#you have to learn his habits

[crabsnpersimmons]

CRAB IS YOUR MOON OKAY WITH HUGS?

PLEASE THIS GUYS NEED SOME AFFECTION

LET ME JUST-

GHHHHHH-/pos

#fnaf moon #Moon New Do Same You AU #fnaf dca #dca fandom #mutual shenanigans #other people's art #crab art #traditional art #Moon likes hugs #but he's very particular about them #he prefers hugs around his shoulders or his waist #he does not like being hugged from behind #he does not like being hugged by surprise #he's a bit skittish #like a cat #you have to learn his habits #and sometimes just wait for him to come to you #you know i am up to No GoodTM when i draw extreme close ups of Moon and his back #i also don't know what possessed me to do this in watercolours #but... i'm okay with the final look #i'm just very rusty #and i remembered why the last time i painted in watercolour i went into an artblock #it really do be a “trust the process” kinda deal #also for people who saw the wip #haHA you thought this was about moon ass but it was actually MOON ANGST #MOON ANGST FRIDAY #i always post my moon angst on friday it seems

[rocketbirdie]

destiny intersects with the ruined reactor...

little details!

#here i go establishing new questionable habits... #'oh yeah lemme just uhhh create an entire soundtrack to accompany my art! lmao no biggie' #but DUDE masashi hamauzu is a legend and his music sounds SO good in the ffvii soundfont ok #it's irresistable. i don't have a say in the matter. my brain says 'ok music time' and i am at its mercy like cloud giving in to jenova. #ALSO i learned so much about the soundfont while recreating the reactor section!! #you know that subtle triplet beat 'train chugging' sorta sound in the mako reactor theme? #it's actually acoustic bass plucks getting cut off SUPER short in rapid succession! #the same track uses a very deep pitched reverse cymbal sample as a spooky atmospheric 'breathing' noise. #idk man i just admire how creative og ffvii is in general with its limited tools. #ok the nerd urge has passed i'm good now #just kidding. gongaga has me in a chokehold. i'm obsessed with this place. do not talk to me about it because i will not shut up. #ffvii #ff7 #ffvii rebirth #cloud strife #my art <3 #my music <3

[just-rainbow-thoughts]

Something something similar yet different idk I’ve never been good at comics or captions

#very much enjoy that face on the bottom #i am the op #jus sum doodly doos #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #you judge his habits he judges yours #also if your clone is weird where do you think they got it from? #you can’t tell me peppino’s a totally normal guy #probably does shit like ice cream hand just to feel something (diy frostbite👍) #probably lived alone for so long he forgot how to normal #it’s okay I never learned how to normal #strange man and the only brother he actually cares about who’s even stranger than him #also I do have something made for the noise update I just wanna wait til it’s less of a spoiler

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[symbioticsimplicity]

I have a theory that someone else has probably already put out but I haven't seen it so here we go.

I don't think Alastor is actually all that powerful.

Propaganda under the cut.

There are a lot of things that make me think this but we'll start with the first and frankly most obvious to me.

His methodology. Alastor's main thing is making contracts and deals. When we're first introduced to him in the pilot, its with a warning to never make a deal with him. While plenty of other Overlords obviously wheel and deal, I think Alastor's are different. They're more binding and more dangerous because they're his modus operandi.

Another thing is his seeming lack of territory. Every Overlord has actual terf that we see them in, except for Alastor. This could be from lack of interest, or due to having been gone so long, or what have you but it seemed like a strange thing to have not mentioned. In addition, Carmilla, who was leading a meeting on the property and interests of all the represented Overlords and how to protect it, was utterly dismissive of his sudden return. Which to me implies that whatever he controls is likely minimal at best. Meaning him being there is pretty inconsequential to the larger picture. Dude was able to disappear for seven years and it was mostly fine? So what does he actually have?? (My only thought honestly is that maybe the air is his space since radio waves and all. That would honestly be broke as hell but there's no real evidence for this, is would just be really cool.) As much as Vox as making a dig at him, he did have a good point that the reach of radio has certainly died down over the years. While that alone doesn't mean Alastor's power has waned, its not really a *good* sign for him. He still has speakers all over but that and one really rundown store front with a single radio are really the only traces we see of him outside of the hotel.

