you could ever ask for. every time i watch a video of iz*one’s or look at any of their pics, i’m always in absolute awe of her. while i love all of the girls (j-line has a very special place in my heart bc of my time in 48 fandom) and do consider the entire group to be one full of bias wreckers, it’s eunbi that instantly caught my eye and the one i’m incredibly proud to call my ult.

“now, drea, why is it that you’re taking so much time with talking about how special this group and that girl are to you?” well, it’s mainly because that eunbi and i are the same age (both 95-liners, but i’m older by 2 months) that i’m so drawn to not only her, but the group as well. yeah, it’s normal to be drawn to members born in your birth year, but for me and esp in this case, it’s far more complex than it seems.

around the time i got into the group, i was (still am) going thru a quarter life crisis. i had just finished my a.a., was a few months away from turning 24, and had pretty much decided i was going to take an indefinite hiatus from twitter due to the amount of harm its done to my mental health over 10 years. i felt like shit knowing that so many people my age were living their lives, getting married, having kids, etc all that shit while i felt as if i was frozen in time and like i could never accomplish any of those things because according to society, my time was up. as a woman on the autism spectrum, i never felt like anything i did was enough and knowing that even after years of trauma, the feeling that if i don’t have my entire life sorted out by 24/25 scared the living shit out of me. knowing that a panini happened made those feelings even worse. 

i know it’s weird to like...feel so many emotions over this esp since 23-25 is young and starting your career out at that age is normal. that said, knowing how eunbi was already in a group prior to joining iz*one that ended up disbanding months after they debuted, the road she took to get to where she is now, and the fact that she’s 25/26 and will get so many chances to start over is what gives me hope after such a shit year. i can finally get to where i want to be, i’ll graduate from university, i’ll hopefully get a job that will earn me enough money to move out of my mom’s house, i’ll find love, etc who the fuck knows what’s going to happen? i hate that after years of hating myself and being afraid of getting older because people often have this mentality that you should abandon all sense of yourself once you hit your mid 20s, it’s taken me THIS long to actually start accepting myself for who i am and living my life for myself, but i’m excited to see where the fuck life takes me after years of self-hatred, trauma, and trying too hard to please ppl that don’t give a shit. seeing eunbi just have a fucking blast on stage, take care of her members, and overall be the amazing person she is gave me the strength i desperately needed to actually get to the path i want to be on as someone that’s a few years away from turning 30.

as i said earlier, i’m not ready to just outright accept iz*one being gone. i’ll probably spend the entire month of may just watching their content since there’s still a shitton of stuff i have yet to watch and i’m lowkey embarrassed that as a fan, i’m admitting this, but also: there’s no time limit. i can always watch that video at another time, i’ll like that pic later, etc. i wish iz*one was one of those things that had no time limit because i’ll always cherish them, but in the 2.5 years of their existance, i achieved some big things and survived a pandemic. i left twitter, got closure in chapters i needed closure in, finished my a.a., etc among many other things during that time and it’s partly because of iz*one that i’ve pushed myself to do all of those things. it’s hard esp since it’s easier to just write smth like this on tumblr than actually do it, but the girls and their music were part of the reason why 2020 wasn’t a complete dumpster fire for me. 

most of all, i wanted to write this because i wanted to shout-out the amazing folks at @izonetwork​. i joined super late in the game, but the convos i’ve had, the laughs we’ve had on discord/among us, etc i’ll never forget it. meeting all of you was one of THE highlights of an otherwise shitty year and i’ll always credit you as one of the reasons why i wasn’t completely emotionally distant during such a dark time. all of you keep me grounded and i’m forever grateful. super honored to call you guys my friends. <3

so yeah, thank you iz*one. thank you, eunbi, sakura, hyewon, yena, chaeyeon, chaewon, minju, nako, hitomi, yuri, yujin, and wonyoung. i don’t speak korean or japanese, but know i’m eternally grateful for all the joy, strength and bops you gave me in the past 2.5 years. i’m even more grateful for the friends i’ve met thru my own fandom of the group. i’m excited to see what every single one of you does next regardless of what it may be. 

now if you’ll excuse me, i have to go catch up on all the enozis i’ve missed. 