This bit is conjecture, but when talking about his past, not only does no one ever mention HOW he killed so many powerful Overlords, they don't go into detail about much at all. There's every chance that he could have contracted them the same way he did with Husk and either forced or waited for them to break their end of their deals and THEN used them as fodder to terrorize the masses. Most of his power comes from fear and word of mouth. Most people don't even bother fucking with him because they've heard the stories, or the broadcast.

Which brings me to my next point: The Broadcasts. There are a LOT of ways that Alastor and Vox parallel each other and I can't help but wonder if using their medium to deceive people isn't one of them. So far a lot of the magic we see Alastor use is largely illusionary. Phantoms and shadows and temporary changes of environment. So what if his broadcasts are the same? What if he DOESN'T kill the Overlords he claims to have and instead used his broadcast to simulate it instead. Like War of the Worlds, but on purpose. Honestly it would be smart of him, especially if he's NOT as strong as he seems. This is also conjecture but if he made deals with those Overlords instead, he could still have them stashed away somewhere and just be calling on them and their power as needed. (Also: Husk. This man is a constant pain in the ass and usually disrespectful at best. The only time he pops off on him about it though is when Husk mentions his deal which is really just a big No-No. But he still only *threatens him* which to me implies that he actually does need him. If not for his services, even if only for the power granted by his contract. In the same way that Val doesn't actually kill Angel or anything because he can't REALLY afford to, so he controls him in other ways. If Al isn't this super strong demon, he can't really afford to just go wasting the contracts hes got due to momentary irritation when he can bring them back to heel with some light terror.)

The next thing that makes me think he's probably not super powerful is his fight with Adam. Not because he lost (I firmly believe he only actually lost because he was fucking around most of the time/ wasn't fighting for loved ones) but because of the form he took to do it. He was in a life or death fight with an ostensibly high ranking angel, and yet he didn't pull out anything more than he would have used to fight other sinners. Sure, that could be him being prideful, but I just don't think so. Home boy was being recorded and presumably knew that, if he was being prideful shouldn't he have gone balls to the wall??

In relation to that, he also made a deal himself. Not that we know what it was for or who its with, but would someone as control oriented as Alastor really make a deal if he didn't HAVE to? Overlords don't just DO that, there had to have been a compelling reason and honestly assuming Alastor isn't as strong as he makes himself out to be gives a very good opening for it.

Smaller detail, but it still matters, the smiling. He very clearly uses it as both a shield and a tool to help him maintain control of a situation. Thats not really the kind of thing you think of and commit to if you're the strongest person in the room. Covering up weaknesses obsessively is the sort of thing someone who's fronting does so their secret stays exactly that.

In the same vein, the way he reacted to Lucifer. He was threatened, which is understandable given that Luci is leagues above even the strongest Overlords, but I think it was slightly more than that. Having Lucifer around would make it drastically obvious very quickly that Al isn't as strong as he claims. So of course he tries to unbalance the situation and put focus somewhere else, the same as he always does. (Its actually the same thing he does in his duet with Vox. I'm almost certain Vox IS actually stronger than Alastor but hes so wrapped up in Al's head games he might never notice.)

It's honestly unclear if this has always been the case with him, or if its a result of his deal or his time away or something else entirely, but to me it seems incredibly likely. Alastor mostly keeps order and power through fear, not through enormous shows of power. And even those when he does them are strategic and mostly against opponents he knows are weaker than him. He's clever as all fuck, and still very dangerous for it but I don't think hes actually all that physically powerful.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #the radio demon #i love him I really do but this has been bothering me since the pilot #hes a mover and a shaker and I'm pretty sure hes hustling all of hell #which is frankly fucking impressive #what i wouldn't give for his backstory to show his daddy being a conman #mama is respectable but black in 1920 something #and daddy is a pos conman #alastor the gentleman con artist just FEELS right #especially ESPECIALLY if he was a white passing mixed race man #like actually that would be amazing #and then he just kept up old habits when he died and learned he could FINALLY have the power he never had in life #except its still all a lie #I'd be fucking foaming at the mouth I'm telling you #also i didn't mention this but hommie is a fucking DEER #hes a PREY ANIMAL #that alone seems pRETTY FUCKING TELLING

[linabirb]

so fun fact about me before i go to sleep (it is so so late. i got too focused on making my sims sexy i forgot about the time and now. the quencies). i have this weird habit like. when im gaming or drawing or doing smth else i often talk to myself or like. say it in my head but basically i imagine that im actually streaming and im talking to my viewers so it's like im going "how are we feeling about this chat" or "hi chat today we're doing this". and i often feel like i can actually "see" or "hear" some of the comments in my head (i am so normal btw. this is definitely not a symptom at all) and i reply to them and idk it sounds weird and i understand how dumb it is but it actually helps me feel better.

so i was playing ts4 rn and i was like "hey any (character name) simps in the chat wanna help me pick out clothes for him" and i was again "seeing" comments in my head and laughing and then. i heard a voice that sounded a lot like one of my headmates' and she was like "he's kinda cute tho :D".

needed a moment. and then went "ah. ah okay. okay it all makes sense now"

#wow. a girl who knows she hears voices in her head finds out those voices can actually talk to her too #no but i was like “nah that silly habit isn't related to my did at all <3 that's just me being goofy” #.. some comments i “saw” or “heard” were about how i make some people smile or feel better and how they hope that my life will get better #... UEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... #idk. it's a weird feeling. it's like you have a habit of talking to your wall. one day you find out it has a mouth. #you think it's weird but learn to live with it. one day you say hi to it as you always do. it says hi back #i really should go to sleep sjdkdldldl #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ] #can't find our system tag rn..

[pinkseas]

wondering how c!karl would feel if he were to remember quackity. wondering about everything coming back in bits and pieces as he learns more and more about the inbetween and other side and how to split his time between them.

at first there’s unease and a vague sense of horror because why is he remembering such sweet, loving moments with his murderer? and then he’s angrier (more afraid) than ever before because things were good. he has such incredible memories with quackity and quackity still somehow turned around and killed him, what the fuck? but the more that come back the less certain he is of that. because all of them are good. there are so many, coming back piece by piece, and only the memory of his death stands out as something truly awful. he stops being mad that quackity would betray him like that and starts wondering why.

and then one day he remembers agreeing to it, remembers the plan. quackity murdering him slots seamlessly into place with the context behind it and it’s terrifying because it makes perfect sense. he can remember the terror associated with seeing quackity that day and his murder but he cant feel it anymore. of course quackity killed him. that was the plan. they all agreed on it. hell, quackity was the one who was most vocally against it happening.

it still doesnt add up. because if they were engaged and things were so good and quackity didnt betray him, why arent they together? why isnt quackity in kinoko? what drove them apart, what has he still forgotten? he remembers building kinoko. he remembers planning to invite sapnap and george and quackity. he remembers weeks and then months spent with only one half of his heart.

no matter how much time goes by, he does not remember inviting quackity to kinoko. the pit in his stomach grows, and grows, and grows.

#i started typing way more than this but then realized no you have spoken enough girl be quiet #idk i just. mmmmm. how would it make him feel #realizing that the catalyst and the reason it all fell apart was Him. #miscommunication sure but karl was at the center of it #at the beginning forgetting to invite him and in the middle forgetting he existed altogether and at the end only knowing him as a murderer #he remembers when the inbetween would smile at him. he remembers how that smile looked so similar to quackity's. #he wonders if he forgot on his own or if the inbetween saw an opportunity to begin to isolate him and took it #hes smarter now he knows to split his time between them #to stay balanced and learn from both sides #but he didnt always know. he wasnt always careful. #i like to think that after the whole argument sapnap goes and visits quackity #and makes it a habit to see him frequently and split his time between the two of them #and he and q work out a lot of the miscommunication #both of them having assumed the other went and made a country without so much as thinking of them #when in reality both places were meant to house all four of them #neither of them knowing what the FUCK is going on with karl #ugh idk its all in my head somewhere #its not THE fix it au but its kinda sorta something i guess #alyalyoxenfree

[cruelsister-moved2]

that thread i rbed like ages ago about men's urge to disagree/object to/obstruct women for no reason has seriously reset my brain its so crazy but i think actually one of the rare things that actually might represent a way forward for how men engage with women. like there's always going to be the rightwing ardent misogynists who don't care that they're doing this but for all the men in the middle that do on some level want to be better it represents 1. fairly confronting evidence that your position in the patriarchy actually affects how you relate to women much more than you realise it does even if you think of yourself as self-aware and 2. a genuine example of something that makes us all suffer because the fact you niggle on every single issue like what flavour of ice cream to buy is unhealthy for relationships (of any kind) AND introduces unnecessary amount of background strain to your life for no real gain. maybe im being an idealist but i love the idea of a man experiencing a certain amount of horror upon recognition of this as a catalyst to other more meaningful recognitions and changes both in how he evaluates the competence of women but also in recognition of the subjectivity of he perceives things i.e i think one of the biggest barriers to confronting the housework gap is often that men don't SEE how much women are doing and also don't SEE things that need to be done, to the extent that ive seen men argue that the solution is just for women to not care about being surrounded by mess. anyway no conclusion but i cant stop thinking about that thread both super horrifyingand also kind of hopeful