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

#izone #kpop #be quiet drea

[halflingkima]

mid-year book freakout tag

I was tagged by @flitwickslittlebrotha – thanks!! 💖 (sorry it took me so long to see this in my mentions 😓)

Best Book You’ve Read So Far in 2021      The Knockout Queen by Rufi Thorpe; it was the first new book I read this year and I think it ruined me – I havent had another 5 star read since :// Best Sequel You’ve Read So Far in 2021:      #murderfunding by Gretchen McNeil was some good, campy fun, and far surpassed the previous book. Honorable mention to The Heart Forger by Rin Chupeco, bc I really haven’t read many sequels. New Release You Haven’t Read Yet, But Want To:      All Kinds of Other by James Sie. But I also don’t pay all that much attention to new releases, so I can list them all lol: Tell No Tales by Sam Maggs & Kendra Wells, The Captain (Tales of the Wendy #3) by Erin Michelle Sky & Steven Brown, and Peaces by Helen Oyeyemi. Most Anticipated Release For Second Half of 2021:      Out of Character by Annabeth Albert – it comes out July 6th, and since I’m typing this in the wee hours of July 5th, it qualifies :P Biggest Disappointment:      On Stranger Tides by Tim Powers; I bought this book back when potc4 came out and finally got around to it and it was NOT worth waiting 10+yrs for lmao. Honorable mention to The 2000s Made Me Gay by Grace Perry, which is a good book, but didn’t meet my (high) expectations. Biggest Surpise:      Again, The Knockout Queen, but runner up is Squared Away by Annabeth Albert; I’ve read most of this romance series, so I thought I knew exactly what to expect, but then a demisexual main character threw me for the biggest loop in the best way. Favorite New Author:      Rin Chupeco is the only new author I’ve read multiple books (2) by, and I do love her writing. Rufi Thorpe and Torrey Peters are gonna be faves soon, but I’ve only read one from each of them so far. Newest Fictional Crush:      Kate Kane (Iron & Velvet), Jas Singh (Girl Gone Viral), Kalen & Khalad, (The Bone Witch trilogy), and don’t @ me about this – James Hook (Tales of the Wendy trilogy)      [me: i don’t crush on characters anymore      also me: no no, they could get it] Newest Favorite Character:      Maybe it’s just because I read it so recently, but Reese, Katrina, and Ames from Detransition, Baby by Torrey Peters really stuck with me. They felt so real and complex and true, like they were neighbors I could go visit. Book That Made You Cry This Year:      The Knockout Queen (again) and Detransition, Baby (again). Normally, I cry all the time – happy, sad, overwhelmed, etc, but I do think The Knockout Queen truly ruined me. After I finished it, I closed the ebook and just wept in the dark for a solid half hour. The only thing that’s come close since was Detransition, Baby, which was more overemotional/‘choked up’ than actual tears. Book That Made You Happy This Year:      The Wendy by Erin Michelle Sky and Steven Brown exceeded my expectations and was a fun adventure story, and again, Squared Away giving me a demi character in a romance novel made me practically giddy lol Favorite Book Adaptation You Saw This Year:      Does The Irregulars on netflix count? I don’t think I’ve seen any this year. Inversely, I’m reading The Princess Bride by WIlliam Goldman and enjoying it just as much as the movie. Favorite Review You’ve Written This Year:      Shocker: The Knockout Queen. But I’m also gonna be salty bc I think I’m better at writing 1 star reviews, so I’m also partial to my review of The Wishsong of Shannara by Terry Brooks and The Loch by Steve Alten. Most Beautiful Book You Bought So Far This Year:      Radio Silence by Alice Oseman; I haven’t rly bought any books this year and when I have theyre either gifts or ones I’ve already read. This I bought w a xmas gift card lol What Books Do You Need To Read By the End of the Year:      Starsight by Brandon Sanderson (I’ve borrowed a copy I should eventually return lol), and aside from the stuff i’m in the middle of, I’d like to get around to Wicked by Gregory Maguire, Radio Silence by Alice Oseman, and Maurice by EM Forester. Those are soft goals though, I think I’ve actually gotten through most of the books I’d wanted to read this year.

damn that got long lol. uhhm who reads? I’m tagging @sp-aced-out, @alianvna, @waynedrake, @kimabutch, and @sunflowremoji (feel free to sit out if you don’t wanna!) And anyone else, if you see this and wanna participate, do it & tag me! I’d love to talk more books!