#i absolutely think it applies to other forms of marginalisation as well #but can take different forms e.g a man assuming he will make better choices than his wife even about something really minor and stupid #vs an abled person assuming they have more insight on a disabled persons' experienes/condition #but i think its the same fundamental urge going on #but yeah like personally i find disagreeing with ppl really unpleasant when it builds up that its like you need to pick your battles for #when it matters. of course you can go to far and avoid conflict but like as a perfectionist autist i have to constantly address my tendency #to like. get annoyed about someone pouring milk wrong or something. like even when they are actually wrong. sometimes it doesnt matter. #and i think the fact that this is how you treat people you LOVE and in many cases would probably say you respect #should make it liek especially wounding to realise #i also dont think women are immune to this behaviour as i said above and after all we pick up communication habits from the people we #communicate with. but i think it stems from patriarchy in pretty much all its iterations #and theres also an answering affect women can develop where you just shut down and learn to give in on every issue/devote your energy to #avoidit coming up in the first place #like you stop saying what flavour of ice cream you want at all. which i think is the end goal of this behaviour whether thats actually what #the person doing it desires or not thats what it seeks to achieve

[thethingything]

local man discovers he's gotten into the habit of using DBT techniques without actually being taught them because at some point he realised that the things we get the urge to do when we have strong emotions often aren't healthy and that he doesn't like how he feels afterwards so he started noticing when that was happening and going "fuck that shit" and doing the opposite instead

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #talking to 🍬 about various stuff we do because of our social anxiety and what are probably undiagnosed BPD symptoms #and we realised he's gotten himself into the habit of paying attention to how his emotions affect his judgement #and trying to take a step back when he's experiencing an emotion that he knows gives us the urge to do stuff that's not healthy for us #and he said he felt bad about having those emotions and urges to do unhealthy stuff #at which point I was like ''okay but you're choosing not to act on that and to take a step back and do something healthier instead #which is what actually matters here and is also something that takes a hell of a lot of self-awareness and self-control'' #this is shit they teach you in therapy that's difficult specifically because you're going against your brain's instincts for a situation #and we were never taught how to do it so you've just fucking taught yourself to do it instead #without actually knowing it's a specific technique that has a name #I was aware of it but had never actually looked at the instructions properly because when I stumbled across it #it was at a point where being told to go against what my emotions made me want to do felt invalidating and upsetting #I've literally just pieced together that ''oh right that's what that is and how it's supposed to work #and how it's meant to feel when you do it right'' #anyway all this is to say that I keep being impressed with the amount of progress 🍬's made on learning healthy coping mechanisms #including things I could never seem to get the hang of when I was fronting more and handling more stuff #and I'm really proud of him and 🦋 and everyone else who's been handling stuff within the system and keeping things running #but also nobody in here seems to realise how much progress they've made with anything until someone else points it out #I just realised I should tag this as #happy posting #because I'm talking about stuff that's going well and where we've actually made a lot of progress

[2003toyotaprius]

We were not told about the origins of the red scarf, are we free to assume then it's been given away with a newborn by the parents

[Image ID: A sketch of young preteen Ocelot wearing said scarf and oversized coat. He looks straight at the viewer with an unpleasant vary expression. The sketch is not colored with an exception of red scarf and elements of the face. / End ID]

#not that i think it would mean much to ocelot #maybe rather his next caretaker impressed by the Boss insisted he took care of the thing and he accepted it more as a habit #idk i think it would fit #the scarf being yet another thing he got from his parents #important in shaping his personality but having no value whatsoever on the benefit of coming from his family #look if we acknowledge the remark from mgsv then he clearly learned about the boss and she still meant nothing to him #the only value is her idea that bibo deems important #not even her idea but bibo's clear misinterpretation and bastardisation of her idea #it's fascinating how he seems to feel clearly cut from his heritage #when it's such a big deal and often main source of suffering from other characters in the series #mgs #text #revolver ocelot #mine #bought more true grit brushes at black week sale and they are an #so amazing makes you feel like you can draw actually #edit: imagine descriptions are a fun challenge they make you describe rather precisely things you kind of just put there