#tag games #long post / #maddy's reads

[fuckyeah5sostakemehome]

Duck Duck Goose- Lashton

Paring: Ashton and Luke

Tooth rotting Fluff, Hard G- mentions of sex, not edited, first fic posted on here

Let me know what you think. Enjoy some fluffy Lashton as kids

Luke was four years old and was way too excited to play with the older kids. He was trying to contain it as much as possible because the big kids invited him to play duck duck goose. His favorite game of course. He was mostly excited because Ashton, who is almost seven, asked him to join. No one ever joined this big kid group. Therefore, his younger friends envied Luke. Well Luke also had an `in` with this group. Ashton was Luke’s neighbor and secret best friend. Ashton normally could not be seen with Luke because he was younger but needed a boy to play with because his sister was just born, so Luke became Ashton best secret friend. Luke was surprised when Ashton asked him over to play duckduckgoose but so overjoyed. He did not spill the secret of him and Ashton being friends. Luke acted tough to appear as if he was a big kid. Ashton was grateful of course.

The other big kids (6-7 yrs. old), aka Mikey, Calum, Zayn, Niall, Liam, Harry, Andrew, and John all complained about letting a younger kid play with them but Ashton told them to shut up because he was the leader. Luke was so small compared to the rest of the big kids but Ashton knew he could run fast. As they sat in the circle, Ashton was trying to decide who would start this game. Luke sat next to Ashton because it was the only spot open and he was somewhat scared of the bigger but knew Ash would protect him.

Ashton snapped to gain the boys’ attention and said, “Okay guys I am choosing Mikey to start off the game.”

Mikey rolled his eyes, stood up, and started saying, “Duck duck duck.”

He was tapping everyone’s head, and tapped Luke’s head little too hard for the four-year old.

Luke shook it out, still happy to be there and Ash glared at Mikey as he yelled “Goose!” while tapping Zayns head.

Zayn jumped up and started after a screeching Mikey. After a few rounds no one had picked Luke but he did not care he was happy to be in the big kids presence. It was Liam’s turn and he lightly tapped on Luke s head saying, “Goose.”

Luke did not register that he was chosen. Ashton nudged Luke’s arm and smiled, “Love it’s your turn.”

Luke smiled back, stood up, and started running after Liam. Half way around the circle Andrew stuck his foot out and tripped Luke. Liam did not plan for that to happen and he stopped quickly looking shocked. Ashton yelled, “What the hell Andrew!” as he ran over to Luke who had hit the ground hard and skinned his knee.

Ashton kneeled next to Luke and asked, “Are you okay Lukey?”

Luke nodded trying not to let the tears spill over. He did not want to be seen as a baby in front of the big kids.

“They are butt heads…let’s get you home to clean your knee.* Luke giggled because Ash said a bad word. Ashton smiled and helped Luke up so they could go home.

Once a distance away from the older kids, Luke stuttered, “T-thanks Ashton.”

“For what?”

“Let-ting m-me play to-day.”

“Oh Luke. That is what best friends are for.”

“Secret best friends?” Luke looked up hopeful. He did not know if Ash would be mad at him for being tripped, even though it was not his fault.

“No Luke …”

Luke looked sad as if he could cry again.

“We are real best friends…it’s a good thing Luke.”

Luke’s smile perked right back up…the one Ashton loved, dimples and all.

They walked into Luke s house, and Liz said, “Hi boys…oh god! Luke are you okay baby?” she noticed Luke s dirty shirt and scraped knee.

“Y-yea. Ashy hel-ped me,” Luke smiled up at Ashton.

Ashton heart melted at the four year old.

“And Miss Liz, I was gonna clean up the scrape so he can be clean for dinner.” Ashton said politely, smiling.

“Okay boys. Hurry up dinner will be ready soon, and Ashton you can stay for dinner.”

“Thank you. Come on Lukey.” Ashton grabbing Luke s hand taking him to the bathroom.

Ashton sat Luke on the toilet seat and poured peroxide on the scrape.

“Ow! Ow!” Luke yelped, squirming a bit.