[astrxealis]

fun story i got the dlc of 'a date with death' at school LMFAO ..... i have cash but not gcash (it's a filipino thing) so i was talking w my friend in class who also played the game (and she calls me a nerd /pos a lot lol) and i was like i want the dlc but i have no gcash... and she was like ok i'll give you gcash..... enabler ....... but also she wants me to tell her abt it so. ^_^ ecks dee

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #super duper fun day at school again! wow. idk. love my friends. #i am severely cramming on my yearbook stuff tho haha... oops..... #hope you all had a wonderful day too !!! :3 <3 #currently insane btw uh sm is going on (/pos & /neg) but i am. calm rn i think. yeah. #also finally played omori again ^__^ and i've been playingg ddlc myself for the first time despite knowing it since middle school/release #and i had fun being silly w my classmates and friends who know me well by now for the little hyper 'tism thing i am #...and today my two friends in class have said i seem autistic. or maybe also adhd. #!!!!! which is a Lot coming from them like i've said b4 bcs one is literally going into psych and was tested as a young kid #and the other i learned today has been asked often by diagnosed friends if they have adhd #and my diagnosed friend (hi bestie if you see this) thinks i'm adhd w a bit of the tism. so...!!!! #actually the more i realize how diff i am from the normal person the more i start to truly wonder again. hm. #also i'm writing a ton... but like in my notebook :3 gna write in gdocs some more + for school & self-indulgent & content !!!!! yay #gna do more game dev and design too and read. aaahhh and exercise and take care of myself and sleep better..... #will take care of myself!!! will do my best!!! and make it a habit!!! i am happy rn can you tell

[ovipositer]

never ask a man his salary a woman her age or a discord mod what age he and his girlfriend were when they first started “talking”

#every once in a while it occurs to me out of the blue #that he probably feels so full of himself #since I just didn’t respond to his harassment #and I abandoned this blog #he loves having the last word #he thinks he ruined my life and that I’m miserable and alone now #and it makes me feel guilty that I didn’t lay into him more #I do plan to vent my frustrations at some point #but I will do it in my leisure in my own time #I’m not an ugly jobless discord mod who makes my full-time working gf clean up five cats’ litter boxes and fix my food for me etc etc ^_^ #I guess I don’t have as much time as you do to dedicate to bothering others! ^_^ #not that posting on my own personal blog— that quite frankly you wouldn’t be reading if you weren’t obsessed w me— is bothering anyone! ^_^ #also I am not in the habit of bickering with every single person I ever meet #I prefer to focus my attention on the people and things that give me joy #if there’s anything I’ve learned from this it’s to yeet toxic people out of my life immediately. no second chances. I have no regrets. #my standards actually were never too high. plenty of ppl can meet them. I’m not the only person like me in the world. go figure. #it’s actually not normal to be as sick and incapable of getting along w others as you and the rest of your ‘community’ #still. I would like to speak on what happened because I regret that I held my tongue for those two years. #I don’t think it’s healthy to bottle up all of your negativity. #but I’ve realized now it may literally be years before I will have half the mind to think back on that time in my life and talk abt it #so Idk. I just wanted to say. #I genuinely hope he kills himself #I do not say that lightly #I am not someone who throws that phrase around like it’s nothing. #I genuinely mean it with every inch of my heart. he deserves to die horribly. #I just find solace in the fact that he is so miserable. not because he wants for anything material. #he is spoiled and lazy. but still he does not enjoy his life. how could he? all he does is badger ppl online all day. #it just blows my mind that someone that looks like THAT wld talk to me that way 🤣 you’d think being the ultimate loser wld humble him a bit #just wanted 2 get that out of the way #oviposting

[timeisacephalopod]

I've long had a peeve with what we define as healthy or unhealthy because when you think about it some shit makes NO sense. For example my nephew playing video games for hours and hours is Unhealthy and Bad, but when I was his age I spent hours and hours reading and that was Good. Both result in eye strain, books are even more solitary than video games which you can often play with others, I rarely went outside to play once I was a younger teen and my mom stopped throwing me outside all day similar to my nephew, and basically if you break it down my nephew and I (at his age) were basically doing the same shit but books are Good and video games are Bad, so my hobbies were Good and his are BAD despite the fact that I was reading YA vampire novels not fucking Shakespeare.