“Shhh,” Ashton kissed Luke’s cheek. “It’s ok love. Let’s get you a Power Rangers Band-Aid yeah?”

Luke nodded. Ashton found the blue ranger Band-Aid to match Luke s adorable blue eyes.

“All done. Let’s go eat. I’m starving,” Ashton rubbed his stomach and then tickled Luke’s tummy and said, “Bet you’re hungry too.”

Luke giggled, “Aaaasshhhy stooooppp iiittt.” Ashton laughed too.

They walked into the kitchen where Liz was setting down the boys plates on the table.

“Oh Ashton your mom called, and said she’s gonna be home late so you can sleep over tonight.”

“You know what this means Luke?”

Luke shook his head no looking up with a mouth full of food.

“We get to have a sleepover Lukey… means we can stay up late, and watch movies in our pajamas and eat chocolate.”

“Oooh I like chocolate.” Luke bounced up and down his chair. It was now Ashton turn to giggle.

“Only two pieces of chocolate. You boys still need to go to sleep,” Liz said.

“Ah man.” Luke sounded bummed.

“Lu I’ll let you pick the movie.”

“Wooo-hoo.”

They finished their dinner and quickly dressed in their jammies and settled into Luke’s bed and started watching Lion King. Luke snuggled into Ashton chest half way through the movie and said, “I’m slee-py.”

“You can go to sleep Lukey-boy.” Ashton looked down at Luke yawning.

“I love you Ashy…night night.” Luke whispered. Ashton melted again.

“Love you too Luke,” Ashton kissed the top of Luke’s head and closed his eyes as well, leaving the movie play on.

“So Lauren, that’s when I knew I loved your brother,” Luke explained. Lauren wanted a true romance bedtime story since she was visiting her brother in LA.

“Oh my goodness that is soooo cute. Please tell me more stories.” Lauren squealed.

“No more embarrassing Ashton stories. It’s time for bed young lady.” Ashton interrupted story time.

“Mood killer, dad.” Lauren joked as she went to brush her teeth.

Luke laughed, “She is just like you.”

“Great.” Ashton rolled his eyes, laughing.

Ashton and Luke trotted off to bed themselves.

Once settled in bed Ash asked, “Is that really when you fell in love with me?”

“At four you don’t know what love is but I knew I never wanted to be with anybody else.”

“Luke, do you want to know when I fell in love with you?” Ashton cheeky smile appeared.

“When?” Luke responded looking up at his lover.

“When I was seventeen and it was the first time you deep throated me.” Ashton replied giggling.

“Fuck off.” Luke playfully smacked Ashtons arm. “I can’t believe you still remember that.”

“Luke I remember everything you do to me… from the first feeling of butterflies in my stomach you gave me when I was six. The time you kissed me when I scored a goal in my soccer game, to when we started exploring each other’s bodies. Oh yeah the time we had amazing phone sex while you were on vacation with your family…I came so hard.”

Ashton giggled letting Luke relive the memory before starting again, “I remember the first I love you’s as boyfriends and when I was so nervous and asked you to be my boyfriend. When we first got Petunia and we stayed up for days just looking at her because she was snoring so loud. I want you to know I love your laugh, your bum, your eyes, and your sass, pretty much everything about you. I think it’s about time I do this…” Ashton trailed off, sliding out of bed. He walked over to his dresser where he grabbed a little black box.

Luke was confused and sat up in bed. Ashton got down on one knee, and started, “Luke Robert Hemmings, you mean so much to me and I didn’t have a clue when I was gonna do this but tonight seemed so fitting. When I heard you telling Lauren that you loved me at four, I knew this was the right moment. I have loved you since we were secret best friends and Luke will you do me the honors of marrying me?”

Luke had his hands over his mouth completely shocked, “Oh my god! Yes Ashy. Yes! Yes!”

Ashton stood up and Luke jumped into his arms. After Luke calmed down Ashton put the ring on Luke’s finger. Tears flowed as Luke continued looking at his left hand in wonderment.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

#this will always be one of the most superior lashton moment #lashton is real #lashton af #lashton #lashton hemwin #lashton smut #5sos fic #first fic #ashton fluff #luke fluf #5sos fluff