You could argue Stephanie Meyer was more likely to poison my brain than a fuckin video game, but no no let's whine that my nephew has hobbies he likes as if I didn't act EXACTLY the same way with a mildly different hobby no one cared if I spent doing from the moment I got up till two am because I just had to read the next chapter consequences in the morning be damned like come on I'm on my nephew's side on this one. It makes no sense to claim just because I was reading my behavior was fine and his, which is the SAME behavior with a different hobby, is somehow bad just because there's an assumption books are Always Good For Brain while video games Melt Brain (citation needed)

#winters ramblings #my mom sometimes comolains about shit my neices or nephews do and like look man. oldest Nephew playing his viddy games #is NO DIFFERENT than me reading books that were by all accounts trash. didnt mean i got nothing from my reading habits #a large vocabulary for one. and i get that video games with internet can have their Own Issues special to them #but both Nephew and i stared at some type of Thing for HOURS on end in fucked up positions straining our eyes #you will not convince me that the fact that it was a BOOK i was into instead of a video game that somehow my nephew is Very BadWrong #for having a normal hobby he spends a lot of time on. you know. just like i did with reading DESPITE most of my reading not being #an intellectual pursuit. like i was not learning SHIT from my ya novels ok lmao. except maybe Hunger Games #still though i hate when if i break it down a kid is being held to higher standards than an adult #or the kid is being held to a different stamdard than ANOTHER kid for no reason except moralizing their hobby in stupid ways #kid likes his games let him do shit he likes without bitching at him

[isekyaaa]

this kinda turned into vent, so if you dont feel like it just ignore it!

I absolutely love your k*avetham analysis because same. I just realised this, but extremely reminds me of a friend that just doesn't get better. It's been 8 years and not only they haven't improved AT ALL, but I would also argue it's gotten worse. And it's frustrating because you've been there, tried to support them through bad times, but then you get the same rant for 124124 time and you realize that even with all the help they've been receiving, their situation hasn't improved by one bit. And you wonder, is it the fault of friends/family/psychologists not being enough, or are they a problem?

And Kaveh has been getting help! He had a lot of projects lined up, nearly all of Sumeru loves him, but you cannot be stuck in the toxic mentality forever. Alhaitham was friends with a boy that was so guilt-ridden that he was willing to sacrifice himself to get rid of it, and several years later he is still at that stage. You cannot help a person that doesn't want to be helped, and Alhaitham is not even a person who would hold your hand to resolve your issues. He would be supporting you from behind, waiting to catch you when you stumble but leaving you to it. And he has been doing that! But no wonder he's sometimes snippy at Kaveh when he's always getting dragged into his problems.

fejiwoafjiew I wrote a whole rant response to this and then tumblr ended up crashing OTL But you get me, anon!!!! It's tough, right? Seeing someone put themselves through that. And no matter how much you try to help, they just won't get better. And I will be honest with you. In my opinion, it's them that's the problem, not the people around them. They truly do not want to get better because of the responsibility that comes with it. It's just easier to suffer.

It just really sucks to see as a whole. Like look at Kaveh. He's caring, responsible, dutiful, talented, friendly, creative, opinionated, driven, ethical, self-sacrificing, etc etc etc. He has so many genuinely good traits. And yet how do the people close him know him? Someone that is chronically unhappy and complaining constantly. People like him become a self-fulfilling prophecy through self-sabotage. They push away any support they get because they can't see the big picture. It's just frustratingly sad.

I know this would never happen in game, but I just want Kaveh to leave Sumeru for a bit. He needs to just start anew. Maybe move to Mondstadt. Let the culture there engulf him in love and care. Let Venti listen to his problems a bit. Idk. Mentally my solution for any troubled soul is to move to Mondstadt HAHA. And then maybe after he gets better, he can then move back and be more resilient and just... happier.

#interactions #either way he needs to get out of alhaitham's house #i think that would be a good first thing to do #alhaitham is just Not Good for him and only exacerbates his insecurities #it's hard because one could definitely say alhaitham needs to change and learn how to be kinder #but like... #it feels like if i say that to him i'll have to say that to myself as well #it'll be admitting that i haven't been as good as a friend that i could have been and that i am not supportive enough #granted i AM kinder than alhaitham #but still haha #it's hard knowing where to draw the line between kindness and enabling their bad habits #and also how far you should go with your kindness before you're dragged into the mire with them #i think because i haven't found an answer to that myself i can't force any expectations on alhaitham #it's just a messy messy situation #but i'm sure you understand completely what i mean haha #thank you for the ask anon <3

[apocalympdicks]

im venting in the tags

ignore me lmao

#vent #Anyway. im a personal needs aide in a skills classroom. what does this mean???? they stuck me in a skills xl #classroom & the teacher straight up wants compliance & not learning. my kid also has a nurse who is so abelist that she regularly refers to #the kid as essentially a bump on a log. (paraphrasing) oh and tje teacher has written him off as needing a dif skills level & doesnt have #ANY real lesson plans for my kid so i have to make up lessons and adapt to his skill level as needed. I'm basically making sure he meets his #IEP goals with no real help & everyone around me sure hell never get it. which btw. He does. It takes a little bit cuz dudes often exhausted #and so its like he can only do a few lessons a day cuz it takes him so much energy to go to school & his parents load him up w/ tasks & #therapies so hes like ALWAYS busy even tho he needs rest sometimes ya know? and like its u g h u g g g g g h h h h h h #And its like jfc can we manage expectations & assume competence hes disabled hes not a superhero but hes also not USELESS #plus even though hes literally had a major seizure everytime hes come to school w/ his nonregular nurse his family decided to send him in #today with a new nurse LUCKILY no seizures today & the school nurse is also teaching me his action plan & how to use the gbutton so i can #do the job of the nurse if need be. Which honestly i do need to cuz his regular nurse is. BAD at her job #like complains to me about documenting incidents bad. Gets upset with me for tracking the bathroom habits cuz it looks like were not doing #the job. which. BITCH I NEED 2 PEOPLE TO LIFT HIM HES 16 AND YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME WHEN IT COMES TO THE SCHEDULE YOU 'KNOW BETTER' AND #REFUSE TO. YOU ARENT DOING THE JOB. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN #and she may or may not take vitals at home but she sure as shit never does at school even tho apparently shes supposed to

[knaveofmogadore]

Hang..

#ran out of tags on the other post but I've got so manynof these #was best friends with a pair of roommates who became so intensely codependent that they both had breakdowns when the other studied abroad #a guy who had siblings regularly terrorized my friend who also had siblings with the corpse of a roachnfor over a year (roommates) #ive known ONE situation where the only chold terrorized an apartment of sibling people. but that's because they were all poc and she was #insanely racist. like so racist that MY little pale jewish ass got weird vibes from her on first contact #learned some good lessons from roommates but none of them are things I'd be able to explain to a kid #except maybe 'if you get the feeling someone's mad at you all the time but won't tell you for some reason just move out' #oh! my friend had a partner who was a terror of a roommate. as in she psychologically terrorized my friend and their roommates #once listened in on a convo that went 'i shouldnt have to warn people I'm walking into an apartment I PAY FOR just because they want a date #oh also @ my niblings sometimes situations are unwinable before you even get there. sometimes people just make up their minds about you #and you just gotta deal with the consequences of that decision. if you're in an unwinnable social situation just hit the bricks #you can't fix something that isn't functionally broken and it puts you in situations where every choice is wrong #living with people who grew up with fucked up sibling relationships created a lot of '0 good dialogue options' situations #cant leave the living room because then they asked for something and got it and that's shameful. can't sit in the living room. they want it. #again i could have been a way better roommate. for a multitude of reasons some under my control some not. but lord in heaven #but having siblings does NOT socialize you to live with other adults i hate that myth every situation I've lived in has proved it wrong #NONE OF US had any clue how to live with people who weren't our relatives #and this will happen to you. you will move out and realize the extent of your habits cause most people's parents just tolerate stuff #or your parents just got used to things that would drive other adults insane and they don't notice the things you do cause they're your kid #(or they might have even taught you those habits/level of cleanliness themselves) #one dude at the boarding house got mad about being asked to have basic responsibility for his room. so he left it covered in trash #and when they went to clean it it was covered in a fine layer of mold on almost every surface. genuine biohazard scene #got hit with 'youre the only person i don't regret letting into my house' from the woman we paid rent to when i moved out #and I'm like gee the bar is in hell 😭